#the tools they need to succeed

[heireign]

@worthyheir : does your muse value their legacy ? what have they done to ensure it ? ( ZODIAC HEADCANONS )

see, that's a difficult question because the answer is both absolutely and not in the way you'd think - like she wants to be remembered well, she wants to have been considered a good queen, and a good person to have so many people hedging their bets on her ascension and throwing their support behind her - she wants to make that worth it. though she can not really do as much during her own reign as queen that she may well want to, and she does want to, but she can shift the general perspective and feeling toward absolute primogeniture into an air of potential acceptance that can be implemented during the reign of her son. she does not have any illusions that she can push so far down the path of progression its a law she can pass herself. but she can set them on that path by ruling, and ruling well, and giving the realm a prolonged period of stability and prosperity under a female ruler - and that way, jacaerys can pass that law that makes absolute primogeniture set in stone in westeros. she is under no illusion that her legacy is going to be one of such monumental change, because she was always aware that she was by and large considered the exception by even the lords and ladies who supported her as queen, she was hoping that her reign and she herself would embody a new precedent being set. she was hoping that her ascension would crack open the door a little bit so that if jace named his daughter as his heir, it would be a lot less difficult to do and there would be a lot less push back to the potential ascension of her granddaughter then what she herself faced as heir to the throne.

she cannot say any of this out loud, of course. she cannot verbalize what her intentions are for the realm as queen in that sense because that would imply that she was going to muddy the waters a bit too much. she was going to do something that would endanger the powers of the lords of the realm who had elder sisters who could potentially rival their own claims and take that power from them - because it would be theirs by right. she has to play very much on the straight and narrow when it comes to her political career so she can advance in a way that plainly, does not make her more trouble then what she's worth. but it is an end goal that she has shared with her son, it's an end goal that she has talked with at length with her boys. she's engrained at least in her eldest two sons the importance of the subtleties of manuevering politics and the art of moving and advancing in a place where one wrong move can have the whole palace whispering behind your back and plotting your downfall. she's engrained in them the virtues that she herself prioritizes and holds the most dear like the importance of honor, and duty, and loyalty and adhering to oaths and promises that one makes. she's brought them up with a prioritization for family, and familial loyalties as opposed to personal ambition and brought them with the understanding that jacaerys is gonna be king, and baela is gonna be his queen, and they're all gonna have places in his court.

her own legacy in her eyes pales in comparison to what her children embody in that sense. she wants to be remembered as a good, stable choice for queen that only brought betterment to the realm and gave them a king that brought real, lasting change for them. she does not care if she's remembered less then they are, she doesn't care if she is remembered at all, in truth. even if the memory of her fades between one generation and the next, as long as she did do good in the long run she doesn't care if her memory lasts in the hearts of people who did not know her. she wants her children and her grandchildren to be left with a memory of her that they're proud to claim. but she wants them to be remembered, she wants them to be great, and she wants them to be remembered as well as the conqueror or king jaehaerys was remembered. she wants them to have a lasting impression in this world - and she has taught them how to handle the weight of it. because she does have such a genuine belief in their potential, she believes that they can be great in a way that she can't inevitably because of how stymied her political career is by her gender. and how little she can truly do because of it, and like, they embody so much of her hope, they are her hope - her own, and her hope for the realm at large. they are her legacy, and they are what she hopes is remembered that she did. above all that she's done, she hopes that they are what she's remembered for.

[transcarcinization]

i understand there are serious issues with access to academia and there are major issues WITHIN academia wrt elitism/classism/etc, however some of you seem to take those issues as a full pass to completely disregard any benefits or usage of academia at all. like at a certain point it just starts to look like anti-intellectualism

[aevarswall]

Christians who see scientific consensus and actually try to make it fit in their biblical worldview instead of decrying all science as satanic my beloved

[akathecupcakes]

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[bubblegumgothglados]

How to actually train a submissive, a how to guide

+Thoughts on the pervasive misinformation surrounding punishments and their usefulness.

Step 1. Make sure your submissive actually want to be trained. I'm into dom breaking, I'm into kidnapping, I'm into all types of situations where you forcibly change a person into the perfect submissive. But that's all fantasy, and they're fun fantasies to play out with willing participants. (Yeah i know this is pretty obvious stuff, everyone should know this already, but it is an important first step and it cant hurt to repeat)

Step 2. Pick a goal. The perfect example is getting them to take their pills at the same time each day. Its something they already want to do, its something that will benefit them greatly, its something that's very obviously pass/ fail, and its simple. Those are the criteria for a good behaviour to modify (with "want to do" flipped to "don't want to do" if its a behaviour you're trying to stop). The fewer of those things are true the more difficult its going to be to get the desired result, not impossible mind you but more difficult. As you and your submissive gain experience and become more comfortable with this process you can begin to modify more complex behaviours, but keep it simple to start.

Step 3. DO reward success, DO NOT punish failure. I'm gonna let myself rant about this at the end of this guide but for the moment just believe me when i say punishments are not a useful tool in training. So reward them every time the succeed. The best rewards are small things that stimulate the pleasure centre of their brain. Praise is a great place to start, stickers, snacks, tiny animal erasers, maybe shiny treasures if they have corvid like proclivities. Whatever it is make sure you give it to them personally, make sure you show you're genuinely happy with them, and make sure its something they cant get or aren't allowed to have otherwise. If the do fail (and they will sometimes) don't reward them, don't punish them, and don't let them punish themself. They want to be good for you, they will take failure hard. You need to make sure they know failure isn't a bad thing, everyone fails sometimes especially when starting to learn something. You need to reassure them that you're not angry or sad or upset and especially not disappointed.

Step 4. Be consistent. Reward them every time until they have a perfect record for a significant period of time. The specifics of this depend too much on the specifics of the behaviour and the reward so i wont try to give guidelines. Once they have that perfect track record start reducing the frequency of the rewards, stress to them that this isn't a punishment this is a really good thing. It means the training is working and they should be proud of themself and you are proud of them. Once you've weaned them off of the reward all together give them a big reward as a congratulations. And then sporadically reward them as a reminder that you're proud of them and to keep the habit strong. If the behaviour begins to drift you might need to go back and start rewarding them again, this shouldn't be seen as failure, its a normal part of training.

