#dissatisfaction

[nobeerreviews]

It was a vague and diffuse sense of envy - of dissatisfaction with his life. He had no idea of its cause, still less of its cure; but discontent had come into his soul, and he had taken one small step toward humanity.

-- Arthur C. Clarke

(Rapperswil, Switzerland)

[thepursuitofunderstanding]

Are these things really better than the things I already have? Or am I just trained to be dissatisfied with what I have now?

Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club

[thefictionalgirl]

The youngest daughter

You heard about me a lot,

She mentions me all the time,

They mention me all the time,

How she had to protect me

from the problems I've never caused.

You heard about me right?

But what do you know?

The lazy and unreliable one

in every story?

That's only natural for you to believe,

Because you know I believe that too.

The one who is admired,

The one who is loved.

And the one who doesn't care,

never try to be enough.

One who's "too much"

all the damn time.

And I know you heard about me,

And I know you heard,

How I spend a lot,

Someone your blood and flesh,

gets not as much as you thought.

Mom favours her,

Dad loves her the best,

She does whatever she wants,

a luxurious nest.

You practically heard this a lot, what I'm going to tell you,

Listen to me even though you know–

They sacrificed a lot, for building her life,

She did nothing, but she's the one at the edge of a knife.

Uncivilised, uncompromising and not so nice

No matter who becomes a virtue, she's always the vice.

The oldest's anger and dissatisfaction,

maybe not always it's the case,

But whenever the question is raised,

"They love you the most, they treat you the best"

Arrogant, rebellious and the unpleasant,

She gets that alot, that's how you describe the youngest.

And for whom, parents never cared about you,

And for whom, you had to refuse the last piece of cake.

For whom, you had to give up on your room,

For whom, you'll not be praised even for how much you make.

And you try, to go back on words, to change the fate,

because of the little girl, you want to, but you cannot hate.

And I guess y'all know about these,

The cat, the mouse and the piece of cheese.

And the cat leaves and moves out,

The mouse didn't know how to cope up,

So that's why she always shouts.

But then, how about reading some things unknown ?

What happens to the girl, why doesn't she smile anymore? Why does she always frown?

Did she have to take the responsibility of always being good?

She didn't need to be compared, she didn't need to be called rude.

You were busy complimenting the comparison,

An Individual, who was never known and given a reason.

Good or bad, she never wanted them,

You all made her the antagonist here who loves to complain.

And with the tag of being spoiled one,

she became the alter ego of yours,

The princess with a large mansion

And who never endures.

Someday you leave,

Making her all alone,

She never cries,

She has now grown.

It's the best, cause you never want to see

The teenage self in her eyes again,

Where everything is immature- love, happiness or pain.

She never had the idea of how the world works, right?

She said, "no I'm fine" whenever you charged her,

But the question in her eyes didn't surrender.

Hopeful- she wanted you to try a bit more,

"She never shares, she just knows how to close the door"

You wanted to be a teacher, punish for her mistakes.

She just wanted a sister to share her aches.

Hard or soft, whatever the feelings were,

She just never trusted you again,

And why would she do it?

You became a traitor

You never took the share of her pain.

And where were you, when she was on her knees,

Praying to make it all stop?

You were not there when she got home.

You were not there when she was trying to build her rome.

She never blamed you for choosing your happiness.

But why's that different when it comes to her?

Why can't you all see

That she too has a lot of scars?

To have nothing,

It must be hard, it must be bad,

But I had you,

Then why have I always felt sad?

I cannot describe the mixed feelings,

Maybe this all happened because of us.

I love you more than my life,

I cried a lot, weren't my eyes enough obvious?

I was not a criminal, nor you were,

We could have made it better, I swear.

But you never ever tried,

And I always denied.

You left the room, you left me alone,

Now you ask me about my feelings? Why have I never shown?

Was it so easy for you to abandon everything?

I know it's not bad, but why can't I do nothing?

