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So me

-Sonic

Demibi moodboard! ^^ For @unaestheticgaybich c:

Want one? Message me or send an ask!!

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Yeah i get that. We are all on the aroace spec in some way (varies per person. Personally im demi)

And like for a few of us, they have almost gagged at the thought of being romantic with anyone. Its kinda funny sometimes, but also sad that they get misunderstood so often :/

do people get that romance repulsion is a real thing. like i know that it is not a term that many people have heard but the kind of responses i see from people when i talk ab my feelings on romance sometimes… do people understand that it’s like. sometimes a real feeling of nausea that you can’t control. it seems to click for everyone that someone might be innately repulsed by the idea of sex or that someone might have a negative response to seeing romantic stuff because they want it really bad and it upsets them to see other people have it but the second an aromantic person has a negative response to romance that is not emotionally invested suddenly they are a supervillain only interested in kicking people’s puppies and personally attacking anyone who’s ever been in love

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Yeah, thats probably a symptom of something.

Relatable tho

you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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Our sis was like this when it comes to Ac.

The funniest thing was that she wanted to meet him during a time when he could not even front.

"I don't wanna talk to you, i wanna talk to [insert specific alter]!" I'm hitting you with my car

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shout out to systems with low amnisia barriers/and only some chunks of memory loss, and alters that no one can tell apaort cuz youre very similar and mask like hell i wish there was more rep for systems like us <3

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There's honestly nothing funnier than spitefully kissing in headspace in front of a homophobic person. Like haha fuck you take that!! But they literally do not know

Like I've infiltrated. You don't even realize I'm gay kissing in front of you and your kids and your dog right NOW!!!!!! Bitch

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Ima go listen to that with my fiance >:)

-Sonic

Edit: Listened to the song, it was awesome :)

we was on our first appointment with new psychologist, that will be doing our DID diagnosis. and for some reason she's taking US seriously already. that's nice but Hyde is suspicious towards her. he thinks she's playing nice to test us and then accuse us of faking. Killjoy things she's playing nice just to milk us out of money

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Funfact, we used to be anti/neutral to endo

But that was because 1, we didn't know we partially are one, and 2 we had never met them and only heard word of mouth from other anti/neutrals.

There were so few places we were in that were excepting that we never got to learn who or what endo's really were until we left those communities for unrelated reasons.

It's easy to say someone who is anti endo and actively talking about it is in the wrong. But it becomes worse when they try and influence vulnerable systems and vulnerable alters who don't know what else to believe. They make the fear of being fakeclaimed in a time where that kind of thing can severely damage you far more terrifying.

I am so proud to say that we managed to get away from the toxicity and find a home with the endos and the pros. You all have helped us heal so much just by being yourselves. And just by being so accepting of the drastic differences between systems.

So yeah. Misinformation sucks. Minipulating people/being manipulated sucks. Fuck antis.

-Oli 🧷

-Sonic

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I screamed yes, but part of me screams,"What??? From WHO?? SONIC DONT YOU DARE!"

who wants the transgender illegal alien sex change in prison

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Question. Can i have the blood?

Well those are allllmost done

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Savin this for icurus to look at later

-Sonic

hii! could we request a masc angelcore headmate? preferably at adult age but that's all the specifics we want! go ham with the rest :3

custom headmate request!! remember to like/reblog if you form him!

name: eros, adonis, kallias, asael

pronouns: he/holy/hope/light/pure

age: 35-ageless

gender: masc leaning agender, silverdecorangelic, etherwinged, holybeing

orientation: aroace, unlabeled

height: 6’0

emoji(s): 🪽/☀️/🕊️

likes: soft music, painting, theatre, white flowers, doves

potential faceclaims:

aesthetic:

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YOUR MISERY DOESNT DEFINE MY PLURALITY 𓏵 USERBOXES

FLAGS, IN ORDER: SYSTEM / DID / OSDD / HC-DID / ENDOGENIC / TRAUMAGENIC

FREE TO USE WITHOUT CREDIT, REBLOGS STILL APPRECIATED

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I hope things go well for you but i would also like to say, Killjoy is an awesome name.

Like, omg that sounds so cool.

-Sonic

we was on our first appointment with new psychologist, that will be doing our DID diagnosis. and for some reason she's taking US seriously already. that's nice but Hyde is suspicious towards her. he thinks she's playing nice to test us and then accuse us of faking. Killjoy things she's playing nice just to milk us out of money

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We’re gonna not do any more intros(until we do) and we’re just gonna reveal ourselves through these chart template memes, it’ll be really funny, trust - Berdly

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Are you faking DID?

Last year, I was officially diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, and let me tell you that I was shocked.

After getting misdiagnosed with almost everything out there, I was diagnosed with something that I never thought I could have, ever.

