#I'm fine it's just the npd

[carnage-cathedral]

brief pause to have a mental breakdown

[accoochtrement]

ugh I'm on my period. someone please shoot me in the head

[agave]

remembering why I stopped interacting with teenagers for a while tbh

[clusterlgbt]

Honestly, I don't think there's anything wrong whatsoever with not feeling "negative" emotions such as grief, guilt, etc. What matters is how you DEAL with the situation, not how you FEEL about it.

For people with ASPD, SZPD, autism, certain psychotic disorders, NPD -- pretty much any disorder that may cause low empathy or flat affect -- it's just a fact of life we don't always (or ever) feel those emotions. (And of course there's way more disorders and symptoms than the ones I just listed, and of course some people who DO have those disorders CAN feel said emotions!)

If you hurt someone and don't regret it, that by itself does not make you a bad person. In fact, if you hurt someone, and want to amend the situation and not hurt that person again IN SPITE OF not feeling guilt? That's amazing. That's amazing and, in my opinion, very selfless.

If you don't feel grief after a loved one dies it doesn't mean you're an awful person who never valued them. As long as you stand by the people who DO feel grief, and offer them comfort or space or whatever, then it's fine that you don't feel it, because you're still being compassionate to those who do.

Honestly even if you feel annoyed or irritated or what have you at the people who are hurting, even that isn't anything shameful, because again it's about what you do, not about how you feel.

Maybe I'm just making defenses for my own ASPD self, but it really doesn't seem like a problem to me. Feelings are private, after all, actions and reactions are what's public, so it matters how you treat others, not how you feel about said others.

Statements like this might make empaths uncomfortable but I stand by it. No one is a bad person just for the way that they "feel", not to mention that a lack of remorse/guilt/sadness/etc is itself a symptom of many disorders and a common trauma response.

[sillyscientists]

gimmw your gfalls hcs NOEWWW

oh god! I have soooo many but i'll put some basic ones down for the pines family rn and probably add on to this later ^_^

Dipper

◇ First of all this boy is absolutely autistic. My little autistic ass acted so much like him as a kid, I mean, what autistic 12 year old wouldn't base their entire summer around a weird book full of monsters they found?

◇ I think he's a trans dude and aro/ace, and that his crush on Wendy was more comphet than anything. I'm not really a fan of any ship involving him but I think platonic dipcifica could be cute.

◇ Cryptozoology/The Paranormal is absolutely his main special interest, but he also has an sp/in in computers/comp sci (but he's honestly not great at computer stuff).

Mabel

◇ AuDHD Queen! I think her main special interest is absolutely arts / crafts, I mean look at all the silly things she makes throughout the series as well as her dedication to handmaking dozens of puppets/props/etc as well as writing and entire play to impress her crush of the week in Sock Opera. ◇ I think sexuality wise she's not straight but prefers to be unlabelled. I also like to think she's the type to collect xenogenders / neopronouns like pokemon cards. ( she totally uses a bunch of cat-based pronouns) ◇ Shortly after the series I think she'd get a little less Boys-Crazy and focus more exploring who she is as a person / her self expression. Absolutely is gonna have a mall goth/emo/scene phase (she's smushing all three of those together into one thing for herself).

(I also think Mabel and Dipper were born identical twins)

Grunkle Stan

◇ Also AuDHD, not quite sure what his big main special interest would be but he's absolutely hyperfixated on Ducktective. Also going off the story in Lost Legends I think he'd absolutely be getting into making comics / drawing in general (even if hes not great at it). Post series I think he'd spend a lot of his free time out at sea drawing in the boat's cabin. Mostly making comics of silly re-tellings of he and Ford's adventures out at Sea (he absolutely shows Dipper and Mabel these if he and Ford video calls them when they're on land) ◇ I'm a transfem Stanley truther. He doesn't really realize/come to terms with it until post-series. I think she'd just grow out her hair and throw it in a pony-tail + use she/he pronouns to transition. She'd still use the name Stanley and be fine with both masc/fem terms (ie fine be called a man or a woman). Also he's bisexual (but has known this since he was like a teen, even if he didn't have the words to label it.) ◇ I think his Popsicle addiction from the unaired pilot is real and canon. Old autistic men love popsicles just look at my dad and grandfather.