Step 5. Start again. Do they still want to be trained or are they happy with where they are? Is there another behaviour you want to modify? Is it time to try a more difficult modification? Do you need to switch up the reward to keep them motivated? Do you have the bandwidth to be consistent?

A note on brats. Specifically type 3 brats as described in THIS post. None of my advice changes. They still want to be good for you they just also want to play a fun game with you. Enjoy the fun game and train them to improve their lives. Just, don't try to train them out of being a brat, they're enjoying their game don't take away something that they enjoy, if you don't want a brat don't get with a brat.

Finally here is the as promised rant about punishment.

To the submissive reading this. You don't deserve to be punished, you never deserved to be punished. Even if you were a "problem" child you didn't deserve to be hurt for it. You still don't deserve to be hurt in ways you don't want to be. To the dominant reading this, yes you can rule through fear it is possible, but gods why?! If your ultimate goal isn't for your sub to be as happy and self fulfilled as possible, whatever that looks like for them, then what the fuck are you doing. And aside from that punishment isn't even an effective method of training. A dog kicked whenever it barks will learn to fear you and wont bark around you. A child spanked whenever you feel they've done something wrong will learn to resent you and will hide everything from you. An adult punished for stealing will learn to steal more effectively. Your submissive is no different from any of those examples. Kill the cop in your head, stop thinking of punishment as a legitimate means of control.

[zincbot]

feeling like a gamer

[zynwarrior]

How to NOT binge:

(From someone whose 2 months binge free)

Info for restricting:

If you’re prone to binging after fasts. Then don’t fast.

You’d rather set a cal limit for yourself at either 700-900 for high res and 1000-1200 for low res.

By binging after fasts you undo all the work you put in and it makes you feel worse than eating in restriction.

Another point I’d like to make is that it is MUCH better to maintain than gain.

Fasting may show you faster results but there’s no point if you know you’re the type to binge and undo all that progress.

Low cal foods for restriction (that actually taste good):

Tuna

Chicken breasts *seasoning allowed, no sauce, unnecessary calories.

Whole grain pasta

Air fried sweet potatoes (my favorite)

Dark chocolate (for those of you with a sweet tooth like me)

FRUITS (blueberries, peaches, strawberries, kiwi are the best)

Zero cal drinks (flavoured water, sodas, energy drinks- I recommend something fizzy to bloat you because yes it will make you a bit queesy but it’s better than being hungry and regretting eating. I know feeling bloated feels disgusting but keep in mind that it’s extremely low cal and there is no way you are going to gain)

Use stevia or low cal sweeteners

Nutmilk over regular milk.

If you don’t have access to an air fryer, use coconut oil instead of olive or sunflower oil. Extremely low cal and food tastes exactly the same with lots more of health benefits.

Info for fasting;

Zero cal drinks, water, gum, zyns/nic pouches- they’re your new best friend.

No more than 24- 48hours if you end up binging after long fasts (48+ hours). Remember you are still not eating for a whole day, it is perfectly fine to be hungry. What’s important is that you control it. You’d rather eat low cal than binge on something like fast food.

Don’t do hectic workouts. You need energy to complete day to day activities and if you spend what little energy you have on working out your body will crave something to feed off of. Go on a long walk instead or use a treadmill.

Do calming yoga or Pilates. I recommend finding those on YouTube for beginners as it’s much less intense but still keeps you moving.

General tips for restriction:

Chew food slowly

If you overeat and want to purge do not brush your teeth after, it is far too harsh. Use mouthwash or mints. Wait 30 mins to brush again.

Count every cal. Keep a memo or notepad and write down exactly what you’ve eaten

Do not eat fast foods or processed unhealthy snacks just because they fit into your limit. Ultra-processed foods are made to keep you wanting more. You know that feeling when you just can’t put that packet of chips down? That’s the oil and salt which has been perfectly designed to keep you wanting it.

Keep busy. The busier you are the less time you have to eat MORE. Pick up a new hobby, deep clean, learn a new language or simply sleep it off.

General tips for fasting :

Whoever said don’t plan your meals is wrong. You need structure if you want to succeed. You cannot leave anything up to chance as if you don’t know what to eat, you eat everything.

When breaking a fast, the most important things are protein and fibre. Have 60/40 ratio of protein and fibre. 60% protein 40% fibre. It’s important to eat protein after a fast to regain strength and to maintain your hair and nails. Fibre to give you essential vitamins and help bowel movements.

As I said in my previous posts. DRINK YOUR WATER. In my experience drinking a DEATHLY amount of water makes me not even crave food.

Smoking or vaping (just don’t start if you don’t already but use your nic addiction as a tool/ not promoting)

That’s it! Hope you enjoyed and found this helpful<3

[cavegirlpoems]

So many TTRPG people, like yourself, seem to exist in a world where players don't actually enjoy the campaigns they're in, and don't actually like playing with the people they play with, and your whole approach to game mechanics seems like it's about trying to bribe these people to continue playing at a given table.

i have no idea where you get this idea from, I play a bunch of different games - including freeform text rp, fest larps, parlour larps, regular tabletop campaigns, longform play-by-post games and narrative wargames - and I have a lot of fun doing it. I wouldn't be a game designer if I didn't actually enjoy games. The thing is, if you study game design and ttrpg theory seriously, you think about the intent behind design decisions. Game design doesn't just happen by accident, the designer put a given rule in for a reason. So, you ask yourself why the designer made the game the way it did, and what they were trying to achieve.

A significant tool for game design is considering the feedback the game provides; what behaviours that ruleset rewards and what it discourages. (You can apply this analysis to other games, too, like video games). When I'm talking about a bribe, it's in that context; how does the game reward you for doing things, and what things does it reward. (For example, 'scrabble' rewards you for playing words with weird letters in them by making those letters worth more points.)

