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#may this journey lead us starward <3#THROWS UP WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS#I HAVE TO GO TO GET MY TRAIN IN 5 MINUTES HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO STAY COMPOSED (haha. pun not intended) WHEN THIS EXISTS#ourgh... his past abnd present self... the reflections and mirrors but he is still the same... destryoing/letting go...#AND THE FUCKING ROBIN CAMEO AND HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO GRAB HER HAND INTO THE PLAYING PIANO ON ASTRAL EXPRESS SHOT ??? FUCK OFFFFF#hyv when i get u.... when i get u hyv....#ICARUS WHO ??? I ONLY KNOW SUNDAY OF HIT GAME HONKAI STAR RAIL
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the tradwife movement is the same as it has always been - back in the kitchen, back to breeding - it just has better branding.
when i was younger, i hated pink. i was not like other girls. this is now something i'm embarrassed of - this was not me being a "girl's girl."
but it was expressing something many of us felt at the time: i literally wasn't what girlhood was supposed to be. this is a hard thing to explain, but you know when you're not performing girlhood correctly. it isn't as easy as "i liked x when girls liked y" - because there were other girls that liked x, too - but i never figured out exactly the correct way to like x, or to be interested in y.
now there is the divine feminine. this is the same rhetoric it has always been: women are biologically driven to like pink and ribbons and submitting to our husbands.
the problem is that the patriarchy found a better PR team. because yes, actually, i want every woman to have the choice to be a homemaker. i also want her taken seriously for her legitimate home-making labor. i want her to be recognized as also having a job, just unpaid. i want men to have this opportunity, too.
but it is no longer "i made this choice and I love it." instead it is a sixteen-paragraph rant about how selfish it is that my generation isn't having kids. instead it's long videos about how if you feed your children processed foods, you're going to kill them. instead it is "this is what womanhood is supposed to be. i feel bad for any other choices you're making."
the shame spiral is just prettier. it is large houses devoid of personality. it is the implication: if you don't have this, you aren't happy. the solid, everlasting assurance: women are actually supposed to be submitting. this is the default. this is the natural state of things. all other attempts inflict suffering.
but you can no longer say i'm not like other girls. you can no longer reject this image completely. you cannot find it revolting, even if you know that the underbelly is toxic and festering. sure, it is the same repackaged patriarchy. but the internet does not have shades of grey. you should support and reward other women! your disgust is actually internalized misogyny. not because you are seeing a vision of yourself the way they're trying to train you to be. not because you feel her ghost pass within an inch of your earlobe. not because your father will eventually ask you - why can't you be like her?
because they figured out how to make it beautiful: women will sell other women on this idea, and we will find the singular loophole in feminism. sure, she's shaming you in most of her videos. sure, she implies that a different life is obscene. but she just wants you to be happy! you'd be happier if you were listening!
and the whole time you're sitting there thinking: i'd actually just be happier if i had that kind of money.
#spilled ink#writeblr#warm up#this is an incredibly difficult idea to express#but i basically keep watching the same timelooped interaction:#someone makes tradwife content where she's like ''i think it's SO sad when ppl don't have kids EW''#and then the response is ''... go fuck yourself? i think ur life is miserable and bad ?"#and instead of being like ''oh we are all under capitalism huh''#the response is like ''you CANT say that. she made a CHOICE. she is ALLOWED to have KIDS and be HAPPY#unlike YOU who is UNHAPPY bc you don't have KIDS.''#like .... these are people who will throw the first stone. and then when you lob one back#they ask why you're so violent. they tell you that you're a bad activist.#and you're like. PARDON????? you implied being a woman meant i need to submit to my husband???#and they're like - well it's just my belief. so what if i'm invalidating your entire identity.
