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i-eat-mold · 2 months ago

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im so fucking done. im screaming crying throwing up committing felonies. rewatching again house md. i can practically quote the entire pilot but it wasnt until now that i noticed the heart shattering parallel.

in the pilot wilson is talking to the patient, and she says "is doctor house your friend?" and wilson says yes, he is. so then she asks "does he care about you?" and he replies "i think so." "What? you dont know?" "well, as dr house says, everybody lies." AND THEN SHE GOES "its not what people say, its what they dO" ANYWAY 8 SEASONS LATER IN THE LAST EPISODE HOUSE GIVES UP HIS ENTIRE CAREER AND THE REST OF HIS LIFE JUST TO SPEND 5 MORE MONTHS WITH WILSON AND IF THAT ISNT DOING OVER SAYING I DONT KNOW WHAT IS AND KSDJFKSDJGHKDFHGKF

#jesus how they make me cry #i want them to explode in a thousand pieces #house md #hate crimes md #malpractice md #shitpost #dr house #gregory house #wilson #james wilson #rbs #hugh laurie #house and wilson #house x wilson #hilson #house md thoughts

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drawnfamiliarfaces · 8 months ago

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i... wrote a smol fic (っ´▽`*)っ

also!!!!! If you haven't seen it - shoutout to first ever published fic in Ninja Showdown/My Immortal Soul tags - Lustrous Red by @missadmyre !!!

#ninja showdown #my immortal soul #first ninja x chase young #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #rc9gn #chase young #xiaolin showdown #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn plop plop #well i say smol fic.... but those 4k words felt very long.#i did say i was going to direct my energy into writing >.> and now look at me ive gone insane #no actually dont look at me im just gonna go cry over my 20k words of rough drafts for like dozen ideas that are now going #to haunt my every waking moment like JESUS i woke up today and literally wrote out 1k words of an idea for a modern au for those two TToTT #its literally an au where its a meet cute turned meet violent and first is randy's sorta dad and chase wants to adopt omi #not to mention a different AU where its an epic mystery adventure AAAAAAA someone heeeelppppp meeeee #also. its been a month but im still staring so intently at missadmyre's fic hoping for another crumb. like thank you sm for the food!!!!#ive literally been rereading it several times after i went insane about it on my main blog and im still slurping at it like a starved perso #Ive been collecting my ideas like a dragon but after reading that fic i was like: I WANT TO READ MORE FICS ABOUT THEM #but i dont wanna be a whiny baby&beg others and be annoying about it. So i put on my big person pants and was like f it WE R WRITINg NOW #so i dont care how bad my writing will be. we gonna be balling on those ideas and YES it doesnt make sense im just v rambly rn

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spitinsideme · 7 months ago

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adult laura lee ... madried to the love of herlife lottir matthews ... au where laura lee survived and got happily married ❤️ (inspired by the lottieler marriage fic on au by @lesbianlotties !! go check it out)

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akimojo · 4 months ago

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Just finished my first playthrough of type 0

#i barely even have anything to add im so 😭😭#spoilers in the tags alert bc oh boy. oh jesus.#was already crying and then seeing machina and rem find class zero like that was so. oh my god.#OH MY GOD AND THE WAY THEY WERE HOLDING HANDS AND FJDHJDNDJ IM GONNA CRY AGAIN #i feel for machina like can you imagine how he was probably so ready to get another try at fitting in w class zero #just to find them all dead????? bro i canttt #fuck square enix and fuck final fantasy for always making me cry like a little bitch 😔#final fantasy type-0 #ff type 0 spoilers #im gonna Recover and then play again bc dammit i need more info on wtf was going on 😤😤 i cant be caught slacking on fabula lore

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 9 months ago

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actually I think the thing about being a youth leader is that 25% of it is teaching about God, 25% is playing fun games, and more than that though 50% of it is making a safe space for kids to be. not to try and make them believe, not so they'll be open or anything. just. a 100% no stakes, safe place for them to just BE. whatever else comes after that. and I don't just mean physically safe, two-adults-in-the-room-at-all-times, et cetera. I mean emotionally safe. I mean not hitting them over the head with scripture, not trying to help them feel better or any particular way. just... a no-judgment, emotionally safe place to exist as kids.