The thing is, ultimately, every game relies on a simple proposition; that if you volunterily use its rules, you will have fun. You don't need to follow the rules, and you can have fun without them, but the idea is that using the rules will let you have more fun, or a different type of fun, than if you didn't. (For example, throwing a ball around is a bit fun, but if everybody agrees to follow the rules of basketball, you get a different experience that a lot of people prefer). So, the only bribe you're making on the interpersonal, out-out-of-game level (unless something weird is going on) is "if we play this game it will be fun". When I talk about bribes and incentives, it's *inside* the game, after we've all agreed to the game's proposition of "if you use the rules, you will have fun".

Now, what counts as an incentive varies by game. Some, like Warhammer 40k, are challenge-based, and have ways to keep score of success and victory; here, things that signify overcoming the challenge are your incentives; how you get a high score, how you win, etc. Others, like most ttrpgs, are creative-based. What constitutes an incentive within the game's structure is less precisely defined. By and large, though, these incentives tend to be things like increased agency within the game fiction, space for creative expression, and experiencing and learning about more of the game fiction. (In this structure, 'being more mechanically powerful' can be thought of as a way of granting a player more agency, because their actions are more likely to succeed and result in the outcomes that they want. If the mechanical growth is lateral as well as vertical, then how to get more powerful is - itself - a venue for creative expression in what to prioritise, which is also a reward).

In the same way that you have the adage that 'restrictions breed creativity', the same goes for Fun. Limiting your scope from anything-goes freeform by voluntarily agreeing to use a set of game rules can produce similar results. Voluntarily limiting your agency in the fiction according to a set of game rules produces a friction that players of roleplaying games find enjoyable to push against. In this context, a reward structure within a game serves the useful purpose of signposting which direction you should push to get the fun kind of friction. A game which limits your options, and then gives you more options when you engage with certain behaviours, is telling you that those are the intended behaviours. Likewise, a game that limits your options even further when you do something is encouraging you not to do that. This is because game designs are not neutral and universal, they exist to create specific experiences. A game that rewards you by giving you more space for creative expression when you get in a fight - and gives you less space for creative expression when you avoid violence - is one that wants you to engage in violence, because it's designed to be a game where you have fun by fighting. This isn't bribing the players to sit down at the table and play the game; that has already happened outside the context of the game. They have already agreed to the game's offer of 'if you use these rules, you will have fun'. Rather, this bribing is within the game-space, the games mechanics encouraging the players to engage with it as intended, in the way that will be most fun. IE: these incentive structures are a tool the game uses to achieve the promise it makes; they guide the players towards the fun that they volunteered to have. Hope that makes sense. * * * Now, your initial ask is a weird take that's entirely unrelated to anything I've posted, and - particularly from an anon account- oddly antagonistic. I don't know if you're genuinely confused about game design, or arguing in bad faith. Either way, this probably doesn't merit the small essay I've produced, but have one anyway, it's always fun to clarify my ideas in written form.

[st-just]

A great question to get at this is: Did the trial of Galileo succeed or fail? If we believe that the purpose of the Inquisition trying Galileo was to silence Galileo, it absolutely failed, it made him much, much more famous, and they knew it would.  If you want to silence Galileo in 1600 you don’t need a trial, you just hire an assassin and you kill him, this is Renaissance Italy, the Church does this all the time.  The purpose of the Galileo trial was to scare Descartes into retracting his then-about-to-be-published synthesis, which—on hearing about the trial—he took back from the publisher and revised to be much more orthodox.  Descartes and thousands of other major thinkers of the time wrote differently, spoke differently, chose different projects, and passed different ideas on to the next century because they self-censored after the Galileo trial—an event whose burden in money and manpower for the Inquisition was minute compared to how hard it would have been for them to get at all those scientists.  The final form of Descartes’ published synthesis was self-censorship—self-censorship very deliberately cultivated by an outside power.

-Ada Palmer, Tools for Thinking About Censorship

[fxirybun]

🍂 PAC: your higher self's short message for you

this is a collective reading ! take what resonates and leave what doesn't. i cannot guarantee 100% accuracy. take the pac reading lightly ჱ̒ ｰ̀֊ｰ́ )

ෆ⸒⸒ letter 💌

your higher self's message for you is that you're being encouraged to embrace the flow of life and to be adaptable in facing a transformative period. you're being told to trust your instinct and allow yourself to move with the currents rather than resisting it. this could also be a time for you to explore new opportunities , even if they seem to be unknown to you. sometimes you tend to move in all sorts of directions , trying to handle everything at once. your higher self is advising you to take things slow and do it at your own pace. try to accomplish it one step at a time to see its progress. by trusting your intuition , you can handle the difficult challenges with ease.

ෆ⸒⸒ cinnamon 🥧

your higher self is urging you to embrace your unique talents and sense of creativity more openly. some of you might be holding back the parts of yourself or is hiding behind a mask , but now is the time to step into the light and share your gifts with the public. your higher self believes that you have all the right tools that you need to succeed , yet it is up to you to bring them forward. you're being told to not be afraid to show who you truly are and trust in your abilities. you're being encourage to look for an inventive solution to challenges. remember that you have the capacity to navigate through any obstacles once you let go of your fear and insecurity.

ෆ⸒⸒ tree 🌲

your higher self is encouraging you to be gentle and compassionate towards yourself and to those people around you. this is the perfect time for you to nurture the dark aspects of yourself by going through a healing period. if you used to be someone who chooses the mind over the heart , your higher self wants you to show your vulnerable side with an open heart. you may be facing a situation that requires a forbearing approach. trust in your ability to bring a calming presence. your true strength lies in your ability to be temperate in this harsh world. take this opportunity to ground yourself in love and kindness , allowing this energy to guide your actions and decisions.

[chefkids]

Claire is the physical manifestation of Carmy’s avoidance.

