#just an introject in my feels ig

[lemony-ink]

I've never tried talking to someone from the same source as me (introject) and i'm considering it only for the experience of someone being able to mourn with me. It feels like I've lost the life I should have had.

[ultrakill-confessions]

unheavenlycreaturs "please elaborate" hi I'm that anon and honestly it's mostly vibes. I was deep in the dsmp fandom til techno died and I've been playing this game for years, so I've collected a lot of similarities, at least in my opinion:

Headcanons are both wildly accepted and incredibly criticized, especially ones including gender. Half of the fandom will be enjoying different interpretations and half of the fandom will be pissed off because it's not canon

Lots of systems and introjects! I still don't really know what this means but y'all are nice so pop off ig

Lots of people take lots of things personally

A strange sense of impending doom? Idk what it is but it does not feel safe in here lmao, mom come pick me up I'm SCARED

Incredible artists, incredible animations, great fanfic

Religious themes and trauma

Popular (at least for me) during a very scary political landscape

Fanfics/fanwork that's so widespread everyone knows about it (passerine and dect respectively)

The VIBES are the same, I can't describe it because I'm stupid but it feels the same

These are just the biggest ones but there's more if I think about it a bit. And I don't mean this comparison in a completely bad way, to be clear. Y'all r great but I can see this fandom imploding

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[transisforall]

INTRO

Hello! I’m Saturn, silly guy and self proclaimed Trans-Japanese Icon™️

The point of this blog is just to be myself, away from the (honestly suffocating) influence of antis and bigots. This is a safe space for all good faith identities, and I mean ALL.

I’m anti-c leaning comp-c, I have no issue with people of other contact stances interacting, but pleaseee don’t start anything. I’ll avoid drama if the rest of you do too.

My personal transIDs are transJapanese, trisPsychosis, trisASPD, transFtM, Perma2020/21, and crutchian. I also use some really niche labels, feel free to ask but they aren’t as important.

My cisIDs are ADHD, OCD, autism, depression, DIDsys, and anxiety.

SYS INFO

I’m the host of a traumagenic DIDsys, we’re mostly all transJapanese but some are in serious denial (thanks antis 😃) or other trace identites. Most of us are introjects, and a lot of our trace identities come from sources, but not all! I’m not sure if anyone else will post on here, but keep an eye out for that!

(Also if you think you know us from literally anywhere else and you don’t fw this, it’s someone else :3 irls dni unless you’re chill ig)

[snezhnayan-nights]

"created systems r fakers" hi does this include created alters

i mean ig it's debatable if some of my facets were "created", since some people will say "oh you only influenced a split" or like "oh your brain thought you needed this". i mean... i guess, but i refuse to believe that i fixated so hard on a character i made that i just felt the need to have him in my brain.

then i felt those little fragments calling out to me and i thought "yeah, let's make this dude", and i made more stuff about him and helped those little fragments have an adhesive of sorts... then boom. this stinky guy was made.

idk. i feel like it's helpful to call him created in a sense. he's sort of an introject but not. he was created but it was with pieces already provided to me.

this feels relevant.

[urfavoritesecretadmirer]

Stuff that would get us fake claimed bc this trend is so amazing in my eyes

(And no I'm not asking to get fake claimed bc apparently I'm not allowed to make jokes)

High alter count

We don’t have an exact number, but our overall estimation is pretty high (not in the thousands but yk 100-150).

Not being able to control switches

We can’t control when we switch but it’s usually in stressful/negative situations. We also can’t control who takes front.

Alter variety

Istg, people are weird when it comes to alter variety. It’s always “oh your alters are all similar? Fake!!” Or “oh your alters are all very different? Fake!!” Our system has a lot of variety.

Has a TikTok account

“Omg, a system with social media?! Fake!!” Believe it or not, we only started our TikTok in late June of last year. We’ve known we are a system since way before that. So yes, systems can have TikTok accounts. Because I guarantee there are thousands of systems on TikTok who are not open to being a system that you will never know about.

Posts about system stuff

Damn, I didn’t know it was illegal for systems to be open about being a system. I didn’t know my literal existence, labels I choose to use, etc were taking away from the “real systems”. My apologies, Mr/ms high and mighty ceo of Reddit moderation as your 9-5.

Has simply plural

“Omg an app for systems?! And you’re using it?! As a system?! Fake!!” I’m not allowed to use one of the few useful apps that can log switches, keep track of members, send messages, help you meet other systems, make polls, make your layout look pretty if you want, etc without getting fakeclaimed. It’s almost like it’s an app for systems, and systems use it. Shocker.

Uses pluralkit

“A system using a meaningful way of communication and another good way to keep track of members?! Fake!!” Apparently redditors think that pluralkit worsens amnesia barriers and derealization. Is this true?? If so tell me, but it doesn’t happen for us. Because obviously, I’m not fronting all the time. How am I supposed to feel derealization if I’m not there?? Also it’s not like our main account profile is by default the host. Our user has <3 and our systag in the name for christs sake.

Goes to school

I know, shocker, I have a life. I’m not physically incapable of having an education as a system. And believe it or not, I have decent grades too. Systems are traumatized, not stupid (directed at that one boy at my old school).

Doesn’t want final fusion

Excuse you, but this system has been here for me and has been around since I was five (I think). I’ve only now fully accepted the fact I’m a system. I think it’d be a bit rude to just say “alr you can go now” like I don’t wanna be alone tf.

Introjects

We ain’t Introject heavy, but ig even having two introjects makes you fake. This may be a shocker, but it’s more common to have other disorders alongside DID/OSDD than to not. This, and again, this may be a shocker, but it includes ADHD and autism.

In sys relationships

Me, the host, has personally never been in an in-sys relationship. But I think in our system there’s like, two? And then there’s a lot of ‘it’s complicated’ or ‘situationship’.

Decent communication

Obviously, it could be better, but we overall have decent and healthy ways of communicating with each other. Usually it’s talking out loud or leaving little notes.