TELL ME TELL ME I WANT TO KNOW,

don't you know that this crappy delinquent always feels so low?

After all this time,

After screaming for so long,

You hear the depth of my voice,

What about my continuous melancholic song?

Can't you see it falling from my eyes?

Can't you see I'm tired of tossing the dice?

Constantly hoping to earn a six,

I'll pick the pieces up in order to fix.

I refuse to believe in cracks,

I will try, I'll try to give what it lacks,

But you can never give me back, the years I spent yearning in vain,

Even if you try to have a conversation with stories from the memory lane.

Distanced soul,

Unattached roles

How do you think it happened?

How do you know it's not for the best?

Because that's way she became her,

That's way of the youngest.

✒mystica

[starryoak]

This might be a controversial opinion, might not be, I never really looked too deeply into the Omori fandom, but I have to admit… honestly? I didn’t really like the central twist, that it was manslaughter, not suicide. I didn’t think it was terrible, mind you, it worked just fine with what it was trying to do, but… I found it far less interesting, personally. I thought the story the game had been telling up to that point before the twist, of the empty hole left behind when someone kills themselves, when you never knew how badly they were hurting, where a person who appeared to all the world to be perfectly happy and altogether fine was actually suicidal to be far more compelling, personally.

That, to me, it felt like, “don’t worry, you didn’t miss any signs, she was never actually suicidal! It was a tragic accident!” It felt like. Oh. Well, that’s actually far more boring to me. Sure, it gave Sunny more culpability, it created the whole aspect with Basil, but… it just sort of fell flat to me. It turned this whole interesting story of reconciliation of the image of the deceased you had with the person they were hiding from you into, don’t worry, she wasn’t hiding that! And of course, the game does still imply Mari had flaws the rest of the cast ignored, but they were still far more superficial and less permanent than suicidal ideation.

I don’t know, I kind of want to read a story about… what if it was suicide? The lack of closure, the lack of a person to blame, the lack of any resolution to the why of her death was much more compelling to me than a story where there’s a clear answer to why it happened and who caused it.

[quotelr]

If you look to money for happiness, you will be disappointed; to power, you will be disillusioned; to honor, you will be dissatisfied; to others, you will be disenchanted; but if you look to God, you will be fulfilled.

Matshona Dhliwayo

[dharmatea]

The 3 Universal Truths

Annica

Impermanence, everything changes

Dukkha

All beings suffer. In life, there’s suffering, discomfort, aversion, dissatisfaction, grief, death…

Anatta

No Self/Ego

[kittylittersmoothie]

...Somehow, not even completing a fanfic trilogy with the first work dating back to late February 2023 sparks any sensation akin to accomplishment or happiness?? Comments, kudos, and reads feel amazing in the moment of reception, but once the moment fades, I just revert to feeling the below image

[myownpersonalnotesapp]

i'm angry more and more lately at the people I should and do care about, and I don't know how to fix it

[raffaellopalandri]

Having it All: A Question of Definition and Desire

Daily writing promptWhat does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable?View all responses The question of having it all has been swirling around for decades, and like a kaleidoscope, its answer depends entirely on who’s looking through it. Image taken from Internet The phrase itself can be traced back to Helen Gurley Brown‘s 1982 book, Having It All: Love, Success, Sex, Money… Even if…

[lizloveswords]

The weight of the world        is love. Under the burden        of solitude, under the burden        of dissatisfaction

       the weight, the weight we carry        is love.

