#autism and addiction

[m0untaing0ats]

People on the internet treat autism like it's some cute, childish thing, but like, autism and the trauma that comes with it have literally lead me to severe alcoholism, anger issues and a criminal record.

This post goes out to autistic addicts and autistic people who have personality disorders and autistic people who have hurt people during meltdowns and autistic people who have been in trouble with the law and autistic people who have been diagnosed with every mental illness under the sun only to find out it was autism all along.

You are loved. Your trauma and your reactions to it do not make you a bad person.

[theramblingsofajunkie]

Having autism and being a heroin addict is one hell of a ride

[averageludwig]

Demosolly as fucking ... Bubbline ... From that one universe.... This came to me in a dream and i woke up frantically to draw it. . at . er 2 am on a school day. . cough. I Might have a problem 😁 i cant explain my thought process here if you get it .... You get it. ..

[urpersonalpublicgalaxy]

trying something out

[madrevolting]

the most useless child in the world

[i-am-trans-gwender]

Overly Sarcastic Productions is like crack cocaine for autistic people. (I'm autistic people)

[renmorris]

Trant is interesting in his own rights but fandom gets him wrong IMO. He is not your relatable autistic, he is not infodumping. He’s a literal poverty tourist. He’s taking his son to the site of a massacre in the poorest district in the city like he’s on holiday. He’s one of the moralist quest givers along with the Sunday Friend. Be serious.

[sc3rcasm]

How did I do today?

Were you proud of me? Did I do okay? How did you think I acted today? Was I talkative enough?did I make you happy? Did I make you uncontrollably laugh, like I usually do?

Or

Was I a failure like usual? Did I upset you? Did I act differently today? Did I go non-verbal like the little fucking dumb@ss I am? Did I make you depressed? Did I make you concerned, like I usually do?

do you hate me?

hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me hate me?

do you want me to shut the fvck up? I'll gladly do that for you. I'll do anything for you. I'm afraid I don't have my own personality anymore, can I borrow some of yours? Make myself seem more interesting and likeable for once in my life? Just so I can fit in and do what others do??

I feel myself falling.

[geomimetry]

[zebulontheplanet]

I think people don’t realize the fear and anxiety some people face when taking some medications.

I’m on a benzo. Ativan to be specific. I take it twice a day, every other day, and I sometimes take breaks on weekends from it. I think people don’t realize the utter anxiety I had when I first got on it. Especially the anxiety from the only other person who knows I’m on it, my mother. We were scared. Benzos are a commonly demonized medication. If you’re on it, then you’re automatically seen as a drug addict. If you’re taking it responsibly, no you’re not. If you’re taking it unresponsively and get addicted to it, then you’re a horrible person.

I was scared to get on it. I expressed my concern with my psych, and she was glad I brought it up, and soothed my concern by telling me I could get off of it anytime if I felt uncomfortable.

Medications like benzo’s are extremely demonized. They’re extremely anxiety inducing to be on. To take responsibly. To not get addicted. I have so far been ok, and don’t seem to have a dependence on it, but that doesn’t mean I don’t sometimes doubt myself. Every time I take it because I need it, there’s a little voice in the back of my head telling me I’m an addict. Telling me that I’m only taking it for my own gain and don’t actually need it. There’s this voice telling me all of this, and that’s scary.

Being an addict isn’t a moral failure. But it isn’t bad to not want a struggle on yourself. To not wish years of struggle and harm on yourself. It isn’t bad to not wish you weren’t an addict. To wish that never happens to you.

I am taking my meds responsibly, but that doesn’t mean that I possibly won’t face hardships in the future. That I won’t face possible addiction. That I won’t face doctors not taking me seriously due to it. That I won’t face hardships. There is no guarantee.

We need to stop demonizing medication that has changed peoples lives. That has possibly saved them. Ativan has changed my life for the better. I’m no longer catatonic all the time, I’m no longer struggling with tasks, and I’m no longer having extreme anxiety attacks. Ativan has changed my life, and although it is a hugely demonized medication, I don’t regret it one bit.

[quixoticanarchy]

against the pathologization of everything. none of my thoughts or behaviors has a medically recognized cause. none of my problems are symptoms. no belief that i evince online is proof of any disease. everything just happens, if it happens for a reason that's between me myself & i. become undiagnosable

[neuroticboyfriend]

i'm not just a person with poly substance use disorder; i am an addict. for me, person first language doesn't describe the depth of addictive personality. i am fundamentally a person who's susceptible to unhealthy drug use - calling myself an addict reminds me of that. it bares my health issues front and center. i think that's why there's so much power in the "Hi, my name is _ and I'm an addict." when you confront who you are like that, it's not only brave, but keeps you on your feet. it's an undeniable expression of everything that led you to addiction.

it's very similar to why some people say they're autistic instead of a person with autism. there are so many traits and struggles that go into it - there's good and bad and neutral. addicts aren't just impulsive, obsessive, and desperate. we're also passionate, driven, and dedicated. even if that's to drugs a lot of the time, even if we get selfish... that passion, drive, and dedication can help us and others; especially in harm reduction, recovery, and community building.

we are neurodivergent. we do have a stake in embracing who we are, our struggles, in a way that empowers us. and calling ourselves addicts, taking away the stigma of the term - as autistic people do - is good. it's not for everyone of course, it's okay to use person first language for any neurodivergency. but it works for some and that deserves support.

and before anyone yells at me: i am autistic. i know what i'm talking about - my experience, and the experience of those similar to me. if this post doesn't resonate with you, that's fine, but it's not my problem. it shouldn't be a problem at all, actually. embrace similarities and differences. that's key to disability liberation.

[unculturedswine69]

Hey yall! im super late with these (ive been...way too busy sadly) but happy birthday to my fave lil guy ever! juza is a very important character to me so i just had to show my love somehow <33

ive been really into idol things lately so i tried designing an idol outfit for juza! i took some inspiration from some idolmaster dresses and tried to also relate it to his original outfit :) hope you all enjoy!

now i will go back to my inactivity :')

[tiny-planet-13]

every time I think a little too much about aftg my throat closes up out of excitement and I start shaking uncontrollably at what point do I become concerned

[impala-67-zeppelin]

love how richard armitage not only enhanced thorin oakenshield’s gayness, but also, his fantasy autism.