#sorry for venting in the tags im just SO FRUSTRATED. Im

[shadyhouse]

hey 👉👈 if anyones able to throw a few bucks at me so i can get lunch at work the next few days itd be very much appreciated, I typically spend around $6-$10 a day thanks to my employee discount but im broker than broke rn and just embarrassed myself with a declined card 🙃 literally anything helps i just wanna be able to eat

vnm: tobias_leviathan

pp: paypal.me/bewearrr

[desire-mona]

me when im forced to remember that the autism isnt just a fun secret way to like my fav band more than everyone else and that ill actually never be able to navigate social situations normally

[nedsseveredhead]

I hate talking about it because it is not a big deal in the grand scheme but. Secondary to the crimes against humanity that Israel and Zionist forces have committed, I feel so isolated from my faith now. I found such a home in Judaism, and I still hold love for the texts and prayers and mitzvot that I have learned. But those teachings that I fell in love with are antithetical to the behavior I observed from zionists. I'm proud to be Jewish. I'm ashamed of what an ethnostate younger than my grandparents have used my beloved faith to justify. I don't know how to reconcile any of this.

[rolex-kaard]

it's actually so stupid

[maskedchip]

yknow at this point i have drawn so many images i can draw pretty fast now. i think that's the best outcome after years of tormenting over how slow of an artist i was. mainly bc i really had no idea what i was doing, so i would spend HOURS on just a full-body character design or something of the like. of course all the practice and time spent studying anatomy or color makes things easy now (also obsession but we already know about all that)

i think its hard to learn that not all your art is precious and by that i mean of course u cant create masterpieces in a day and shouldnt torment over not being able to get something right the first time. the silly doodles all count towards something. i joke about having perpetual wips but i think my favorite thing is saving past ideas and reworking them later just to see how they changed. bc art, like people, is so dynamic. constantly changing.

and the best feeling is making the art u imagined years ago come to life or you get a bit closer to producing the work that you saw in your head. mmmmm growth.

[mily-is-a-star]

Me when I open up to someone about my personal issues and that same person starts telling everyone that, word for word, they have that issue, and it's literally only because they want attention

[sweetvalentinescandy]

im so disappointed in my art lately . im not a beginner artist, but i feel like everything i do looks like i am . i feel like it would only be acceptable for a beginner . i havent made any progress since i was 11 . today is not a good day

[synthetic-sonata]

got a buncha stuff for my switch and kirbys return to dream land deluxe. ... living life large ( i had a breakdown earlier this is a treat )

[ryderdire]

Just cried over Math for the first time in like 6 years so that’s where I’m at

[catboynutsack]

man I'm so tired of how many people use weird trigger tags for something as simple as bugs. just write "#tw bugs" or just fucking "#bugs" not fucking "#6ugs tw //" because the fact that I have to add a new trigger tag to my already huge list is. Really fucking frustrating when everyone and their mom has a fuckin unique trigger tag for something so simple. Like thanks not only did you hurt the person you were trying to protect with your tiktok style self-censorship but your fucking nonsense trigger tag made it worse

And if for some reason you HAVE to use the really weird tags at least INCLUDE THE COMMON TAG AS WELL FOR THE LOVE OF GODDDDDD

[mesosauridae]

There is no way i just saw people comparing the very real problem of misoginy in gaming and streaming with a grown cishet man who keeps making questionable decisions for what? Casting him in a more vulnerable light to avoid talking about his issues? Denial? Ignorance?