Before he got locked in the fridge Carmy chose to prioritize Sydney over Claire. But at Friends & Family night he ended up picking Claire over Sydney because he was being pressured by Richie and his avoidance kicked in again. This resurfaced his NYC Chef trauma, because Claire was a distraction to getting Sydney her star and the general success of The Bear. Then he tried to over compensate by turning into NYC chef all of a sudden and freaking out at Sydney. Because he wants to get Sydney a star but he’s also terrified of failing and having the NYC Chef “win” and wants to succeed out of spite for how he made him feel.

He left Sydney at Kasama to be with Claire because it was the easier choice for him than to put himself out there and be vulnerable with Sydney. Then he left her to go to that party with Claire and ended up having the Fishes Christmas panic attack. He left Sydney to cook for Claire, then ended up with the alleyway panic attack about Claire and Fishes. He left Syd at service for Claire and ended up with the NYC Chef panic attack then locked himself in the fridge and he is mainly concerned with Sydney and the staff through flashbacks. Using Claire as a distraction from Sydney always comes with a cost. And it always brings up the root cause of his avoidance which is his mother and the NYC Chef.

Carmy promised Sydney that he would not leave her alone after the fridge. And while he physically has not left her alone to be with Claire. He never mentally left Claire. 

Sydney suggested he should make a call after he got out of the fridge, and he thought she was referring to Claire instead of Richie, who is his actual 'family' and who he really hurt with his words. He apologized but in the most generic way possible and Richie knew he was just doing it to get it out of the way, which is why they're still fighting. He's still using Claire to avoid confronting his emotions for people like Richie and Sydney, who he knows he has hurt but who he really cares about. Sydney didn't give Carmy "permission" to call Claire then. He needed Sydney's push in his relationship just to call Claire his girlfriend. He thinks not talking to Claire equals prioritizing Sydney, but in turn he is still prioritizing Claire only just in his head, not physically, because he is still using Claire as an avoidance tool for his feelings for Sydney, his lack of apology for Richie, and even his lack of confrontation with his mother. 

In Season 3 we see him happy and panic free in Claire flashbacks. Because she is in a romanticized version of his past. We know he can be an unreliable narrator and see things that aren't fully there or twist things, and his flashbacks to his relationship with Claire is not the full picture. He's not thinking about all the times that being with her led to a panic attack after. He is using her to be avoidant of Sydney and what she means to him and what doing all of this for Sydney means.

He can't really answer Nat or Sydney when they ask “Why are you doing this?” because he’s still in denial about what he is really feeling for Sydney. But he can answer that he feels guilt whenever someone brings up Claire because that is easier to address.

Carmy is an avoidant. In Season 1 he oscillated between avoiding dealing with his actual grief about Mikey by just focusing on the restaurant and avoiding dealing with what was growing between him and Sydney by using the restaurant and his grief for Mikey, until it blew up in his face. He physically avoided the restaurant itself Season 2 because he needed to avoid his feelings for Sydney, but still projected his feelings for her onto Claire by doing everything Sydney enjoys with Claire until it blew up in his face with a panic attack about the two of them.

Then in Season 3 he couldn't physically avoid Sydney, so he mentally avoided her by trying to reframe his relationship with Claire as something joyful and carefree and peaceful. When we all know that the reality of it was something else. He tells the Fak's he can't apologize because it's too hard. He's avoiding apologizing to Claire for many other reasons too. Cause if he does he'll have to address the fact that Claire said she loved him, which I really don't think he loves her back like that. He'll have to face the real version of Claire and his relationship with her; which was not all sunshine and butterflies. It was filled with panic attacks and anxiety. So he'd rather live in a romanticized version of her in his head, missing her and filling his thoughts with her instead of Sydney, than face what was actually going on.

Sydney is still his muse. He slipped into thinking about Sydney that night by making a dish about her and by inviting her to go to Ever with him. He made that dish that was blatantly inspired by her standing right in front of him. He has been avoiding talking to her, and he clearly wanted to say more, but didn't know how or what to say.

Once Sydney left he started hearing the music from his time in the fridge, he threw the dish out and immediately started to spiral. He stared at the bar cart with party items for Richie's Tuesday Surprise. aka the Amusement and Enjoyment. Which is what he was trying to find with Sydney that day he had planned an inspirational food tour with her, but ended up ditching her for Claire at Kasama. And what he told himself he no longer needed in order to focus on getting Sydney a star.

He stands outside the fridge then Strange Currencies starts playing very quietly under the fridge music, "I don't know why you're mean to me When I call on the telephone." He then goes inside the fridge and "I don't know what you mean to me. And I don't know what you mean to me But I want to turn you on, turn you up, figure you out I wanna take you on" plays a little bit louder, which is basically what his deal with Sydney is right now. He doesn't know what she really means to him. He knows she calms him down and inspires him, but he doesn't ever say what that means to him out loud. Then it grows louder with "These words, "You will be mine""

Then he reached for his phone to try and call Claire. Because he's trying to drown out the song with Claire. The first time we heard it was when he first saw Claire by the fridge and once he rejected her, aka when he chose Sydney, the song got louder. Then when he wanted to take Claire to the restaurant, aka where Sydney was, after the party it played again. He knew it was for sure about Sydney from the panic attack, because with Claire it was backwards, she was his past, but with Sydney it was moving forward.

When he's debating pressing call to Claire, the fridge music overpowers Strange Currencies, because Claire is what keeps him frozen in the past and "haunted" by it. He practices saying sorry as the songs grow louder trying to drown each other out, and we see a clip of present day Claire working and Strange Currencies stops playing.

Then a flash of her in The Bear sitting on the garde manger aka cold prep, which was the same clip we saw of her when he was thinking about her when he was locked in the fridge, Strange Currencies plays again over it. He is still stuck on it even though she's moving on and living her life. Strange Currencies grows louder because he keeps trying to convince himself the song is for Claire and reverts back to the past when he thought it was for her that night he took her to see the kitchen.

Claire's I really love you voicemail plays. Then it cuts to who else but Sydney. I really love you. aka I really love *you*. Sydney. What he is actually thinking but avoiding. What stops Carmy is fearful avoidance, because Claire Sydney is so great she scares the shit out of him.

