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lillyspam · 2 years ago

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I’m giving all my mutuals hugs and kisses on the cheek.

They probably can’t see or feel them but they’re there <3

#Jesus I hate crying.#I look pathetic

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bitchslapblastoids · 4 months ago

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It was more than just romantic. It was more than just romantic. It was more than just romantic.

This is someone that genuinely liked me. This is someone that genuinely liked me. This is someone that genuinely liked me.

I trusted them.

And for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe. And for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe. And for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe. And for the first time since I was a tiny child, I actually felt safe.

#I think all emphases are equally true btw #anyone else crying #god #it never stops being So Much #I hate that he had to have that experience I hate that it felt new to feel safe #I hate that he was shocked that somebody genuinely liked him #but Jesus Christ guys…. then he met Phil #Then he met Phil.#phan #Dan Howell #Dan and Phil #me yapping

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i-eat-mold · 2 months ago

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im so fucking done. im screaming crying throwing up committing felonies. rewatching again house md. i can practically quote the entire pilot but it wasnt until now that i noticed the heart shattering parallel.

in the pilot wilson is talking to the patient, and she says "is doctor house your friend?" and wilson says yes, he is. so then she asks "does he care about you?" and he replies "i think so." "What? you dont know?" "well, as dr house says, everybody lies." AND THEN SHE GOES "its not what people say, its what they dO" ANYWAY 8 SEASONS LATER IN THE LAST EPISODE HOUSE GIVES UP HIS ENTIRE CAREER AND THE REST OF HIS LIFE JUST TO SPEND 5 MORE MONTHS WITH WILSON AND IF THAT ISNT DOING OVER SAYING I DONT KNOW WHAT IS AND KSDJFKSDJGHKDFHGKF

#jesus how they make me cry #i want them to explode in a thousand pieces #house md #hate crimes md #malpractice md #shitpost #dr house #gregory house #wilson #james wilson #rbs #hugh laurie #house and wilson #house x wilson #hilson #house md thoughts

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perryabbott · 1 year ago

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It's okay. It's okay. We're okay.

#yellowjackets #travis martinez #javi martinez #yellowjacketsedit #yjedit #96yellowjackets #tvarchive #smallscreensource #cinematv #tusercj #.gif #yellowjackets spoilers #screaming and crying and throwing up #HE THOUGHT JAVI WAS SAFE. I HATE IT HERE #travis martinez has suffered more than jesus #q

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morismorphine · 6 months ago

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fuck off and die, simon henriksson

#meow #cry of fear #cofaom #cry of fear simon #cof simon #simon henriksson #hello kitty simon #hello kitty #jesus christ #i fucking hate this #i can never keep a consistent artstyle if you couldnt tell #my eyes hurt #fuck #meeeeeooowwwwwww

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starsm00n · 6 months ago

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I love Rick grimes you don’t understand I would let that man do ANYTHING. Like.

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napping-sapphic · 6 months ago

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I know it’s already getting unbearably hot but who wants to come try and nap with both me and my heating pad anyway

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #it’s like a knight’s trial #having the actual worst period cramps of my life rn #and i’m Suffering with this heating pad #i hate being hot but jesus christ ow i need this to try to make my organs CHILL #and the worst thing??#absolutely NO ONE is here to cuddle with me #offensive #THIS. THIS is one of those situations where i KNOW the nap would be better with someone else😤#even if it’s just because then i wouldn’t be lonely lol #pls come nap with me and overheat and also listen to all my complaints - again OW - and love me anyway #my craziest fantasy🥵🥵#oh and also NO judging all my crying my period loves making me cry smh #im literally crying over nothing right now🙄 like it’s just a Thing™️ okay #im a CATCH #wait god the heating pad turned off for a sec #saw my life flash before my eyes when it started cooling down😓#crying even more now🙄🙄🫠#it’s going swimmingly very good like i said im a CATCH #🙃🙃🙃#sorry for all the tags idk what im even saying anymore smh #im gay and i like sleeping

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doctorweebmd · 3 months ago

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a really nice comment on 'nothing else fills' made me actually reread it for like, the first time in its entirety and.

wow. its... actually really good. like. i teared up multiple times and i'm the one that wrote it. why was i so mean to myself about it.

#that scene where katsuki re-experiences izuku's suicide.#that entire chapter where katsuki and izuku fight and then have really really violent sex. and he says he loves him.#jesus fucking christ. what the fuck was i on #i'm guessing my self-obsessed ass hated it because i thought i was putting my heart and soul into writing it #and it never like...'took off' or whatever.#like i ripped myself into pieces for it and nobody cared lmao #...which is so ridiculous. anna. ANNA LOOK AT ME #LITERALLY HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE READ IT AND RESONATED WITH IT #DIFFERENT PEOPLE CONNECT WITH DIFFERENT THINGS WHO CARES THAT IT DIDNT GET POPULAR #WHO GIVES A SHIT YOU NUMBERS OBSESSED LOSER #lmao. lol even #anyway todays episode? PEAK #the animation. izuku's reaction. the way gearshift LOOKS #I HAD TEARS IN MY EYES BRO ITS BEAUTIFULLLLLL #when izuku goes inside the vestige space and holds tenko's hands its over for me #i will be weeping. on the floor. just CRYING #it also resonates because in one of the worlds in NEF izuku killed shigaraki #and it literally does not stop haunting him. he's so broken up about it. 'i was supposed to save him but i killed him'#GOD. GOD. ANNA FROM A YEAR AGO YOU COULDNT HAVE KNOWN BUT #damn.

