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Girl, figure yourself out... You have more important things to worry about then an insignificant social media site in terms of the fucking reality. The government doesn't care about what you're screaming about on social media... You're sad, you're depressed, but you do it to yourself. I chose not to let you drag me down with you. No one in real life cares what you say.

Also when I was about to delete because it was getting too much, you told me to stay... stay for you. Friends don't drown their friends, or use the term friendship to get what you want and use me. You never even tried to understand me.

This is stupidity example:

This Person: *stresses themselves out on social media*

This Person: "I'm sick because of a disorder that stems from stress"

*continues to purposefully stress themselves out*

Me: Let's chill about this for a bit, I am not able to handle this topic right now.

This Person: I'm walking away

Me: alright *doesn't bother them, waits a few days and blocks them to not spam them with messages.*

-a week or so later and a battle with the fucking site, I had sent two messages with no response -

Me: are we talking?

This Person: You blocked me, you tell me. *blocks me*

Are you an actual adult or a 15 year old? Because you are acting like you're 15.

By the way, the accomplishment you have, thank your mother, she did all the work while you sat online.

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Having borderline and autism is too much.

No one understands, people don't like me they find out who I really am and leave, I don't like me, why should anyone else?

This darkness swallowed my heart and it's coming for my soul.

I want to travel up river and let my veins empty.

I have been trying to feel better all day and it's not helping.

Me talking about what we were was projection, I want to run away from this bag of flesh and bones.

People don't understand, I am tired of trying to talk it out. I just want to lie down.

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I tried to fix what's broken but it slipped away.

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There is a place inside me that remains dark and consumes all the light I try to use to illuminate it.

Sometimes, I think part of me died in these past two years.

I feel like I am not who I once was anymore.

I want to give up already.

[unlovablereject]

Bye.

I guess I'll go fuck off now

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Source And Full Article ~ Neurodivergent Insights

Sleep Stats: Autism

Nearly 80% of Autistic children age 2 to 5 have sleep problems (Reynolds et al., 2019).

Autistic people tend to get less REM sleep. On average, we spend about 15% of our sleep in REM sleep (Allistics, on average, spend 25% in REM sleep). This means we need MORE sleep to get the same amount of REM as the average person (Buckley et al., 2010; Neumeyer et al., 2019).

Autistic people are more likely to experience insomnia, which includes everything from difficulty falling asleep to night waking and early morning rising (Furfaro, 2020).

Autistic people are more likely to have gene mutations that impact melatonin regulation & circadian rhythms (Furfaro, 2020).

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Oh just fuck off.

You fucked things up

Don't blame me

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I'm kinda fed up with people saying that adhd and autism are "superpowers".

I can't do my homework because of executive disfunction and you tell me to be glad because I'm "special"? fuck you.

Both disorders can have their upsides. But as a person who can barely manage to get up and go to school every day it hurts to see people spread shit like that.

I'm sure that they don't mean harm but still.

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"Your kisses like roses, and I am the thorns"

- Roses, by John Harvie

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I am so sad and so tired.

People don't see the sickness, the death inside of me...

I took off my pendant I made with my favourite part of my favorite psalm.

My heart's song has stopped.

I feel like I have no sword, no shield.

Psalm 27 (:8)

I have it on my phone.

I needed to feel G-Ds hand being with me.

Did you abandon me like my father and mother?

I don't know if I will see your face.

I feel my faith slipping.

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I'm alone. And you ignore me. Everything's fine... it how it is...

I live in a world I don't belong.

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So alone and broken