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midnightmystical · 1 year ago

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Me: Well I guess I'll try to communicate with people at work more

*exceptionally bad day happens*

*Selective Mutism appears*

Me: Oh..........

#this has been me the past 2 work days #a manager tried to get me to clean a body fluid biohazard on thursday& I flat out said no #I said that even if I'm okay with it(it was 🤮 and I have emetophobia so.......)I'm not doing it since it's literally a rule #A rule that managers have to handle body fluids #Given it was the only time ever I've seen no direct managers on shift #It was a grocery manager& bakery manager that day upfront #AND LITERALLY THAT DAY BEFORE ONE OF THE ACS MANAGERS& THE PRODUCE/FLORAL MANAGER CLEANED UP DOG 💩#I don't have the best judgment of telling how people think of me but it seems like the acs manager& as manager were pissy towards me?!??!?!#Yesterday when I was there #Tbh it could have been the extreme uptick of customers #order sizes& Karen's yesterday but still #my audhd or bad anxiety or depression or avpd said BBBBBRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR #so yeah I legit can't talk to most people rn unless I feel like I'll get in major trouble #autism #inattentive adhd #audhd #avpd #anxiety #depression #mental illness #selective mutism #mute #mutism #situational mutism

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triglycercule · 21 days ago

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hhhhidea...,,,, CUTE idea (kinda?) dust reading to phantom papyrus during night to lull him to sleep,,,, but really its just a way for him to pretend that everythings not really that shit (as if phantom paps isn't just dust's denial incarnate) and to help him NOT wake up because of a nightmare again or something

(and just because i can't resist now im imagining this with mtt. not that dust stopped reading to paps in place of killer and horror (because he wouldnt he simply wouldn't) but now the two join them for storytime. horror knocks out pretty damn fast and eventually dust falls asleep too after he makes sure that paps is satisfied with the amount he read and then killer's just left to sit there. maybe he tries to fall asleep maybe he doesn't,,,, maybe he picks up the book and continues reading but EITHERWAY,,,,,, this scene in my head so 💥💥💥😇😇😇)

#sweet soft mtt taking OVER triglycercule's brain has been invaded with them.........#horror probably sleeps like a rock man. dust is a very very very light sleeper. killer doesn't sleep at all and when he does #its just like that half asleep state. better than nothing tho....... those weeks of not sleeping probably leads to the most delicious naps #now in an ideal world killer learns to get a proper sleep schedule even if he can't feel his exhaustion #however in MY mtt dominated world killer doesn't fix his sleep habits and instead just takes a shitton of naps everywhere #they killerfied the house (made everything softer to sleep on) and killer always has 2 walking pillows to sleep on #sure he might not get 8 hours of sleep like during night. but he got that over the day so its ok TRUSY #this surely wont have any bad side effects but whatever its the mtt since when do they care about PROPER habits. if it works it works #ik i aaaaalways say hrkl wouldn't like phantom paps and find it weird but also now im considering #like. them being jealous of dust for always having kinda papyrus with him #like damn..... horror fucked up his brother permanently. he will never get the old paps back #and killer doesnt want to see his papyrus again because then he thinks hell just ruin everything again #but dust gets to talk and laugh and joke with his paps all the time!!! he got it better than them and thats just cus he hallucinates!!!! wt #i mean phantom paps isnt a 1:1 version of papyrus but hes close enough in my eyes #another idea....... horror (and maybe killer if he warms up to it) hanging out with dust JUST to talk to phantom paps #dust could easily just lie about what phantom paps says (although unless he had a reason he wouldnt risk upsetting paps like that methinks)#but theres something there. something something toxic mttpoly dynamic or whatever idc man. im in the mood for FLUFF!!!!!!!!!!#i think it would be funny if phantom paps says dusts deepest thoughts about hrkl. and then if he wants to say it dust has to filter it a LO #they could be sitting near killer and phantom paps would provide a detailed description of why killer has the mannerisms of a cat #and then dust would (hesitantly) agree to everything paps said (he was thinking it too) but when killer looks back at him #(he's been staring at killer for the past 10 minutes to see if what paps said was right) dust just says like. you remind me of a cat #OR BETTER YET he doesn't wanna admit that he thought of that so he just says paps says you remind him of a cat #insert horror version of this moment here. and killer quickly realizes that dust's just using papyrus as an excuse for why he says stuff #like that sometimes. horror just thinks dust's a weirdo freak (but unlike killer he takes the little observations to heart. loser)#killer sans #horror sans #dust sans #murder time trio #utmv #tricule hc

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imminent-danger-came · 4 months ago

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do you think the writers are being too slow revealing what happened with wukong and macaque? like should the full story been revealed in s4

That's very subjective!