No, your streamer doesnt receive backlash because the character he roleplays as in m/necr/ft has stereotypically “feminine�� cultural traits or whatever (as if other male presenting characters dont also fit into that category, but thats another discussion) Like i cant believe we have to make this any more explicit that the problem isnt the character he plays, its the content creator himself

He refuses to cut ties with his friend who has done terrible things over and over again (and himself admits he aknowledges this and doesnt condone it so, like, why is he still close friends then?) said friend who is currently being accused of grooming and despite all the proof to back up the claims the cc still said he will remain neutral about it and has even publicly shown support for this friend

My only surprise here is people being upset about people feeling uncomfortable and loudly declaring their unhappiness as if they dont have every right to

[botboots]

Saw that your requests were open so what about TFP cons with an adorkable teen human reader? A really close friend (the emotional support bundle of joy™) that is really artistic, kind, understanding and just a pure cinnamon roll, what would be the bots reaction to the lil' human? Optimus, Ratchet,Bulkhead, Arcee, BB, and if you do the kids then the kids. If not the other bots, stay safe!

im back!! so sorry for the long ass wait, had so much going on in my life recently (graduating, going back home, etc.) but hopefully i'll be back to posting somewhat regularly! tysm for the continuous support :] love seeing the notifs pop up every day this is one of the first asks in my inbox (and i completely forgot that the prompt said reader was part of the cons... whoops) and i've wanted to get it done for a while now! have so many more to get through but will get them done eventually - this isn't the best but its cute <3 and you can 100% tell who my favs are lmao warnings: none word count: 939 (GN reader)

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Optimus:

he finds your outlook on things is a nice change of pace compared to the more pessimistic views that some members of the team can have at times

values your compassion greatly, often turning to you as a confidant over the time you’ve gotten to know each other. a mission went wrong and he’s putting all the blame on himself? you’re there to reassure him in a heartbeat, reminding him that he did his best and there’s always another chance; you keep him grounded

has an innate interest in art and writing - he used to be an archivist, after all

so he enjoys watching you indulge in your hobby, your excitement about it reminds him of his younger years of being a clerk at iacon when he would become giddy over a newfound archaic text

he’s very fond of you and makes sure you know it, taking note of the small things you like and getting you whatever little gift he can manage to find - genuinely thinks you’re cute and likes seeing you happy :] 

Ratchet:

while it may have taken him a little longer than the others to warm up to you fully, he grew to start looking forward to your company (despite his his best efforts to hide it)

he appreciates your quiet company; you’re much less rambunctious than both the other humans and his own team - you complain a lot less too, probably one of his favorite qualities about you

like optimus, your bubbly attitude gives him a much needed break from the dreary duties that come with being the autobot medic

you often find yourselves working in tandem, with you sitting on the couch working on your newest project while he stands at his terminal typing away. occasionally you’ll walk over with a nervous smile, and with a roll of his optics he’ll lower a servo for you to climb into and lift you up onto the corner of the console, huffing when you chirp a thank you before the both of you quietly return to your tasks (he enjoys it, really)

while he’s not one to vent his frustrations to you, he’ll always be open to listen to you vent about yours. even if he doesn’t respond with much, he’ll offer logical solutions and observations for whatever issue you’re having

Bulkhead:

the big guy loves art, having been exposed to his fair share of it by miko, and is very encouraging when it comes to your projects

he might not get some of the nuances or meanings of the things you make, but he tries - oftentimes making you laugh a bit at the sheer amount he misses. it’s endearing though, and you appreciate the effort

too fidgety to sit and watch you do anything for too long, but he’ll offer to drive you to a vista for some inspiration while he does his usual scouting routes, miko tagging along of course. she’ll probably bring her sketchbook with her and sit next to you and draw, chattering the entire time while blasting some music from her ipod, offering you one of her earbuds

Arcee:

similar to ratchet she takes a while to get used to you, a little cold at first to your attempts at friendliness

she notices how happy you seem to make everyone else and eventually makes a legitimate pass at being friendly despite how awkward it feels

but with how eagerly you accept it she doesn’t feel as bad, sighing in relief as you immediately start filling her in on how much you’ve enjoyed your time with the autobots

she’s not much of a conversationalist (especially when it comes to humans) so your chattiness is almost a relief - not having to keep up fake interest and energy with someone puts her in a more comfortable position; especially since you’re not one to comment on it like others tend to

will sit and watch you work on whatever your newest project is, a comfortable silence shared between the two of you

rambles about random stuff from her past sometimes - you turn out to be one of the few people she trusts enough to mindlessly dump her thoughts to, both good and bad

