#the bullshit of capitalism

[nando161mando]

[memingursa]

Lol

[substitious-bastard]

stuck in the time loop but i just use it as a free day off. im not even trying to get out. i am teaching myself to knit. i am crocheting. i am cooking. not even doing anything crazy. just escaping capitalism for a week. day 375 and im not sure what lesson it's trying to teach but i've taught myself to handmake lace so all is well

[vizthedatum]

Just had my bladder instillation (I get them every two weeks roughly).

My face is puffy because I had a panic attack last night and I cried all night.

Why hide any part of me? I am chronically online because it’s a tool for connection and also because I’m on my computer and phone all the time because I’m a biostatistician and Data Scientist. I’m also a huge tech nerd who loves learning new things.

I am also disabled. And while I post funny memes about it all (because humor is a valid coping strategy), my #disability IS #disabling.

When I tell you or my colleagues the reason why I couldn’t do XYZ or why I did it in a certain way - it’s not an excuse. I am doing it for a reason. And most of the time, it’s out of my control.

I have been telling myself that I’m a fraud and an incompetent, lazy person for SO LONG. My #impostersyndrome is so bad.

I love what I do. I love helping people in healthcare with the skills I trained for. I wouldn’t have gotten my PhD if I weren’t committed to learning what I needed to do my work.

But now, I’m terrified of my meeting with my boss later this afternoon because I don’t think I can stop myself from crying. I don’t want to justify that I am trying my best AND I am capable AND that I need more accommodations (such as help with admin and work flow stuff - but also it’s hard to ask what I need because I DONT KNOW. I NEVER GOT SUPPORT AS A CHILD. I HAD TO DO SELF-HARM TO PUSH THROUGH BURNING MYSELF OUT AND THEN BEING CHRONICALLY ABUSED CONSISTENTLY).

It’s so hard getting diagnosed with #autism as an adult. I’m on two waitlists and it will be a long process.

I am still fighting with my provider and COLLEAGUE about why #interstitialcystitis should be considered a disability.

I don’t have many other people to financially count on. My brother is on disability. My parents lack empathy and awareness of my abuse. My ex-spouse devastated me. I do have some help. I do have privilege and an okay credit score. But being disabled with valid goals of living a comfortable life, WHICH I DESERVE, is hard as fuck.

Which is to say, I’m grateful for my community. I’m so happy but also distressed AND ALSO DRIVEN. It’s all true.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

so theres a lot of posts going round about the titanic wreck and the missing submarines; all of them that ive seen have made very good points about how shoddy the submersible seemed to be and how the company decided to wait eight hours before reporting it, and how this is a play stupid games, win stupid prizes for the ultra-wealthy who paid like 250grand a ticket for this thing.

but what i havent seen any posts about is how the titanic wreck is a gravesite and this tourism is disturbing the graves of over 1500 people.

sometimes its kinda hard to remember that those on the titanic were real people; it was over a century ago, the story has been romanticised in so many ways (like the movie), theres conspiracies theories galore that cloud everything with misinformation, but at the end of the day, those who died were real people.

do you want their names? heres a list of them; its a long read. and for fun, heres another site where you can see photos of the children and babies who died aboard.

their bodies are long gone and their lives long forgotten. all we have to remember them and honour them is the wreck itself. its all we have of them and it is their gravesite. its their tombstone.

caitlin doughty/ask a morticians video on the great lakes discusses the topic well, and why we should leave these shipwrecks alone because again, they are the gravesites of all the souls who died aboard those ships. we rarely have bodies to recover so we really are left just with the wreck.

and what really upsets me about titanic tourism is how the majority of those who died that night were not the ultra-wealthy rich folks you might picture when you think of ocean liners.

61% of the first class passengers survived

42% of the second class passengers survived

24% of the third class passengers survived

24% of the crew survived **

the majority of those who died that night were regular folk; not to be cliche, but they were just like us. titanics wreck is not only a gravesite for over 1500 people, its also a majority working class gravesite.

and look at us now. look at what were doing. the ultra-wealthy can pay the equivalent of peanuts to them to disturb a mass gravesite of the exact kind of people they exploit today to hold onto all their wealth. 

its easy to point and laugh at these dumb idiots in their playstation controller submarine, seemingly held together with super glue and duct tape, but its also important to remember that what they were doing was simply disturbing a gravesite for fun. though the company does research, these guys werent down there to conduct research, they were there so they could brag about it to their friends. its like “climbing mount everest” while your sherpa does all the work.

if you cant tell, i have a lot of feelings about this. shipwrecks and ocean liners are one of my special interests and im currently building a (beginner’s) model of the titanic, for fucks sake. but i would never go down to see that wreck because its a fucking gravesite and we should not be disturbing their final resting place.