#I'm convinced that my time on Tumblr helps me with this tbh. idk how to explain it but it does #I had one kid this weekend really overtired and stressed out just uncontrollably crying and like. the goal there #is not to make them feel better or stop crying. the goal is to be a safe person for them to feel those things with #does that make sense???#another one doesn't believe in God at all but told me about some really heavy stuff and like. the goal isn't to start #talking their ear off about Jesus it's just to be a safe place for them to come to. this kid didn't want prayer during ministry time #but I did casually tell them at the end of our conversation that I would be praying for them anyway. you have to keep it chill #and not put pressure on them yknow??? they're kids #idk.#adventures in youth group #anyway pray for a few kids in particular I won't share any more detail than I did here but some stuff got shaken loose for sure #Lu rambles

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cosmothealien358 · 3 months ago

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Just finished season 6 of the Dragon Prince

(More coherent thoughts in tags)

#tdp #the dragon prince #tdp spoilers #the dragon prince season 6 #the dragon prince season six #Jesus where do I even begin #it was so profound #so well written #so raw and emotional and yet so triumphant in some parts #I already related to Soren because of who I am and my relationship with my father #this season was like a stab to the heart #and then it has the gall to make me cry tears of joy #because of the queer wedding and just. all the love #this season had a lot of death and destruction but also so much love #love for partners #love for family #love for friends #it was all so gut wrenching in how it could be both hopeful and tragic #anyways the writers cooked #however I will be asking them to pay for my therapy #someone please talk to me about this season #dms or reblogs idc I need to RANT #also I saw so much symbolism and motifs in the backgrounds and so on FUCCCKKK #please please someone let me ramble about the beautiful writing decisions

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rosencatholic · 4 days ago

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I don’t know about anyone else, but I hold the belief that the poor souls in hell are not being tortured by demons as many believe. Instead the primary torture is the very absence of God’s presence within themselves and around them. A human beings worst agony, I think, is being completely and irrevocably separated from their Creator who is love and all things good.

#that’s what makes hell so terrifying to me #sometimes we cannot feel God here on earth #but you still have this sort of feeling that he’s still there #imagine how much worst it is to be a soul #free from the body #and not feel God at all #???#crying just thinking about #the true pains of hell #calling for God but you will never escape back to your creator #your eternal choice has been made #worst feeling you could ever possibly think of #thank you Lord Jesus for giving us so many chances before we die #reflections of hell

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 6 months ago

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So I was reading articles about John Hurt (as I do when I procrastinate on life in general lol) and I saw a still shot of a movie I’ve never seen still shots of before; so I looked it up. It’s a play. I was worried I wouldn’t find it in full online; but I did, so here it is in all its glory:

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He’s just… ugh I want to gently hold his face in my hands he’s just so sad and lonely with his weepy voice and eye bags. I couldn’t process half of what he said but I think this is a warning about always speed-running through life to get to the next good thing. We should appreciate the moment; because in the end, we’ll have nothing at all but our memories. If we rush through life, we won’t have any memories to keep us warm at night when the chill of death creeps up on us in our old age.

Also, spool, spooooooooooollll…….

spoooooooooooooooooooooolllllll [cackles in mentally unstable]

@kaleidoscopr @theindo @possessedbydevils @randomtwospirit

#The fucking banana. I was talking to him through the screen like #“…a banana??? You keep bananas in…. there? You good man? A—are you okay?#What the hell are y—” [cracks up but quickly stops laughing] “Oh— oh honey… you’re not right are you?#No you’re not right. Uh…. Why don’t you sit down; your breathing sounds awful. You sound like you’re gonna die…#OH GOD [loses my shit laughing/cringing ] “Oh— oh ouch. No no no— I’m not laughing at you I just— I like your actor…#a lot… too much probably #and he’s just good at what he does and the timing of it all… this is exactly how I act when I’m home alone #I swear I’m not laughing at you… I just— PUT THAT BANANA BACK YOU’RE GOING TO KILL YOURSELF”#John Hurt #stage acting #Krapp’s Last Tape (2001)#Samuel Beckett #Yeah… funky stage play. Very moving and dreamlike #[This is me gently holding Mr. Krapp and rotating him in my mind like a bowl of ramen in a microwave]#Screaming crying throwing up beating the walls #I am unwell #Ough ough ough #It’s not difficult for me to watch per se #but I’m very much the kind of person who HAS to help when someone’s having a hard time doing something #— especially if they’re old or otherwise infirm — or I’ll feel like a piece of shit for weeks… and this fucking man #this fucking man is so good at being frail and pitiful that I feel genuinely agitated that I can’t reach into the screen and help him #It’s like the torture scene in 1984 all over again where he just barely manages to wrench himself upright on the table #then immediately falls off onto the concrete floor with the most tragic sickening bone-grinding splat you’ve ever heard #AND HAS TO HOIST HIMSELF UP ONTO HIS FEET ALL BY HIMSELF WHEN HE’S MALNOURISHED AND EXHAUSTED #Like ughhhhhh let me pick him up and wrap him in a blanket and carry him somewhere warm and safe and make him an omelette #And I know I write whump and I shouldn’t be this sensitive #but JESUS FUCKING CHRIST MR. HURT YOU ARE KILLING ME #Youtube

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girlwiththegreenhat · 3 months ago

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you know what? at least he got his wedding. i guess ,