For me personally, I'm totally fine with how it's played out. We get enough tidbits every season/developments with their dynamic that I'm pretty content. I also just think that when the time comes, how they choose to reveal that information to us (and especially to MK) will have optimal impact!

Idk, I just think it's going to work out you know

#but maybe it's not pacing that works for you and that's fine #the experience of pacing is subjective by nature #alright *puts on conspiracy cap*#to me it seems like they're wanting to throw another wrench into MK and Wukong's relationship next season #s4 was so heavily focused on Wukong's flawed past and there was a lot of buildup about his and mac's relationship in the s4 special #and then s5 had a lot of weird hints/info #specially with the stone/nine or whatever #and that weird wukong nuwa framing in 5x08 #And 5x01 kinda lampshading Wukong knowing about MK + his reincarnated friends #Like feels weird don't it #(WHICH. He could totally have not known about MK. But I still wanna learn more about why he wanted a student in the first place)#There are so many directions next season could go #But the direction I hope for most is really continuing 5x04 stuff #Like idk I personally feel like we didn't fully unpack Monkey MK. In certain aspects anyhow #And it's like omg 2 seasons later and we finally resolved the to pain scene!!!#But we haven't really resolved like. ''Hurting the people who care about you the most'' aspect of it. The 3x10 and 4x08 parallel #So like the hurting each other angle. The nature of 5x04's resolution is that you have to work at it every day *twirls hair*#Kinda like how at the end of the s4 special ''leaving things a little better than you found it'' hadn't resolved everything being to pain #So now ''even if it all leads to pain that pain is ours!'' hasn't resolved how you hurt the people you love #And with MK using the crown on Wukong #And now that Mac V SWK backstory seems close at hand #Seems all very set up for that theme you know #I'm a believer #this has been imp's tag rant #lmk #lego monkie kid #shadowpeach #asks #anon #lmk theme: hurt

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icewindandboringhorror · 11 months ago

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Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below)#My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm..#pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread...#I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever.#And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

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t-mbourine · 6 days ago

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me: ahaha maybe when I finish this pair of socks, I'll be able to keep transcribing my silly little novel project,,,,, or work on my fic,,,, honestly whichever haha

my sister, about to ask me to make the most tedious and repetitive pattern ever for her: s͓̊i͓̊s͓̊t͓̊e͓̊r͓̊ m͓̊i͓̊n͓̊e͓̊ I͓̊ ẘ͓å͓n͓̊t͓̊ S͓̊p͓̊i͓̊r͓̊å͓l͓̊ S͓̊h͓̊å͓ẘ͓l͓̊

#//txt #knitting #i have been working on it for just around five days. ive got more than 350 something stitches on the needles. and counting. hell #casting on and the first dozen or so rows were interesting. but. but the past like 4 days has just been a 2 row repeat. ad nauseam.#i am so tired #im not even halfway done with the yarn yet #free me. free me.#this is all /lh #but Still.

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puhpandas · 1 month ago

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as someone who isnt super excited for sotm for certain reasons I am really glad that like. it's clear that since ruin theyve been setting up for carnival and sotm IS carnival. so now that carnival is finally coming out, afterwards theyll be moving on to other plotlines since the main villain stuff is sorted out

I'm just rlly happy to finally see a clear direction for how the story is gonna be playing out with like "okay these games were leading up to this so after this will be open possibilites" instead of like. absolutely no info about each upcoming game and being left guessing before it releases and just having to wait and see what's in it and if anything you're looking forward to will be in it

it feels like they have a plan and a solid direction for what they're trying to do and after carnival releases thatll be all that buildup coming to fruition. & we already know from the Scott interview that theres another release 'beyond sotm' that's 'super exciting' so maybe thatll be focusing on another big currently untouched (which is basically all of them) plotline, or even the big campaign game that dawko has been calling security breach 2

