#self-reading

[yourstruly-lover]

Please do what makes you different from your future spouse previous partners or why they love you !!

hi hi!!

sorry for the delay to answer this, at first i wasnt sure if you were talking about me--aka my fs previous partners and why they love me, but after rereadingn your ask over and over again i realized that that's indeed probably what you meant lol

ps: at the moment i'm not dating anyone so this reading was pretty interesting to say the least!

i asked both questions on this reading, and 9 cards came out, but then it felt like it was too many cards? so i mixed the cards that came out (only said cards) and this is what came up:

4 of swords, page of wands, 2 of swords. bottom of the cards i pulled: king of pentacles reversed. bottom of deck: wheel of fortune.

(ps: wheel of fortune has been coming out a lot for me.. i dont know exactly what it means but it makes me excited for good things!!)

4 of swords is giving me a vibe that ill be very trusting to this person. both in the sense they can trust me a lot and i can trust them a lot. knowing the meaning of the card, specially in love readings, it also gives me a feeling that we will both know how to respect each other's time without being negligent to the relationship. perhaps we will know how to prioritize the relationship and eachother over work too!

page of wands is inspiration and limitless potential, (i got interrupted at this moment and lost concentration, sigh hopefully what i see here is as accurate as before lol) it seems that my innocence and "childish" side are also a reason for this, something about being more "pure" of heart? honestly it makes me feel like im bragging but, it's what i'm getting so far haha. also something about me doing my best to not give up on things, even at the worst situations could be very charming for my fs!

2 of swords, i was very confused about this one. thought maybe it meant i would be good at making difficult decisions in the relationship, or perhaps being good with dealing with my and their issues? but i saw that whenever we get a 2 of swords, it can be good to draw 2 more cards and 4 more as advice, 2 cards each sword (aka each choice.)

needless to say this was frustrating because i wanted a simple reading but it is what it is.

card on the left sword is 6 of swords reversed. the extra cards with it are 9 of pentacles and king of pentacles reversed.

left sword:

6 of swords: "The Six of Swords reversed can indicate that you have been trying to move on and make the transitions you need. However, you may be experiencing challenges making these a reality. You may keep returning to the past, whether it's because there are issues that are not resolved, or you are questioning your decisions." - labyrinthos

huh, okay, im assuming that me thinking a lot about the past could be something about the relationship--or maybe the one overthinking the past is them? but i feel like its safer to assume that its me. a ton of things happened in my life, and i have a lot of trust issues, so this could possibly be me having a hard time trusting them (and other people.)

9 of pentacles: "This Nine of Pentacles card indicates that the querent has reached a stage in their lives where they are confident, independent and self-sufficient.

The difficulties that were faced in the earlier journey of the pentacles appear to be over.

Like the other nines in the tarot, sometimes this card indicates that the querent has not yet reached completion in their journey." - labyrinthos

king of pentacles reversed: "The King of Pentacles reversed may also signify that your definition of success and happiness is only determined by outer appearances, and not by the true value that security and stability can bring to you. It is a time for you to cultivate an more wholistic attitude to the material world to find an authentic happiness. In terms of love, this card can mean that someone dear to you is currently facing issues due to matters concerning his or her career.

When it comes to finances, the King of Pentacles reversed is telling you to look at the long-term goal. You may be facing financial issues but do not look at yourself as a failure. Stay positive and understand that this is just a phase in your life. When given the chance again, do not make choices based only on the short-term picture.

If this doesn’t signal a person in your love life right now, the King of Pentacles tarot love meaning can suggest a period of emotional or financial insecurity, jealousness, manipulation or coercion." - labyrinthos

right sword:

card on right sword is 6 of wands. the extra cards with it are 3 of pentacles and 4 of cups.

6 of wands: "This particular card is all about public recognition, victory, and success. Not only have you managed to properly succeed in achieving all of your goals, but you are also being publicly acknowledged for them and the results that you’ve managed to attain. You may have received an award or some sort of public acclaim." - labyrinthos

3 of pentacles: "The threes in the tarot represent the successful completion of a goal - it takes the sources of energy in the ace and the twos and adds a foundational factor, and usually involves a group of some sort. In this scenario, the upright three of pentacles meaning is that there is a successful achievement of all the requirements to pursue your business, deal, venture or any other kind of endeavor.

If you’re single, you may find that love comes through collaboration at work or through your creative hobbies." - labyrinthos

4 of cups: "The Four of Cups represents our tendency to take for granted the things that we have, making it hard for us to see what treasures the universe presents us with. We tend to have the answers to our troubles right around us, but we tend to focus too much on what we do not have." - labyrinthos

you'll notice that with these i copy pasted stuff from a website, mainly because i wasnt that sure of what was going on LMAO, but after reading everything i think i understand this is advice for me and my life, and possibly how to find my fs as well on how to act when i meet my fs. aka a possible "dos" and "don'ts" probably. im not gonna get into details about this tho since it is pretty personal stuff about my life, so i hope you can understand!

bottom of deck is wheel of fortune! "if single it indicates that good things are in store for your love life, but you may need to be open to new opportunities." - hindustantimes

the wheel of fortune gave me the feeling that my fs will see our relationship and me being in their life as possibly fate, and perhaps something truly lucky me thinks yes yes! i also do think i'll feel the same towards them hehe!

this was one long ride but if you read until here i hope you've enjoyed!! don't be surprised if i revisit this tomorrow or a couple days from now to see if my intuition gives me something else haha.