#liz blogs #knight rider #knight rider spoilers #kr #knight rider liveblog #stevie makes me so fucking sad you dont understand. you dont understand. oh my god.#''at least i could always run into you at the supermarket'' ''thats how i do it too'' yeah. yeah. about that. uh. um. not. anymoRE #oh my god. at least they finally got their wedding. oh m y fucking god. it was beautiful for all of 8 minutes #this episode really smacks you with horrible grief over michaels two best relationships. its not bad enough about stevie #but then kitt rushes to his side after he gets shot. protects him. calls the ambulance. follows behind it the whole way there and looks #after him. god. tapped into the camera in his room and saves his fucking life. SITTING IN THE PARKING LOT FOR WEEKS #AND MICHAEL GETES OUT AND GOES 'YEAH ANYWAY IM LEAVING THE FOUNDATION' BITCH ??????? BITCH ??????????????#WHAT HAPPENS TO KITT THEN 8( YOU CANT JUST LEAVE HIM BEHIND HE'S YOUR FUCKING BUDDY !!!!!!!! HES YOUR PAL #OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO CRY FOR LIKE THE 8TH TIME #BUILD ANOTHER CAR. PROGRAM ANOTHER AI. THIS ONE IS MICHAELS HE SHOULD GET TO KEEP HIM FOREVER #IM GOING TO CRY MY FUCKING EYES OUT OH MY G O D #i was right to be upset and nervous for this episode. i was right. i was right. oh . my god.#knight rider is ruining my life actually. jesus christ. i thought michael was actually going to Kill for the first time. oh my god.#im so upset. about the tv show. im so upset im in grief im going to cry #Again.#she threw himself in front of him. she threw -#''haha funy show about a guy and his car'' -- five months later i am never recovering. i am never recovering from my decision to watch kr #jesus. FUCKING christ oh my GOD

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ghostzzy · 3 months ago

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did she see this post lol

#anyway. we just talked for an hour.#i cried my fucking face off.#(am in fact Still crying my fucking face off!)#being vulnerable is perhaps the hardest thing in the world.#and i hate how horrible it makes me feel. how guilty i am to be honest. how terrified i am of what my truth makes me.#but holding it in and repressing it NEVER FUCKING HELPS. why do i DO THIS SHIT.#if i was just honest from the beginning instead of constantly rationalizing my discomfort away until it was screaming pain #then maybe this WOULDNTVE been one the most humiliating conversations of my life!!#FUCK. JESUS.#anyway. we agreed we need to figure out how to become best friends again.#and we agreed to make quality time for each other.#and we took responsibility for our contributions to the bullshit.#and i feel. just terrible. but i’m glad we talked. i’m glad she said something.#i wish we had talked so much sooner. fuck.#we’ve been friends for 14 years. that’s over half my life. when am i gonna learn to just TALK TO HER IF IM UPSET ABOUT SOMETHING. god!!!!!!#izzy.txt

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loderlied · 7 months ago

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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

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iholli · 10 months ago

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if you need me I'll be facedown on the floor, bawling my eyes out

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solace-seekers · 5 months ago

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screaming into the void <3

#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn #we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey #he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve #he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday #and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them #and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense #i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor #he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally #he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok #and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning #and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him #to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing #but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday #he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight #i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning #and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because #this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn #i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say #i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense #and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year #but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better #for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows #he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand #my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary #cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it #i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn

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phagodyke · 24 days ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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tricoufamily · 1 year ago

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once again thinking about how easy it would be for me to be in a relationship if i was cis

#cis woman cis man either way #dude in the neighborhood has a crush on me telling me i'm beautiful like 'thanks! i will go home and cry now'#i fucking hate being trans i wish i wasn't lol #and sometimes i feel like i can't talk about this anywhere bc in a lot of trans spaces it's like. taboo? to express anything but positivity #as if me being honest about how i feel about myself is somehow how i feel about every single trans person jesus christ but whatever whateve #like listen peace and love but i need you to do me a favor and promise me you will not come at me with any 'transness should be about joy'#i know you mean well i know you're right. but transness for me /is/ pain and sorrow. that's all it's ever caused me my entire life #you have to remember that i'm from rural appalachian tennessee with a transphobic family #some of the most deeply rooted self hating repression for years just for. more honest self hatred #i've never admitted this before but i've considered detransitioning and repressing because of transphobia many times #i'm not brave i'm not strong i'm not trying to make some grand statement or be the voice of a generation. i just want to Be. you know #i just got really really unlucky #but i can't repress. i know that would be even more miserable so i'm just. trapped. forever #who i want to be forever out of reach like tantalus or something i don't know #i want to be loved #or maybe i should just watch the batman again

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kizukiti · 1 year ago

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no way sage posting non dca art? INSANE!!!!!!!!!

2 artists 1 pallette challenge from a few months ago woahwoahwoah?!?!

did this with one of my very best friends, @axoltii !!!! pspspsps go check her out they're super super cool!!

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