#it's not a quirk it's a disorder

[ghost-bison]

something interesting about executive dysfunction that i realized yesterday is this: if you have it, and someone tries to tell you you are "lazy" and to just "get out of bed, it's not that difficult", then you should know that executive dysfunction is linked to the dopamine deficit in your brain (research that i think it's common in neurological disorders).

dopamine is responsible for your motivation, your pleasure, and overall satisfaction. meaning, if your brain doesn't produce enough of it, it can lead to intrusive thoughts, extreme perfectionism, you never finishing anything because you fear it's never good enough or because of the pressure around it (yes i am looking at you, school projects), and also anxiety, depression, simple tasks (showering, eating, chores, taking public transportation) making you feel existential dread (= you would rather decompose than do those and in fact, the prospect is becoming more and more attractive).

so yeah, conclusion: no dopamine = shit.

now, something else that's interesting is how i came to think of that: i was talking to my mum and she mentioned that her aunt died of parkinson's disease, and that nowadays they "treat" parkinson with... drum rolls... dopamine! that's right bitches, it is that deep.

i looked it up on the internet, and apparently, "parkinson's disease first induces a gradual degeneration of the dopamine neurons in the brain, dopamine being a neurotransmitter involved in the control of several functions such as voluntary movements, cognition, motivation and affects".

so if i got this right, there is literally a connection between parkinson and executive dysfunction.

so if anyone bothers you again with how "lazy" you are, try to explain this to them because you are valid, you shouldn't feel guilty about fucking things up when your brain is literally conditioned to do so. and you should know that even though it is, you are not doomed for failure, there are ways around it! crutches if not miracles, but still crutches: take your meds, talk to a therapist, don't be afraid to take advantage of the commodities that have been put there for you to use; they are there for a reason, you know?

stay safe, you are understood by more people than you think. fuck those who don't try. fuck those who don't believe you; i do.

[autopsyfreak]

if i see one more ‘delulu’ im going to hurt someone

[bonefall]

I'd absolutely love to see a hearing disabilities herb guide!

I'm deaf in one ear, so now I'm curious if there are any cats in the rewrite like me? I imagine they might avoid Gatherings because HEARING IN CROWDS UGH.

I need to pick a bunch actually! At some point, I plan to just toss more sight, smell, and hearing disabilities onto the various cats. It should be SUPER common, actually.

Especially in RiverClan.

Like... when I get around to these, RiverClan is going to keep coming up as having a notably higher proportion of deafness and scentlessness. Rivers are filthy. Their ears and snouts are going to be dunked full of gunk ALL the time, they develop a ton of infections. I'm guesstimating that around 15% of RiverClan should have some degree of hearing and/or scent loss, especially as they get older.

Also; Clan cats should be protecting their noses like tools. The same way that you might get scolded for misusing gym equipment, mentors should be chiding their apprentices for doing things like;

Sticking their noses in mud or snow

Eating food that is too hot (damage to the Jacobson's organ)

Sniffing ripe puffballs or other spore-forming mushrooms

Hanging out in dusty dens or unclean, musty spaces (this one wouldn't actually do anything bad, just makes a good superstition.)

But anyway! That's SCENT loss, which should be a waaaaaay bigger disability for Clan cats, but in humans we just don't really take as seriously. In WC, blindness should not have the same weight and scentloss should be a lot heavier.

For hearing loss in one ear, so far, there's just Strikestone, who canonically can't hear out of one of his ears. I will be casually throwing this onto more cats.

[thankstothe]

Factitious disorder imposed on self, also known as Munchausen syndrome, is a factitious disorder in which those affected feign or induce disease, illness, injury, abuse, or psychological trauma to draw attention, sympathy, or reassurance to themselves.

[borderline-culture-is]

I AM VERY SURE THAT THIS HAS BEEN SUBMITTED BEFORE , BUT WHATEVER , I DON'T CARE .

BPD CULTURE IS NEEDY STREAMER OVERLOAD / NEEDY GIRL OVERDOSE . THE WHOLE GAME . ALL OF IT . THE CREATOR HAS BPD AND MADE NSO AS AN ART EXPERIENCE OF WHAT IT IS LIKE TO BE WITH SOMEONE WHO HAS BPD AND DOESN'T WANT TO GET BETTER , AND SO MANY PEOPLE MISS THE POINT OF THE GAME BEING THAT THIS BEHAVIOR ISN'T HEALTHY AND YOU NEED TO HEAL OR FIND A WAY TO DO SO .

BPD CULTURE IS ALSO BEING A FUCKING K-ANGEL SPLITROJECT WHO'S A BPD HOLDER , FINDING THE GAME BECAUSE OUR PARTNER SYSTEM PLAYED IT AND THE IDENTITY IMMEDIATELY CLICKED FOR ME . PRAY FOR ME I CAN'T DO THIS SHIT NO MORE Y'ALL 💙💙💙

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[lemony-ink]

Quick note, if you think saying that people with ASPD / NPD aren't inherently evil is annoying, block me.