#even if i dislike how theyve been handling this whole mimic cassies dad factory mapbot bonnie bully stuff #the past like 2 releases 3 after sotm #after watching johns theory video it really does feel like stuff was more purposeful with thought put into it when u plug in cassies dad #even if the plot of him being behind mxes and trapping mimic is pushing other more important characters aside #its probably what happened and accepting that makes the story at least seem more thought out #it did make me feel better about it bc like. it at least feels like theyre cooking #like what theyre working on DOES have a direction and a plan and it isnt just random stuff like how it felt when hw2 came out #i might still think that the stuff theyve been doing the past few releases is boring af and uninteresting #compared to earlier concepts like focusing on vanny and the possession aspects and sentient glamrocks #(we could see more of it with freddy if theyd let him come back ever)#but like. at least it has thought put into it and feels like theyre actually trying to set shit up for something #like sotm is an ORIGIN #the tagline was 'sometimes you have to understand the past to see the future'#at the end of the day sotm is a setup for a campaign thatll take place in present day anf #even if its taking ten thousand years to get there im excited for it #aka its taken a long time to tell this story setup of cassies dad and mimic and shit and it might be boring for some people #(me)#but at the end of the day its meant to be setup explaining the past of why mimic exists (even if that's already in tbe books)#so after we 'understand' it we can get back to present day #and focus on its current victims vanessa gregory cassie etc #cassies dad is 100% dead if hw2s protag is him so he woukdnt be relevant anymore. just another character thing to serve cassie #im just saying like after sotm its wide open for getting back to the plot #and i think its actually right to say that bc like all of this has been setup. if hw2 protag is cassies dad its a prequel to ruin #so rn ruin is the most recent game in the timeline. meaning the next game that takes place in current tjme will focus on the current mains #Gregory cassie vanessa #sorry for fnaf plot posting again ive been thinking about it a lot the past few days #thought id balance some negative ive posted with a positive since im feeling better about it myself :)#one day we're gonna be so back and its gonna be great #its just gonna be a long annoying wait lmao #thoughts

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nanaten · 3 months ago

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if i was to post a very edgy enemies AND lovers clausten au what would you do?? hypothetically

#i just wanted to make ninten a twisted little weirdo this has gone out of control!!!!!!#theyre rotting my BRAIN #ninten calls claus ‘the pigs pet dog’ because he works directly under porky #aww ninten what a cute pet name ❤️#he hates him #but its ok cause claus hates him back #i cannot stop thinking about this au i’ve been doodling it for the past 2 days #help me

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goldensunset · 1 year ago

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surprise art attack!!! here’s @deityofhearts ‘s cashmere, everyone’s favorite whimsical tiefling

#pose taken directly from the kikuomiku4 album cover bc i’ve been listening to UFO on repeat for idk how many days now #finally gave me the inspiration i needed to do something like this it’s like both sad and super whimsical #actually tbh it gives me more wishful vibes now that i think about it but 1. idk what wishful looks like and 2. cashmere design my beloved #kikuo just in general has a lot of whimsysad and/or fundark which is why i love him #tbh ufo has quickly shot up to one of my fave songs it’s the iconic accordion and the tempo being unstable in places #uh anyway ignore me being a kikuo nerd again #wahhh this was fun to work on it has consumed me these past three days #jumping up and down hehehehehe #glad i finally cut to the ‘it’s done *collapses*’ stage of the arting process bc i’ve been having trouble finishing pieces lately #man i WISH i could come up with poses this good on my own. idc i’m still proud of this #my art #ok yeah i just got the time total. 12 hours #i knew it would be a long time but i didn’t think that long #tbh a lot of that was spent inefficiently bc i kept having to resize the image up when i realized the pixels were too crunchy #and when you make an image bigger the lines get blurry so then you have to redo them. yeah i had to do that TWICE. like a dummy.#12 hours used to be like par for the course for me but i’ve finally gotten faster. or maybe i’ve just stopped doing as many full figures #lol

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purpurussy · 4 months ago

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#tw suicide #idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT #i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone #and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess #but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm #but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing #hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse #to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house #and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like #to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age #but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me #also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently #tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me #i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship #but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation #i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself #and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons #most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks #idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear #this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly #sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point #and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have #the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona #so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem #anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope

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livvyofthelake · 3 months ago

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saw a tiktok that was like. Daily Affirmations: my work crush doesn’t like me. and now i’m like wow i wish i could send this directly to all of my new high schooler coworkers. who are all really annoyingly obsessed with our one male manager because he’s The Chill Manager. you may have seen me refer to this man before (it’s different when EYE love him because we are the same age. the high schoolers being obsessed with him is weird as hell and he DOES need to stop encouraging this) back in winterspring i was doing a lot of opening shifts with him and i was joking that we had the king and lionheart dynamic. which was real at the time but not so much the vibe now just because like. the vibe has shifted idk i work different shifts there’s different other managers i’m technically promoted there’s all these new people i don’t care about. the vibe is different. anyway. don’t care for these high schoolers and their obsession with him. especially because they’re like actual assholes sometimes to my friend managers… (they used to just work here and then two managers left and they got promoted) (i also technically got promoted at the same time but they rank above me and do more shit that i don’t want to do so like. obviously i’m not bitter or jealous about it. like if i had to manage a bunch of teenagers that didn’t respect me i might cry every single day) (which is happening to one of them fr. they’re literally such assholes to her sometimes it’s crazy like she’s not even as mean to you people as she should be…) not to side with like. The Man or whatever but unfortunately i’m not a teenager with a part time job i go to when i don’t have soccer practice so i cannot relate to the proletariat in this situation… like i knowww they’re seeing my girl as Bitch Manager and it’s making me hate them soooo bad. like you idiots can’t even fold jeans correctly!! i hate you!!!!

