#i want to be loved

[fruitfulchaos]

I keep thinking about this in relation to these lyrics to a Lingua Ignota song I've had on repeat lately:

and what am I if not the soft innards of a scared insect hiding beneath the hardened, rotting bones of its outer body

in another life i am easier to love and easier to handle

[feminised-brides]

[forced-womanhood]

[metanein]

I want to be loved, not just told 'I love you's

[v4mp1r3d0ll]

⋆. 𐙚 ˚ Isn’t it sad how wanting true love has become something so difficult to achieve and other humans laughing at us for saying we still believe in it?… ₊˚⊹ ᰔ

Sorry for being the nastiest freak out here.

[walkingc0rpsegirl]

realizing that i’m only good for lust and not love.

[maesetrova]

my grandma used to recite the saying "is it better to have loved and lost or to have never loved at all?" and every time my answer would be that i would have rather not loved at all.

she would smile then, and say "then you did not love". i didn't understand what she meant. of course i had loved. i had a broken heart, didn't i? i had the scar to prove it, the inability to eat. i had loved and wished i hadn't. i loved, i thought.

and then i met you, and i fell in love and then i lost you and now i understand because i would feel this pain over and over again just to love you for five extra minutes. i would fix my heart and hand it back to you without hesitation. "look! it's all better now! you can try again" i would tell you, i would cry it out hysterically while waving my taped heart in the air. i would love you a million times knowing i would lose you and i would not care as long as i got to do it. i have loved. i have loved so completely.

mae // what a bittersweet thing to understand.

[fatallyfaee]

‘Praise kink’ this, ‘ddlg kink’ that.

Sometimes I just want someone to actually care about me as a person. I want someone to actually listen and care about my hyper-fixations when I ramble about them. I want someone to hold me and work me through my BPD episodes, no matter how irrational or out of the blue they may seem.

I just want someone to observe certain mannerisms of mine, to notice the little things about me, to take the time to understand the things that most people overlook.

I know I’m not mentally healthy.

But does that seriously mean I’m not worthy of being loved?

[a1m05t-en0ugh]

I fell in love with someone I shouldn’t have

[lostmf]

[a-rat-in-love]

There's nothing in the world that can match the feeling of soft love.

Of being loved kindly, purely, without expectation or guilt.

The kind of love where two people heal each other simply through proximity.

Where it's enough to just hold them, and be held by them.

[feminised-brides]

[catastrxblues]

“we accept the love we think we deserve” drives me insane, drags my sanity to the moon, through hell, and to saturn and back, and alters everything inside me on a molecular level. i just can’t stop thinking about it

[crazysickgirl]

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