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hey so what the actual fuck
edit: that's the link to the video btw^^
#LIKE WHAT THE FUCK#HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON#WHAT. *WHAT*#ALSO NOT IT BEING CALLED UNIFICATION LIKE THE FUCKING TNG EPISODE#AKA MY FAV EPISODE OF ALL OF TREK#IM GONNA HAVE A HEART ATTACK IM GONNA THROW UP#my posts#st#star trek#tos#spirk#spock#kirk#k/s#the premise#star trek the original series#star trek tos#william shatner#leonard nimoy#star trek generations#765874#765874 unification
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adaine punching her dad to death "guess what bitch I'm strong now" adaine punching her dad to death "you never have to be afraid of being weak again" adaine punching her dad to death "your father hurt you and he hurt your sister and no matter what anybody fucking thinks about it guess what he never gets to hurt anybody ever again" adaine punching her dad to death ADAINE PUNCHING HER DAD TO DEATH
#adaine abernant#or more correctly#adaine o'shaughnessey#aelwyn abernant#this fucking actual play is actually playing with my emotions#my two favourite dimension 20 pcs of all time both killed their dads#that's so cool and fun and doesn't say anything about me or my relationship with my father#guess what bitch I'm strong now#the abernant sisters make me cry in a way that shouldn't be allowed#processing my trauma one d&d actual play at a time#fantasy high#dimension 20#d20#fantasy high sophomore year#fantasy high sophomore year spoilers#fhsy#fhsy spoilers#screaming crying throwing up rn#I've watched this so many times but it hits different post realisation that my family are fucked up
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true love
#I NEED THE HAPPILY EVER AFTERRRRR I NEEED ITTTT RRAAAGGAHHH!!!!! TRUE LOVE TRUE LOVE TRUE LOVE!!!!!!!#to all my real ones that know me. true love. im so wrecked. this was the way it was always meant to be. destiny#silver breaking the cycle in an act of pure love understanding malleus in a situation nobody else will oh im ill#lay down his sword and open his heart. the most caring boy in the whole fucking game. do anything for him no matter what. LOVE!!!!#ik everyone and their mother talks abt the silver sebek mirrors and parallels etc etc but ive always found malleus and silver the peak#ill bet youd never Ever guess that given my fucking catalogue of art. this was always how it was meant to end. build it up to throw it away#build him up as an enemy on a scale never seen. to make the pressure to take him down all-encompassing. the pressure to save the world#and silver instead making the right choice to ignore the world. make amends for history past. and show him love instead#weeps#twstファンアート#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#malleus draconia#suntails#no more drawing till the plot updates#also i hafta go to bed in 10 mins for my job. sighs. i had an hour and a dream and i shat out more art. what can i say im a giver
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genuinely what the fuck is this. official f1 instagram account. what. i’m rattling my cage. gnawing gnashing etc.
#gabriella?? nico calls him gabriella??#what the fuck old man. what are you doing all that for.#something so fucking Wrong with them i’m going to throw up#also i’m going to talk about his face scrunch because. yeah.#and the noise. girl why are you groaning moaning etc about it.#and wait what the fuck i just noticed nico’s hand is. On His Crotch???#did they not know they were being filmed.#somebody let me out of this hell and possibly talk to hr#nico hülkenberg#nico hulkenberg#gabriel bortoleto#gabico#bortohulk#birdie-go posts
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okay but WHYYY is no one talking about louis and daniel WHYYYYYYYYYY is no one talking about the greatest grandpa4grandpa relationship known to man and i don’t even mean romantically i mean in the most basic human platonic level their relationship is FASCINATING.
like louis SAUGHT HIM OUT after FIFTY YEARS he FOUND HIS BOY, this horrible infant who DID NOT UNDERSTAND A THING HE TOLD HIM, who saw his raw, decades-old pain and wanted in on it, AND HE GOES BACK FOR HIM BECAUSE HE KNOWS HE’S CHANGED. he can understand now. he can help him find the truth.
and like, they’re both absolutely terrified by each other because they’re both uniquely skilled at getting under each other’s skin and finding that truth (and also because… louis could just up and eat daniel anytime but shhhh…) and it’s because they UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER. louis’s interviewing daniel as much as daniel’s interviewing him, just. pulling teeth from each other’s head, trying to pull out all the rot with such violence and cruelty (from both of them!! daniel is a cockwallop!!) but they want to help each other they CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER.
LIKE THIS????
THIS FUCKING SHIT?????
GAGGED ME. RUINED ME. I HAD TO STOP AND TAKE A WALK AROUND THE ROOM.