[baldudiable]

the sun & your father

in astrology, the sun sign represents the father. the energy of the sign may be positively or negatively embodied by your father. in any case, the sign in which your sun is placed provides an indication of his possible behavior and its influence on your personality. here are some of these manifestations based on each zodiac sign.

if your sun is in aries

your father likely taught you to stand up yourself. he may have anger issues, which you probably inherited. his negative emotions were often violently expressed, provoking fear in you and your loved ones. this made you realize you the need to become strong in order to defend both yourself and the people you love.

he may have imposed restrictions on you, which is why you now hate being limited in any way.

your father is likely an ambitious man who has succeeded and who has reached the top of his field. maybe it isn't the case, and he hasn't accomplished anything significant. but he usually goes after what he wants, and expects you to do the same. he most likely has always supported your endeavors and made sure you had everything you needed to succeed.

if you sun is in taurus

your father either is extremely hard-working or on the contrary, very relaxed. he either fought to give you a sense security, or threatened it; often through his irresponsible search for pleasure. he can be good at managing resources or squandering them.

if he is more serious, he likely ensures that everyone at home has everything they need to feel secure and comfortable. he may encourage you to pursue lucrative paths to live lavishly. quality is of utmost importance to him; he wants nothing but the best.

he may be very generous with his possessions or very selfish; perhaps out of fear of lacking in the future. his focus on money and security has likely made these priorities for you as well. he can remain in unpleasant situations for too long, fearing the loss of the stability he fought to achieve.

if your sun is in gemini

your father likely is very communicative and witty, making friends everywhere he goes. he enjoys being surrounded by people he loves. if not, he may prefer pursuing his interests and honing his skills.

an intellectual, he is constantly learning and sharing knowledge with others. as a jack-of-all-trades, he has always encouraged your curiosity. he probably enjoys talking too and seeks to be close to you.

however, if he is more detached, he can be standoffish and focused on other matters. his personality is multifaceted, and you never know what to expect from him. it may be hard to understand him at times, as he is so unpredictable. he might also struggle to stay grounded and fulfill with his responsibilities.

if your sun is in cancer

your father likely has turbulent emotions. he may express them openly or on the contrary, keep them locked inside. either way, you can feel the intensity he carries.

he either encouraged your sensitivity or pushed you to repress it because it made you vulnerable. he might be domestic and solitary, feeling threatened by the outside world and its demands.

alternatively, he may work a lot and spend little time at home. if that's the case, you might wish he were more present to provide emotional comfort. if he embodies cancer energy positively, he may display a more maternal side and be a good listener who tries to maintain a close relationship with you.

if your sun is in leo

your father is likely expressive and open about most things, both good and bad. he may be warm and charming but can also come across as harsh and arrogant.

he likely embodies masculine qualities such as strength, independence, and assertiveness. he probably enjoys having control over his environment and, at times, over you. this might lead you to submit to him out of fear, or he may encourage you to carve your own path.

he is creative and applauds your inventiveness, providing the tools necessary for improvement. his support has likely fostered a sense of confidence in your abilities. however, his generosity and love may sometimes feel conditional. he can be entitled to people's time, energy, or resources and may think highly of himself, struggling to accept criticism.

he might be too proud to admit to his shortcomings or to accept help from others which can lead him to remain in difficult situations for more than necessary.

if your sun is in virgo

your father is likely very hard-working. he can be so focused on his work and responsibilities that he often forgets to take care of you or himself. he can be all over the place or he can have everything under control— there is no in between.

he might struggle with anxiety, as he carries the world's burdens on his shoulders. he's self-sacrificing to a fault, feeling best when helping others. but that selflessness often leads him to neglect his own problems, which only complicates them further.

he can be controlling at times, micromanaging you and criticizing your every decision because he prefers things done his way. this can make you feel insecure and inadequate at times. he likely encourages you to have a finger in every pie; he believes it’s essential for you to be skilled in everything so you don’t have to rely on anyone.

if your sun is in libra

the way you appear to other people matters a lot to your father. he knows how to play a role and maintain appearances, often going out of his way to please people and make them feel comfortable, even at a personal cost.

he has many connections and likely taught you the importance of having a strong network of people you can rely on. he encourages you to share with others and cultivate harmonious relationships. alternatively, he may have been selfish and focused only on himself, which might have led you to act in the opposite way by prioritizing others.

your father may have required you to take on many family responsibilities, such as caring for siblings while he was away. he is charming and has a natural way with words, which has likely influenced your communication style.

if your sun is in scorpio

your father is a mystery to you. he may rarely talk about himself, leaving much of his story untold. you might have indirectly heard about the trauma he has experienced, but he avoids discussing it openly. there's a lot about him that you don’t know, and you may not feel comfortable enough to ask.

he may have suffered betrayal from people he loved, which has made him guarded and suspicious. alternatively, he could have been the one to break someone’s trust, engaging in deceitful or unfaithful behavior. his aura is intense and commanding, often shifting the energy of a room when he enters; people may become quieter or uneasy around him. your father might react strongly to minor situations, which can be scary, or he may maintain tight control over his emotions, making him appear cold and detached.

he may struggle with boundaries, wanting to know about your whereabouts or activities, friends or even invading your privacy. however, if your father isn’t withdrawn or secretive, you may share a close bond with him. you might even consider him your confidant, feeling safe to open up without fear of judgment. this closeness, though, might make it difficult to distinguish yourselves from one another.

if your sun is in sagittarius

your father likely has trouble staying still. he may frequently travel or move, collecting stories along the way. he is likely a scholar or intellectual who loves to share his knowledge with others. he may have encouraged you to excel academically, pushing you to strive for constant improvement.

he might be religious, spiritual, or deeply philosophical — a strong believer in something bigger than himself. his upbringing of you may have been one of extremes: either highly restrictive or remarkably free. either way, it has made you averse to limitations of any kind. he may speak his mind freely, believing that the truth sets you free, or struggle to express hard truths.

