#and im dissociated to hell

[maidofmetal]

been ignoring my sister cuz she triggers the FUCK outta me n she came into my room upset about it and said I was being immature n wow lo and behold guess who is triggered again 🥳🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪

[lexapro-princess]

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i’ve spent my whole life trying to be someone else. how am i supposed to know who i really am anymore? i don’t know my own favorite color or food, i’m not sure what i enjoy doing and what i’m forcing myself to do for people to like me

[lilvanillamb]

I believe in unicorns

This week i finally watched the movie and i loved, Davita represents me so much because she's dreamy in the most ''dumb'' and creative way almost innocent. The movie is visually beautiful with stop motions and small moments where we see the world by her eyes, even tho she's unsatisfied with the reality and when something terrible happens she keeps looking at it with her way. People say that the movie was made for tumblr because the way it looks but it's far beyond this. I believe in unicorns became a type of comfort movie even knowing there's no comfort on the story at all.

Davita sees herself as the unicorn she loves so much, as someone who wanted to be loved and live differently she falls for someone dangerous and unstable.

[scatterpatter]

one of the best things about embracing plurality and starting to actually admit I'm part of a system online is realizing just how many people in my spaces are also plural and its just

[pluralhottakes]

I don't see the issue in believing that your alters are multiple people or not, but saying that it's "anti recovery" to believe that they are is genuinely one of the most idiotic things i've heard. i don't see why it's a problem? i know so many systems who consider themselves multiple people, who are doing perfectly fine in healing, without needing to see themselves as just "multiple parts of one person". Alters can be so completely complex, they can be so different that you'd genuinely see them as completely different people, because they are different people to that system. This is coming from a plural who sees their parts more as just different parts of themself, by the way. Believing your alters are just multiple parts of one identity is completely fine, but claiming that it's "anti recovery" for others to believe that they're multiple people is one of the shittest things you could do. Just let people do what they want, there isn't anything wrong with that? I definitely see that systems can quite literally have what is basically multiple fully formed identities, fully formed people.

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[tatiejosie]

Experiencing normal thoughts about normal characters, nothing to see here folks (<== i am desperately clinging onto Donald and his stupid twink boss for dear life)

We are very much Donald-centric in this house, there's a critical lack of content of him and this is just heartbreaking!!!! Comic!Donald really doesn't feel like the same character as animated Donald, so I'm kinda going to separate the two. I kinda like the nervous autistic cyborg dude vibes.

I like the kind of dynamic where they're like each other's fucked up emotional support animal

[kittenplath]

sorry i wasn't listening i was dissociating

[marylisbon44]

bring back boho 2000s

[milkweedman]

Made another spindle. It's very small. Also very irregular and lumpy due to the wood (I wanted the raised brown lines to stay and erred on the side of caution in how much I cut away...but that did lead to a very irregular spindle).

It also wanted to crumble as I carved, so pretty much all the fine tuning I just did by sanding it, which helps to compress the fibers down as well as remove material without crumbling or splintering.

It really came to life when I oiled it. Probably will be best after a few good coats and some time. My woodburning kit seems to be totally gone, which is a bummer. So I'm not woodburning anymore.

Spins well. Obviously being so tiny and light it was always going to be a fine spinning spindle, but effortless thread from an unprepped piece of fleece is pretty indicative as well. I seem to find myself carving mostly thread spindles at the moment. They're always so small and light in the hand, they remind me of holding baby birds.

[is-that-plural]

furina and foçalors from genshin!! and tartaglia from genshin too

Rating: somewhat plural !!

Rating: one quick look at his lore and you can spot the signs immediately, Guards, This Man is Plural as hell !! (bonus points; Whale! bc i think whales are neat :3)

[5051704]

sometimes i want to disappear.

just stop existing. stop thinking.

i just want all of this to stop. sometimes i find myself silently screaming from the unexplainable void eating me inside out. sometimes i find myself dissociating for hours just staring at the wall.

the hardest pill to swallow is knowing that my own mind is doing it to me. that my mind is doing it to me because of how people treated me. the people who were supposed to love and protect me.

i can’t tell it hurts. cause it don’t. im just so numb. i don’t remember the last time i felt something but disgust, guilt or shame. im just so numb.

and if i could disappear, i would be finally free.

[triglycercule]

the mtt are lucky they don't have digestive systems and bladders because then they dont have to go through the absolute EMBARRASSMENT that is trying to pee in a damn cup for the doctors and not being able to pee not once. not twice. but also dropping the goddamn cup into the toilet. they are so,,,,,, SO lucky

[mukuberry]

i was talking to a friend awhile back and he told me about how at his new uni there's someone who's faking having DID. I asked how he knew and he told me that 'everyone (at the uni) knows'. So in other words, he has no idea and is just immediately believing what others have told him;; i know nothing about this person other than they're apparently faking their disorder and trauma, and i imagine it's what my friend was first told about them as well... this world is so unnecessarily hostile to systems for no reason. If you're open about it you're clearly lying for attention- even if you try to be secretive about it, the second anyone hears you lose all right to privacy and are made into an easy target. You get no chance to defend yourself, you're branded as a liar by people you've never even met.

[emberglowfox]

i often call my dissociation 'autopilot' because it works well as an explanation but my god do i feel like an actual robot on autopilot these days. not just because 'i'm not in control of myself' or whatever, that's normal, but because i feel like the autopilot is beginning to break down. i've been zoned out for so long that it's run out of normal behavior to reference, so it's referencing what was a shoddy replica to begin with, and that results in a lot of oddities

mostly i've been noticing myself happily responding to people without actually even looking in their direction. like my eyes and head will just lock and i'll go a whole conversation animatedly replying while looking in the wrong spot (i'm usually very good about eye contact, or at the very least looking at people). also my reaction time / processing speed is waaaay slowed to the point where i'm starting to get nervous about driving so. that's cool

[beelzebubsbois]

I am happy to be that one Anti-Endo that said he's better than endos because I don't tell people to kill themselves.