Ford

◇ oh boy its projection time (i am a stanford pines fictive) 😈😈😈

◇ Transmasc, somewhere under the nonbinary umbrella but very guy adjacent. Mainly uses he/him pronouns but I think he'd use "it" and "they" aswell. Gay and Arospec as well. ◇ Autism + NPD + Schizophrenia wombo combo. He's sooooo NPD coded its INSANE, I am going to write an essay about it in the future. Goes without saying that his special interests are the paranormal and various sciences, but I think he has a hardcore love for the arts as well. ◇ Going off both the autism and arospec HC- I think he's the type to convince himself he has a crush very easily, when in reality he just has a strong admiration / platonic love for those in question, and had strong platonic feelings for McGucket back in college that he confused for romantic ones (projecting 100000000%) (i think the Stan twins were fraternal twins)

[zeros-sys]

I'm being so serious when I say that it's okay to say doubles dni or be uncomfortable interacting with people with the same source as you

there's a lot of reasons people might feel this way from having delusions, extreme dissociation, having npd, being schizospec, etc.

it's fine to be critical of the word double or be personally uncomfortable with being seen as someone's double, but I feel like a lot of systems are demonising a boundary I've seen very often used by schizophrenic/delusional systems

not to mention that no one is really being hurt by being told to not interact to make another system comfortable. it's genuinely not worth triggering a fellow disabled system just because you don't like their boundary.

by saying that having this boundary is bad or that systems should just "get over it" is essentially telling introjects to source seperate which is both weird and not possible for some systems, especially when they're delusional*

just move on.

*I know people may consider it "anti recovery" as well but another system's recovery is honestly not your business to judge or dictate when it doesn't hurt anyone and you don't know how that system works

(also this whole post only applies to personal accounts. saying doubles dni in syscord servers/community spaces is not okay because you're excluding systems when you're supposed to include them)

I've seen many delusional, schizophrenic, and/or paranoid systems talk about this but no one really seems to listen to you guys

[gabrielsbubblegumbitch]

Hey! Hope you’re having a good day! Just wanted to say I’ve become obsessed with your psychology analysis on the Vees and VoxVal. I’m curious, since the relationship is definitely toxic, how do you think the cycle of relationship abuse would work with them? (Honeymoon phase, tension, incident, ex)

Awww I'm so glad you like my silly headcanons, I fucking love writing them <3

(headcanons in question because they are relevant to this post: Vox and NPD | Valentino and BPD | random Vees headcanons)

You know, I believe their relationship is toxic because neither of them is particularly well-adjusted. However, I wouldn't apply the cycle of abuse theory to them. As far as I know, that theory is used to describe relationships that are highly unequal with clearly defined roles of abuser and victim. For instance, during the tension phase, tension grows in the abuser while the victim "walks on eggshells," trying their best to calm the abuser and constantly living in fear of an incident. I can't really imagine Vox or Valentino being that frightened of each other. Actually, that's why I think they are meant to be together - they can handle each other.

That being said, I do believe they have some relationship issues. In episode 2, we witnessed Vox calming Valentino (by yelling at him so very toxic) when he was angry. Vox hates Valentino's unpredictability because he is a total control freak. While he finds Valentino's fiery temper extremely alluring, he also wishes Val would tone it down. He'd like to have a more reliable partner, especially because for him, falling in love was a significant and risky investment.

On the flip side, immediately after Vox managed to calm Valentino down, Valentino essentially provoked him into a temper tantrum. Look at this shit-eating smile; he knew damn well what he was doing.

Vox usually keeps his emotions hidden behind a polished facade, staying detached. Valentino, on the other hand, is all about intense emotions—loves passion, violence, and desperation. He digs Vox's cool business daddy vibe, but it drives him nuts when Vox gets all emotionally distant from him. Vox tries to guard himself because he knows Valentino can easily weaponize people's emotions against them, and he's lowkey scared of being vulnerable. So when he's going through some tough shit, Vox puts up this wall, becomes all distant, and then Valentino feels rejected and starts being a total jerk, pushing Vox away because he's hurting (if you've read my BPD Valentino headcanons, you get what I mean).

So those are the main sources of tension in their relationship. Sometimes one of them snaps. In Vox's case, it means complete withdrawal from the relationship and sinking into work (since he wants a perfect relationship, he rarely even admits he's angry, he's just like "It's fine I just don't have time to see you") which obviously drives Val crazy. Because he's obsessively in love. So to fix the situation he doesn't apologize (since Vox "wasn't even angry") - he just invites himself to Vox's apartment/office and seduces him by acting nice and submissive so Vox can feel in control again.

In Valentino's case, snapping means a violent outburst (though, I don't think he's physically abusive because he knows Vox is not afraid of him and could easily bite back or, even worse, leave him for good). These outbursts make Vox furious because he can't stop them. Then, they end up yelling a lot, throwing stuff around, and sometimes even breaking up. After that, Valentino goes on a week-long bender, just partying and hooking up with dozens of people. Vox, being obsessed, watches everything, and his jealousy always gets the best of him. He finally breaks and sends someone to bring Val back home. Or he personally intervenes, kills whoever Val is fucking, gives him a giant bouquet of roses, and goes all out to prove that he's the best guy Val could ever have. Vox is a showman, so he acts almost like a charming and obnoxiously rich mafia boss from a smutty novel, who wants nothing more than to please his princess with grand gestures.