#literally the past three nights i’ve been working overnight with just the 2 friend managers and we’ve been having major bitch sessions #about these high schoolers…. sorry if this makes us bitches!!#maybe if more than 4 of them were literally any good at all at any part of their job we’d hate them less idk…..#like. if they sucked less it would mean i’d have to do less work. like girls work with me here im sick of covering your asses…..#can’t even put things back where they’re supposed to go correctly…#like why am i finding clearly marked clearance jeans mixed in the stack of full price ones…. stop pissing me offfffff omg #sorry again. but the next idiot teenager who asks me where something goes and i look at it and it’s clearly marked as clearance is going to #make me lose my mind for real. yes i do need a different job i know that im aware of this #the problem THERE is that all jobs look awful to me <3 #and there’s genuinely nothing on earth i care enough about to make it a career!#i genuinely need to become a trophy wife and stay at home mom. like there’s no careers for me i fear #i don’t mean that in a ‘submitting to the patriarchy’ way i mean it in a ‘the only thing i’ve consistently known i want in my future for my #entire life has been kids’ way #anyway. having a job where you’re the fifth most in charge person there and third on an average day. makes you evil fr

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bmpmp3 · 1 day ago

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post ankle-twisting clarity

#i slipped in the mudddddd the other day LOL i twisted my one ankle and scraped up my other knee #so the past few days ive just been kind of needing to waddle around.....#LUCKILY its healing well and fast <3 but yknow i was like #so stressed out over shit that doesnt matter in school. and like this is an awful unintentional habit i have but i will get like #overly stressed over shit and then i'll start getting SUPER careless with everything. and then i'll injure myself foolishly and Calm Down #happened last year with my foolish midnight woodcarving incident LOL its always november....#BUT yeah luckily this years foolish injury is a quick one at least!!#but yeah like genuinely i was so stressed out about all my fine arts major shit. teachers have been really getting on my case recently #my main professor said that it was a good thing people get so riled up with my work because it means its impactful #tbh i didnt believe her at all i thought she was just trying to placate me but then i listened closely to the things faculty say when #they look at my fucking. cartoon wolf drawing or something and i think. she might be right actually. people keep getting frustrated with me #because i think they see a lot of potential in me but i basically only have to drive to draw cartoon wolves etc HFKJSDHJVKRFEds #which is great for my ego. maybe too good for my ego. that my mark making and colour use etc is so evocative to these industry and #instutition people. but on the other hand i was told like thrice now that my work has no place in a gallery. which is fine although im not #totally sure how true that is. but also afterwards one time i was suggested to go into animation instead which is. um.#so its not out of nowhere i mean i did want to be an animator when i was like 10 but if you know anything about the current state of the #animation industry its like genuinely wild to tell someone who you've only seen 2 dimensional watercolour and acrylic painted #sketchy lined drawings from and who has said they cant do digital art anymore that they should get an animation degree?#brother they would kill me. i would be killed. i had an inkling but it really made me notice so clearly how limited the experiences my #faculty kind of have with certain industries. which is fine. or maybe not. for a professor LOL but yknow. but i was like huh. i guess i can #just kind of chill lol if i just keep doing things maybe something will come of it. i may not get as much help in my artistic development #rn as i would like. but its chill i think i'll figure it out if i just keep doing stuff <3 #doesnt really matter that my teachers dont know what to do with me. my kneeeee has a booboo so i am CHILLING out :)

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kuromi-hoemie · 3 days ago

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hhhh talking about my writing was fun but 30 tags is not enough.. yes i have 3 major influences but i have minor ones too.. it is a lovechild of my favorite things.. writing is so fun and i have no self control or a concept of pacing myself i will sit there for 16 hours and get hit with every status effect but by god does it all just flow out of me. I've always been a music person yes but i also used to write a lot into early adulthood until The Incident™

but i am ready 2 jump back into it. i think comics are a great middle ground between the two mediums so i don't get As into writing bc i kind of started going crazy last time 🫡 i can take a more structured approach to it that forces me to pace myself and think about it differently. i love art.... i love making things i love knowing how to do things i love knowing how to play things i love having so many creative outlets, even if i don't do a lot of them regularly lol. it is enriching 😳 and nice to know that it's always there to come back to when u want.