#Ed recovery

[bethanypyle]

I deserve to see what life can be like if I continue to chose recovery. Recovery is scary, but giving up on myself is scarier as I know where that leads - one way path to death

[thepeacefulgarden]

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 56!!

Workouts:

paced through my room a lot while chatting on my phone

half of growingannanas' 20 min dumbell arm workout

Steps: 17 279

Eating:

breakfast - a kiwi, a tangerime, a chocolate pastry + starbucks coffee

late lunch (party leftovers) - btoccoli, a carrot, some avocado, some tuna salad, grilled chicken with hot sauce, a sasauge + almost a slice of cake, a chocolate protein pudding

dinner - some nuts, a cucumber, a boiled egg + yogurt with chia seeds, blueberries, goji berried and chocolate chips, some matcha pocky sticks

Water intake: like 2 liters

Sleep: 7.5 hours

Studying:

spent 3 hours on forest

had math tutoring for 2 hours

read like 50 pages in the morning (reading: The inheritance games)

Screen time: wasted quite some time

Self care:

Whimsy girly breakfast!!! (I'm such a breakfast girl sjksjskksjsskj)

gua sha + icing my fave + cute music + sunscreen + my coffee

Ate like whatever I wanted today with no guilt😋😋

Emotion log:

I GOT SO MANY COMPLIMENTS ON MY OUTFIT AND MY BODY TODAY!!!

I'm so insanely happy and recovery is going well, the ed voice is slowly fading and everythiny in my life is so perfect!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I wanna play roblox with a friend and eat a lot of tasty food and romanticise my life and take it slow and read a lot and do my workout and have fun

[pozartaa]

08.01.24 UTRZYMANIE WAG.I dzień 676. Limit +/- 2100 kal.

Wybrane posiłki:

Nie liczę kalori1 od: 182 dni

Wczoraj wieczorem byłam jeszcze w klubie z S. malowaliśmy ściany, ależ tam się czysto i bielutko zrobiło.

No pierwsza sesja D&D zaplanowana na 17.01. Spojrzałam jeszcze raz w grafik, do pracy idę dopiero w piątek, a nie w czwartek. Ale luz.

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Byłam dziś na spacerze (w sumie to właściwie codziennie jestem na spacerze). Myślę sobie, że moje spacerki są właściwie moim głównym źródłem "fitnessu".

Nic mnie tak nie motywuje jak te 10.000 kroków choć wiem, że to tylko hasło reklamowe krokomierza.

Tak na prawdę chodzi o to żeby się ruszyć i wyjść. Nie mam bólu dupy, jak posiedzę w domu, ale jak wyjdę i zrobię porządne kółko, aż gile z nosa ciekną, to mam takie poczucie dobrze przeżytego dnia. Moje ED-myśli mówią wtedy: "przeszłaś 5 km szybkim krokiem, no to teraz możesz być gł0dna" Więc tak - zdaje sobie sprawę, że nie chodzę tylko dla rekreacji. Na szczęście zawsze z przyjemnością - więc tu jest minimini różnica. Wolę taki kompromis z własną głową niż żaden.

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Później w końcu przyszedł mój zestaw startowy do gry fabularnej Zew Chthuhlu. Zaaferowana i zainspirowana, napisałam swoją autorską przygodę i mam zamiar spróbować zostać Mistrzem Gry (w tym systemie ta funkcja to Strażnik Tajemnic) i poprowadzić swoją pierwszą sesję.

Uwielbiam Lovecrafta i kosmiczny horror. Osadziłam przygodę w lokacji własnej miejscowosci, więc nazwy są wytarte. Ale wygląda to tak

Fajnie jak komuś się chciało ten maczek przeczytać 🤣.

Dziś powtórka z rozrywki. Idziemy zrobić porządki w klubie.

Dobrej nocy wam życzę!

[zimswife]

Survival drinkie 🥛

[ed-recoverry]

Reminder that caregivers of children are, by definition, supposed to provide shelter, food, and clothing. They did not do you a huge favor by providing this. It was the bare minimum of the job description that they voluntarily signed up for. You are not indebted to your caregivers for giving you the very basics.

[desultory-suggestions]

You have to stop ruining things for yourself preemptively because you believe they’ll fail anyway. Give yourself a chance to succeed.

[mush-dooms]

hey so I actually don't think you should be breathing that much, like don't you already breathe enough? it isn't a good look to be inhaling and exhaling that much. idkk I'm just worried about your health, you know how many toxic chemicals are in the air :/ if you want I can surgically take out one of your lungs so that you won't breathe as much! you'll feel much better :) omg do you see that guy over there trying to catch his breath that's so funny haha he's breathing so much hold on I'm gonna film him real quick so my friends and I can all laugh at him later! hey so I heard about this new thing called "suffocation" and it's supposed to help you not breathe as much isn't that great? I mean yeah people die from that but at least we found a cure for the breathing epidemic! btw all of this is so normal

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

Another piece of diet culture to unlearn: that eating an "unhealthy" food negates the benefits of other nutritious things you've eaten. Put bacon and ranch on your salad? Congratulations, you still got a lot of fiber, that's great for your gut biome, and the veggies still contain nutrients. Finished up your dinner with a dessert? You still ate the dinner. You don't have to eat "pure" to take in nutrition from your meals.

