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why is tumblr infested with endos and why are they on my fucking dash

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if I hear "did is rare" [as an argument to why "you can't possibly have it !!"] one more time im going to start fakeclaiming redheads. I swear to god.

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i love you it/its users

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i love you systems :>

i love you npd systems

i love you bpd systems

i love you aspd systems

i love you ocd systems

i love you npd systems who participate in syscourse just for supply

i love you systems who don't interact with other systems at all

i love you symptom holders

i love you overworked hosts

i love you overwhelmed protectors

i love you systems who let themselves feel happy about being a system

i love you systems who think being a system is miserable

i love you systems

i love you systems

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You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

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What the actual fuck

Never thought I’d see the day where a tumbler post would actually make me sick to the stomach, TRANS DISABLED? WHAT THE FUCK. D.I.D isn’t something you want nor can you just give yourself it, this is literally sickening to see people harm themselves like this as well. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT MAKE YOURSELF DO THIS SHIT, you won’t end up with D.I.D but it’s one fast way to hurt yourself and throw yourself into danger.

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IM BACK !

did yall miss me ;3

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ps. this account will still be up but itll be inactive :>

hii everyone!! we are moving accounts!!

new account is @pixelated-poison

not everything there will be sys related and theres gonna be some reblogs / posts of our other interests like image and text decor!!

- Poison (they/she/he)

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hii everyone!! we are moving accounts!!

new account is @pixelated-poison

not everything there will be sys related and theres gonna be some reblogs / posts of our other interests like image and text decor!!

- Poison (they/she/he)

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system culture is somehow using "we" around people that dont know we're a system and "i" around sys spaces

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there's something so raw and soul crushing about spending your late childhood+teen years suicidal then growing up and actually wanting to live, after an ungodly effort, only to see your health deteriorate because of chronic illness.

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shoutout to systems with trauma less commonly talked about in our community

-shoutout to people who grew up in and around the foster care system

-systems who were neglected because their parents prioritized their siblings

-people who have been traumatized by another system

-unwilling loners

-disabled people who've been denied accommodations

-people who have suffered with violent/frightning intrusive thoughts or delusions as long as they can remember

-kids who lost close family members

-people with medical, and also dental trauma

I think sometimes we as a community fall into the "trauma olympics" and forget that lots of things are traumatic to young children. You don't need specific types of trauma to be valid and to deserve care. It's easy to be scared that because you weren't traumatized the same way as someone else that you aren't "really traumatized" or that you're faking your symptoms. But always remember that you were a child, if something bad happened to you and nobody was helping you cope with it, that's enough. Don't invalidate yourself because of trauma that somebody else went through. You are loved, reach out for support if you need it <3

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"hAtE iSn'T pUnK" 'Endogenic systems', I hate you the way I hate the corporations giving out rainbow pens at pride. The way I hate politicians who lie to our faces. The way I hate the system that already demonizes my community, that you are making infinitely fucking worse by claiming to exist in the way you do. I hate you, and I hate that you feel entitled to spaces where you do not belong. You invade our safe spaces, poison the minds of systems still discovering themselves, you claim to WANT the very disorder that causes so much fucking pain and suffering in those that have it.

I hate you, and that may be the most punk thing I can do.

Traumagenic systems, I love you. I love you the way I love my found family. I love you the way a child loves a favorite stuffed animal. I love you like the spilled fragments of diamond that make up the stars in our sky. You deserve a safe space, away from endos. You deserve to heal, whatever that may mean for you specifically.

I love you, and that IS the most punk thing I can do.

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Shout out to everyone who is young and disabled. The judgment that comes with it is so hard especially if you’ve been invalidated for so many years. The fear of using a mobility aid in public and getting stares or nasty comments is something I will never get used to.

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Can anyone who is anti endo reblog this so we know we can trust you? Endos are harassing us on here, breaking dni and we need support from real systems and people who actually give a shit about trauma survivors singlet or not.

I also wanna take this opportunity to coin a new anti endo tag "wild rose" which is the rebel password in final fantasy 2.

Please note we are not looking for sorce mates. Please be nice to us, we have had a rough couple of days with endos invading our space without permission.

(Please follow this dni too.)

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system culture is i wish headspace was clearer :(( please i don’t want to live real life all the time

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