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ghostzzy · 3 months ago

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did she see this post lol

#anyway. we just talked for an hour.#i cried my fucking face off.#(am in fact Still crying my fucking face off!)#being vulnerable is perhaps the hardest thing in the world.#and i hate how horrible it makes me feel. how guilty i am to be honest. how terrified i am of what my truth makes me.#but holding it in and repressing it NEVER FUCKING HELPS. why do i DO THIS SHIT.#if i was just honest from the beginning instead of constantly rationalizing my discomfort away until it was screaming pain #then maybe this WOULDNTVE been one the most humiliating conversations of my life!!#FUCK. JESUS.#anyway. we agreed we need to figure out how to become best friends again.#and we agreed to make quality time for each other.#and we took responsibility for our contributions to the bullshit.#and i feel. just terrible. but i’m glad we talked. i’m glad she said something.#i wish we had talked so much sooner. fuck.#we’ve been friends for 14 years. that’s over half my life. when am i gonna learn to just TALK TO HER IF IM UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING. god!!!!!!#izzy.txt

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archduke-enver-gortash · 7 months ago

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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

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solace-seekers · 5 months ago

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screaming into the void <3

#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn #we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey #he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve #he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday #and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them #and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense #i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor #he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally #he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok #and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning #and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him #to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing #but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday #he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight #i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning #and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because #this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn #i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say #i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense #and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year #but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better #for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows #he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand #my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary #cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it #i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn

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wololo-01 · 12 days ago

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#It's so freaking strange to have a feeling that you want to cry but don't know why.#like really this is so strange and weird #i hate when feel like this #I can feel my heart tightening and beating strangely #along with a lump in the throat and the feeling of tears wanting to appear but they don't #jesus i hate I HATE this feelings so so much #kinda vent #i guess #don't know

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kirnet · 11 months ago

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Cried in front of all my coworkers today :/

#I HATE that I cry whenever I’m frustrated what the fuck!!#I’m just rebalancing. snot everywhere. Jesus Christ #ramblings

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phagodyke · 23 days ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad ��

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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tricoufamily · 1 year ago

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once again thinking about how easy it would be for me to be in a relationship if i was cis

#cis woman cis man either way #dude in the neighborhood has a crush on me telling me i'm beautiful like 'thanks! i will go home and cry now'#i fucking hate being trans i wish i wasn't lol #and sometimes i feel like i can't talk about this anywhere bc in a lot of trans spaces it's like. taboo? to express anything but positivity #as if me being honest about how i feel about myself is somehow how i feel about every single trans person jesus christ but whatever whateve #like listen peace and love but i need you to do me a favor and promise me you will not come at me with any 'transness should be about joy'#i know you mean well i know you're right. but transness for me /is/ pain and sorrow. that's all it's ever caused me my entire life #you have to remember that i'm from rural appalachian tennessee with a transphobic family #some of the most deeply rooted self hating repression for years just for. more honest self hatred #i've never admitted this before but i've considered detransitioning and repressing because of transphobia many times #i'm not brave i'm not strong i'm not trying to make some grand statement or be the voice of a generation. i just want to Be. you know #i just got really really unlucky #but i can't repress. i know that would be even more miserable so i'm just. trapped. forever #who i want to be forever out of reach like tantalus or something i don't know #i want to be loved #or maybe i should just watch the batman again

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many-gay-magpies · 5 months ago

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TEEN WOLF SEASON 3B WATCH YIPPEE !!

#magpie thoughts #on ep 14 run #realized yet again how fucking BLUE Isaac’s eyes are. jesus #that is not even in the top 10 most impactful parts of this episode but i still noticed it #MALIA AND MR TATE AUGHHGHH. that’s her dad. that is her DAD #to me anyway.#like. I don’t understand i mean she has this big crying reunion with mr Tate and the next time we see her she’s in eichen house and we don’t #see Mr Tate at all after that? and its supposed to just matter cuz he’s not her ‘’real’’ dad and peter is?#she was a coyote for nine years so sure there’s gonna be some distance and conflict and stuff but.#he still RAISED HER for all the years of her life BEFORE THAT.#does that just not matter?#idk man.#also I’m now on galvanize and got Scott is so adorable. scaring stiles with his glowy red eyes and then smiling all cute like that when #-stiles says ‘I hate you’. I LOVE HIMMM #magpie's teen wolf experience

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