#Venting Blog

[real-hot-grl-shi]

me after my ex and my best friend leave me but i wanna come back to them but knowing they do NOT gaf about me or anything i stand for meanwhile my grades are dropping and i have barely any friends while im breaking down at least 3 times a month (i am not ok and slowly spiraling into insanity while searching for every and any relationship that i can get out of someone even if its toxic idc anymore i just want someone to stay DAMN IM TWEAKING)

[barbies-palace]

I feel stuck. it feels like nobody wants to talk to me anymore.

I just want people to understand me and where I’m coming from. I’m not perfect. But im trying to be better.

After what went down I just feel like a bad guy. I don’t mean to hurt anyone. I’m just scared. Like I’m backed up in a corner.

I wish someone would just talk to me without being harsh. I’m not just a bad guy. But that’s what everyone sees. like I’m a monster or something.

so if anyone can talk, please. I really need someone right now.

[vent-antiendo]

Welcome!

This is a safe space for all anti endos to vent.

We made this blog because we've been getting harassed by endos because we vented on our blog. Vent blogs are just safer if you don't want to get threats and such.

--> You can vent about anything here, sys related or not. We'll tag accordingly.

(We do ask that you put a tw on the top of your ask if needed.)

!! We are cluster b, and do not experience empathy, sympathy, guilt or remorse.

We can be blunt because of it, but we mean no harm. And if we do, it'll be obvious, and only because you harm us first.

If you treat us with respect, we will treat you with respect.* If we perceive any attack, we'll bite back, though.

--> We are pro educated self diagnosis.

--> Please note that we do not support radqueers on this blog.

--> We won't put a lot of tags under posts tagged with #vent, because this is a place for you to let out your feelings, not focused on trying to get as much interaction as possible. It also keeps this blog under the radar of certain reddit groups for longer.

--> If anything is unclear, send us an ask and we'll get back to you as soon as possible!

DNI: pro/endos, pro/radqueers (AHARQ/harmless transids are fine though), proshippers, racists, queerphobes, ableists, Cluster B abuse believers, anti educated self-dx, and just the basic DNI list really.

*Because of our personality, we try to mask when you send in an ask, to come across as nice and caring as possible. While we don't feel genuine sympathy, we want to try to support you.

[andromedagrrrl]

somedays i wish i was just merely a concept of nothing a black hole a nobody a little crab in the ocean that people look away from stop perceiving me im too scared

[multiplesillylittleguys]

We made a blog for anti endo systems to vent. @sysvent-antiendo

I know there are multiple of these, but I notice their inboxes get full so quickly, so we want to help.

Recently I've been getting harassed in my inbox because of my stance, so I want to provide a safe space for others to vent so they don't experience the same. You can vent about literally any topic at all, I'm here to listen.

[araneae-spirals-into-insanity]

Panic attacks suck btw. I would know, I had 5 just today

[ahopelessprincessreincarnation]

Hey there, my name(or more so an internet alias currently at the very least)is Emanuel Marco aka Daniel, Julian or Edgar and welcome to my official alternative and somewhat not-exactly-secretive more diary-type internet journal space known as my blog on my brand new Tumblr Dot Com blog(aka where you are right now). I am a teenager and soon to be adult in my real physical life that's not on the interwebs, but I feel more as if I am some sort of childish adult, or atleast have felt grown up for awhile now due to stress. I guess you could say I'm "mature for my age" but that's barely the case to be honest with you and besides, I've sort of come to associate that term with creepy older men attempting to chat inappropriately in private direct messaging or whatever. Lmfao anyways, while I do want to keep my age a little vague for the reasoning being of an attempt at interweb safety(despite how far too late it seems considering other stuff at the moment), what I can say more in depth is that I am a neurodivergent person who is professionally diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum along with ADHD. I am considering that I may have other neurological conditions/disorders but I don't really know or care too much at the moment, by the way, I am also a white-latino who is bilingual in both English and Latin-American Spanish despite how I may struggle with the language along with attempting to reconnect with apart of my culture. I am an LGBTQIAPlus/Queer community member and supporter of other identities that I may not even fall under completly, though specifically I am a genderfluid bisexual aceflux person who uses both he/she pronouns(please don't use they for me unless I specifically asked to, thank you). I used to identify as a transgender male(ftm)but due to realizing the amount of harm being inflicted on women of both cis and trans due to violence and misogyny, I thought the most correct thing to do morally would be to stop being such and to instead just lean into more masculine types of gendernonconformity(I am still pretty feminine though so it's just an idea I guess lol(Please know that there's nothing inherently wrong with transitioning from female to male or something male-ajacent or whatever, I know it's probably more complex than just "all men are bad" like no duh but still, it's been really hurting my heart that I could possibly be giving off the idea that misandry is real or something roflmao. Sorry if that explanation is stupid, but I'm not the best at phrasing stuff sometimes♡).