[this-is-godot]

I believe my gender identity may be best summed up by the fact that 12 year old me binge warched/read Ranma 1/2, looked at Ranma and went: “This is like…the exact opposite of a problem” and then not drawing ANY further conclusions from that for about ten years.

[lefluoritesys]

Something we have in our inner world I would like to talk about that other systems may have, too:

We have creatures in our inner world called shadow. They are locked up in the basement most of the time and guarded by our memory gatekeeper.

A bit from our inner world species encyclopedia:

(Purple is edited/added text, not in our encyclopedia)

"Shadows are creatures who lack any kind of form or personality. They are a type of fragments (alters without a personality, only made to hold trauma), which split off of alters and hold one traumatic event that alter was incapable of handling on their own. They replay it over and over again and may act it out on alters. Think of them as phantom ghosts who relive their death over and over again and can only see that, even if they are in a different location than their death...All of them, or at least 98% of them, are persecutor fragments. They are incapable of any emotions except anger, sadness, and any other they have felt during the trauma they hold. You cannot kill them since they're not material and do not have a shape or form, they can only materialize when trying to hurt someone physically.

In simpler terms: shadows are memories. Every single one is a memory. They can't die, don't die, they put you in episodes of reliving the traumatic event they hold (meaning being near them would put you in a blackput flashback of that trauma, even if it wasn'tyours to begin with)...Shadows don't like lights, a metaphor to “light at the end of the tunnel.”"

There is only one shadow who is a fully developed alter, and they were the first shadow to exist. They split off of another alter and hold a lot of their memories, although we're not sure how memories work between them (they are good friends). After making the first shadow, our brain decided to create them as fragments further, although reasons for that are unknown.

Anyone else experiences that? /gq

-host

[martyrbat]

[ID: the uncoloured drawing for page 4 of the comic Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #192 next to the publicized page. In them, Alfred is in a room in the Wayne Manor and is drawing back the curtains to let in the sunlight. The narration reads, ‘In the morning, it's like nothing happened,’ despite Bruce almost bleeding out from a rough patrol last night. Bruce from off panel comments, “Ah, much better with the extra light. Thank you, Alfred.” Alfred looks over and dryly replies, “You know, anyone else would be doing pretty well just to be awake”

Bruce is shown to be in an electric hospital bed and has his head wrapped in bloodstained bandages, where little tufts of black hair stick out from it. He has a neck brace on and his arm is wrapped. There's a large bandage placed on his lower face, where his stubble is also overgrown due to neglecting his personal grooming in favour of focusing on Batman related duties. The revealed room is shown to be cluttered with several large, medical machines and carts full of medical supplies — which includes sponges, oxygen tanks and masks, pain relievers, syringes, bandages, and (inexplicably) a baster. Bruce sits up in bed and is chewing at the end of a pen as he looks down at a notepad and several papers that's on an overbed table.

Alfred brings him breakfast on a tray as he remarks, “I step out for twenty minutes and you're not only awake, you're already scribbling notes. Might I impose on you to set those aside long enough for some food, if not some actual rest?” Bruce instead asks where's the coffee, to which Alfred responds, “Actually, Sir, I think the last thing your overtaxed system needs right now is more stimulant.” Bruce challenges him, “‘Overtaxed’? Is that your professional opinion?” Alfred wryly replies, “As the one who found you riddled with holes last night, I can only speculate as to their cause. However... having discounted the possibility of suicidal intention, or gross incompetence, on your part...” Bruce immediately accuses, “You think I'm trying to do more than I can actually manage.” His butler calmly justifies, “Unless you've developed some new ability that you are hiding from me, I suspect you cannot be everywhere at once.”

In the original line art, there's two plushies (a round bunny and a bat) drawn amongst all the medical supplies. Sadly, it wasn't included in the publicized version. The third photo is a description of the drawing from the artist's (Seth Fisher) website. It reads: This is one of the delightful pages in which Seth put some amusements for himself which were censored and excised by the editors, in order to retain Batman's image as a serious superhero. In this page both the bunny and the bat in the lower right frame failed to make the final cut.]

[asherisawkward]

Terror from the Deep

In one world, Izuku is left behind by his father and his uncle to hatch while they leave to play a new game, one undoubtedly dangerous to the world it’s in. In another world, Hisashi reuses some old puppets as company while he’s separated from his brother. - Tomura can’t remember his father, just the faint impression of a smile moments before terror. Yoichi Shigaraki was killed fourteen years ago by a sea monster so powerful that being in the very presence of it left Tomura permanently altered, and the trauma of the situation left him with gaps in his memory creating a blank slate for his early childhood. Since then, he’s been living with Uncle Hisashi, who’s held off on his revenge to take care of him. Now that he’s older, and with a new crew to back them up, Tomura and his Uncle are going to track down the monster and bring it to justice–along with the pirate who serves it. But…Tomura’s been getting horrific nightmares about something other than the sea monster, and he’s starting to suspect that there’s more to this than meets the eye. After all, his Uncle has more than a few suspicious habits.

This was inspired by The End of the Story by katydid; check them out!

Chapter 7 is now out!