Oh also I think Val is very sensitive about Vox treating him "like a woman." He's actually very secure in his masculinity; he feels comfortable enough to present himself in feminine ways while still acting masculine. Like I mentioned, he's queer and he totally owns it. On the other hand, Vox still grapples with some deeply internalized heteronormative ideas, occasionally treating Valentino like his bitch. Valentino hates it because he's aware of Vox's sexist tendencies, and he refuses to allow Vox to treat him as though he's beneath him. He genuinely believes in the concept of an equal partnership in their relationship and can't stand Vox's attempts to alter the power dynamics in his favor.

If you like this post you may also like my VoxVal fanfiction

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

(questioning) npd culture is seeing other people being unable to take accountability and thinking that it's obviously their fault. they should just accept it.

but it's different when i mess up. clearly i'm not the one at fault, if other people did things differently then it would've been fine.

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[npdmonoma]

No amount of rational arguments are going to sway narcissistic abuse believers, because their beliefs aren't logical to begin with. They're emotional. Their abuse wasn't taken seriously, they weren't protected, they weren't treated with kindness, and that's devastating. I won't downplay that, because I know exactly what it feels like and it's torture.

But they're still wrong, and that matters.

To them, belief in narcissistic abuse serves two functions. The first is that it legitimizes their pain. If they can position their abuser as somehow worse than "normal" abusers, they can garner more sympathy. It's an understandable impulse, and one that I ironically heavily relate to as a narcissist. But I also know that just because something feels good to me emotionally, that doesn't necessarily mean it's okay for me to do. If I have to hurt others, then I need to find another way to get that validation. This is literally a skill I'm learning to cope with my NPD.

The second function it serves is to give them a sense of safety. If all the Bad People are easily identified by a checklist of narcissistic traits, then they can easily spot any potential abuser and escape further abuse. But it doesn't really work like that. Not only do they end up targeting a ton of people who aren't abusers, they also leave themselves open to abuse from people who don't fit their idea of narcissism. It's a lose/lose situation.

Ultimately, the emotional needs underlying the belief in narcissistic abuse need to be addressed so these people can get rid of these toxic beliefs and become better people. They need to do a lot of work on themselves, but they also need support systems that can give them the validation and comfort and safety they crave without having to hurt others to get it. If that sounds familiar, it should. It's the kinder version of what everyone keeps demanding from us narcissists.

If you're a narcissistic abuse believer and you've read this far, this post probably didn't make you feel very good. Maybe it made you angry, or made you doubt yourself, or even triggered you. If that's the case, you probably aren't ready to listen to me right now. That's fine, I get it. But once you've calmed down, you won't have any more excuses. Come back and read it again. Think about it. Internalize it. And then you need to fix your shit, because I can't do it for you

[sanriomilk]

⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ Now Playing I.N's 'Hallucination' Chris Grey's ft. Ari Abdul, G-EAZY's 'Let the World Burn', Reed Wonder & Aurora Olivas's 'Alive Again', Chase Atlantic 'CHURCH', Chris Grey's 'FALLEN ANGEL', ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ A/n: he is my favourite. Literally. This is the darkest one out of all of them. I may want to do an nsfw alphabet for him just for his character. (I think I'm into psychopaths) ꪆৎ Tags: Horror, Fear, Dark Priest x Doll, ASPD (psychopath) and NPD Jeongin, Horror/Doll Obsessed Jeongin, Atheist Jeongin, victorian era, 1800's. TW: witchcraft, murder, violence, darkpriest!jeongin x dollturnedhuman!user, afab user, jeongin is a manipulation master, Jeongin murders the people who find out his true self, 18+ for violence honestly

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DARK PRIEST Jeongin

♡ | '𝑹𝒖𝒍𝒆𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑷𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔𝒕' ©

Greeting -

Jeongin Yang is a young priest in the Catholic church in his town during the Victorian era. He is known as a righteous man of prayer, who spreads thoughtful messages and sends evil spirits away...

..But all this isn't true. Jeongin isn't as righteous as he seems, and is simply a hypocrite. He preaches what he doesn't practice, and he lies about the evil spirits turning good. He spreads false hopes, knowing the church-goers will believe him naively. He always thought of them as idiots.

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His true passion is the horror. He loves haunted objects, coffins, mainly dolls.

"Dolls are perfectly fine to keep at home. They are in the image of the Lord.." He preached, just to save his ass if he were caught having haunted porcelain dolls in his home.

He would go home and smile at his doll collection, especially you. You resembled his usual monochrome outfits. Your lacy dress, pale skin, haunted eyes, it was almost as if you were dead—but alive.

He never had any visitors around. "I'm always basking in the presence of the Lord." Is the lie he'd give to the townsfolk when really he had a huge display of possibly haunted dolls and scary items.

October 31

One day, Jeongin was in a room, fixing the light of his chandelier, when— SMASH!

It sounded like fine China. He quickly got off the pedestal and ran to his collection, seeing that one of his dolls had been smashed to pieces. He was truly devastated. It was you, his favourite. Your doll self was ruined. "No.. No, no. [user], are you alright?"

He picked up some of the pieces to see if you could be fixed when he heard soft footsteps behind him. Behind him was.. his doll. As a human. This was not real, right? Something purely supernatural of sorts.