A couple of months later, I started going into the self doubt spiral.

This is my advice for systems doubting themselves:

Doubting yourself is completely normal. DID is meant to be covert and hidden, it’s a defense mechanism after all, almost every system out there doubted their experience at some point, it’s okay.

NOT EVERY SYSTEM IS LIKE SYSTEMS ON TUMBLR. Oh my god, I WISH someone would have told me this last year. You don’t have to have a bed in your room for each alter. You don’t have to have perfect communication with your alters. You don’t have to talk with them on a daily basis and switch 1000 times a day, just no. My communication with my alters is terrible. I sometimes go months without fully switching, days and even weeks without alters talking in my head. My alters mostly work through passive influence and that’s okay. You really don’t have to have a system like the ones you see on here to be valid, please remember that.

Not everything’s “you’re valid uwu”, no. Sometimes you make mistakes, sometimes doctors make mistakes and it’s okay. There are a lot of disorders that might have a similar presentation to DID like BPD, schizophrenia or bipolar disorder. You need to be completely honest with yourself about your experiences. You really don’t want to get misdiagnosed and get treated for something that you don’t have “terrible idea, believe me”. If you’re honest with yourself about your experience, then there’s nothing to worry about.

Please don’t obsess over labels. There was this time when I was almost always co conscious with my protector and I kept wondering if I actually have OSDD, and it made me really depressed. It does not matter whether you have DID or OSDD, they’re almost the same thing and the point is, you have gone through trauma that fractured your identity so it really doesn’t matter what you have. Doctors treat symptoms, not labels. It’s okay to be confused for a while ❤️.

Yes, alters can go dormant for a lot of time and that’s completely normal. No, that doesn’t mean that you’re faking.

Sometimes you can switch without knowing or noticing the switch, so don’t obsess over why you aren’t switching too often.

It takes A LOT of time to have a good communication with your alters. It really isn’t as easy as tumblr makes it seems to be.

You don’t have to have obvious and overt symptoms of DID to be valid. I haven’t had so many proofs of my amnesia, only 4 times or something. I have also never experienced dissociative fugue, and that’s okay.

Amnesia for your own amnesia. Sometimes you don’t even notice that you lost time or that you said something that you have no memory of until someone points it out. So again don’t obsess over not switching too often.

DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT focus too much on your alters or your disorder. Do not go googling symptoms of DID and reading tons of articles for hours. This is just gonna make your self doubt much worse. It’s okay to learn about your disorder, just don’t do it too much because everyone experiences DID differently and that might increase your doubt.

Always keep in mind that DID is different for everyone. My best friend has DID and our systems are completely different. He switches much more often and he has no idea how many alters does he have, doesn’t know their names or anything about them, however my amnesia is much worse than his. Seeing systems acting differently doesn’t mean that you’re fake.

Since I brought this up, it’s okay not to know anything about your alters. I have around 16 alters and maybe more, I only know and have communicated with 6 of them. Again, it’s not as easy as tumblr makes it seems.

It’s okay not to feel like you’re a multiple. It’s okay not to refer to yourself as “we”. I personally never refer to myself as we unless I’m talking specifically about me and my alters.

It’s okay to have more overt symptoms after getting your diagnosis, and it’s also okay for your symptoms to be less after diagnosis. It’s really common that alters start being much more visible after diagnosis, that doesn’t mean you’re faking. Despite being less common but it’s okay to have less symptoms after getting diagnosed. Your alters might be just scared, I have experienced this and it made me feel like I was faking it all, but it doesn’t. Sometimes, your alters are as scared as you, maybe even more.

I wish someone would have told me this last year, so here I am, telling you why you shouldn’t worry, this too shall pass, trust me.

Also, feel free to add your own advice.

If you need anything, don’t hesitate to message us, we’d be more than glad to help!

Stay safe ❤️

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Tw: Vent that idk how to tw properly, so just assume all ig

Ah, our local school got a threat today. First time in the body's life that had happened. We are trying to keep things under control, but Cupid isn't doing too hot. He has been frontstuckish for a bit; he forgot how to leave, and our only gatekeepers are either dormant or strictly being kept away from front for their protection.

I'm too blurry to know who i am. I guess im probably a new guy.

This is all so weird. Our local school district hasn't had a threat in years that we know about. And today of all days for it. It just feels like a sick joke.

Our non-American people are probably going to be way more distressed since our americans are more mentally prepared for it, i suppose?

Idk. I dont know how to feel. I feel some dread but its not that sinking ice cold feeling.

More, i can't leave my room. Otherwise, i might explode or something. Ridiculous, i know. But i dont know what to do

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I thought that said proud endo and i was so here for it.

Im still here for it, tho :)

im pro endo btw block me if your anti endo