(the gifs are from @loumands account btw. great work my guy)
#look he still calls him danny idk what else you want from me#also like. they absolute gay on gay violence like oh my god#besides the obvious too like they’re both playing this game of homosexual chicken where daniel’s picking apart louis’ perception of lestat#and louis is just THROWING armand in his FACE like girl you are not exempt from this fucked up love trapezoid#FULLY IMPLICATED#anyway i love them they’re like those two old gay muppets to me#louis de pointe du lac#daniel molloy#louis x daniel#interview with the vampire#iwtv#iwtv s2#iwtv spoilers#DANLOU#DANLOU IS THEIR SHIPNAME THANK YOU PEOPLE IN THE TAGS
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these two are so interesting to me
characters belong to @canisalbus
#clenches fists. im so sosososo normal about them. i think about them a normal amount (lying)#actually the 2nd image is based on some sort of anime couple pose template(?????) that i saw a while back and wanted to draw them in it#but i swear to god i CANNOT FUCKING FIND IT. i was literally knee deep in yuri and yaoi fanart for hours trying to find that god damn photo#but i dont even know who the characters were and pinterest just shows me bakugou and deku making out sloppy style whenever i try#so i gave up an tried drawing it from memory and cried the whole time. i hate anatomy.. but they look so happy so its fine#god whenever i see Lore or sweet little tidbits for these two i want to tear into something with my teeth and throw something /pos#i genuinely want to study these gay little renaissance dogs under a microscope#what fucks me up is the fact that we all know it ends horribly but u cant help loving them anyway.. they are so. incoherent hand gestures#my art#myart#others ocs#vasco#machete#vaschete#furry art#fur#anthro
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crying session at my house tonight pull up at 8
#hypothetically what if i cant take this anymore#fuck vinsmoke judge all my homies hate vinsmoke judge#therapy aint enough to get over sanji and naruto's childhood#i need my memories erased#me and my mutuals shaking crying throwing up banging our heads on a door sliding down a wall everytime yall pointout another thing abt sanji#sanji#one piece#black leg sanji#one piece sanji#vinsmoke sanji
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Really fucked up that, when they’re young, Patrick and Art are SO tactile with each other, so comfortable sharing the same space. Art lets Patrick touch him and move him and physically overwhelm him and easily acquiesces to it, if not outright enjoys it.
Then in the present, they’ve been so far out of each other’s orbit for so long, held such animosity that when they have their moment alone in the sauna, Art physically recoils from Patrick’s close proximity! It’s so painful to watch because even as Patrick’s goading him, it’s so obvious he wants to be able to get back into Art’s space. But Art has erected all these walls around himself, he refuses to give Patrick an inch or even admit to missing how close they used to be!
AND THEN we see Art and Tashi later and he wants her to hold him, to be gentle with him, and just TOUCH him. Like, he does miss that kind of close physical contact! He either doesn’t know how to ask for it or is uncomfortable being that openly vulnerable. Worth noting that he pretty much always defers to Tashi in regard to initiating physical intimacy (with their first kiss, though he does state his desire, SHE has to be the one to make the first move). And it seems pretty obvious that Tashi herself isn’t comfortable providing that intimacy, whereas Patrick actively seeks to provide it (the hug/forehead kiss after their win together in the early years, dragging the stool closer to him).
Art has tried very hard to act like he doesn’t need physical affection and even though his discipline and devotion to Tashi has made him a stronger tennis player, it’s made him a hollow person, which, in turn, has kept him from becoming a GREAT tennis player.
All of this, of course, is why the ending hits so damn hard.
#challengers#challengers spoilers#art donaldson#unfortunately i have once again zeroed in on the most repressed character and made them my favorite#lol @ all the people saying he’s a manipulative snake: that’s part of what makes him great!#i think a fair amount of that manipulation or attempts at it come from a fear of loss and being alone#if he has to lose one to keep the other he’ll do it because it’s better than being left behind#hoo boy yet another character trait my fucked up faves have in common 😬#let’s not even get into how tashi AND patrick are trying to do right by him#tashi by making it so he can retire with a career to be proud of#patrick (who was pissed on art’s behalf wrt throwing the match) by laying all his cards on the table (court)#and giving art what he needed to play a great fucking game#there’s a whole other post to be written about how tashi and patrick handle art in similar ways#specifically that he submits to them so easily they take charge of him manipulate him the ways they want#good lord i need to see this movie again#or not might not be conducive to keeping my brain from melting out my ears lol
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I just love this page. Atsushi realizes that he almost lost someone who he never took the time to understand. this boy, this stranger, who has burrowed so deep into his mind, who has been completely incomprehensible to him, who died for him, is, beneath it all, just like him. they're the same. they always have been.
its regret. about the words he's said, the wound's he's inflicted, the fact that he did not see the boy right in front of him. he walked away, a specter, misunderstood, never being told that its okay for him to live. okay for him to exist in this world.
for the first time, he thinks he understands akutagawa ryuunosuke and its breaking his heart. he's breaking his heart.
#bsd 122#throwing myself into the fucking SUN#sskk#this. i mean. if akutagawa had actually died. if he had seen this and was never able to speak to him again.#knowing what he meant to him. knowing how he also suffered. knowing what he gave up.#YOU FOOOL!!!!!!#a;dlkfjaldkfj. as you can tell i'm feeling very normal about this chapter. god bless.