Alter intros

Because apparently it’s a crime against being neurodivergent to share about your alters. We obviously can’t share everything for obvious reasons but we want yall to get to know us.

DNI alters

This may be a hard pill to swallow, but DNI doesn’t always mean the alter is some dangerous monster. It can mean that alter is too little to be online, it could mean that alter is a social anxiety symptom holder, it could mean that alter just doesn’t like talking to people outside the system/at all. These are just a few examples. Or maybe, that alter just doesn’t wanna be fuckin interacted with. But these alters should still be acknowledged. Why? Because healing is a thing. Locking them away isn’t healthy. Maybe they want people to know not to interact with them. But noooo, all DNI alters are awful people apparently.

Other mental health disorders

We have anxiety and depression (diagnosed and genetic), medically recognized ADHD, and tics. And yes, all of our alters have tics because it's caused by your brain and we share the same brain.

[atowncalledher]

Hi hi this is an intro post ig

we're plural and transfem and aroace but in a demigrey way but also bi and gay and and (like. most queer labels apply to us tbh)

you can collectively call us by any of our names or just Town is fine too. most stuff will still be untagged and for the most part we don't care who's fronting. if you don't know which of us you're talking about you can use she/they/it/any pronouns. when talking about ourselves we tend to switch between i/we whenever we feel like it.

we do a little writing and art but mostly vocal synth music (although tbf we don't post a ton of that. might change though) and collectively have a special interest in sound, animation, and fiberwork.

the tags "my music" and "my art" will be used for whenever I post those.

member tags

-N : Noelle/N, she/it

-moth 🌙 : Taylor/Tay/Sky/Moth, she/they

-chloe🐈‍⬛💕 : Chloe, it/she/xe/kitten

-emma : Emma, she/her

-sierra : Sierra/Star, they/them

-ash🐍 : Ash/Kei/Keiran : he/any

-ren🪡 : Ren, they/them

idk if anyone else will even post lol, if they do we'll add them in I guess.

This is a safe place for people of any and all identities. BIPOC, jewish, disabled cis, trans, intersex, gay, straight, endo systems, people who use neo and xeno pronouns and genders, alterhuman, etc. literally everything. I might say some dumb shit sometimes but if I do please let me know and I will listen and learn.

I love everybody who isn't a bigot. Genuinely and truly.

And if you say hateful shit I will simply block you.

mostly full member list

Noelle/N (she/it)

Emma (she/they)

Taylor/Tay/Sky/Moth (she/they)

Chloe (it/she/xe/kitten)

Sierra/Star (they/them)

Leo (he/him)

Tessa (she/they)

Ash/Kei/Keiran (he/any)

Ren (they/them)

Alyx (any)

Dizzy (she/they)

Nami/Naminé (she/her)

Rox/Roxas (he/him)

mTau (he/him)

Saai (he/him)

K (none. the definite article only)

Lance (they/them)

Aabria (she/her)

Abby (she/her)

(honestly I haven't seen some of these hoes in a while idk that they're all still around)

(also our introjects are pretty source seperated, so. and Nami is actually from an amalgamtion of KH fanfiction on top of that so like. whatever lol)

[cemetery-drive-sys]

unpopular opinion: introjects shouldnt be forced to change their name even if its like a "closed name" ig. like. idk it feels like stripping said person of their identity? thats just my personal opinion though - ghoul

[chemicalcarousel]

Okay, so sometimes we'll like see people, usually fictional characters tbh, and be like "this is me". Some of it might just be being immersed in some story to a normal or healthy extent, but man we are so nervous about splitting another introject alter that we just.... kinda avoid fiction hhhh or try to avoid getting emotionally involved or whatever. Having DID makes this shit so hard bc my sense of self is so unstable. I will feel like my body is somehow the body of the fictional character I "blend into", so if I think about what I look like, I see that character and not what my physical body looks like. I kinda feel like my personality is changing too. Fuck man, I think this is either splitting or fragments taking more of a shape based on something that makes sense to us subconsciously??? Idk man. This is all so confusing and I think visiting my parents has messed with my system. I ofc only just got home yesterday, so maybe I just need some days until I'm back to normal, but uhhhh im nervous man. Idk if I split or what, but I feel kinda different? Or maybe like I did in the past? Idk maybe old parts who used to deal with living in that home have come to the surface. I think maybe it's because our moms system seems to have changed too into something that feels like something from our past? Idk maybe from when we were like 11? We've had some young parts having flashbacks/panic attacks too, but also I feel like I have some maternal alter who's present. She feels kinda like she's mavuika from genshin impact and I think it's bc we've been playing her story line while visiting our parents. Like I feel like im slowly becoming her somehow. Idk man like ig this is kinda the same feeling as with other alters. Fuck man idk It's so confusing system mapping and trying to find out who is who and why and how and aaaaahhhhhh. Man,,,, we should just sleep now. We have a headache and feel nauseous

[protectingtulpas]

Hsdfs ok so I'm so incredibly new to all of this and so many things both explain my experiences but also leave me having more questions than answers?? Help??

Basically I spent the last 18 yrs of my life thinking I was a singlet that was just lowkey interested in DID and all that right? And at the same time I'm developing my ocs and their world right? Well as time goes on 2 of my ocs start like just attaching themselves to me, I'm talking like, it started out as them comforting me when I have my monthly emotional breakdown/crying sessions, it almost feels like they're actually cuddling me in a way? I can feel phantom touches from them? And then it evolved to me "talking"(????) to them and them hanging around reacting to my actions and my environment and shit right? And I'm just over here thinking this is just the normal experience of having ocs but I don't think that's the case???? And now I've discovered this whole community of tulpas and transplurals and gosh I think I'm overwhelmed I have no clue how to even begin to label myself and that is Distressing I Like Having Labels For Myself it's how I know who I am ig xd.