people often turn to him for guidance, sensing his wisdom, or he may offer it unsolicited. he might seem lost or indecisive, constantly exploring new paths to find his purpose. this restlessness could also manifest as absent-mindedness or literal absence from your life.

if your sun is in capricorn

your father may not have given you much time to enjoy childhood. he might have pushed you to become self-sufficient early on, perhaps to help support the family. he likely discouraged fun, instead valuing your seriousness and maturity.

bringing tangible results, like financial support, is his way of showing love. his absence might have forced you to take on family responsibilities, making you the leader in his stead. he likely sacrificed his own youthful innocence to focus on work, and he wants you to avoid similar hardships by building a strong foundation for yourself.

he may avoid discussing his feelings, which can make him appear cold, though you know he feels deeply. if productivity isn’t his primary focus, family certainly is. he ensures your needs are met and works hard to maintain strong emotional bonds with you.

if your sun is in aquarius

having the sun in aquarius often points to a father who struggles to show emotions or build deep connections with his children. aquarius energy, especially in family dynamics, can feel distant and unapproachable. your father may prefer relationships that require less emotional investment, focusing instead on his work, social groups, or societal issues.

he is more logical than emotional when making decisions and may have encouraged your intelligence and sociability as a child. this likely shaped your focus on friendships and self-reliance rather than seeking emotional support from him.

if your father isn’t the detached and rational type, he might treat you as an equal or a friend. he likely takes an active interest in your experiences and supports your choices, especially if they align with his value of personal freedom. he is probably unconventional in some way, and this uniqueness is something he admires and encourages in you.

if your sun is in pisces

your father may struggle to see you for who you truly are. he is often too preoccupied with other matters to connect with you on a deeper level, leaving you feeling invisible or unloved in his presence. he may have been absent during your early years and might continue to be so.

while he is undoubtedly sensitive, he may not know how to express it effectively. he could have tried to shape you into his ideal vision, becoming frustrated when you asserted your independence. this challenging dynamic might have pushed you to distance yourself from him, seeking relationships where you feel more valued and understood.

alternatively, if your father embodies pisces energy positively, he might be your confidant, someone you can trust with your secrets. he may encourage you to pursue your wildest dreams and offer unwavering support. even so, he may find it difficult to trust your decisions entirely, often giving unsolicited advice or attempting to micromanage you.

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Your Future Spouse could want to tell you they may feel tired, very exhausted in their daily life. They could not like their current life, how they are, mostly without you. They may have a big admiration for you, think you are doing better than them. They may see you as perfect compared to them, they may think they suck and you are perfect. They may indeed glorify you. But they want to say they want to hold on to the love they have for you, they want to get better to improve for you. They may think right now it's complicated for them, they want you but they think right now is not the best time because they aren't "perfect" for you. Future Spouse could have a desire indeed to start things over, in their life in general, be more responsible and honest too. They want to start something deep with you. The love they have for you is indeed very deep. They want you to know what they feel for you is very strong, it's so intense it's almost hard to describe to be honest. They love you a lot, very much for sure. They want to pass on a new era in their life when they are more powerful, confident and successful, they think they can do it. There may be a project they desire to succeed in, and they hope it a work out well in the future. They also want to know more about you, they wanna know how you are doing. They hope you and them can meet soon, that you are both on the right path to each other. They want you to know that even if it seems forever right now, one day you'll be together and there will be a happy ending.

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Future Spouse can want to tell you they are dealing with a fake person in their life right now. It can be a fake friend or someone they were romantically involved, with, but they want to tell you that the figured things out, they miss you, they want to see you. They feel unhappy in their life without you, their heart is empty. They can feel like life isn't easy right now, they want to hold one but it's hard. They may struggle to find ambition and will. They want you back, so perhaps you used to connect to them or you know them already. If not, they need you right now, a lot. They need to feel you in any cases, this person misses you a lot, like truly. Future Spouse wants to succeed in life, but they feel alone. They hold so much love and desire to pursue you right now. They are ready to fight until the end of the world for you. They will not give up. They want to talk to you. It really feels like some of you already know and connected already to tour FS. They want to talk with you, have a communication with you. Yet they may not know where to start, they may want to let it to destiny or a higher force to decide. They struggle a lot to be honest. If you know how to connect whir your FS, in 3D or 5D, please do so.

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Future Spouse could want to express they may have been exploring other options before, romantically speaking. But they feel nothing like you, it doesn't feel like they are happy right now romantically. They may also want to say they haven't been all honest, they may want to get better. They want to be a better person, someone you will be able to count on. They love you a lot, they see you as their soulmate, their love for you is very strong. They may have acted like they didn't love you before, if you met them already, otherwise it could be like they didn't show you energetically before. If you feel like your FS did you wrong in any way, they may be aware of it and they want to show you can trust them. They don't want to hurt you, if it's the case, they also want to apologize. They see you as the person the most important for them, they see you as their love, their light, you are what makes them the most happy in this life. You are the one for them, no one else will be at your level, and they feel it to the core. They are sad to be away and far from you. They feel like they want to marry you as soon as possible. They want to hold on for you, they want to one day show you, they are better, stronger, they worked on themselves. They want to see you, to hold you.

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[akascow]

yet another JAYVIK post about the Butterfly Effect :3

also spoilers lol

So Hextech isn't invented in Ekko's alternate timeline, and I feel like since life seemed so much better without Hextech there can be a couple things to infer about alternate Jayce and, by association, our Jayce (and Viktor!) here:

this is a long one and my long posts never get notes but i promise its actually super interesting to think about so u should totally read through it 🧎🏻‍♀️‍➡️🔥

1. (and also my favorite one bc its Very JayVik lmao) alternate Jayce never pursued Hextech after the explosion: maybe too guilty over killing someone (because we see alternate Vi died from that explosion during the kids' robbery), he does what Heimerdinger advises him to: fully admitting his crimes and not mentioning the arcane. And we can assume the academy burned all his studies too becauseeeeee…

Viktor never endorsed it. Assuming the admission of guilt theory is correct- Viktor never would’ve even known about the arcane in the first place, because Jayce would never mention it in the council room trial. Viktor would never know that the arcane can be used to help cure people, which we see is what piques his interest in the first place. And like, obviously Viktor wants to cure his leg and illness lol

Which means Viktor never interrupted Jayce's suicide attempt after the trial and Jayce probably goes through with killing himself, Viktor never went to check on him. It seems the compelling force behind Viktor’s interrupting in season 1 was initially from Jayce’s journal, which he picks up while browsing all the Hextech equipment they were planning to destroy. Viktor only really looks at the notes because he was interested in the arcane in the first place, which again, can't happen if Jayce never mentions it in the council room. 

