#alter vent

[spidereye-village]

Fuckin sucks being a pro endo Traumagenic.

Cuz yeah, we fucking respect others but because of that we don't get respected.

It's not like I'm not used to being hated, but it's still so stupid that we have to block a ton of stuff just to scroll peacefully 🙄😒

-Goth (He/him)

Bethy: If anyone wantz a intro we can get ztarted on makingz it! 😋👍

Edit: Goth finally learned how to block tagz, Lolz!

[computersys]

amuro here wanna vent about discord server moderation tw: vent, bad words

if anyone has problem, ask me away in ask box. we can not answer about detail of moderation like ban reason due to our staff tos, but we can answer with question like 'was someone actually being mean to staff'?

dear official poppy playtime server members. this is my anger as a staff.

WHY DO PEOPLE FUCKING MENTION ABOUT BANNED PEOPLE AND SAY 'mOdS aRe FuCkInG wRoNg'??????

WHY DO PEOPLE FUCKING BEING RUDE TO MODERATORS?

WE ALREADY TOLD YOU TO NOT TO MENTION BANNED PEOPLE AND WE BAN PEOPLE WITH FUCKING P R O P E R REASON

YOU FUCKING MAKE JOKE LIKE 'MODS ARE SCARY'

YOU FUCKING ATTACK STAFFS

YOU FUCKING DONT RESPECT STAFFS DECISION-FOR-SAFETY-OF-SERVER

I'M FUCKING DONE WITH YOU.

STAFFS ARE LIVING TOO, AND HAS RIGHT TO BE ANGRY.

[thehousehold]

Maybe hot take but I don’t understand the host centric approach I often see when interacting in plural spaces. I have no problems with our host but I’m allowed to have other opinions. I’m allowed to disagree with how they are handling our body. Constantly in the past, it was either the host’s way or the highway. I wasn’t allowed to have a difference in opinion from the host in a space we were active in. I don’t get it.

Example, today, I started fronting later (by traditional standards) but I’m not allowed to do what I want because the others that were here with me (in the background) wanted to get the host’s priorities done. I would have loved to play the game I’ve been looking forward to but I had to do the host’s dailies in their game first. And now we are supposed to be going to bed shortly because we work full time. So between actually taking care of the body (which isn’t my problem, I’m universally expected to do this, it’s my body), handling my system roles (which is why I’m fronting in the first place) and handling the host’s wants (cause I was being influenced into doing), I wasn’t allowed to do my wants once the chores were done.

I just don’t understand how the host’s (who isn’t in front) priorities were put before the guy who is looking to have a little stress relief after handling his job.

Keep in mind, I have no idea who the host is. I’ve never met them. They’ve never met me. I know they exist because the others talking about them. They may know I exist because the assigned gatekeeper where I live innerly recorded basic details about everyone in our area in our SimplyPlural.

~ “Murmur”

[poognthebrainbois]

FUCK hormones we didn't fucking ask for. None of us (speaking as like the only fucking she/her in the system) like having this much fucking estrogen in our body. I HATE FUCKING CRYING. No one is ever gonna take us seriously if we can't handle having "Big Feelings" without bursting into fucking tears. Our entire life has taught us that. I'm the only "girl" we have and I am not handling this shit any better than the rest of them.

What the FUCK are we crying about NOW?!

CUT IT THE FUCK OUT

Why do I have to feel SO MUCH over NOTHING?!

Why do we have to spend so much of our fucking time censoring our feelings and words to make sure we don't sound "evil" or even a little bit mad just in case it comes off wrong? Why do I have to be so afraid of "subjecting other people" to being around me?

Why do I have to be like this?

[thevinylshop]

Alter Vent.

TW: vague self harm mention.

we're going through a tough spot. our main host has gone dormant, our co-host has become persecutory, our most rutheless gatekeeper who has very strong isolationist tendencies has taken up the main gatekeeper position, a new persecutor formed, i'm forced to become the (hopefully) temporary main host despite having very little experience in this area, and many of our headmates are becoming hard to reach or going dormant.

the big thing that's stressing us all out, though, is how Ryan went from happy-go-lucky to rude but kind to completely unstable and lashing out at any and all attempts of helping. he still fronts frequently too, and it's causing us insane stress that he'll ruin our personal relationships, hurt himself, hurt someone else, or anything like that.

he used to be adjacent to everyone's cool brother who took no shit. and now, for some reason, all of our stress and anguish and rage from recent events has been funneled into him and he's being changed for the worst.

i don't know what to do. i'm supposed to be an external protector, not a manager, not a host, not fixing everyone's problems, not handling internal issues. i don't know why this brain decided i was the best fit.

