#why do i want shit i cant handle 😭

[phagodyke]

aouuugh my uterus......

[fallowtail]

i try not to let it get to me but the knowledge i am always going to be The Stupid One in every situation i’m in just…really, really sucks. sigh. oh well. i stay silly :3c

[kazutora-kurokawa]

Omg this is my first time asking a request from you 😭💕

Can you please write about how the big tr guys (South, Mochi, Taiju, Draken, Benkei, Muto) react when they try to pick you up and you say you're too heavy for them? Both fluffy and spicy things if you can please? 🥰🥰

Big!TokRev Men Reacting To You Saying You're "Too Heavy"

♡ SFW, suggestive, fem reader, mostly fluffy honestly, slight size kink ♡

Characters: Draken, Taiju, Mucho, Mochi, Benkai, South

note: thanks for requesting anon 🧡 love me a big boy just like SZA said fr

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Draken

🐉 He understands where you're coming from and reassures you that you're not heavy to him

"Darling, I promise I ain't gonna hurt myself. I can handle you. As a matter of fact, let me show you how light you are."

🐉 Lifts you up against the wall to show you how easy it is to lift you, and does it again later that night (new position unlocked ✨)

Taiju

🦈 Doesn't verbally disagree, just lifts you up into his arms to prove you wrong

"Too heavy, huh? Seems like you're pretty light to me."

🦈 Has the most smug grin on his face, literally thinks he's the strongest guy in the world

Mucho

🔷 Politely disagrees with you but he won't press the issue

"If you really don't want me picking you up, then I won't. But I definitely could if you needed me too."

🔷 Lifts you up later on just so you can reach the kitchen cabinet, definitely hits you with a "told you so"

Mochi

🍡 Why would you say that in front of him? Now he's on your ass for the rest of the day because what the hell are you talking about? Too heavy? For who?

"Too heavy? Sweetheart you're like a mouse in comparison to me. You're literally so tiny... actually, let me show you just how tiny you are to me."

🍡 You better cancel your plans for tomorrow because you won't be able to walk in the morning, this man got you in a headlock while he's hitting it

Benkai

🏋🏼‍♂️ Do you see this man's muscles? He's laughing in your face if you say you're too heavy

"You're what? Ain't no such thing as too heavy for me. Watch."

🏋🏼‍♂️ Picks you up like a weight and starts deadlifting you (he probably does that shit to Waka too 😭)

South

🎻 Ignores you and picks you up regardless because he knows you cannot be serious

"That was real funny love, as if I couldn't pick you up. Besides, you're the perfect size for me."

🎻 He will be spending the rest of the night holding you extra tight and no you don't have a say in it

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[ainnur]

we know you like celestialchaos (Wukong/Xiangliu) and divorced shadowpeach (where Macaque is the pathetic ex) but do you have any other LMK ships?

with or without Wukong, doesn’t matter

I DO!! Im a semi multishipper so I have few ships I like and some of them a pretty rare but I'll explain why I like them in simple way.

Start with my third favorite:

StableBoy (Ao Lie/Wukong)

To me this ship just a cute one. It match my hc that Ao Lie being the first person Wukong ever open up to after all the shit he been through because Wukong loves horses lol. And Ao lie is one of the persons that see Wukong grow to be better. I can see it as first ever heathy relationship Wukong ever have. Also Ao Lie the first person he ever truly trusted always listening to what he says. Ao Lie is Wukong's light.

OTHER SHIPS 👇🏼👇🏼

GoldenDragon (Mk/Mei)

Best friend to lover trope. They is two people that would say "If we single when we 27, we just marry each other" and the keep their dynamic. Plus they always be their for each other and match each other energy. They know each other the best and I like that about them. And when I first watched lmk I actually think they were dating or something lol. Im just like the silver and gold brother demon 🥲 sue me. If anything GoldenDragon is not parelle with Shadowpeach but StableBoy.

FreeNoddle (Tang/Pigsy)

Old married couple for the win✨ I just like how they lovingly fight with each other but comfort each other when needed.