---

Allen Ginsberg, Song

[mybeautifulchristianjourney]

"We would worry less if we praised more. Thanksgiving is the enemy of discontent and dissatisfaction." - Harry Ironside

[random-xpressions]

Many of the truths have been beautifully wrapped by God in the most perplexing of paradoxes. Just like me saying that the first step towards the deepest contentment is kept in your deepest dissatisfaction. As absurd as it may sound, to be deeply dissatisfied is the primary prerequisite if ever you wish to reach the station is contentment. You see, the world in which we live today is so full of pain, so full of misery, so full of anarchy, so full of injustice, so full of inequality - the list is almost endless. Only someone really cold blooded could actually sit there nodding his head to all of that as if all of that is perfectly fine and ok with him. No, not for the one who has even an atom weight of life left in his heart. To be deeply dissatisfied with one's living conditions and with the environment in which we exist is so very important because that is the very spark that will ignite the change. Even on a personal level, you aren't happy with the exploitative terms of your work, let it burn you. You aren't happy with the manipulative nature of your partner, let it burn you. Why should one settle for a lowly way of living? Why should one continue adopting the path of suffering in silence? When life happens only once, why should one be so self-limiting? You must be deeply dissatisfied with your own circumstances because that will become the very fuel with which you'll be able to initiate that bold step of coming out of your own prison. If the chains are truly wearing you down, if it is causing much agitation, then break forth. Let the pressure build up so much that there would be no other way but to burst forth. To rebel and oppose such a confined way of living is the stepping stone towards that life which you have been aspiring for - the sort of heavenly bliss on earth that's awaiting you. So to be truly content, one has to first be utterly dissatisfied with his present excruciating circumstances - that's the point from where you must begin. Be disgusted completely and from there take your first step towards your journey of contentment. Change one thing at a time!

Random Xpressions

[k41tlyn8487]

My mum is watching Moulin Rouge and I recognised the main guy and asked were he was from

“Star wars?”

After a search on imdb turns out i know him from the Nanny McPhee sequel.

I dont think anyone has ever been more disappointed in me

[how-do-you-spell-that]

en​nui

a feeling of weariness and dissatisfaction

(French, noun)

definition via Merriam-Webster.com

[raiden-genshin]

本日は木曜日　Сьогодні четвер 本日は木曜日（文句用日）。あのセクハラ先輩や、あのパワーハラ上司に思いっ切り文句を云いましょう。 Сьогодні четвер (день нарікань).

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[alexesguerra]