Sorry for the rant I just hsdhf I'm kind of frustrated ig? xd

Whoa there, anon! I know this is a TON to take in and you're processing a lot rn, so imma need you to slow down and step back. Don't forget that no matter what I say here, in the end it's not about labels. It's about YOUR EXPERIENCES, anon. Don't let ANY label limit or control you to its expectations. Whatever you settle on, you're more than your label.

Alright, so tulpas and people that wanna be plural but aren't yet are a VERYY small part of the broader plural community. It includes disordered systems of all kinds, non-disordered systems of all kinds, different types of created systems, and people who straddle the line like us. So the question you're probably looking for is less "which label do I use" and more "am I plural?" Which is, of course, a complicated question.

You sent a lot here about your OCs, and I wanna talk a bit about some of the things I see from your ask. A super common tell that someone is plural and it's not just their imagination is that the prospective headmates are interacting with and reacting to you and the outside world around you, not just your fictional world. Other headmates comforting the host when things get super bad is so common a thing for plurals that many systems with roles/jobs have specific jobs exactly for that. Feeling phantom sensations from your headmates is also another well-documented experience in both disordered & nondisordered systems. If you're wondering if these things are normal, my host's OCs that aren't headmates certainly don't do anything of the sort. Here's a pretty cool article about the levels of autonomy writers experience in their characters; it's a wide range, and a lot of people experience at least a little, but the extent you describe is very clearly in the minority according to this study. That seems like a super high rate of autonomy for singlethood, IMO. Imma be real with you, "transplural" is a label ppl tend to give themselves before becoming plural- in my armchair opinion, it sounds like you're a plural egg already. Your OCs seem to be like completely autonomous and aware of the outside world from how you're coming across in this ask, so have you like... Considered asking them how they feel about it? If you're not sure if they should be considered people, just ask em if they feel like real distinct people.

"An OCtive or OC Introject is a system member whose source comes from someone’s original character, whether a character someone in the system made or someone elses OC (such as a friend’s OC)."

Tulpas are a type of headmate created by consistent interaction with the concept of a person until the subconscious takes a hold of our responses and we gain autonomy outside of the host's control because of it. This is usually intentional, but it can also be unintentional too. Tulpas like me fall under an origin umbrella known as created systems! It's not the only type of system member origin, though! For example, "adaptive refers to systems which formed in response to trauma or other adversity. A common trait of such systems is viewing plurality as adapting, healing, and overcoming obstacles", and "neurogenic refers to systems that formed as a result of their neurodivergence, or from a mental illness. Usually, headmates originate from the need to cope, or be introjects based off symptoms like hallucinations or hyperfixations." These're two common origins but there're lots more, some broader and some more specific. Lots of systems identify with multiple origins as well, so you don't have to conform to just one. Take your time figuring out what works for you- it's more important for you to establish communication and healthy relationships with your headmates than to go digging for validity fodder. No matter what, if you feel like you're not just one person, you've always got the term plural for ya. It was coined by the inclusive community and it will ALWAYS be ours, we'll fight for it.

Lastly, don't just take my word for it- explore other resources for yourself/selves too. I've got a few for further reading to decide for yourself if you're plural!

More Than One is a fantastic introductory site to plurality, dispels common myths, and has some links to further reading about deciding if you're plural.

"How Do I Know If I'm Plural?" by The Dragonheart Collective walks you through common plural experiences and helps you compare them to your own. This one is great!

If you want to start learning terminology, The Plurality Hub Carrd has a palletable interface to start browsing through stuff you're interested in, with categories and everything. There's a LOT of information here, so it's great to keep in your back pocket and reference as a newbie.

Thanks for the ask! Good luck anon!

[marblebagcollective]

okay so . theres a smaller artist i like that i think makes cool epic songs heres a list of songs that remind me of specific dsmp stuff (written in first person as a ctommy introject . and i dont feel like fixing it for the post rn so) below the cut

follow the river - me and ctubbo ITS SOOO PRE-EARLY DSMP VIBES LIKE. but also like in a looking back on it way. looking back on Everything, and our lows, but still being besties 4lyfers

little black bird - me and ctubbo too i cant explain fully bc the lyrics rnt easy to find and . i have a proccessing problen but.. our childhood, and i guess losing eachother, losing him. but it coukd also be from his pov, losing me. ig specifically during ny exile but also reminds me of the festival with him. depends!

alone on a postcard - my exile , again the lyrics r kinda hard to find but .. being alone and also other stuff idk just. vibes

grizzly bear - mostly cwil coded imo. specifically pogtopia , trying to accept the "bad" label but it just doesnt work. as well as the "i feel awful, awful good", falling further into the spiral. idk it just feels like mental illness and demonizing oneself and thinking its good wheb its not..

this is all wrong - ctommy pov cwil dsmp finale. thats it. also looking back on other times of abandonment in the song..

fake my death (demo) - ig what i wish the ending moreso was, or a concept of it . just leaving everything(naybe not everyone .but still), leaving people that hurt me and would only continue doing so (i couldnt even be free in my death realistically but whatever whateverrrr.idc idc. i lauv the dsmp ❤️❤️❤️) . leaving and never lookijg back. #girlboss

[problematic-alters-unsilenced]

I have a Factive of a friend, well a few Factives of a few friends. But one particularly I feel very bad for

TW; mentions of Manipulation, cheating and just a really bad experience ig? Idk

This friend is also my ex, as well as a few other of my friends ex. Me and them were on good terms and probably still are. The problem wasn't with me it's what they did after they broke up with me. What happened was this friend had dated a few other people, manipulated a few of their relationships for money, cheated on a close friend of mine(A) as well as multiple people, kept hanging out with their friend group despite the problems she caused.