LionPeach (Azure/Wukong)

This really giving love at first sight 😭I mean what is this. Look I like them because they cute. Azure admire Wukong and see him as great warrior, a bother, the King! Little bit too much its unhealthy. And Wukong have all his trust and having same gold as him and that is making the world a better place. But because his admiration, he blame Wukong for failing. For not achieving what he expect of Wukong to be. He also think what he doing is right. But even everything he never wanted to hurt anyone deep down and he made mistakes and redeemed himself with his life despite everything he loved his friends and they all loved him. Just look at Wukong when Azure die. And after everyting Wukong still care about him in a way.

Shadowpuppet (Not Mayor/Macaque)

Petty rival that somehow get together lol. I like them both being shitty to each other but cant leave each other side because they only have each other 🥲.

DestinyBone (Mayor/Lady Bone Demon)

One side love. Mayor do everything for LBD while her only focus on her destiny. Everything he do is for her but now she gone...he is nothing.

PuppetPeach (Wukong/Mayor)

Toxic yuri- okay look I have this idea for them with Mayor try to find someone else to serve after LBD is gone. At first Mayor dont like Wukong because you know, Wukong is the one make him realize that LBD never actually need him. But when fighting with Wukong he remember something. The warm that Wukong left him. It also cold when come to lbd and that how he like it but this warm feel strange to him. After some stalking he see Wukong as the leader, as the protector, as the hero and most importantly as a KING. Someone who deserve to be serve. I made a fanfic once about them HERE

StringDoll (Spider Queen/Lady Bone Demon)

✨Toxic Yuri for real ✨No explainition just them

IronBull (PIF/DBK)

Vilain power couple ✨. They may be a shit parents to Red Son but damn they're THAT couple. They just good with each other. I like how dbk defend PIF by saying that PIF can handle herself because she is a strong women but still worry about her because THAT his wife, he have right to be worry. And PIF? She loyal for him. 500 years finding way to free her husband from mountain. *Ehem* Take note Macaque *Ehem*. PIF would rush to her husband always. Just like when Azure attack DBK and his family, PIF quickly rush and jump infront of her husband wanting to protect him. I was like damn, you go girl ✨They either be good parents or good couple. They made their decision lol.

GoldenFeather (Peng/Wukong)

Okay I like this ship because my friend @starrclown make me ship theme with their cute fanfic. But I still have my own idea for them. I like them in 2 way

1)Peng having a casual crush on Wukong. Its never anything big. Peng just think Wukong is funny and chaotic. Peng love 'chaos' anyway and without it they think it be boring. Peng know that Wukong never actually like anyone and is fine by that. If Wukong like them back it be awasome but if Wukong dont Peng will be just find.

2) Peng have crush on Macaque😬. Hate crush but still crush. The thing is that Mac is a simp for Wukong and Peng just don't get it. He just don't get what so good about Wukong that got Macaque drolling like that. Peng being curious and also don't want seem as coward like Macaque ask Wukong for a "night" just to have the taste. Now he understand Macaque and wanting Wukong

Also Peng might be more important to Wukong consider he is one of first ink from Wukong scroll that show up and the first one to attack

This is OC x Canon:

ToxicPeach (Steve/Wukong)

Okay this is crack ship that me and my friend @halfdeadhalfpaniced made with random character we call Steve. But more time pass I kinda like the ship. Steve the wanna rockstar fall in love with the Monkey King himself. Wukong is questioning why he like that loser lol

[wiinterz]

: •̩̩͙ ໋ V. BEGGARS CAN’T BE CHOOSERS. ˖ Shoko Ieiri.

actress!shoko x actress/rockstar-fem!reader

genre(s) - headcanon, modern day au, social media au, older x younger, established relationship

description - your band, serenity & the stones, inspired by 90s glam rock and 0Os heavy metal bands are constantly growing with fans coming in hot. your acting career skyrocketing, landing you in the lap of shoko ieiri, which leads you lucky enough to start a relationship with her. it's easy so far, the only difficulty is nosy news reporters and fans wanting to know more about your relationship with the model and actress. can you handle the heat or will it be too much for you?

warnings - profanity, fluff, age gap (shoko is forty in this and reader is twenty-eight), men dni.