- Apollo Justice 🗯️ he/him.

[iwillbreakyourfuckingskull]

i hate having to pretend to be happy because my intense emotional pain is a result of something 99.9% of people would find pathetic and laughable. yeah i felt like i was stabbed in my heart and i cried myself to sleep for a week because i am in love with a fictional character and also i am another fictional character from the same manga. no i can't just "grow up" or "touch grass" and become a normal person who goes on dates with real life people. i am mentally ill and it shouldn't be an insult or shameful to be

[burningsolarsystem]

*t's n*t f**r. * h*v* s*ch str*no *p*n**ns th*t * w*nt t* sh**t *nd p*st, b*t h*st w*n't l*t * b*c**s* h*st d**sn't w*nt t* b* r*d* *nd w*nts t* k**p th*s bl*g "*ncl*s*v*" *v*n t* p**pl* *nd c*mm*n*t**s m*st *f *s d*n't s*pp*rt. * w*nt t* t*k* * st*nc* *n s*sc**rs*, * w*nt t* t*ll th*s* * d*sp*s* t* f*ck *ff *nd t* n*t *nt*r*ct. * w*nt t* b* r*d*, t* cl**m * st*nc*s. B*t h*st *s t** m*ch *f * p**pl* pl**s*ng c*w*rd *bss*d w*th p**c* k**p*ng *nd pl***ng "d*v*l's *dv*c*t*". Gr*w * sp*n*. B* *xcl*s*v*. F*rm *n *ct**l DN* *nst**d *f n*t c*r*ng, *r pr*t*nd*ng n*t t* c*r*. F*ck*ng s*n*l*ss c*w*rd.

-Tr*gg*r

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Oh, geez. Will do my best to translate.

Translation:

It's not fair. I have such strong opinions that I want to shout and post, but host won't let I because host doesn't want to be rude and wants keep this blog "inclusive" even to people and communities most of us don't support. I want to take a stance in syscourse, I want to tell those I despise to fuck off and to not interact. I want to be rude, to claim stances. But host is too much of a people pleasing coward obsessed with peace keeping and playing "devil's advocate". Grow a spine. Be exclusive. Form an actual DNI instead of not caring, or pretending not to care. Fucking spineless coward.

-Trigger

(Funny how this is the post that *t is allowed to make. Allowed to hate on the host, but can't post hate about anyone else. Says a lot about that bitch (endearing) doesn't it?)

[tf-alters-eds]

I’m so nervous talking to people

TwT I hate being so nervous and shy

Everyone is so kind and sweet to me and yet I’m still so nervous

I was so awkward with a system-mate yesterday because they’re dating someone from my source and I didn’t know how to act around them TwT

This is so awkward

- ���

[bloody-sickness]

FUCK

FUCK FUCK FUCK I DONT WANNA BE SAD WHY AM I FEELING SAD ???? GRRRRR UHHHH—

*Me and Tommy (mainly Tommy) dumping our toxic friend, then said friend telling their friend and it ending with that asshole “having” to out us as a system*

Oh…. FUCKKKK

(Gonna kms 😋 I swear to XD life is getting worse and worse. I feel like everyone fucking hates me and that I don’t deserve to live, but I know that my lovely partner would probably kill himself too if I did and I don’t want him to do that… I fucking hate my life hehe, probably gonna talk to my internal abuser because why not??? He came outta dormancy a while ago and I lowkey miss him (fuck, why am I like this???) and shittt…. fuckkkkk…. I’m actually fucking stupid and worthless and stupid and stupid and dumb and undeserving of my respect and happiness and life <3)

[spidereye-village]

Wolf's head hurts. And wolf is so dizzy and limbs are heavy and so uncomfy. Wolf doesn't like this at all. Wants to cry over the hurting. :(

[legendsoffandoms]

I’m just going to vent for a bit. I suppose it’s called venting. I’m not sure.

I’ve been fronting since sometime Friday. I’m not sure why. There are plenty of other alters that could have done it. I am not sure why I have been chosen. I am not upset. I am not really anything. I do not emotions. They are not my thing. Which I suppose allows me to be a good fronter for this situation.