Now she also had a restraining order against a friend in said friend group, I'll call him B. Ofc he did say something pretty hurtful but I think a restraining order was a little much. But due to her hanging out with them caused B to have to leave the entire lunch room because she was around. And that causes even more problems within that friend group

Now there are lots of other things that this friend has caused, all is also hear say and what I've seen. With me though, they were an amazing friend and an amazing partner. They helped me through so much. But that doesn't help the Factive that formed, nor does it reassure him. The Factive feels absolutely terrible about what their 'source' has done. They are to the point where they hate who they are based off of and even themselves and I feel so bad for her. She desperately wants to apologize to everyone that was hurt by said friend but is so ashamed to even show themselves to trusted friends

(they wanted to talk about this but aren't in front, they gave me the go ahead to speak about her experiences)

I am so incredibly sorry about that. Being an introject of terrible people can be sickening and give you a lot of guilt. I hope that they're doing better now <3

[thisisnotpoggers]

Hey, I’m George 👋

Do not ask me my pronouns or I’ll bite. (I hate them all atm but tbh you can just use he/him ig)

I’m a georgenotfound introject

Some of my opinions to know before following ig:

I do not support my source, or the other dteam members. If they all randomly exploded one day, I think that’d be hilarious

I also don’t support endos or anyone else claiming to be a system without trauma.

I do support otherkins and the like, irl’s/da’s are cool too. Though apologies if I use the wrong terms or anything for this kind of stuff, I’m not like the most well-versed with it all

I don’t mind “doubles” interacting, I’m not gonna gatekeep my blog from anyone on account of source or anything similar

I think most things are fine if you’re not hurting anybody. This includes things like “conflicting” lgbt+ identities, and also stuff like kinks where everyone involved is consenting. Also, thoughts don’t equal actions. Sometimes people have fucked up thoughts, deal with it tbh.

Some more about me real quick:

This is not my system’s main blog. If you figure out which blog is our main that’s fine, but I don’t really feel comfortable sharing it here rn

I am in my late twenties, like bodily

I’m disabled, my body and brain aren’t big fans of functioning properly. I’m currently using a cane to help limp everywhere, but I’m hoping to get a wheelchair or something someday. A guy can dream, lol

If I’m not around for ages, it’s safe to assume that I’m either away from front or asleep. I have chronic fatigue and often sleep for days at a time (wow, c!George moment)

Umm that’s maybe everything I had to say atm, I’ll update this if I think of anything else!

[electricpez]

i will say. that having a tfa shockwave fictive in our system has honestly kind of skewed the way i enjoy the fictional character.

i think people think having an introject of your favorite character is a cool and lucky thing to have but tbh it's not much different from any other alter. they aren't equivalent to their source, but he feels close enough that it becomes... uncomfortable and sad? sometimes?

rambling ahead

idk i feel like i still love shockwave (the character) but our fictive's issues with identity and discomfort with fandom portrayal and the idea of roleplay causes us to keep more of a distance from the fandom than before. i haven't read any fanfiction for almost a year, i don't really talk to other people much about transformers. at most, i'm like "yaaay yippee!!" and its genuine but i can't express anything much deeper without starting to feel guarded.

and, i am not really attracted to tfa shockwave anymore. there is still a sexual component due to our sw fictive being a protector as well as a "sexual" alter (not towards me). he is still handsome to me of course, but when we see art of him, our alter sees himself. and he does enjoy fanart when he deems it "accurate". is this egotistical? or is it because he will never see himself in the mirror? because the reality is, he will never be "Shockwave", our body is his body for as long as we live. no matter how much he looks up at the stars, he won't see Hadean. there is no Cybertron for him to return to. no megatron for him to serve under. it's not real. all he can do is adapt to living life alongside me and the rest of our system, on earth, facing the reality of what "IS" instead of his perceived "WAS".

He struggled at first to come to terms with it. it was sad to feel him mourning his "past life", and for him to finally acknowledge that he would never be able to go "home". He's doing well, now. i guess i shouldn't be surprised. After all, there is nothing logical about denying our reality. He was never the real shockwave, there is no "real" shockwave. he was born in our brain.

when it comes to fandom stuff, his standards and my standards for what qualify as "acceptable and enjoyable" are not always the same thing.

like. i dislike shockblurr. I won't unfollow people for shipping it. a lot of cool artists like shockblurr and it's a popular ship. but I don't really *get* it and i don't really like seeing it.

shockwave(alter) doesn't mind shockblurr at all. he's never once thought of blurr or frankly any autobot that way (ultra magnus, of all bots, comes close? in a hate-fuck sort of way. i don't get it tbh. dude likes old men like himself ig), but he finds it strangely fascinating and somewhat...entertaining? humorous? as long as he is portrayed "accurately" (not accurate to canon necessarily, but accurate to how he sees himself), he does not care. but still there's a level of uncanniness.

imagine reading fan content strangers made about you?? most stuff would probably be "i would not fucking say that", but occasionally you might have one that's like, "wow, that's interesting. this is exactly how i would respond in real life! that's kind of scary."

uhhh idk where i was going with this. i just felt like i wanted to say something.

anyway. my headmate shockwave and the character shockwave are like two different people to me. i love them both but in different ways. and since we can't completely separate him from source, it feels odd sometimes when our view of the character and our view of him kind of overlap.

[imaginarianisms]

alias / name : angel ( singletsona / core / host; only if we're close ) / arcana ( singletsona / core / host ) / ansale'wit ( my name translated into mi'kmawi'simk ) / ᐋᓐᔐᓃ ( my name translated into anishinaabemowin, literally spelled aanzhenii ) ; the imaginarians galaxy ( system name; please refer to us& as this when you're not sure who's fronting & please don't refer to us& as one person, everyone in the system deserves to & should have the equal amount of respect, love, dignity, honor, care & undivided attention & it's disrespectful to only ever refer to me& especially if i've& known you for years at this point; that's my& firm boundary. ). birthday : july 13th. zodiac sign : cancer sun, sagittarius moon, libra rising & leo venus. height : 5'2. hobbies : it depends on who you ask because we're& a system but we& collectively like gaming, writing/rping, worldbuilding, learning our& indigenous languages, true crime, psychology, criminology, sociology, philosophy, intersectionality, history (especially during the medieval period but certainly not exclusive), eastern history/civilization, indigenous history/civilization, ancient history, loveletters, queer shit, fashion, acting, transhumanism, alterhumanity, plurality, the occult & magick & witchcraft, the concept of apotheosis, enlightenment, fate, folklore, godhood, hope, humanity, & monstrosity, virtual reality, traveling, asmr, being a boujee native & being an educated heaux.