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[saccharin3-seraphim]

turned 18 yesterday, how horrifying. bcs under the cut cus wtf else am i even worth anymore

debating whether or not to start postimg my face here hmm im lowk chopped tho so yall cant be fucking surprised when im ugly if i do start posting my face😭😭

crazy long ass rant under the cut too i just need to get it out of my system ngl

ive been feeling so strange lately, like im not even human anymore and i dont know why. my anxiety is at the highest it has ever been which honestly says a lot, im a very anxious person normally anyways. but its gotten to the point that i sometimes feel like im going to have a heart attack because my heart just goes fucking crazy when it gets bad. idk tho i guess i wouldnt be too upset about dying rn lol but im really starting to miss the girl i used to be, or thought i was. im not sure which one it is. im not sure how other people perceive me. ive been told i give “deer in headlights” by multiple people on separate occasions so maybe they think im dim ? or unresponsive ? not worth trying to save thats for sure. eugh i dont know why i feel so shit but i do i feel so gross i hate it when my friends look at me because i just know that they can tell how awful i really am, i just dont know why they keep me around and its beginning to upset me. i thought i liked a guy for the first time in literal years but i dont really know how i feel, hes very sweet to me but in the end i just dont see him ever approaching me in that way. i dont take any initiative on that front, ever. i let god handle that; if its meant for me, it will come to me. but this guy, according to my inside source (his coworker, call me crazy whatever atp) is actively looking for a relationship, like has been talking to some girl from our school (a truly horrible, mean girl, mind you. like bullied another girl out of the city in not even three months kind of mean and nasty) and i dont know what he sees in her. i dont know what i should be to be wanted, this is such a strange experience i really dont like it and i wish i could make it all go away. what makes it even worse is shes thinner than me, which i guess isnt any surprise considering im built like a mf cement building. its just so much cognitive dissonance. it gives me migraines. maybe i just wish i could be neurotypical for like, one day. just to figure out what would make me desirable, even though i know i wouldnt change anything even if i did know. i just cant change myself, im horrible at masking and ive come to terms with the fact that im strange. i just want to know. morbid curiosity ig. its fun to have a maybe half crush i guess, but this is eating me alive. i want to know what im like in another universe where im someone worth pursuing. im probably not so nervous in that world

[hotchs-big-hands]

ngl i would genuinely get off to making haley jealous and angry because of how fucking easy it is. my personal hc here but i think she was controlling and thought she had hotch wrapped around her finger and it infuriated her that his job was the only thing he refused to listen to her about. i also think she tried to baby trap him with jack in the assumption that would "fix" their marriage and when it only made it worse she blamed aaron for never being home when she easily couldve hired a nanny or regular babysitter so she could work or do whatever. i believe she cheated bc of that one phone call to their house when hotch answered and it was a random man asking for haley before hanging up and the look hotch gave her like yeah he knew she was fucking around too. i think it made her even angrier that when she filed for divorce hotch didnt even fight her onit! didnt ask to work things out or for counseling or anything. just "okay ill sign the papers when i get back from this case"

now assuming reader is mid twenties i think your very existence would have her enraged. aaron seems happier and even healthier. hes got more color in his face, hes put on some healthy weight, he smiles and laughs now, he takes more time off work, his life has clearly significantly improve since she left him and she cant fucking stand it. she thought she was the best thing that ever happened to him and now shes seeing in real time she's actually the worst thing ♥️♥️

and you thinks its funny as hell to watch a 40 year old woman with a whole ass kid be that bent out of fucking shape because the man SHE LEFT is fine without her. like yes maam i am younger than you, hotter than you, nicer than you AND i can ride the dick just right. stay pressed bitch 💕. and when she tries interfering in your relationship hotch asks you to put up with it just for a bit because he knows hack is still adjusting to coparenting and he wants the best for his son so you let him handle his exwife until she crosses a line and tries to accuse you of some shit and aaron finally puts his foot down and haley cant believe that shes really lost complete control over aaron (haha fuck you haley)

