#i was still a kid and had very bad undiagnosed ocd that made my implusive thoughts surrounding hell and eternal damnation and the end days | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

walkerrenee · 1 month ago

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sometimes i randomly remember how insane maggie stiefvater was for making ronan lynch—a man that can create reality—a man of god, when he himself is a god of a man. then to take this man and have him be not only in love with, but a literal soulmate of a man named adam. parrish. adam parrish. who, mind you, lives above ronan's very own place of worship. and is the namesake of the first of mankind that the bible says god made from the literal dust of the ground (adam parrish: comes from nothing, hair "dusty" in color) and appoints him to care for the garden of eden (adam parrish: sacrifices himself to ronan's sentient forest). then has adam viewing ronan as a god and ronan saying "maybe he dreamt (created)" adam???? like who just fucking writes that and goes about their life?

#if i think about them too long i start going actually insane #maggie pay for my therapy bills please #me and my ignored religious trauma are literally have never been able to handle it #the raven cycle #pynch #ronan lynch #adam parrish #and the fact that i read the series pretty soon after i realized that pretending i believed in god was doing more harm than good and left #i was still a kid and had very bad undiagnosed ocd that made my implusive thoughts surrounding hell and eternal damnation and the end days #and it terrified me so much as a queer trans kid to realize i didnt believe but still had thoughts of that in my head and then to read this #series like a year or 2 later was brain altering for me #anyways where was i going with this #ahahahha #im having a moment #adam's last name is pretty self explanatory too like....miss girl

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