For what I am going to be posting on here, it's probably gonna be different from my main page and other social media platforms but at the very least I wanna keep my alternative/side-blog more clean and organized when it comes to my interests and other stuff relating to my thoughts and ideas for different types of subject matters. While I am am an admittedly mostly digital artist and animator who intends to make more stuff involving my inspirations such as making more gay yuri anime and bara yaoi manga style graphic novels/comics, I want to use my alternative page/side blog to write not only fictional stories involving my original characters and even fanfiction, but also stuff about my life almost as if they were written storytime videos that would usually he formatted visually on my YouTube Channel. To be honest with you, I've been looking more into stuff involving the subjects of alterhumanity, soulbonding, therianthropy, fictionkin and just otherkin over all on here atleast. I don't know how much more I can possibly explain without falling asleep since it's night where I am on the planet Earth at the moment, so this is probably just gonna remain as a temporary pin but please keep in mind that updates are probably going to come soon♡.

I know nowadays on the interwebs and most public mainstream social media platforms, users usually put some sort of "before you follow" and "do not interact" criteria as a set of boundaries specific for those who want to support their account and become mutuals with them. Since I want to avoid any sort of needless drama situations or scenarios involving meaningless discourse, I am just going to leave my simple requests here for those who care enough to read through my little ideas of what I consider to call my own boundaries♡:

•Obviously, first and foremost, please just be normal as you would not using the computer or phone infront of you which means...use basic common sense and maybe possibly even kindness perhaps I don't even know anymore. This specifically means no racism, xenophobia, ableism, queerphobia/LGBTQIAPhobia and so on. If I do something that's considered any of the above, I can assure you that it was an accident and to please educate me on whatever I have done that may be offensive or wrong since I recognize I do have certain privilege♡.

•Secondly, please do not come to me if you support problematic fictional media or internet communities such as lolicons/shotacons/kodocons, radqueers, pro-paraphiles, fujoshis/fudanshis or himejoshis/himedanshis, proshippers/comshippers/profiction/darkshippers or whatever other name these groups go by nowadays atleast or enjoyers/condoners of feral nsfw content. I am against these groups due to the harrassment, sexualization/fetishization and grooming that runs rampant in these specific internet spaces though please don't attack any minor users in these communities. Many of the younger ones are traumatized children who don't have many healthy coping mechanisms and while these habits should absolutely not be encouraged, they still should be guided and helped into the right direction by others who know better atleast♡.

•Thirdly, If you are apart of other insensitive and hurtful groups such as endogenic/non-traumagenic "systems"(that's not how being a system works dummy), if you support mspec lesbians or male-lesbians aka "lesboys"(you literally cannot be attracted to men while being a lesbian or be a man and also identify as a lesbian so please stop making non-men loving women and the rest of the LGBTQIAPlus community look bad because you're literally just scared to admit you're straight or bisexual or something I don't know???) and others who use marginalized communities in order to hurt others by disregarding their concerns♡.