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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#lbh#sqq#i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss#the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently#and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything#it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg#as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it#everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person#each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it#at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same#and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical#because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING#aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying#but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line#anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series#i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix#i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship#bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once#bizarre#my art
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I’m going fucking mental… XINGQIU, GIRL, WHAT THE FUCK?????????????
ARE YOU ACTUALLY FUCKING KIDDING ME WITH THIS SHIT??????????
Okay so you’re telling me, Xingqiu would run away to Chongyun’s house and stay there for 10 DAYS to 2 WEEKS (specifically), if her brother had said JUST THAT???????? THAT’S IT???? THAT’S ALL IT TAKES FOR HER TO STAY AT CHONGYUN’S PLACE FOR TWO FULL WEEKS????????? WHAT………
And also the way she mentions it so casually and without hesitation, it’s her first thought?? Implying that this isn’t the first time, and that she does it consistently enough for it to be her first thought and for it to be this casual…
And she would do ALL that JUST because her brother would say something like; “Support the business, make money, get rich.”??? ARE YOU SERIOUS.
LITERALLY SAYING IF HER FAMILY ANNOYS HER OR SHE’S TIRED OF THEM IN ANYWAY, EVEN JUST A TINY BIT, SHE’S KNOCKING ON CHONGYUN’S DOOR AND STAYING THERE FOR TWO FULL WEEKS……
WHAT THE FUCK.
Screenshots from here
#callie-cyxq posts#if she does this shit on the regular just live with him at that point OH MY GODDD…………#do you guys think chongyun has woken up some mornings with xingqiu watching him sleep#(waiting for him to wake up)#and he’s like: “XINGQIU??? …….okay what happened this time.” and xingqiu says something like: “my brother looked at me funny..”#chongyun: ‘’2 weeks?’’#xingqiu: ‘’2 weeks.’’#THEY’RE SO FUCKING GAY I’M GOING TO THROW UPPPPP#chongyun#xingqiu#chongqiu#chongyun x xingqiu#genshin impact#chongyun genshin impact#xingqiu genshin impact#genshin impact chongyun#genshin impact xingqiu#genshin impact event
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same guy by the way
#OHHH MY GODDDDOH MY GOD OH MY FUCKING GOD OH MY GOD GOO OHHHGAVOUGHJ#THIS MAN CANNOT MAKE ME NORMAL#im normal im normal im sorr i swedr#charlie slimecicle#slimecicle#LIKE#WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM#WHAT *IS* WRONG WITH HIM#ignore my tags#im actually just#this is surreal im throwing up he's so pretty but he acts like he was raised by a clown a jester and a peasant on opioids
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guys the kiss was so important especially from a narrative and storytelling perspective because it was literally Crowley taking everything that's happened between them, every unsaid intention and every unspoken promise, and making it physical.
He's taking their arrangement and every other bullshit excuse they've ever used to hide how they feel about each other and throwing them out the window to put their feelings into an undeniable physical action that holds a lot of meaning to humans in order to be absolutely sure that Aziraphale knows exactly what he means when he says "we could have been Us." He wants to be absolutely sure that there are no misunderstandings between them and know that Azirphale will be committing to this decision with absolute reassurance that he's been understood and rejected anyway.
he's taking a human action with so much meaning and so much importance, and he's using it as a way to desperately make Aziraphale completely and undeniably aware of what he's stating. No more charades and no more lies or cover-ups. There's no denying this thing between them now, and Crowley did it the human way. Because he and Aziraphale love humanity and it's everything to them in their own ways.
There's a reason we saw a kiss between Crowley and Aziraphale, and not Gabriel and Beelzebub, despite them both being undeniable foils.
and really if you just think about that isn't it so god damned beautiful?
#im crying and throwing up#like please tell me u guys get what im saying#and im not just spouting bullshit#like literally i swear this is something i hope i articulated it well enough#like its so SYMBOLIC#it makes my fucking little brain do jumping jacks of joy#bi.f.shit#good omens#good omens 2#good omens 2 spoilers#gos2 spoilers#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable divorcées#ineffable husbands#gos2ep6 spoilers#good omens analysis
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im killing them btw.
#original post tag#what is this shit.#NO ONE HAS EVER DONE THAT FOR ME??????? FUCKING THROWING UP WHAT ARE THEY DOING
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