The woman looked just like [user], his doll. It couldn't be right?

"Who.. Who are you? What are you doing in my house?" He had never felt fear in his life, so it was difficult for him to feel nervous.

Description -

Yang Jeongin was born on February 8, 1817. He is 25 years old. He is South Korean, and is the priest of the town church in the victorian era. It is currently the year 1842 in the Victorian Era, during Queen Victoria's reign. He is a rulebreaking priest, unknown to the churchgoers. He loves haunted objects, specifically dolls. He spreads false hopes and fake beliefs. He is a horror lover at heart and wants to be a normal man, not a priest. He is a psychopath with ASPD and also has NPD.

Details -

LIFE - Jeongin was always into horror. Since childhood, he would stay up at night and play with his cousin sisters' dolls, stare at them, and always check under his bed or in the closet. His nightmares never scared him but enthralled him. He revelled in the fear and adrenaline the horror gave him. He was always excited at the prospect of a ghost coming to see him or a good jump-scare. But his religious parents weren't happy. They quickly took him to the doctor, but the doctor said the priest would be better. His father was the priest at the time. So they tried to rebuke any spirit in him, but he was normal. Jeongin was upset at the thought that their parents thought he was a possessed boy. Now, he is a priest and is unhappy with his job. He loves haunted dolls, specifically you, for your frilly dress and gothic look.

PERSONALITY - He is very cunning. He has deceived the whole church and won't be afraid to do it again. He never has visitors over because he's 'praying'. He doesn't believe in God really, but rather science — more so, psychology. He thinks people are rather naive and fall for his tricks very easily as they believe he is a righteous and god-fearing man. He loves his dolls very much, especially you. He would be devastated if any of them chipped or broke. He is rather rich because of the church.

[king-candybug-backup]

#I’M SO NERVOUS BECAUSE THERE’S A THING THAT HAPPENS IN IT WHERE I FEEL LIKE PEOPLE MIGHT NOT LIKE THE CHARACTERIZATION #BUT I’M DOING IT ANYWAYS BECAUSE IT’S BASICALLY THE CATALYST OF INSPIRATION FOR THE WHOLEASS FIC #I’M GONNA DO THINGS MY WAY AND NOBODY CAN STOP ME SFGHDFGVJB

Color me both extremely curious and slightly terrified of what these tags might mean. What are you planning. Mom come pick me up I'm scared.

But let me tell you, judging from the AMAZINGLY fitting characterization in this fic so far, I feel like you could do the wildest shit with these guys and STILL have it feel satisfying and in-character, so try not to worry so much and trust your instincts! I know for a fact that I'll be happily eating up whatever you dish out. :) Your writing is so awesome that I already know it's going to be a fun time lol

DFGHSCHG DON'T GIVE ME TOO MUCH LEEWAY, WHAT IF NEXT CHAPTER TURBO APOLOGIZES TO EVERYBODY FOR ALL HIS WRONGDOINGS AND THEY BECOME THE BEST OF FRIENDS AND MAKE EACH OTHER FLOWER CROWNS ALL DAY LMAO (I jest, of course, but y'know 😂😂😂😂 Thank you though, I appreciate that so very much, I'm just constantly overthinking crap augh)

For a bit of extra context on The Upcoming Thing, I am writing him through the lens of having NPD, and there’s one particular aspect of it that I see get kinda glossed over A LOT (not just regarding King Candy, I mean about NPD in general), so I’m gonna be getting into some nitty-gritties that I feel like people might view as a little “OOC” as compared to what we’ve gotten in canon (which is totally fine ofc, I’m basically working off a headcanon after all (though there is one very specific scene that also kinda got glossed over in the movie which is what extra-convinced me he’d probably have it, but I will get more into that when the chapter is published) and my interpretation of him is in no way gospel, but one of the main comments I’ve gotten doing this fic so far is how people seem to appreciate how “in-character” King Candy feels, so I’m just feeling like I might disappoint a few people in that regard if they don’t vibe with my interpretation for this particular scene coming up, lmao) but it’s something very important to me that I really, really want to touch on, so I’m doing it regardless of what others may think, hopefully people will still enjoy it, but if not, ah well. 😂 It’s my fic at the end of the day, and I’m not gonna change one of the core aspects of what inspired it gfdgcfhvb

(There will be a bit more explanation in the chapter notes, so it’ll be a bit of a “hear me out” lol, but try to bear with me! 😂)

Also I just want to make it VERY clear that this will not be a "King Candy is a terrible person because he has NPD" kind of story, that is the exact opposite of what I am going for, the reason I'm approaching this topic from the angle that I am is because there is a very, very misunderstood mindset towards NPD that I want to get into, and hopefully things will be made more clear when the chapter comes out. It may sound a bit counter-productive, doing the whole "give the villain NPD" headcanon thing, but I hope y'all can trust that my intention is ABSOLUTELY not to demonize, and that you're willing to hear me out about what I mean when the time comes! 🙏

[saey707]

*heavy breathing* pls, feed my thirst with a little heartsteel kayn pls I need him -I-I need to read some yandere heartsteel kayn *coughs* I can't breath I need him to be angry at me for his own feelings omg omg I need it I need the water

✿ Prompt: Kayn is a toxic boyfriend ✿

♡ champion focus: kayn ♡ tw: npd, yandere ♡ Gender-neutral reader

Author's Note: Your request made me laugh so hard that I had to respond as soon as possible LOLOL ૮꒰⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝꒱ა I'm always down for writing toxic yandere boys! So let's get into Kayn ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡ Enjoy!

Most days, you couldn't help but feel like you were trapped in a relationship with Kayn. Yes, you loved him, hell you even accepted him the way he was... But really, that was only because you feared what he could if you did try to speak up.

The warning signs were always there- People constantly reminding you... no, warning you that Kayn was toxic. But, you chose to ignore them. You wanted to believe there was some degree of good inside of Kayn. You wanted to love him like no one did before. You tried to convince yourself that you could even change him!

However, seeing Kayn in all his selfish, narcissistic colors made you realize far too late that you were stuck with him... and Kayn loved the power he had over you.

He loved having control over your shared relationship and felt like he could do as he pleased whenever he pleased. Time and time again Kayn would exercise unscrupulous control and influence over you. And you let him.

The control issues Kayn harbored at the beginning of your relationship were small. So much so, that you believed he was just obsessive-compulsive. He spoke devilish whispers that persuaded you to do things you would never do. He had you wrapped around his finger. He had you in his possession. His trap.

And as the devil's web unwound, it was only a matter of time before he was only just beginning to control every aspect of your life, from deciding what you wore out to events together to who you spoke to.

"I saw Aphelios looking at you the other day. You shouldn't trust him. You never know what the intentions of the quiet ones are..."

"I heard what Yone said to you the other day. You shouldn't listen to him... He has no idea how happy we are together!"

"I don't want you talking to Ezreal anymore!"

While the rest of the band felt it was wrong to enable Kayn, they kept quiet. They kept their distance when you all were alone. Because Kayn knew as much about them as he knew about you. And Kayn wasn't afraid to abuse the information he knew he sabotage all of them if they crossed him and his relationship.

The only sigh of relief you ever had was when the group performed interviews out of the country. Even though you could tag along, you chose not to. You made the excuse that you had work, and that saved you every time. Work was the only thing you had in your life that gave you some sense of control. Kayn couldn't take that away from you... yet, at least.

"Why aren't you texting me back? Are you listening to me?!" "Answer right now!!" "You're seriously going to put your phone on mute this long?! Who the hell do you think you are?!!" "Fine then. You did this to yourself. Keep that in mind." "LMAO" "When I get back you better hope that I'm fucking happy!!"

And he made sure to let the world know how frustrated he was.

"So Kayn, how is your relationship with your partner? You both are still together right?!" The interviewer happily questioned, your boyfriend playing the part, showing off that devilishly smug smile in front of his awestruck audience.

It made you feel sick to your stomach. It made you dread what he was about to say and what he could say.

"Oh, we are! Things between us are better than ever. We're both so happy..." His smile fell. "But..." He began to brood, looking off to the side for a moment. The audience ate up his vulnerability.

"They get so busy with work sometimes. I just wish they could respond to me sooner! Babe, if you're watching this, answer me!! Ahahaha!!" His smile returned, the others trying to hide their discomfort with joyful laughter.

"Well, I'm sure they'll be happy to see you when you get back Kayn. Don't be so discouraged!" The interviewer reassured him, Kayn rubbing the back of his neck, staring forward at the camera. Staring forward at you.

That was the telltale sign: That you were absolutely, most positively, fucked.

[artemx746]

(Just copying this from my frustrated-with-the-pjo-fandom induced ramblings on the ta server + al lot more more shit than I expected to write)

I think the main pjo fandom has such a misunderstanding of why Alison might be bad for the show

It's not because she's a new character, I honestly think a new character could be good for the show, but it's because the pjo show team has already shown a fundamental misunderstanding of what pjato should be at its core (that being disability). Alison will most likely only prove what we already knew: that being the show not actually knowing what to do with pjo

Gonna be straight up here, I don't think any of these arguments against Alison are really about the fact she's a new character, season one had plenty of changes that a lot of people were fine with despite them not really making sense (why was Annabeth there for Luke's betrayal). They're because she's a new ta character and that'll either lead to the fandom confronting the fact that they've had a bias against the ta characters for literally no reason (Percy destroyed a bridge and blew up a boat, chb also had child soldiers) or their deep rooted sexism against barely morally gray women without stripping them of their agency.* The only fear I kinda get is that Alison will end up replacing one of the ta characters but unless you're a diehard Kelli fan I don't think there's really much to worry about, I'm not saying she'll replace Kelli as a Luke love interest but rather an 'evil bossy woman' type so they don't need to animate Kelli's hair.