•Fourth, my last but not least important request, is for you to leave my alternative/side-blog(and other social media platforms if you know who I am yet somehow)if you support the unneeded cyberbullying towards those who may seem "cringeworthy" but in reality are harmless and at worst cheesy on their own(Examples being neopronoun/xenogender users, alterhumans/therians/fictionkin/otherkin/soulbonders etc or furries and cosplayers). Humanity can be very beautiful when using all of our differences for good and not for evil, otherwise we end up creating a very ugly and nasty pathetic excuse of a community for us all to reside in. We all have a story to tell, whether we're comfortable sharing or not and at the very least we should attempt to be understanding of others despite how cheesy such a thing sounds I know. Just please bare with me here)♡.

So it seems I've gotten atleast almost all thw words of what my brain wanted me to pour out onto the screen as I sometimes carry concepts that are hard to explain with me even through textpost lol. For those who care, my DMs are open 24/7 though sometimes I may not be motivated to reply exactly on time(again, please bare with me here. I know it sounds dumb but still-), now I'm gonna be signing off until something pops into my mind and makes me attempt to come up with a coherent post again, yours truly ~AHopelessPrincessReincarnation.

(P.S:Thank you to the kind internet strangers on here who have happened to wander onto my post somehow[maybe through the tags listed below]and were able to read through my whole, long and crushed up pinned introductory textpost. It means a lot to me that certain people on here are interested in what I have to say, so your support is very much not only appreciated but cherished! You all really do rock)♡.

Have a great day or night wherever you may be in the world right now and please never be afraid to check in and stay tuned for more>:]♡.

[unlovablereject]

Whoever is worried about my wellbeing this is a blog where I vent and get my feelings out. I'm not a danger to myself. I appreciate it, but I'm fine.

Funny, you care more than the people in my life tho lol...

[waves-against-the-shore]

I'm tired. I'm not actively suicidal, not most of the time, at least. I'm just tired of existing the way that I'm currently existing, but I don't feel like I can change it. It feels like I'm not allowed to change it. I feel like I'm stuck in a path I've worn down from years of living like this, and I've worn too far into the dirt to climb back out.

[aw-eather]

kinda wanna make a new little side blog thats kinda private and just for me to vent...

[ventingasshole]

there has to be something inherently wrong with me

something makes me so repulsive i cannot keep close relationships

everyone i know has tons of friends

while i'm stuck by myself

i can't fucking go out at weekend, i have nowhere to go and no one to go with

i can't make spontaneous trips with friends

i can't hang out with friends

i can't keep living like this

but since i'm unable to change my situation there's only one solution left

[real-hot-grl-shi]

I high key feel like we’re growing apart and she’s moving on. All jokes aside I don’t know if anyone want to genuinely stay without moving to someone else. I’m trying I really am. I’m sorry.

[barbies-palace]

flash back to my vent art of hypersexuality back in march/april

funny because I feel stuck but not in the same way as this now.

tw!!: nudity, sh scars if you squint, suggestive

if anyone is in this position, you’re not alone. 🫶🏾

[angelbvn]

more. more more more more. i want more. but i can’t….

because i’m told constantly that i’m a burden. that i’m “too obvious” that the cuts and scars last forever and “oh!! just how could you do something like that!!!” and “oh!!! just what if someone sees?! what then!! what will they think of you?? or worse, what will they think about me!!??” because oh, “if someone sees you’ll be to blame!!! if someone sees and starts to do the same, it’ll all be your fault!! oh! oh!! but it’ll be my fault for letting you…so me, it’s my fault that you’re to blame..how could you.”

just shut the fuck up. you don’t fucking understand. I DONT CARE IF ANYONE SEES.. I DONT CARE IF SOMEONE ELSE IS OFFENDED.. I DONT C A R E. just like how you don’t care either.

[vilea777]

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

[araneae-spirals-into-insanity]

People think I'm being dramatic when I say the only way I can get rid of these feelings is killing myself

They'd be correct, I say that for attention. I've only actually tried to kill myself once, but I tell people I've tried 4 times. Yes I do lie for attention