Bumblebee:

one of the first to get to know you, overly excited about having a fresh face around

super curious when he sees you working on something, a barrage of questions translated from mechanical chirps and whirrs with the help (and annoyance) of ratchet

he’ll actually try and mimic some of your art on the walls of hidden ditches where he and rafael hang out, excitedly bringing you along to show off his latest work and buzzing happily when you praise it

will eventually, with your encouragement, try and make something original - he ends up finding it pretty soothing and an easier way to feel understood; communicating his feelings without words can be unsurprisingly helpful for someone who can’t use any of his own

you’ll spend hours hanging out and working on your stuff - he likes when you help him with his own art, adding your own brushstrokes to the concrete wall

he’ll let you sit up on his shoulder just to watch him make whatever he feels like making, or even just taking you on joyrides in the desert where he doesnt need to worry about anything going wrong

while it’s usually you, him and raf hanging out he does enjoy spending solo time with you - usually in silence or one-sided conversations, but you understand each other well enough without words

will also figure out what your favorite songs are and surprise you with them; he loves when you get all giddy about literally anything

[ezlo-x]

Erm,,,ig i’ll ask

I feel like hiding here and pretend that im typing in the tags would help but. Is it normal to feel like a rut in writing? I never like to ask or talk abt this things cause I do have a sort of pride and worry ppl will doubt my skills. Idk smth like that. Lately I’ve been feeling this writer’s rut with my au’s story. Where things feel very spotty, yknow when you rub your eyes hard you start to see spots? Well that’s how I see my au story, where it’s clear on what I want in certain parts but it’s a haze in other areas.

I feel like im overthinking and over complicating things in my story. Rn where its at in the comic is fine. I guess the issue I have is that it feels like there’s so mich going on. Like do I want to go on this path? Will it be easier if I try another way? I feel like I haven’t explored certain things that I want to explore. I feel like I haven’t pushed much the horror elements of my story enough. But I worry it will be too edgy. I feel like im adding too much symbolism and details where there shouldn’t be. But I also love adding symbolism even in the smallest details. Idk this chapter really cracked my little head, aside from feeling frustrated that the linework doesn’t look good cause im still figuring out the pen pressure to my liking. I love the story I wrote for that chapter and im still pretty proud of it, I guess it just feels like im taking too long to work on when I just want to finish it and share with you all.

Anyways I guess this is entering in vent territory but I would like some advice to figure this out. I guess that’s the issue of being an overly critical person that you become your biggest critic. But I love criticizing things!! I love being critical!! I love engaging in discussions on how things could work better!! But also im a very scared and paranoid person nfkajfksnkfb i mean no harm. Ik this story will not be a 10/10 story I at least want it to be cohesive. I at least want people to enjoy it. Ik this story for me mostly but I feel lost!! Idk what to do!! But I also feel so selfish in asking its weird like i dont want to this to be all abt me. I just want to figure out smth that I feel a little lost on.

Strangely enough I love doing art critiques in class. I love hearing what ppl have to say eventho 90% of the time its just ppl standing there awkwardly cause ppl are afraid to say anything. But I enjoy it! But it’s also a double edged sword, cause art class you are free to critique cause ur learning but here?? This is my personal stuff for my own enjoyment, how would I handle that? Ig advice on how to improve would work than straight up criticizing my work. But also ik that I might get an anon or two with this post and I always get scared getting an ask when it’s related to criticism. Im sorry but I get scared!! Im spooked!! Idk if its cause in the past it was very much a russian roulette of an anon being nice or anon being fucking mean. Like dating back to when I was teen. Did you guys know that some of my artwork that I did when I was 16 ended up in kiwifarms?? My scariest tumblr moment…..

Anyways I realized I went off the rails on what I was originally asking for..