Which is SO important to the plot and me that everything happened the exact way that it did for everything to succeed (which is quite literally the butterfly effect btw lmao). Because it shows how extremely important Jayce and Viktor’s partnership was to not only their own lives, but the entire future of Piltover, good or bad ie no hextech=no shimmer and peace between the cities, hextech= tons of shimmer, the corruption of the arcane, and the destruction of piltover.

Jayce needed someone there to believe in him, and that was Viktor: After the council disagrees with him, and he’s kicked out of the academy and banned from studying the arcane, he tries to find comfort with his mother. She’s the one who was saved using the arcane in the first place after all, so surely she’ll understand. But she tells him to give up on this dream, a dream he’s had almost his entire life. His own mother doesn’t believe in him.

He then goes to the Kiramman’s because “I'll find someone to believe in me,”  most likely assuming if they sponsored his studies in the first place, they would still support him after the trial. But they kick him out from the Kiramman household too, as well as forbid his and Caitlyn’s friendship. And with no one left, the very next scene we see of him is as he’s deciding to jump. 

The only thing that stops him is Viktor showing up. With an interest in the Hextech theory after he reads Jayce’s notes, Viktor wants to help Jayce make the Hextech a reality. Viktor believes in him, and he supports him. That interaction is what leads to their partnership forming, them sneaking back into the lab, grabbing the Hextech equipment and showing Mel and Heimerdinger that it was possible to create magic, and Mel's influence leading to the council’s support and the okay on continuing to develop Hextech together, projecting Piltover into success (and of course accelerating it into ruin, seen in s2. but I won’t get into that snowballing effect here because we’ll be here for hours)

Also, Viktor would be against Hextech if his first and only introduction to seeing it was as a tool to invoke harm (on a Zaunite especially). Which is what would drive Viktor away from investigating it, and before their theory ever even has the chance to get off the ground or evolve, it's already dead in the water for good because:

Something both of them, but especially Viktor, have been extremely against during the entire show was that their plans for Hextech WILL NOT be used as weapons to kill or harm, only to make lives better (especially in the undercity). Think about it: Viktor only adamantly opposed using the Hexcore AFTER it killed Skye.

The guilty conscience of accidentally killing another person with his own technology would not have helped Jayce’s mental state either lol. Like, think about the DIRECT PARALLEL in our timeline: where Viktor almost jumps and kills himself, after Skye's death, as a result of his tampering with the Hexcore, before Jayce interrupts him (ohhh their mirroring, it hurts me)

2. If not from jumping, then alternate Jayce was arrested or exiled… I mean like, he inadvertently killed a young Zaunite girl. That's a lot more consequential to his conscience, reputation, house name AND criminal record than just the building blowing up in our timeline. It’s pretty vague if anyone died in our timeline from it, I think the most that’s mentioned is some people were injured (“Was anyone hurt?” “A building was blown to bits, what do you think?”) so it would weigh heavier on Jayce’s shoulders if someone actually died in this timeline.

Also remember: he felt so guilty about accidentally killing a child with his hammer in s1, that he gave up entirely on trying to wipe out the production of Shimmer. Once he sees how his Hextech can be used against someone, he drops all his plans because "thats not what we created Hextech for"

From that theory, I'm assuming more-so that he was exiled though? Because Heimerdinger said he was in the alternate timeline for like 3 years and couldn't find Jayce, so I don't know... plus I feel like he would have found Jayce in jail if he was there lol.

And beforeeeee anyone yaps, ik Heimerdinger actually said he thinks Jayce ended up somewhere else, and never specifically stated that he "couldn't find Jayce". BUT from the end, since we see two Ekko's before he goes back to the main timeline, we can assume that the original person's mind inhabits the other's body so that there aren't like paradoxical two people in one place at the same time. 

SO theoretically, Heimerdinger actually does go looking for Jayce, and if he found the alternate timeline's Jayce, he probably would've mentioned it to Ekko when asked if Jayce was there too… right? I’m assuming he was hanging around Ekko for most of the 3 years that he was there, waiting for our Ekko to be projected into the alternate Ekko, because it's not like Heimerdinger just happened to show up right when our Ekko gets there, he might’ve assumed it would happen eventually. And when the alternate Ekko starts freaking out about being in the wrong universe, it's pretty clear that this is his Ekko now lol

But then why stick around Ekko and not Jayce? I guess he was currently closer to Ekko, calling him his current pupil, and given that he was the one who showed him the Firelights community and gave him hope. Plus I mean, Jayce literally voted him off the council from a disagreement over the Hexcore so there's some salt in the wound there lmao. Or maybe because Ekko is a lot younger and would not react as calmly or rationally as Jayce would (I'm assuming... idrk HAHA). You could argue that Heimerdinger was just visiting both of them back and forth, but again if he couldn't find any Jayce, then I think it would explain why he doesn’t mention any Jayce at all, and that's where this make the most sense, at least to me.