How to Meditate on the Stages of the Path: A Guide to the Lamrim How to Meditate on the Stages of the Path: A Guide to the Lamrim Contributor(s): McDonald, Kathleen (Author) Publisher: Wisdom Publications ISBN: 1614298939 Physical Info: 1.11" H x 8.96" L x 6.11" W (1.37 lbs) 416 pages Buddhist tradition tells us that enlightenment is possible for each and every one of us. It's actually the best thing we can do for others and for the world, but also the best thing we can do for ourselves, because it means being free from all misery, pain, depression, dissatisfaction, and negative emotions, and abiding forever in peace, joy, love, and compassion. What could be more wonderful than that? Kathleen McDonald (Sangye Khadro), a Western nun with decades of experience and author of the bestselling book How to Meditate, guides us through the next step in our meditation practice: the transformative meditations on the Tibetan lamrim stages to enlightenment. She helps us see that the whole purpose of meditation is to transform our mind in a constructive way. For this to happen, we need to become so thoroughly familiar with the lamrim topics that they become our natural way of thinking and living our life. This warm and encouraging guide takes us through meditations on these lamrim topics, such as: - impermanence - refuge - karma - the four noble truths - bodhichitta - the six perfections: giving, ethics, patience, joyous effort, concentration, and wisdom How to Meditate on Lamrim offers practical advice, support, and step-by-step guidance on how to meditate on the stages of the path to enlightenment that will transform the practice of new meditators and seasoned practitioners alike"-- Biographical Note: Originally from California, Kathleen McDonald (Sangye Khadro) began studying Buddhism with Tibetan lamas in Dharamsala, India, in 1973. She became a nun in Nepal the following year, and received full ( bhikshuni) ordination in 1988. At the request of her teachers, she began teaching in 1980, and since then has been teaching Buddhism and meditation in various countries around the world, occasionally taking time off for personal retreats. She served as resident teacher in Buddha House, Australia, for two years and in Amitabha Buddhist Centre in Singapore for eleven years. From 2008 to 2013 she followed the Masters Program at Lama Tsong Khapa Institute in Italy. Since then she served for seven years as a faculty member of the Human Spirit Psychoanalytic-Buddhist Training Program in Israel, and for a year and a half as the resident teacher at the Center for Wisdom and Compassion in Copenhagen, Denmark. She currently resides at Sravasti Abbey in Washington State, USA, and teaches online. She is the author of How to Meditate: A Practical Guide and Awakening the Kind Heart: How to Meditate on Compassion. Review Quotes: " How to Meditate on the Stages of the Path is a much-needed roadmap on how to meditate on all the main topics on the path to liberation and full awakening. Whether you are starting your exploration of Buddhism or planning to do a long retreat on the stages of the path to awakening, this is a book to keep on your meditation table: it will steer you toward actualizing your buddha potential!"--Bhiksuni Thubten Chodron, Dharma teacher, author, and abbess of Sravasti Abbey Review Quotes: "Sangye Khadro has done it again. The translator and teacher who gave us inspiring and engaging guidance about Tibetan meditations in general in her first book, How to Meditate, now focuses her well-honed skills on showing us precisely how to meditate on the multiple topics of the stages of the path (lamrim) teachings, masterfully laying out how we each might meditate, systematically, on the stages of the path to enlightenment."--Jan Willis, PhD, author of Dreaming Me: Black, Baptist, and Buddhist and Dharma Matters: Women, Race, and Tantra Publisher Marketing: Deepen your meditation by diving into the practices of the lamrim--the stages of the path to enlightenment. Buddhist tradition tells us that enlightenment is possible for each and every one of us. It's actually the best thing we can do for others and for the world, but also the best thing we can do for ourselves, because it means being free from all misery, pain, depression, dissatisfaction, and negative emotions, and abiding forever in peace, joy, love, and compassion. What could be more wonderful than that? Kathleen McDonald (Sangye Khadro), a Western nun with decades of experience and author of the bestselling book How to Meditate, guides us through the next step in our meditation practice: the transformative meditations on the Tibetan lamrim stages to enlightenment. She helps us see that the whole purpose of meditation is to transform our mind in a constructive way. For this to happen, we need to become so thoroughly familiar with the lamrim topics that they become our natural way of thinking and living our life. This warm and encouraging guide takes us through meditations on these lamrim topics, such as: - impermanence - refuge - karma - the four noble truths - bodhichitta - the six perfections: giving, ethics, patience, joyous effort, concentration, and wisdom How to Meditate on the Stages of the Path offers practical advice, support, and step-by-step guidance on how to meditate on the stages of the path to enlightenment that will transform the practice of new meditators and seasoned practitioners alike. Contributor Bio:McDonald, Kathleen Originally from California, Kathleen McDonald (Sangye Khadro) began studying Buddhism with Tibetan lamas in Dharamsala, India, in 1973. She became a nun in Nepal the following year, and received full ( bhikshuni) ordination in 1988. At the request of her teachers, she began teaching in 1980, and since then has been teaching Buddhism and meditation in various countries around the world, occasionally taking time off for personal retreats. She served as resident teacher in Buddha House, Australia, for two years and in Amitabha Buddhist Centre in Singapore for eleven years. From 2008 to 2013 she followed the Masters Program at Lama Tsong Khapa Institute in Italy. Since then she served for seven years as a faculty member of the Human Spirit Psychoanalytic-Buddhist Training Program in Israel, and for a year and a half as the resident teacher at the Center for Wisdom and Compassion in Copenhagen, Denmark. She currently resides at Sravasti Abbey in Washington State, USA, and teaches online. She is the author of How to Meditate: A Practical Guide and Awakening the Kind Heart: How to Meditate on Compassion.