[maxiglow]

JZ

[scary-friend]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[thepeacefulgarden]

The numbers on the scale do not define me, and they have nothing to say about my worth as a human being. Neither do my dress or pants size, my measurements, my labs, or my BMI.

My body is not a moral failing.

I don't owe anyone thinness.

I don't owe anyone adherence to current beauty standards.

Health is complex, and it's not a moral obligation to myself or to anyone else.

Food is more than just fuel.

I am allowed to have treats.

I don't have to count calories or macros.

Exercise is not a punishment for the food I have eaten or am about to eat.

I am allowed to have snacks.

Food isn't good or bad, it just is.

I am allowed to have fats and carbs.

All bodies, including mine, are worthy, because they hold human beings.

I am allowed to have rolls, cellulite, stretch marks, etc.

My body does not define me.

I am allowed to love my body just as it is, right here and now.

I don't have to diet.

I am unfollowing "thinspo" and "fitspo" accounts on social media. Today. Right now.

I am allowed to eat any foods I want.

I am allowed to eat as much as I want.

I am allowed to eat any time I want, day or night.

I listen to my body and trust myself.

I am enough, and I am worthy, right here and now, just as I am.

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 57!!

Workouts:

played handball 20 mins in p.e

had no time so I walked a lot instead

Steps: 19 352

Eating:

breakfast - yogurt bowl with chia seeds, granola, blueberries, apple and cinnamon <3

lunch - some cabbage salad, 1.5 chicken breasts, 3 meatballs, some almonds and some coconut + made low-calorie pancakes (which didn't quite turn out good hahah) and had them with honey, whipped cream and blueberries

dinner - a carrot, a slice of avo toast, some cottage cheese, a slice of toast with bananas, honey and cinnamon + half a horrible tasting protein bar

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 6 hours😞

Studying:

spent 4 hours on forest

read 40 pages (finished The inheritance games)

did my physics project (and it took SO LONG.)

did my chemistry project too

Screen time: wasted a lot of time, tomorrow should be better I hope

Self care:

didn't quite have the time to do anything ab that

Emotion log:

Was lowkey hungry but had nothing to eat at school bcs I usually don't get hungry while I'm there

I wanted toast but I (used to) hate bread so I had a lot of contradictory thoughts. Then I just thought "We're not afraid of carbs anymore" and I had 2 slices which I really enjoyed!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I have some leftover chocolate pastry that has been waiting for meeee

I SHOULD BE PLAYING ROBLOX WITH MY FRIENDS TOMORROW SJSKSJSK!!!

[pozartaa]

09.01.24 UTRZYMANIE WAG.I dzień 677. Limit +/- 2100 kal.

Wybrane posiłki:

Nie liczę kalori1 od: 183 dni

Kochani, dziś ostatni wolny dzień i dalej już ruszam normalnie z grafikiem. Chwilę sobie pochillowałam - nie ma co.

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Jutro moje pierwsze stawanie na w4dze w nowym roku. Zobaczymy co tam się odwaliło od Świąt. Zw@żę się z samego rana. Trzymajcie kciuki.

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Ale dziś póki co jeszcze trochę w domu i to porobiłam parę fajnych rzeczy. Oczywiście byłam na krótkim spacerku, ale na prawdę krótkim bo pogoda była obleśna. Przygotowałam żarcie na dwa dni. Zrobiłam S. kanapki do pracy i dalej szczury malowałam.

Dziś nie pomagam mojemu małżowi w klubie. Zgłosił się inny kolega (też jeden z założycieli). Dobrze, bo mam zamiar dziś iść wcześnie spać.

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Ugotowałam też zupę... Nie chciało mi się robić kolażu tym razem. Zupa krem z cukinii z cycem kurzęcym. Będzie opcja przekąskowa na 2-3 dni.

Dziś opcja kolacyjna.

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Pierwszy raz zauważyłam, że dzień już jest trochę dłuższy. Stare przysłowie głosi: "Na nowy rok dnia przybywa na barani skok" - coś w tym jest.

Btw trochę inaczej umieściłam zdjęcia czy tak jest lepiej czy 3 w rządku - jak zawsze?

Dobrej nocy wam życzę.

[vampcatirl]

CW: ED

just something i noticed in my lived experience

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[ed-recoverry]

Some of my favorite posts on r/BenignExperience from the past week

Thanks to the tumblr post that made me aware of this subreddit. It makes me smile.

Part two, part three, part four