3. alternate Jayce also died in the explosion with Vi- When we see it in our timeline, he and Vi were the closest to the blast. If it killed Vi, it would’ve presumably killed Jayce too. And if he did die, then obviously Hextech would never be invented, reasons being: everything I just mentioned in the previous theories.. but like, even more simplified bc he wasn't there to begin with lol

I only say it's a weaker theory because Heimerdinger definitely would've seen a memorial for him (or at the very least a gravestone), given Jayce was in the Talis house and under the study of the Kiramman family, it was a pretty high status name compared to the average Piltovian citizen, and probably wouldn’t be silenced or brushed away… 

Although to counter that, I guess since everything in the over city is super status-y, maybe the Kiramman’s wouldn't want their name being tied with the death of two people, which is a similar but obviously more significant reason to why they kicked him out of their house in our timeline after the trial, his “name is no good now.” Plus we hear in the council trial from Ximena that the Talis family is a lower house too, and their voice doesn’t hold as much weight, so maybe it wouldn’t actually have that much mention? He hasn’t become the “Man of Progress” yet either since he’d never get to finish his studies…hmmmmm idk

also edit but some ppl just pointed this out to me that viktor likely died from his sickness bc he didnt have the hexcore to heal him and that makes me SAD !!!!

anyway thats all i have. if you made it this far i greatly appreciate you :3 🫶🏻 i love analyzing this show because OUGH the jayvik butterfly effect goes CRAZY HARD bc its both figurative with the theory and literal with the butterflies being in SO MUCH of their imagery UGHHHHH what the FUCKKKK

also some shameless self promos symbolism of viktor’s humanity and jayce's hallucinations analysis posts if u liked this one :3c

[comikbook]

Im unable to go to school for art, bc my parents cant afford it and my family in general wouldnt be too supportive of it (I live with them)

I dont mind that, I still do art as a hobby, but it kind of hurts. I like what I am in college for actually, but I just love art

Is there a way to better my art while not having the tools art students have? I dont care if its harder, I would just like hope :/

hi !! so i can totally relate to this

i did not grow up with a wealthy family, i got into my highschool (which was a specialty art highschool) thru application. After that, i was kind of lost with art education. I had no money to go to a big art school, so i did community college.

here is what my art looked like in highschool

However, that was kind of a waste. It was pretty much a repeat of what i learned in highschool and to be honest the entire time i was in highschool i didnt improve at ALL. not one bit. This continued into college. In fact i didnt improve at all in college either except for the times i took a gap.

as of this point in the timeline my art looked like this

now i havent been in college now for a couple years, and let me tell you my art has gotten the biggest improvement ive ever seen. Hell i didnt even finish school, I owe money and cant return until i pay it. But honestly ? its hard to find the motivation.

What im getting at is all of my improvement has been done thru my own means. School did not help me improve. And everything you learn in art school can easily be found online via videos and tutorials.

So what made me improve so much out of school ? Honestly ? Passion. I hated being told what to do, I always have. I do not like cookie cutter assignments, boring studies, all of the subjects that are rinsed and repeated every semester. I stopped caring, and during the last bit of time i was in school, I went to my professor. I said I didn’t care, I hated the assignments, I had no desire. You know what she told me ? To ignore them then. She pushed me to make what i WANTED to make, she made assignments specifically for me, she gave me full creative freedom. THATS WHEN I IMMEDIATELY IMPROVED. School isnt what helped me, what helped me is being given an environment where i could be passionate and raw and make art i wanted to make. And you dont need thousands of dollars and a studio to make that happen.

You don’t need those tools. And remember, when it comes to art school, its never the students who are naturally talented or only have technical skill that succeed, its the ones that give a shit. the ones who love art, who love to create, and have a story to tell.

one you realize that it gets so much better.

Anyways, as a last update, heres my art now that im out of school and doing my own thing

[nellasbookplanet]

In the wake of FCG' fate I've been thinking about death in ttrpgs, and how it kind of exists on three levels:

There’s the gameplay level, where it only makes sense for a combat-heavy, pc-based game to have a tool for resurrection because the characters are going to die a lot and players get attached to them and their plotlines.

Then there’s the narrative level, where you sort of need permanent death on occasion so as not to lose all tension and realism. On this level, sometimes the player will let their character remain dead because they find it more interesting despite there being options of resurrection, or maybe the dice simply won’t allow the resurrection to succeed.

Then, of course, there’s the in-universe level, which is the one that really twists my mind. This is a world where actual resurrection of the actual dead is entirely obtainable, often without any ill effects (I mean, they'll be traumatized, but unless you ask a necromancer to do the resurrection they won’t come back as a zombie or vampire or otherwise wrong). It’s so normal that many adventurers will have gone through it multiple times. Like, imagine actually living in a world where all that keeps you from getting a missing loved one back is the funds to buy a diamond and hire a cleric. As viewers we felt that of course Pike should bring Laudna, a complete stranger, back when asked, but how often does she get this question? How many parents have come and begged her to return their child to them? How many lovers lost but still within reach? When and how does she decide who she saves and who she doesn’t?

From this perspective, I feel like every other adventurer should have the motive/backstory of 'I lost a loved one and am working to obtain the level of power/wealth to get them back'. But of course this is a game, and resurrection is just a game mechanic meant to be practically useful.

Anyway. A story-based actual play kind of has to find a way to balance these three levels. From a narrative perspective letting FCG remain dead makes sense, respects their sacrifice, and ends their arc on a highlight. From a gameplay level it is possible to bring them back but a lot more complicated than a simple revivify. But on an in-universe level, when do you decide if you should let someone remain dead or not? Is the party selfish if they don’t choose to pursue his resurrection the way they did for Laudna? Do they even know, as characters, that it’s technically possible to save someone who's been blown to smithereens? Back in campaign 2, the moment the m9 gained access to higher level resurrection they went to get Molly back (and only failed because his body had been taken back by Lucien). At the end of c1, half the party were in denial about Vax and still looking for ways to save him, because they had always been able to before (and had the game continued longer it wouldn’t have surprised me had they found a way). Deanna was brought back decades after her death (and was kind of fucked up because of it). Bringing someone back could be saving them, showing them just how loved and appreciated they are. Or it could be saving you, forcing someone back from rest and peace into a world that's kept moving without them because you can’t handle the guilt of knowing you let them stay gone when you didn’t have to. How do you know? How would you ever know?