[littleghostytarot]

Be careful when you ask questions to your cards because some decks care more to give the truth that will hit you hard vs being evasive.

Today I asked my newer deck The Fox Universe Tarot about “Who taught me to hate myself?”

The answer:

XV - The Sage // Community

0 - The Newborn // Growth

To me, the answer came clearly as “the community around me, the people who were suppose to know better, struggling under the veil of their own illusions, with their hearts out, and a clawed for the world around them, yes, they saw you in your little loveliness, a baby, new and unknowing. They tried to pick you up, but with their heart in one hand, and a claw made of the other, there was no room for you there. Other hands tried, but they were just as scattered, through death, through preoccupation, uneven, and reluctant, yes. They could not hold you as you needed.”

When we ask questions like this of ourselves, of our lives, it’s important to follow it up with empowering ourselves.

“How have I worked to detangle this notion?”

The answer:

V - The Mystic // Sprituality

VI - The Betrothed // Relationship

IV - The Stranger // Character

Ah, see? That’s how you soothe yourself. And how powerful that it’s the 3 major arcana grouped around important early journey concepts. Typically in the Rider Waite those correlate to The Hierophant, The Lovers, and The Emperor , but in this deck it’s a little different and equally special. You see, I cared and saved myself through spirituality, through never stopping going through hands and hands till there was equality, and especially, I did it from the innate qualities that made me /me/ from birth. Those qualities got burried, but i dug them out from my shadow, from the flowers on my crown and hand I found the nuggets of clarity, wisdom, and love there was in the impermanent people in my life, and the snake with me since birth continued to watch me, loving me, and accepting me as I took this path one step at a time.

Be gentle with yourselves everyone, seek truth with self-compassion and tenderness.

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[legallybrunettedotcom]

doing shit alone will have people acting like you're the bravest human being who has ever existed. "omg I could never 😖" I'm eating. I'm going to the cinema. it's not a fucking papal conclave.

[4theitgirls]

youtube channels to motivate you this semester

♡ abao in tokyo - study with me’s & playlists

♡ advika singh - study & productivity vlogs

♡ allie c. - medical school vlogs

♡ carrot td - study with me’s

♡ celine - study with me’s

♡ deaana - medical school, study with me’s, stationary, etc.

♡ dear mimi - study vlogs

♡ dia - medical student vlogs

♡ dr. rachel southard, do - medical school & residency vlogs & talks

♡ emily feng - medical school vlogs

♡ emilystudying - dental school & study vlogs

♡ emma grace - nursing school vlogs

♡ emmalilyn - study with me’s

♡ ginny - study vlogs

♡ hyobin - medical student vlogs

♡ leighton sanders - nursing vlogs

♡ lucky penny - study with me’s

♡ lunardazes. - uni study vlogs

♡ madi’s nursing journey - nursing school & nursing vlogs

♡ mango oatmilk - study with me’s

♡ maria silva - study & hospital interning vlogs

♡ merve - study with me’s

♡ mishujo - study & productive vlogs

♡ nada - study & productivity vlogs

♡ ray hon - study with me’s

♡ sab yang - medical school & study vlogs

♡ sean study - study with me’s

♡ sierra lyn - nursing vlogs

♡ studymd - study with me’s

♡ study to success - stationary, study with me’s, study hacks, etc.

♡ tani study - study with me’s

♡ yours truly, chloe - study vlogs

♡ yulma - study with me’s

[bishy437]

oh, please don’t go!

i’ll eat you up i love you so!

[psyduckz]

the king’s little guy consort

[sunlitsoil]

there is always tomorrow

[shisasan]

June, 1936 Journals of Anais Nin 1934-1939 [volume 2]

[stump-not-found]

A Lifetime Served in a Little Cup

pt.1 / pt.2 / pt.3 / pt.4

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bill, babygirl, the red flags get outta there

[simplyjustagirlsblog]

[raddestrose]

Shoutout to Shen Yuan the only man who actually read porn for the plot

[lavenderdreams205]

Forgive me if this doesn't make sense but

Dean understands himself. He is not drowning in internalized homophobia. He doesn't not know that he's into men. What Dean is, however, is a liar. He lies to everyone, all the time. I think this touches on the queer experience in a way we dont always see in media. We always talk about coming out and coming out scenes but why never talk about why we come out. It's because of how difficult the lying is. But deans lied about everything, all his life. Not just about his sexuality, or things related to hunting. But he lies (directly or by ommission) about the music he likes, the clothes he likes, literally everything, just to fit into this box of what everyone expects him to be. He understands himself, you just don't have the critical thinking skills to see past his lies, you take his word at face value even though the show has told you repeatedly that dean is a liar

[lgbtlunaverse]

There's a version of the "don't go grocery shopping while hungry" rule specifically for writers where you should never under any circumstances be allowed to touch your draft within 3 hours of reading a really good story. Because sometimes when you read something great your head goes "fuck this is so much better than my stuff I should make that more like THIS instead!" Look at me. That's the devil talking and you should close the document NOW.

[maiarosa]

[lunarwednesday]

Wasn't it love?