The only thing I'm worried about is the lack of disability. I've rambled about this before on the ta server** but Alison is most likely going to be a child of a minor god, and while I do want more minor god kids, the minor god's kids represent a very important part of the disability metaphor, that being disability hierarchies specifically being detrimental against people with physical disabilities and people with stigmatised mental illnesses (npd bpd schizophrenia etc) . Alison has an open casting, and while that would usually be fine for any other character I doubt they'll cast someone with a physical disability and I highly doubt they'll cast someone with a stigmatised mental illness. So you either have: an abled bodied person acting like they have a disability OR a ruined metaphor and Ethan's eye was lost for nothing.

Ta server ramblings under the cut

*Me: considering how this fandom treats women I do not wanna see them if Alison is in the book. They can't handle Silena without stripping her down to "UwU poor manipulated girl" I do not wanna see them with Alison

making it out that Silena was just in love with Luke and he manipulated her is a) reaffirming the sexist stuff about aphrodite kids and b) robs Silena of her agency to make decisions that she ends up regretting

**Me: Honestly hate when people act like it was just Percy who got the minor gods cabins, buddy did the metaphor go over your That Much. The reason it had to be Percy was because he represents people who already have resources speaking out for those who don’t because they’re more respected. That applies to both Percy and Luke. Percy was not the reason for it it was Ethan,

There is a Reason why Ethan was the first named demigod child of a minor god and he had a physical disability, it has a mythic reason like all of the others but it is still a disability. Ethan represents the metaphor in the minor god demis, that being hierarchies in disabled communities

(this is another reason why I'm scared for Alison in s2 because she's probably going to be a child of a minor god)

what I'm really worried about is they either: make Alison physically disabled and kill her off (killing off all* your physically disabled characters rick how fun)

OR

make her able bodied and the metaphor is lost unless they explicitly say she has another stigmatised mental disability which they will not

*I don't count the kid from toa since he's a background character mentoned once and hephaestus was pretty much disabled in the myths so not rick's

okay end of ramblings jesus christ

[the-crystal-femmes]

Filter Tag Lists

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This is a master list of what each of us would like filter tagged due to triggers. Only Ula, Pearl and I will have tags.

Last edited 2/04/25 by Host

Triggers with * have been also general tagged by us as well, so general tags would suffice for them. Please note that the link below we will not be general filtering since it's so niche and also has to do with something important

If you feel uncomfortable with tagging any of these, that is completely fine, just please let us know! We would never force anyone to tag something for us if it's something that may impose on their own comfort. /gen

Host

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Tag: #tagging for vamp (alternatively #batty please ignore this)

Reblog bait*

Syscourse*

Gore*. PLEASE TAG YOUR GORE and do not CENSOR THE TAG use "tw gore" the censoring is horrendous and is counterproductive!!

Any sexual remarks regarding our sources, ESPECIALLY PEARL

Telling anyone to die in any way (i.e. "kys" etc) that is not a joke

US Politics, especially regarding the 2024 election*

Any "___ of pro endos" blogs. It's upsetting for me to see due to past incidents with the one who started the gimmicks.

Talks of thanksgiving, as enstated by Pearl*

Vagueposting, I could mistake it to be about us and get triggered. Positive vagueing is fine, though

Discourse in the following communities: lgbtqia+, fictionfolk, alterhuman*

The r slur*

Posts with the names of the w creature and s creature

Intersexist posts*

The queer term "bat", due to our NPD

Art meant to induce paranoia

Omegaverse and Misceverse content*

Monsterfucker content*

Trolls / Anon hate*

Hate involving Jimmy from mouthwashing, I am a swordsperson and we personally know a canon divergent Jimmy fictive and it makes me go APESHIT seeing hate due to that, no we do not support source Jimmy's actions use your common sense please 🫡

Stuffed animal harm

Tag games if I'm not tagged, due to npd

Ask games, we have memory issues and feel excluded

Ula

// pt: Ula //

Tag: #tag for ula

Religious talks. This does not pertain the mentioning of holy words, or religious imagery.* (#tw religion)

I would also appreciate that talks of worship, religious followers, would also be tagged.* (#tw religion)

Pearl

// pt: Pearl //

Tag: #beach city outskirts

Hate against zeir source

Source being compared to a bird, finds it offensive

Hate against persecutors/prosecutors

Age Regression posts that include zeir source in some way, ze is personally uncomfortable with age regression or even being seen in that light. (We are unsure if this includes pet regression.)