[charaznablespeteevee]

the other day I reblogged a post like "hate when an f/f ship in media does nothing for me" and a ton of replies/tags on it were like "that's because you need to watch/read better media" and I've been lowkey losing my mind about it ever since. idk how to tell you to stop being full of yourself and assuming that something is "bad" just because you don't like it. Sometimes you just don't vibe with something, even something "good", and that's fine. I feel like this used to be the prevailing view of art until about ten years ago and it's driving me fucking insane what happened. jesus christ

[blackflash9]

Beware Project 2025: A Disaster in the Making

This is Project 2025, and America's future hinges on the people's vote this November. THIS IS NOT A JOKE. WAKE UP AND GO VOTE PEOPLE!

[castielsprostate]

i hate you generative "ai", i hate you "ai" chat-bot that never understands a question and keeps you in a loop without connecting you to a representative, i hate you "ai" replacements for normal interactions and behavior, i hate you "ai" that's been made by techbros with the intent to make more money instead of actually helping people and systems that could benefit from the technology

[sparksinthenight]

If the economy NEEDS workers working in degrading, dehumanizing, dangerous jobs where they have very little power, then you need to get a different economy. Any world that relies upon the exploitation and abuse of the workers needs to be burned to the ground and rebuilt. We can make a society where no one has to work a job that’s physically, mentally, spiritually, socially, emotionally, or environmentally unhealthy or unsafe for them. We need to create that society.

[slutforpringles]

moneybadger still moneybadgering, even in the toughest of times 🤑💰😌

[despazito]

Actually some of us think about our ecological impact all the time and on a list of resource priorities I think food and a communication device has more reason to exist than a dogshit coca cola commercial

[nando161mando]

If you want to know why people have lost faith in capitalism, this might help

[bl0rbohandbag]

Malleus on his way to tell his grandmother the next queen of Briar Valley is going to be a magicless human from another world that just showed up at NRC one day and if he doesn't marry them there will be NO EGG and the Draconia bloodline ends with him

[mascspomax]

you know what? I deserve to be angry.

[the-muppet-joker]

Why the fuck did I bother with getting a degree. I don't want a job. I want the Joker to use me as his cum dumpster and call me a good boy.

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

since theres a lot of discussions about shipwrecks and deep sea submersibles happening right now, im just gonna quickly recommend this video which details how caladan oceanic found the samuel b roberts.

the samuel b roberts was a destroyer escort sank during the battle off samar during ww2. the wreck was found last year and is 22,621 feet/6885 metres deep which is almost 10,000 feet or 3000 metres deeper than the titanic and is currently the deepest wreck ever found.

in the video, you see a deep sea submersible (which can go down to 36,000 feet/10,973 metres) that isnt a tin can finished up with duct tape, super glue and glittery gel pens. it is piloted by an expert and they swap out pilots every day to avoid exertion or fatigue, and they have a very complex sonar system for finding wrecks. the longest they can go down is 16 hours and they keep in contact with their ship above and have to get clearance just for half an hour more.

when they find the wreck, they look around it to ensure they can identify it and map it out as well as they can, and then head back up to shore. they then hold a funeral service for those who died and leave a wreath on the ocean surface above where the wreck lays.

while im somewhat sketched out by the founder victor vescovo, the company does important work in terms of furthering our understanding of the ocean and finding wrecks which are the gravesites of those who passed. and they are not disrespectful to those whose graves lay 22,000 feet/6700 metres down on the seabed.

and what i would like to point out is how the samuel b roberts is protected against unauthorised disturbance by the sunken military craft act. you would need a permit from the naval history and heritage command (and a submarine that can withstand all the pressure) to go see it.

which, as ive said many times in the last two days, is something that the titanic should also have protection against. there should be laws in place that do not allow people to treat a mass fucking gravesite as a tourist spot.