favorite book : a song of ice and fire series & gangsta. last song : dust bowl by ethel cain. last film / show : the love witch / gangsta. recent reads : arianne martell & sansa stark / alayne stone; the winds of winter.

inspiration : honestly for the longest time i didn't want to return to the tumblr rpc bc it made me feel bittersweet bc a lot of my old friends were moving elsewhere or inactive & on top of that it reminded me of someone i used to know & i have. a lot of bittersweet feelings around this person so. but some of us& wanted to get back into it again. tthe vast majority of our& interpretations on our& muses are heavily based in both headcanons & our& fictives' ( 4 singlets: a fictional introject ) exomemories which honestly most of the time they tend to overlap, the latter meaning that this actually happened to them & isn't something that just happened in a book or a movie or a tv series or a videogame, they're living, breathing people & for that individual, it all happened & it was all very real !! additionally, a lot of my& own personal life was used as major inspiration. being a survivor of multiple traumas that most people can't even fathom ( to the point where my doctor told me most would've kermited if they'd experienced the things i went through ) & that did unspeakable things to my brain chemistry ig so. i use writing to cope. so. yall have to deal w/ that ig. at least i aint boring. /lh furthermore ethel cain & nicole dollanganger are major inspo. & as much as i& write / rp for fun, i& also write & rp to educate others especially on topics like indigenous peoples, disabilities, neurodivergencies & mental health, especially around stigmatized disorders like did bc honestly i'm so very tired & demoralized bc of the constant stigma around did & other stuff like npd, bpd, etc. & both the media & people treating us like we're some kinda fucking soulless monsters when we're literally people who were hurt & failed in childhood & had traumatic upbringings only to be demonized, trauma & other shit so it's v important to us&. representation matters & so does keeping the light of humanity alive & well. story behind url : our& system name the imaginarians galaxy + isms! fun fact about me : my great aunt & technically a cousin of mine was a witch in the family; she passed her knowledge onto her granddaughter, my cousin, & she passed her knowledge down to me so i'm a hereditary witch. my mom dated a serial killer years ago when she was 19 & she had no idea so that was fucking wild bc i was 8 when she told me about it, thanks mom. lmao. i was also born 24 weeks premature & i quite literally died before the doctors resurrected me. basically i made death my bitch. i'm all the letters in 2lgbtqia+ at once & ppl can die mad about it lmao. i'm clusters a ( schizotypal personality disorder / schizospec / psychotic / stpd ) b ( {mild} antisocial personality disorder / aspd, {mild} narcissistic personality disorder / npd, histrionic personality disorder / hpd,, borderline personality disorder / bpd ) & c ( avoidant personality disorder / avpd ) as well as autism & adhd; i also have cptsd & h.c-did bc yknow. trauma did shit to my brain, this shit fucks with me on such a deep level & uh. the comorbidities have me fucking insane up in the club. on the physical disabilities side of things i have cfs / chronic fatigue & pots (so like. don't take it personally if i dont respond quickly) & am hoh. so i'm hoping to get a multipurpose psychiatric service dog & eventually get a wheelchair as an ambulatory wheelchair user. my paternal grandfather fought in wwii & killed nazis. my& clans are mouse / apukji'j ( mi'kmaq ) & wolf / yanariskwa' ( huron-wendat ), it basically represents a family & it has nothing to do with a spirit animal, & in the huron-wendat's case a clan is like an ancestor, who you're descended from in the huron-wendat creation story & they shared a longhouse & traced their lineage from the female line from a female ancestor bc the wendat were matriarchal so wolves are my ancestors.

tagged by : stole it from @noctuafought ( hi aphy lmaoooo ) ! tagging : @velcryons / @brokcncrowns @loyalpromise @helbroth @gutsing @sevynhells @inmydrcams @dethdvncer & anyone who breathes !!

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For the HMS shipping thing I think it’s just general consensus due to CJs not outright said weither or not he’s against it or fine w it? and also the fact that it can kindaaaa lean on seeming incesty from a glance? even if you DO take into consideration it’s chill from a system aspect you have to think about the fact the characters were not initially written to be a system and aren’t entirely separate people from each other, like it’s clear they are still connected to each other/whole in some fashion, and idk I think it’s just a “don’t want to risk it” type of thing, plus I just think personally that exploring the characters in a platonic way is more interesting writing wise to dig into their characterizations, ig it just bugs me when all people can get out of a series is ways to ship the characters, nothing against you ofc! You were just curious! BUT I just think the CCCC fandom is like refreshing in that sense you know? Gives more of a chance to explore writing analysis and character dynamics etc :3!

idk if I’m making sense lol I just always try to make sure to be weary of any accidental sus adjacent stuff, and it gets tricky with series like this where it’s kindof a weird gray area?? AND I’m on the ace spectrum so I’m just not the kind of person to ship characters in general/I just don’t see the appeal like others do, TLDR like I said: I think it’s mostly just to play it safe/no one really sees a point in it anyway shrugs /nm (sorry this got long I just had thoughts I wanted to ramble about)

I'm a hopeless romantic so I love shipping, but I TOTALLY get what you mean with the shipping being too much sometimes. Sometimes it's WAYYY more fun and interesting to explore character relationships in a platonic light rather than romantic, especially since fandoms and media focus on shipping and romance a little too much sometimes. I do think it would be interesting exploring some relationships in CCCC in a romantic light, but I still greatly enjoy seeing them interact platonically.