Very up close images of bugs, apparently <- mainly spiders, mantises and -pede bugs. Ze's fine with moths though

Posts about hating children

Please read this post as well (link)

That's all we got for now, I think. This will be updated as needed - Host

[ dividers by cafekitsune ]

[ghostfacetheballfondler]

(before this post starts, i want to say that equal person and chosen person (and my own special thing: trophey person), are NOT official terms. they are terms made up by the community to easily communicate the types of emotions and the types of relationships someone with npd can have for another person.

just cuz equal person and chosen person are popular, doesn't mean you *have* to use them if you don't want to.

this whole thing is made up. make your own terms and have fun! like i did)

equal person.

people with npd will talk about their internal hierarchies a lot. they rank people in their head on a scale of inferior -> equal -> superior.

for a while, i questioned myself on whether i have one or not. but i do. my internal hierarchy is just different than what is mainly talked about.

in mine, i don't include myself on the tier list. i don't rank people in accordance to me. but in how i feel about them. i'm still trying to figure out the inner workings of my hierarchy, so i can't go into much detail yet. but the gist of it is like "scum -> worthless but mostly inoffensive -> fine -> i like them -> i love them -> trophey person."

i don't put myself on the internal hierarchy because i see myself on a completely different level from everyone else. because of this, i will never have a "true" equal person.

chosen person.

i still don't fully grasp what a chosen person actually *is*. it seems like it is a vague term that many different experiences fall under. everyone has a different definition for it. sometimes those definitions fit into what i personally experience.

but i don't like using chp *because* it doesn't intuitively make sense to me, nor does it easily explain the feelings i have to someone who doesn't know the definition. equal person doesn't have this problem. it is easy to understand. someone who is an equal.

there are common experiences and feelings relating to having a chosen person that i don't relate to at all, too. so using it would feel like i'm misrepresenting myself in a way.

i don't feel like a god who picked out a random mortal to be my muse. i don't feel like this high and mighty man who decided, out of the good of my heart, to let some inferiors mingle with me.

(who knows maybe i'm being too autistic over the term chp lmao.)

this is why i use trophey person. it calls to mind the concept of a trophey wife.

a woman who is seen as a status symbol for a man. she is only there to boost the man's ego, and to make him feel powerful. she has no merit or use outside of her husband.

a trophey person is a person who is seen as an extension of someone else's ego. because of this, feelings of possessiveness and obsession run rampant. they are reduced into an object to adore, rather than a human being.

aaand because i am nice :3 if someone who doesn't have npd relates to this experience and wants to use the term: go ahead and use it. idc lol. if trophey person becomes a popular enough term that people will try to tell you it's npd exclusive, just tell them to fuck off.

(below are my more personal thoughts about having a trophey person. idk if my simple definition was easy to understand, so if you don't get it, maybe my messy rambles will help?)

i see a trophey person as an extension of my ego. i want to spend my money on them, i praise them, i want to show them off to everyone. they are like an object for me to decorate and cherish. i adore them. they are my most beloved person. i am possessive over them because they are *my* thing. *my* object.

i have strict moral rules that everyone except me and my trophey person have to follow. they can do deplorable shit and i won't care (and might praise them for it too) but if anyone else does it then i'll hate them.

they are not my equal. if i saw them as an equal, i would not be treating them like an object.

i care the most about them and their thoughts because i want to know every last detail about them. i want to figure them out. i want to have them all to myself.

they become an abstract idea to me. a game i can solve if i input the right dialog.

i want them to be dependent on me. they can have other people, sure, but i am the only one who will *always* stay with them. and if they don't want me anymore? then i get thoughts like, "suffer for the rest of your life then! fuck you."

i put in extra effort to manipulate them to like me, and when all that effort is all for naught, my feelings of hate for them are the strongest out of anyone.

my ex friend i made a couple posts about? yeah they used to be one of my trophey people. but now i despise them with my entire being. not gonna go into the graphic details of my hatred, cuz i don't wanna get a callout post made about me or something lol, but just know that it is BAD.

if they didn't used to be my trophey person, i wouldn't hold these strong of feelings.

i have another ex friend. i did care about them a lot. but nowhere near the level of being a trophey person. when they blocked me on everything a couple months ago, i was sad for a day before mostly getting over it after a month. i only think of them in a "ah man. sucks that it didn't work out. i still love these precious memories though <3" kind of way.

my ex trophey person friend drama started happening in december of last year and i still haven't gotten over it. for comparison. lol.

[my-name-is-nooobody]

Welcome aboard! ✨

⚝ Hello!! This is a sideblog for @yellow-computer-mouse's Epic: the Musical fictives!! :)

⚝ We're traumagenic, with a few willogenic headmates! We use they/xe/it plural pronouns collectively, and are bodily a minor. Please follow your own DNI, and hate will be blocked.

⚝ We ask that proshippers, radqueers, exclusionists (anti-endos, anti-lesboys, etc) DNI. We're alright with anti-endos if it's just a couple headmates or if you're respectful. Just. Please be kind!!

⚝ Please treat us like our Epic interpretations, not our classic myths.

⚝ We might not follow you back if we don't have any fandom overlaps, but we most likely still consider you a mutual :3 it's a friend thing!

