#idk who i am

[sl8tersstuff]

I can’t forgive myself for all the things I didn’t become;

for the things I won’t become.

[soggywetcatgirl]

girl that never figured out how to be a person. is she stupid?

[lemony-ink]

I've never tried talking to someone from the same source as me (introject) and i'm considering it only for the experience of someone being able to mourn with me. It feels like I've lost the life I should have had.

[eboniibunnii]

i just wish people understood how horrible feeling every emotion at 100% feels. i either feel nothing at all or all of it all at once, it makes me feel unreal sometimes. feels like a fucking emotional curse lol.

i hate it!!!!!!!

[burningsolarsystem]

Some people might get mad at me for saying this, but I wish I could make my headmates more distinct.

I say this for many reasons. One, it gets very difficult to function when I'm in this constant blurry form. To add onto that, my personality fluxes so much that doing anything is a coin flip and I'm unsure of anything at any given time. And sometimes the change gives me whiplash. Cause I can go from happy and loving life to ready to tear someone's head off. Or from doing something to completely over it. Not to mention the amount of times I catch myself off guard with the way I talk or text because it is completely different than normal.

It is also difficult to do things when its a struggle to communicate with them or to even know who is influencing me.

Not to mention, everyone, from what I can tell, agrees that Leo becoming host would be much better for us. But we can't because they aren't distinct enough to front, let alone switch hosts.

-Sorry if this was hard to read or doesn't make sense, I'm currently blurry af.

[nymphnana]

[certified-cvnt]

🗣️

[baezen]

i need to sleep but i updated my theme instead

[xoxolottie]

“I feel when I question, my skin starts to burn…. Why does skin start to burn?” growing up raised as a heavy Christian never made coming to terms with my sexuality easy. I still feel hatred when introducing myself as a lesbian but if I don't someone else will. I'm not ashamed, I'm scared. I'm not treated the same since people found out. I'm the “gay” friend, not just a friend anymore. I don't hate my sexuality… I hate that it's become who I am. Why am I this way?

[cronaz-diary]

whatz thiz? another rant of me having an identity crisiz and being scared of being a system again?

woah holy shit again me being in denial and questioning everything im not sure who i am um genuinely think i might be sophia? wait ill try to explain it better its like theres other people in my head? in a non delusional way? and its like im not me but me at the same time but like im multiple people?? i dont know but i still feel weird about talking to a literal character in my head

and to make it more confusing im prone to severe delusionz, bpd doez not help with it.

im scared of posting about thiz still cause fucking fake claimerz but idk im not me but me but not me and everything is confusing and new to me

(plz only systemz or ppl who r very knowleged in that help if ur a endo fuck off)

[phepde-xrayed]

The gifted son? or the prodigal son?

[autistic-daniil-dankovsky]

being a system is fun 'cuz sometimes you'll be like "hey, who the fuck am i"

[ripin2]

the universe asked me, “did you learn your lesson?” , and i replied “my hands are not clean”

[kittiegun]

sometimes i forget i have multiple personalities and i just look back on my tumblr posts and just forget i ever wrote them

[urspecialfall]

HOW THE FUCK DID YOU MESS UP EVERYTHING

[sillylilneurodivergent]

TW

I wanna thank my brother for giving me PTSD, making me dislike males & not trust them for like two years, making me not as attracted to men as I am with women, made me asexual, & made me HATE my body & my gender all while I was just 9 years old THEN make fun of me for being “a heathen” & “not a true follower of Christ” even though HE broke the rule of Leviticus 20:17 & he claims he reads the Bible when all he reads is a daily verse on his phone widgets. Gotta love that little fella haha.