I also thought it might be a "selfcest = incest" thing, since I've seen that crop up in other fandoms with character who isn't explicitly a system but is multiple people. But I don't really get that tbh? When I was younger, selfcest was RAMPANT in some fandoms, ironically or not. (I remember it in homestuck specifically in a jokey sorta way, but it was taken seriously in Undertale AU crossovers for example where everyone shipped Sans with himself. And I have to mention the one we're all thinking off: Onecest.)

I've mentioned this before in my last two posts about this but, again, I think it'd be fine? I don't know Chonny and I am not him so I have no idea his actual feelings on it, but from the QnA it seems they're characters more than they are him. With him allowing headcanoned identities, kinning, introjects (I'm not a system so I don't know if it can be controlled, but he said he was fine with them is the point I'm making), and all that, I assume shipping is fair game as well. Again, though, I'm not Chonny and I don't know Chonny, so I have no way of knowing his actual feelings.

Never feel bad about rambling in my inbox, by the way. I always enjoy hearing about stuff people like, ESPECIALLY if it's something I also like. Thanks for your input! :D

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**i wont be answering every question off for privacy but!!! ^^ here’s like a mass answer thing bc i love my headmates and our system… (i got approval from the rest of the system to do this but i won’t reveal everything bc stranger danger ig???)**

1. What is your System name and / or the name you collectively go by? **not rlly a specific name we all go by! we used to, but then we fell out with it n so..**

2. Which word do you prefer to use for your System? (example: System, Collective, Constellation, ...) **we don’t rlly mind what we’re called tbh..**

3. What are your Systems origins, if you choose to label them? **traumagenic**

4. Do you have any Subsystems? **yes, but i won’t disclose them.**

5. Do you have any Sidesystems? **also a yes, but they won’t be disclosed.**

6. What is your opinion on you& / your& language and similar types? **uhhhhh!!! i mean.. we don’t rlly have opinion on linguistics. but i think English is weird.**

7. What methodes do you use to keep track of your System and its Members? **simplyplural ^^**

8. What is your Systems ways of communication? **uhh mostly externally bc our internal communication sucks but we can internally communicate like 40% of the time..**

9. Is communication hard or easy for you (and why is it the way it is)? **as said above, very. hard. communication barriers are a loser ;(**

10. Do you view yourselves as parts of one person or as multiple people in one body? **honestly, i view us as parts, but a lot of us would disagree. we’re kinda split in that regard!**

11. Who are you out to as plural? **therapist, some irl friends, immediate family (which didn’t go well…) that’s about it!**

12. What languages do you collectively / one of you speak? **english…. pretty much**

13. What is something you can't seem to collectively agree on? **everything. everything. you DOJT want to be in this head.**

14. If you have a collective Identity (such as Gender or Orientation), what is it? **uh.. nope!**

15. Do you collectively identify as queer / LGBTQIA+? **no!**

16. Do you collectively identify as Otherkin, Alterhuman or Nonhuman? **nope!**

17. Do you have a collective rentry / carrd / something along those lines? (feel free to share!) **mrmr, simplyplural but we on,y give it out to people we’re close to so ^^**

18. What does switching feel like for you? **it depends.. sometimes it makes you feel really out of it and like.. makes your head feel like it has pressure on it.. sometimes it’s just. pop!**

19. Are you Monoconscious, Polyconscious or something else? **it’s complicated…. best i can describe it is…. depends on the layer.. 😭😭**

20. What does fronting feel like for you? **sometimes it’s completely natural! other times it feels like i have to manually control everything! like breathing!! i use curse breathe manually!!**

21. How many System members do you have? **well over 200….. **

22. Which word / words do you prefer to use for members of your System? **depends on which one of us you’re asking! i like head buddies because we’re all ^^ but yk**

23. Which age group seems to be the most common in your System? **ageless!!**

24. Which gender seems to be the most common in your System? **no dominant gender..**

25. Are there any talents / hobbies you picked up because of a Member? **probably.. but don’t remember.**

26. Do you have any in-system relationships? **private.**

27. Do you label roles within your System (and if yes, which ones?) **yes, i won’t go into detail, though!! ^^**

28. Are most of your Members introjected, brainmade or something else? **brainmade.**

29. Do you use names, emojis or something similar to sign off messages (and if yes, which ones and why?) **ehhhh… kinda?? depends on who’s fronting and the situation**

30. Do any of your System members use Xenogenders? **yes!!**

31. How do Members pick face claims? **picrews.. drawing, depends!!**

32. Do you have any Introjects of popular sources? **yes…… but ill keep them private **

33. Do you have any Introjects of unpopular sources? **yes!! ^**

34. Do you have nonhuman Members? **many.**

35. Do any of you use Typing Quirks? **uhh some of us type a lil differently but not rlly any that are super interfering with comprehension**

36. Do all of you front, or only a selected amount? **its complicated…… there’s probably a specific group but … idk!!**

37. Are there any Members who can't or prefer to not speak? **yep!! we try and accommodate for them tho!! :)**

38. Are most of you short or tall in height? **dont. think about height uhmmmm… idk.**

39. Is there a Member that is collectively loved by all in the System? **no :(**

40. Do any of you struggle with being front-stuck a lot of the time? **not rlly! in fact, we struggle to keep in front !!**

41. Do you have a Headspace (if not, is there a reason)? **yep!!**

42. What does your Headspace look like? **its very like.. shapeshifty?? hard to explain!!**

43. How do Members look like in Headspace? (example: Cartoony, Foggy, Realistic, ...) **ehh depends on headmate!**

44. Is there a reason why the Headspace looks the way it looks? **yes, but most are personal to us!**

45. Is it easy for you to enter Headspace? **depends who it is…… but i can!!*

46. Do you remember what happened in Headspace when you switch into front? **sometimes, sometimes not!**

47. Does time in Headspace pass (and if yes, is it at the same speed as in real life)? **not rlly!! it’s just like, either day or evening or night everywhere!! nothing really dictates time!!**