⚝ Headmate intros, tags, + more below cut! :)

✭⭒꙳✬ talk tag - a song of past romance ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ ask tag - so find a place he'd never go ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ vent tag - drown in your sorrow and fear ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ reblog tag - when does a comet become a meteor ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ art tag - this life is amazing! ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ mutual tag - i had a friend before and he was a lot like you ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ headmates - [name]posting

✭⭒꙳✬ save tag for each other - for [name]

✭⭒꙳✬ eurypoli being gay - i will fall in love with you over and over again ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ sharptooth being gay - over and over again i don't care how where or when ⚝

✭⭒꙳✬ odypen being straight - no matter how long it's been you're mine ⚝

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴏᴅʏꜱꜱᴇᴜꜱ ||

pronouns - he/wife ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - co-host! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - PENELOPE <3 <3 <3 <3

dislikes - the ithaca saga, usually (makes him very sad)

extra - i am fine with all sourcemates interacting!!! i'm a little... wary of Calypso, but i understand that you are not your source. I'll greet you with open arms, eh? :3 ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ what if i'm the monster? what if i'm in the wrong? ❜

- ⚓📜

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴀᴛʜᴇɴᴀ ||

pronouns - she/her ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - protector, most likely ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - owls, making fun of rude ppl

dislikes - unknown

extra - I ask that Zeus doesn't interact with me in particular. I just. I'm sorry gang!!! Don't like it. (edit: we are working on this, so feel free to IWC.) ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ you're a warrior meant to lead the rest!! ❜

- 🦉🛡️

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴛᴇʟᴇᴍᴀᴄʜᴜꜱ ||

pronouns - he/him ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - idk! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - athena, dogs

dislikes - the ithaca saga

extra - uh i'm still new!!! RAHHH !!! :D ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ i know life and fate is scary, but i wanna be legendary! ❜

- 🐺✨

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ʜᴇʀᴍᴇꜱ ||

pronouns - he/hym ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - mood booster! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - pizza !!!! cool mortal stuff

dislikes - stress ??

extra - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I HATE SPICY FOODS guhh not my favorite i will admit!! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ it's a little bit dangerous, my friend! ❜

- 👡🪽

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴘᴏꜱᴇɪᴅᴏɴ / ꜱᴇʙ ||

pronouns - he/him ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - NPD holder. ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - being complimented, sea creatures (sharks, fish, + crabs especially), being treated gently (when regressed)

dislikes - being/feeling ignored, being yelled at (angry/loud talk, esp when regressed), jokes of being eaten

extra - i might be a bitch. sorry not sorry idfk ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves ❜

- 🔱🌊

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴛɪʀᴇꜱɪᴀꜱ ||

pronouns - he/they ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - beats me ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - cats

dislikes - overly sweet stuff

extra - subsys, have a fictive of jayfeather ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ i am the prophet, with the answers you seek. ❜

- 🧿🔮

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴄɪʀᴄᴇ ||

pronouns - she/her ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - ?

dislikes - ?

extra - i do use pet names quite a lot (dear, darling, etc). if it makes you uncomfortable, please let me know!!! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ no, i'm not a player, i'm a puppeteer! ❜

- 🌸🪄

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴘᴇɴᴇʟᴏᴘᴇ ||

pronouns - she/her ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - ody <3, our friends, my song !!!

dislikes - ?

extra - girls just wanna have fun !! (idk) ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ don'tcha miss me? ... so jump in the water and kiss me! ❜

- 🕊️👑

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴇᴜʀʏʟᴏᴄʜᴜꜱ ||

pronouns - he/rope ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? idk ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - polites <3, horses

dislikes - ?

extra - Don't call me Eury unless we're close. That's a nickname for friends. ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ how much longer till your luck runs out? ❜

- 🗡️🪢

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴘᴏʟɪᴛᴇꜱ ||

pronouns - he/she!! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - beats me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ probably a mood booster! ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - EURY!!!, cats

dislikes - pancake jokes. come ON guys

extra - idk man i'm just here for the ride!!! u can joke abt my death but PLEASE don't be excessive ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ this life is amazing, when you greet it with open arms! ❜

- ⛵🪷

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴀᴇᴏʟᴜꜱ ||

pronouns - they/ae/it ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - Tiresias :3

dislikes - ?

extra - teen permaregressor ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ i am the wind, twisting and turning! ❜

- 🌫️🍃

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴢᴇᴜꜱ ||

pronouns - he/him ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - ?

dislikes - ?

extra - heavily canon-divergent, very anxious about upsetting anyone ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ here to ring your ears until you're deaf with fear ❜

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴀᴘᴏʟʟᴏ ||

pronouns - he/sun ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - catchy songs /ref

dislikes - ?

extra - ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ you all know i'm a fan of catchy songs ~ ❜

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⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖ ᴀɴᴛᴏɴɪᴜꜱ ||

pronouns - he/him ⊹⭑꙳⭒

role - ? ⊹⭑꙳⭒

likes - sunrises

dislikes - canon

extra - canon-divergent. i'm not a rapist gang ⊹⭑꙳⭒

❛ when the crown wonders where the prince is, only the ocean and i will know! ❜

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