[cables-and-wires]

it's the amatonormativity.

it's the way that friendships are seen by most people as inferior to romance.

it's the way that loveless aros are seen as heartless and the way that lovequeer aros are seen as being confused.

it's the way that i find it hard to relate to allo people sometimes because of the fundamentally different ways i view relationships.

it's the way that platonic love is seen as a gateway to romantic love rather than being it's own distinct thing.

it's the way that people think of queerplatonic as just platonic but being *special* rather than as a genuine feeling and attraction.

it's the way that aros are expected to change their mind later and realize 'the importance of love' or something.

it's the way that queerplatonic love has to be compared so heavily to platonic or romantic or both rather than existing as it's own, unique, but just as valid feeling.

it's the way that close platonic bonds seemingly can't exist without people viewing it with romantic connotations.

it's the way that explaining what queerplatonic is to someone who can't feel it is so difficult because it's not one of the 'generic' love types that apparently everyone already understands.

it's the way that people think that emotional and physical intimacy cannot exist without romance.

it's the way that aromantics in romantic relationships are either seen as not true aros or as lesser partners.

it's the way that aromantics are also told that 'you can still be in a romantic relationship and that's ok' which while true also implies that it's something that is so fundamental to being human that it's absence is bad.

it's the way that fictional aromantic characters are always non-humans who can't 'understand' romance, or are humans but 'broken' in some way rather than being normal people.

it's the way that there's an unspoken 'hierarchy' of acceptable forms of love or relationships and that i'm insane for loving my friends as much as i do.

it's the way that people don't take platonic love seriously at all and how friendships are seemingly replaceable or not seen as valid relationships.

it's the way that i, as a lovequeer aroace, simply cannot exist without feeling invalidated for being different. love is important to me, and i deeply love my friends, my partner, and my bestie - but not every aro feels the same way and that's okay.

i just want to be taken seriously in all honesty.

fighting off internalized arophobia sooo hard im being sooo brave (i'm not)

[hel1houndz]

we're recovering from top surgery rn [FUCK YEAAAHHHHHHHHHH] but every time i keep going on tumblr n trying to look thru sum sys tags to see whats up i just keep seeing ridiculously ableist shit from endos !!! im actually so fucking done with them i need this dumb ass ableist fad to die out right fucking now.

all this constant rage and frustration is NOT GOOD FOR OUR RECOVERYYYYYY

time to go fucking. play minecraft anrgily i fucking guess

[idk if this counts as a vent or more of a rant but. responses are fine im just yappin]

- ratsnestcackle

OMG HELL FUCKING YEAHHHH DUDERS WISHING YOU LOT A SMOOTH ASF RECOVERY 🖤🖤

I agreeee it’s such ableist bullshit and I’m so sorry your dealing with all that shit it’s definitely not good for your recovery, taking a break is definitely a good idea!

if you wanted I could post like a list of pro endo / endo tags for you lot to block to minimise the shit you guys and other systems have to see?

again wishing you guys a smooth and comfortable recovery <3

- lav 💜

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

This is a little bit of a vent, so i understand if you dont respond, but i wanted somewhere to talk about frustrated i get sometimes as a sex repulsed ace.

Sometimes my friends will be reminded that i really really do not want to interact with sex. I am uncomfortable with the idea of having sex. Sometimes, i avoid really sexual stuff. However my friends will take that and assume they need to "protect" me. This means any sort of reference to sex *at all* will be hidden from me. Ive been taken out of group chats out of nowhere, there will be a vibe of "oh dont talk about this, the child is present" (im older then most of them.) Theyll be laughing at a joke and will want to hide it from me, but when i get them to show me itll just be like, a weirdly shaped dildo or something.

Im tired of people trying to coddle and protect me just because i dont like sex personally. Like yes, overtly sexual stuff makes me uncomfortable, but like, someone making a dick joke isnt sexual, a funny story where sex is involved isnt sexual, it feels like every time i bring up im sex repulsed i get infantalized, and im really fucking sick of it.

Again, sorry if you dont want rants/vents in your inbox, i just wanna get this off my chest.

No worries, vents are good. I even have a tag for it. And yeah, I feel you, Anon. There's a world of difference between respecting a boundary, and infatalizing. Definitely frustrating.