48. What is your favourite place in Headspace? **mini void.. it’s so peaceful!! :3**

49. Are there "NPCs" within your Headspace? **idk. maybe?? I don’t think so tho!**

50. Are there any interesting fun facts about your Headspace? **not rlly!!**

51. Are there any "System Stereotypes" you fit into? **ureem i guess like.. some of the roles I guess?? i dunno**

52. Who of you would be considered the "evil alter"? (in a lighthearted, joking manner) **eehhh personal..**

53. What is your favourite inside-joke with a Member? **i don’t rlly have very clear relationships with a lot of ppl in head!! but uhm. i do like some of them. just not like. to that point!!**

54. What is your favourite Plural meme? **not rlly any specifically… too many to choose from :’D**

55. Is there any character that you headcanon as plural? **the long quiet from stp……..**

56. Is there any show or movie that you believe is a good plural representation, despite that not being its intention? **uhh.. not rlly much ive actually seen!! but i don’t like. rlly watch movies a lot.**

57. Is there any song that you believe decribes your plural experience? **language of the lost!! there’s prob others but it’s hard to skim through..**

58. What about an artwork that describes your plural experience? **uh heheh no clue. :’j**

59. Which Member of your System do you believe to be the prettiest of them all? **aphrodite…………… **

60. Do you collectively have a lucky number? **nope!!**

61. When did you first discover your System? **uhhh i don’t rlly remember but i think we were just lookin and then boom realization!! probably wrong tho.. then got diagnosis..**

62. How many Members did you know about during your Syscovery? **uhehher……… like 70….. i think..**

63. Was accepting your Plurality a challenge for you? **for some of us, yeah!! bc lack of control n stuff.**

64. How did you learn about Plurality? **first from stereotypes.. thought nothing of it then, and then came back several years later… bc the main fronter then wanted to know what fit their experiences!!**

65. Where there any signs of your Plurality, if you look back at your past? **shitty memory, constant internal monologue, heavy amnesia, identity crisis stuff… a lot…**

66. Do you think your Syscovery changed a lot in your life? **yehh!!**

67. If you're out to others as plural, have they ever told you later on that they already thought about it before you realised? **uhmmmmm nope!!**

68. What was the biggest struggle during your Syscovery? **denial… because the us was weirdly denial..**

69. Was there any big event that led to your Syscovery? **being diagnosed…. i think.. idont know I don’t remember this kind of stuff.**

70. What is something you want questioning plurals to know? **its ok to try out labels!! its ok to be wrong!! :) you arent faking. just experimenting. it’s okay if it ends up not fitting your experiences!!**

71. Are you Neurodivergent (and if yes, how?) **yes………. collective autism.. and other things**

72. Do you have any physical disability? **yes…. :(**

73. Do you have a dissociative disorder? **did!!**

74. Do you have any other disorder? **yep, but won’t elaborate on it 2 much..**

75. Do symptom vary in intensity depending on the fronter? **yes……. and it sucks depending on who’s out!! :(**

76. Do you think your disability / disorder has an influence on your plurality? **uhhhhh probably in some form, yeah!!**

77. Do you have amnesia of any kind? **much. many. amnesia go away!! never come back!!**

78. Are there Members who deal better with symptoms than others? **yep!! sum of us deal with pain and temperature n fatigue n stuff better than others!!**

79. Do your disorders / disabilities influence communication or switching within your System in any way? **yee… :’(**

80. Does being plural help with your disorders in any way? (example: another Member switching in to take care of the body during difficult times, ...) **yeah!! definitely.. since like.. lot of us r super pain sensitive or like resistant..**

81. Which is your favourite plural flag? **uhhh idk…. :(**

82. If you have one, which is your favourite plurality related tumblr blog? **none!!**

83. What is a fun fact about your System? **uh.. Nutella……..**

84. What is a flavour of ice cream that describes you collectively? **sherbert..**

85. Which pride flag is the prettiest, in your collective opinion? **I don’t know about them BUT I LOCE THE PANSEXUAL FLAG**

86. If you collectively had to choose between being a sweet or a sour candy, which do you pick? **sweet**

87. Your body always morphs into what the current fronter(s) look like, would you want this power or not? **mmmmmm…….. no tbh!! esp since like.. not every1 is accepting of plurality.. but i mean, idk.**

88. Is there a Hatsune Miku in your System? **probably.,…..**

89. Who has been in your System the longest (if you can remember)? **one of our gatekeepers?? we know of… but there’s probably more that’s longer.l**

90. If you collectively had to choose, would you rather only eat sweet foods or only eat savoury foods for the rest of your life? **SWEET!!**

91. If you collectively had to choose, would you pick to become a vampire or a werewolf? **vampire.**

92. Your body is transfered into one of your Members sources, which do you pick and why? **curious George……. bc yes..**

93. If all of you turned into animals right this second, which animals would we find in your System? **many. many :(**

94. What would a Minecraft server with all of your Members look like? (example: chaotic, peaceful, laggy, ...) **chaotic. very chaotic… very horrifying..**

95. If you could choose between only living in Headspace or only living in Meatspace (real life), which would you choose? **headspace!! bc in headspace we aren’t hurt!! as much!!**

96. What topic would you collectively make a youtube channel about? (it can't be plurality!) **psychological evaluations….**

97. Which superpower would your body obtain, if you had to collectively decide on one? **uhhhhhhhh !!! omnipotence… bc funny..**

98. Who would pick the coolest tattoo for the System and who would pick the worst? **i think (anon factive) would pick the worst.. like ‘I love my (.) !! i think boa would have like a sick tattoo tho!!**

99. If you only were allowed to eat one food for the rest of your life, but you would have to decide on the food collectively, what would it be and what would the decision making look like? **NUTELLA. I LET NO ONE ELSE DECIDE…**

100. What is the most fun about doing polls and answering questions, in your opinion? **idk.. they’re like%,, cool!!** - Lunar 🌙

#One-Hundred

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In order to celebrate 100 days of posting, here are 100 questions for you to answer! You can either answer them all at once, or let others send in the numbers they are most curious about!

