araneae-spirals-into-insanity

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I'm so fucking pissed

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unfortunately i DID take what you said to heart and now i’m sobbing and debating on whether i should kill you or kill myself

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I need you to put in some effort; you couldn't make me feel any more unwanted if you tried

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I hate the question where do you see yourself in 5 years like bro fucking dead next question thanks

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If I ever kill myself just know I tried my fucking best and please forgive me

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The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful

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Been coming to the realization that this being alive thing isn’t for me

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i fucking love tearing my skin open it feels so so pure

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im so replaceable in every aspect of who I am in regards to everyone I know

maybe it would be better if I ceased to exist

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why do i force myself to not express what im feeling to not hurt others

i don’t want to hurt them, but it hurts me too

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did it really mean anything if i had to ask for it?

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I want to live, but I don't see the point in it. The happy moments are incredibly brief. Meanwhile, the all-consuming sadness, disappointment, emptiness, fear, seems almost constant.

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just when i started to believe you. you confirmed all of my worst fears

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not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

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no matter what i do im still lonely

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what if im actually the problem and I kill myself to test that theory