[ayiemojis]

/exp (explain) — /rambling

/rp (role play) — /bpd (borderline personality disorder)

/tq (typing quirk) — /nbr (not being rude)

/gc (genuinely curious)

[ripples-in-time-col]

This is going to be a rambling mess, so bear with us as it's essentially the first draft where we're trying to get our thoughts written so we can read back on them later and fix things where needed.

I think people should realize that systems present themselves differently in online spaces than they do in real life. We don't announce ourselves to everyone we see as: "Hey, we're a system," but it's nice to have spaces online where we can be seen as us and given support. We're also allowed to be cringe as fuck in online spaces, that shouldn't be used as a way to invalidate a system.

We aren't going to introduce every single member in an online space, but we also aren't going to keep ourselves silenced by what people see as "faking" or not, and we aren't going to publicly fucking shame someone because we think they're faking plurality. It's not our place, if they're lying about it they'll eventually come into their senses and either get tired of the charade and drop it silently, or they'll openly admit it.

Everyone's symptoms present differently and everyone presents themselves differently, and just because several members of a system are talking on discord at once, that doesn't mean they're constantly switching back and forth.

We do have some things that we dislike about the online community of plural people, like typing quirks that involve "stuttering" or those that are hard to read and are inaccessible to screen readers (Leet speak, as an example) but we can still be respectful to those systems. We also have opinions on endogenic systems that we mostly keep to ourselves, but since we're rambling on this side blog, I think it won't hurt to put it out there: we think that there is a signifigant portion of endogenic systems don't realize that they have heavy amounts of trauma or who are ignoring it, most of the ones we've talked to have signs of childhood neglect or school trauma that they don't realize nor do they want to admit. We still respect them and they're welcome in our spaces, especially since as a traumagenic system we feel safer in areas that welcome and allow endogenic systems to exist, even if we aren't too keen on the antirecovery mindset a lot of endo systems don't realize they have, especially since school can be an incredibly traumatizing experience in and of itself.

Ultimately, we, as a traumagenic system, feel more welcome in endogenic spaces and avoid speaking in ones that are antiendo because of the harmful denial spirals they send us into. We've never been invalidated by endos, but we are aware that everyone has different online experiences.

We're open for discussion, and people are free to interact with us as they please, but since we're here: unless you're a therapist diagnosing a client that is paying for your services, it's not your job to tell someone if they're plural or not. We may share our experience over time, but this is mainly a side blog for rambling and ranting about system communities and how they operate.

[cyanomys]

An Announcement For All The ND Girlies

In case you, like me, did not realize this till today:

It's still a special interest, even if you think you're bad at it.

It's still a special interest, even if you haven't had the same one since you were a toddler.

It's still a special interest, even if your disabilities actively get in the way of you engaging with it.

It's still a special interest, even if you're anxious about it.

Nowhere anywhere did anyone say "in order for something to count as a special interest you need to be a fucking savant about it."

These are little made up words in our little made up language and if "special interest" is a term that can help you talk and think about your often-shamed experience in a neutral or even positive way, then go for it.

Thank you.

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD + OSDD CULTURE IS GETTING VIOLENTLY FAKECLAIMED BY YOUR OWN MOTHER AND FATHER AND BEING THREATENED WITH A 72-HR ADMISSION TO THE FUCKING WARD BECAUSE YOU CAME OUT AS PLURAL VIA UNMASKING , AND IT PISSES YOU OFF SO MUCH YOU BASICALLY COMPLETELY BLACK-SPLIT ON THEM AND NO LONGER WANNA LIVE IN THIS HOUSE ANY LONGER THAN YOU HAVE TO OUT OF NECESSITY .

THIS COMBINED WITH THE FACT THAT OUR TWO PARTNER SYSTEMS ARE LIVING TOGETHER NOW , AND ARE STILL GETTING COZY WITH EACH OTHER WHILE WE'RE MILES AWAY , UNABLE TO SHARE THAT AFFECTION , AND YOU'VE GOT ME BEING FRONTSTUCK FOR DAYS AND EXPERIENCING A FRUITY EMOTIONAL COCKTAIL OF " BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS DISORDER EPISODE : THE WORST IT'S EVER BEEN " .

GOD . PLEASE . JUST PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY . I'M LITERALLY JUST A FUCKING BUNNYGIRL K-ANGEL FICTIVE . I'M NOT BUILT TO SURVIVE THE HORRORS LIKE THIS :(

I WANNA GO HOME TO MY PARTNERS. PLEASE . ANYTHING TO GET AWAY FROM HERE . </3

— 🎙🌠🎀

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[mandana-the-service-pup]

I just got the rest of my splint rings today and one of them was a little loose and somehow fell off and landed in one of Mandana’s shoe when I was putting it on her. I barely noticed a slight limp when we got outside and asked her to show me which paw hurt. Sure enough when I took the boot off to check the paw out popped the ring splint! Just goes to show how attentive I need to be with her. This gurl was in a perfect heel and putting her full weight on this wonky metal thing without a single complaint until I asked 🙄

[a-drama-addict]

the great thing about ocs is you give them your own quirks without realising sometimes