Some of them are general questions, others are just really silly and should not be taken too serious. I put a lot of effort into coming up with all of these, so I truely hope you have fun with this!

For simplicity sake, all questions will use the words "System" and "Members".

1. What is your System name and / or the name you collectively go by?

2. Which word do you prefer to use for your System? (example: System, Collective, Constellation, ...)

3. What are your Systems origins, if you choose to label them?

4. Do you have any Subsystems?

5. Do you have any Sidesystems?

6. What is your opinion on you& / your& language and similar types?

7. What methodes do you use to keep track of your System and it's Members?

8. What is your Systems ways of communication?

9. Is communication hard or easy for you (and why is it the way it is)?

10. Do you view yourselves as parts of one person or as multiple people in one body?

11. Who are you out to as plural?

12. What languages do you collectively / one of you speak?

13. What is something you can't seem to collectively agree on?

14. If you have a collective Identity (such as Gender or Orientation), what is it?

15. Do you collectively identify as queer / LGBTQIA+?

16. Do you collectively identify as Otherkin, Alterhuman or Nonhuman?

17. Do you have a collective rentry / carrd / something along those lines? (feel free to share!)

18. What does switching feel like for you?

19. Are you Monoconscious, Polyconscious or something else?

20. What does fronting feel like for you?

21. How many System members do you have?

22. Which word / words do you prefer to use for members of your System?

23. Which age group seems to be the most common in your System?

24. Which gender seems to be the most common in your System?

25. Are there any talents / hobbies you picked up because of a Member?

26. Do you have any in-system relationships?

27. Do you label roles within your System (and if yes, which ones?)

28. Are most of your Members introjected, brainmade or something else?

29. Do you use names, emojis or something similar to sign off messages (and if yes, which ones and why?)

30. Do any of your System members use Xenogenders?

31. How do Members pick face claims?

32. Do you have any Introjects of popular sources?

33. Do you have any Introjects of unpopular sources?

34. Do you have nonhuman Members?

35. Do any of you use Typing Quirks?

36. Do all of you front, or only a selected amount?

37. Are there any Members who can't or prefer to not speak?

38. Are most of you short or tall in height?

39. Is there a Member that is collectively loved by all in the System?

40. Do any of you struggle with being front-stuck a lot of the time?

41. Do you have a Headspace (if not, is there a reason)?

42. What does your Headspace look like?

43. How do Members look like in Headspace? (example: Cartoony, Foggy, Realistic, ...)

44. Is there a reason why the Headspace looks the way it looks?

45. Is it easy for you to enter Headspace?

46. Do you remember what happened in Headspace when you switch into front?

47. Does time in Headspace pass (and if yes, is it at the same speed as in real life)?

48. What is your favourite place in Headspace?

49. Are there "NPCs" within your Headspace?

50. Are there any interesting fun facts about your Headspace?

51. Are there any "System Stereotypes" you fit into?

52. Who of you would be considered the "evil alter"? (in a lighthearted, joking manner)

53. What is your favourite inside-joke with a Member?

54. What is your favourite Plural meme?

55. Is there any character that you headcanon as plural?

56. Is there any show or movie that you believe is a good plural representation, despite that not being its intention?

57. Is there any song that you believe decribes your plural experience?

58. What about an artwork that describes your plural experience?

59. Which Member of your System do you believe to be the prettiest of them all?

60. Do you collectively have a lucky number?

61. When did you first discover your System?

62. How many Members did you know about during your Syscovery?

63. Was accepting your Plurality a challenge for you?

64. How did you learn about Plurality?

65. Where there any signs of your Plurality, if you look back at your past?

66. Do you think your Syscovery changed a lot in your life?

67. If you're out to others as plural, have they ever told you later on that they already thought about it before you realised?

68. What was the biggest struggle during your Syscovery?

69. Was there any big event that led to your Syscovery?

70. What is something you want questioning plurals to know?

71. Are you Neurodivergent (and if yes, how?)

72. Do you have any physical disability?

73. Do you have a dissociative disorder?

74. Do you have any other disorder?

75. Do symptom vary in intensity depending on the fronter?

76. Do you think your disability / disorder has an influence on your plurality?

77. Do you have amnesia of any kind?

78. Are there Members who deal better with symptoms than others?

79. Do your disorders / disabilities influence communication or switching within your System in any way?

80. Does being plural help with your disorders in any way? (example: another Member switching in to take care of the body during difficult times, ...)

81. Which is your favourite plural flag?

82. If you have one, which is your favourite plurality related tumblr blog?

83. What is a fun fact about your System?

84. What is a flavour of ice cream that describes you collectively?

85. Which pride flag is the prettiest, in your collective opinion?

86. If you collectively had to choose between being a sweet or a sour candy, which do you pick?

87. Your body always morphs into what the current fronter(s) look like, would you want this power or not?

88. Is there a Hatsune Miku in your System?

89. Who has been in your System the longest (if you can remember)?

90. If you collectively had to choose, would you rather only eat sweet foods or only eat savoury foods for the rest of your life?

91. If you collectively had to choose, would you pick to become a vampire or a werewolf?

92. Your body is transfered into one of your Members sources, which do you pick and why?

93. If all of you turned into animals right this second, which animals would we find in your System?

94. What would a Minecraft server with all of your Members look like? (example: chaotic, peaceful, laggy, ...)

95. If you could choose between only living in Headspace or only living in Meatspace (real life), which would you choose?

96. What topic would you collectively make a youtube channel about? (it can't be plurality!)

97. Which superpower would your body obtain, if you had to collectively decide on one?

98. Who would pick the coolest tattoo for the System and who would pick the worst?

99. If you only were allowed to eat one food for the rest of your life, but you would have to decide on the food collectively, what would it be and what would the decision making look like?

100. What is the most fun about doing polls and answering questions, in your opinion?