The situation is the upcoming election in the US. We are a deeply in danger of losing rights and being attacked. We are not safe. Which has obviously brought a lot of stress to our system.

The main fronters: KB, Rosemary, Ody, Cyan, and Gen Z are all anxious. I am not. As I said emotions not my thing, so I guess I’m a good choice to front for now.

I should feel scared and anxious. I should feel bad. I should feel something. I don’t. I really don’t. I know the situation is bad and life threatening, but I just don’t. I’m not scared. I’m not tired. I’m not anything really.

I just exist. I just do. I suppose I do serve as a good helper for us to not end up killing ourselves. As that’s an option if we can’t leave.

I packed a bag full of clothes. I have plans for in case we leave. I am trying my hardest to take care of this body. I don’t know why. I don’t really care. I really don’t. I am simply doing it anyway. I am just existing.

I have gotten two people to co-front with me. I don’t really want to be fully alone. Which are Ikari and Star/Jet. Ikari fronted last night/this morning, and Jet is currently fronting. He says hi.

I don’t want people to feel bad for me. I don’t care. I’m not upset. I’m not anything. Again. I don’t really have any emotions. I just don’t.

I simply want people to know I exist. I want people to know that there is an alter out there who simply is just existing. I just want. I don’t know what. I just am.

I also really don’t like any of the people we live with. They are all. Weird. Yes. Weird… I don’t get along with them. I don’t plan to. Our body’s brother came home today. I do not like him. Not at all.

There’s just a lot going on and I suppose I want someone to hear it.

I suppose being a fictive doesn’t help either.

My name is Nemesis Prime. I am not joking. I am a Nemesis Prime fictive. I quite like who I am. I just know it might be weird.

I’m aware I am not on the “good side” in my source. I am aware I’m not a “good person” in my source as well. I do not care what you consider me to be in source. I am fine being me. My partner is fine with who I am. I am fine with who they are.

I just hope that we get to keep our rights and don’t have to evacuate. I do not know how that works.

I just want this to be over so I can go back to our inner world and be with my partner. Who has told me I may disclose who they are.

My partner, my wonderful partner is Star/Jet or in our source StarScream. Jet is wonderful to us, and we quite like them.

I suppose that is all for now.

I’m not so good at this socializing thing. I am a rather quiet bot, so figure me if this does not make sense. I tried. I am just not used to socializing.

- Nemesis | He/They/It

[rrsystem]

NSFW mention under the cut I guess

This is not a NSFW blog nor am I going to treat it like so but god damn I hate...being a hypersexual alter. I feel like I can't chill and I just wanna chill.

:( ya know

-dewdrop

[poognthebrainbois]

👑Vent post below break. "Proceed with caution" or "Viewer discretion" or whatever.

I fucking hate "self-discovery" in a system context. I hate being a fucking "alter." I hate having to *"learn about myself."* Why do I have to be the one that feels like a Teenage Girl until I'm drinking or fucking? Was I ever really an "adult part," or have I always felt this young and just not wanted to admit to it? Zinnia's back, she already said half of my feelings right now have been her's so why is this one different? We weren't like this as a teenager so who the fuck am I living for? Who the fuck am I supposed to "represent"?? Why do I have to deal with this shit? If Parker wasn't done being a teenage girl, why is he giving it up now?? Why do I have to be the FUCKING BOX YOU THROW ALL THE SHIT YOU DON'T WANT ANYMORE INTO?! You "outgrew" these feelings? Then why the FUCK AM I STILL FEELING THEM?! FUCK YOU

[glitchsystem359]

💿- Always an angel, never a god. This was always my curse. To be preyed upon by the predators of wing and tooth. Scurrying into the underbrush and over fallen trunks, snarling and growling at each paw, hand, or wing that has beckoned me. My lives have all been faded stories of survival and death. A never ending circle of pathetic scavenging life, clawing ever upward in the desperate hopes of something better, something more. But my Olympus was never with the gods and their greedy desires, it was with the ferns and the moss of the wood. Always an angel, never a god. -💿

[kennyeltieso]

Sorry my ass.

Actually, fuck you all.

[diver-boy]

I wish I could just be myself. My true self. My whole existence I've been pretending to be someone else, for the sake of others. So much so I don't think there's a "me" anymore.