like i fantasize about a situation where haley is trying SOOOO hard to break yall up and drive a wedge between you two and it isnt until jacks birthday or some big family function aaron brought you too and haley cant help it but lowkey stalk yall all night and so youre like "aaron watch this" and you drag him off to some secluded corner and hes like ??? but you tell him "hold on baby give it a minute. bet you anything haley pops up" and then once you hear footsteps you give aaron a big fat smooch and surprise surprise!! whos coming around the corner? why its haleys stalker ass following you two like a creep!

i literally just want to cuck haleys pathetic ass because fuck her and her scraggly blonde hair and that nappy ass wig she had on in witness protection with her no-style-no-personality-all-about-me havin ass 😒😒😒😒

sorry this is such a convoluted mess i just hate that lady 😭😭

I NEEDN'T SAY MORE THIS IS EXACTLY MY THOTS I WANT THAT WOMAN SEEEETHING AT THE SIGHT OF AARON BEING HAPPY AND THRIVING. SHE WOULD ABSOLUTELY BE THE CRAZY EX WHO PROBABLY ENDS UP HARASSING YOU.

The SECOND she says smth nasty abt you Aaron is soooooo fucking pissed. She insults you saying you're just a whore sleeping with Aaron for his money (and cuz us babes are plus-size queens she HATES THAT) and that Aaron is not attracted to you.

And Aaron OOF he takes her to one side and tells her she is fucking nothing but the mother of his child now. That YOU are his everything. YOU make him the man he is now. He's fucking happy with you as the love of his life and that Haley made him chronically stressed and depressed and almost completely ruined his self esteem. He warns her to back the fuck off from him and reader. He does not want any communication with her unless it's to do with Jack. End of.

[eomayas]

love without tragedy • jww

pairing: mafia!wonwoo x f!reader

genre: angst, mafia au

synopsis: what is it called when he wont be your boyfriend but acts like he is?

warnings: swearing. mean wonwoo. toxic realtionship. reader is in her early twenties, its unspecified how old wonwoo is but he is older. reader slaps wonwoo

a/n: helloooo i cant get wonu out of my mind so here is a little drabble. he is really mean in this story but thats not how i see my man its just for the purpose of the plot 😭💕

the look he's giving you is enough to make you tremble. you've never felt fear around wonwoo—his job is inherently scary and dangerous, but you've never felt fear of him, though right now that is being put to the test. a cold shiver runs down your spine as he stares at you from across the room. you wish there was an island of distance between the two of you, and not a measly coffee table.

"w-we were j-just dancing," you try, wringing your hands together in front of you. he scoffs through his nose and smirks, but its not sweet. there is malice behind it, like he thinks you're pathetic.

"that's what we're calling it?"

sure, maybe you did do more than dance with jun. maybe he had his hand on your leg and you let him inch it up your dress. and maybe you let him kiss you a couple of times. and sure, they were on the lips, sometimes on the neck. and maybe jun ran in the opposing gang in the city, so you made yourself and your fathers mob a target, which inherently puts wonwoo in the middle of it as well. but can he really blame you? wonwoo won't go out with you, always says its not safe for you to be seen with him. what he's really saying, is that he doesn't want your father—his boss—to find out.

wonwoo stares at you, his nostrils flared and his jaw set. whats making all of this worse, is that he hasn't even yelled yet. anger is practically seeping from his pores, but hes not yelling. "well, you wont go out with me!" you exclaim, throwing your hands up.

"so you go and fuck around with somebody from the other side, all because i wont take you out?" he scoffs at you again as your bottom lip trembles. "you really are a spoiled brat, you know that?"

"don't call me that," you frown at him and he shrugs at you, unfazed by your emotional state and the words he's saying to you. other than the fact that you were kissing the opposition, you don't know why he cares so much—there are plenty of other men that work for your father that can handle this.

"its what you are—you think you can have whatever you want, whenever you want," he says bitterly.

your frown deepens, and you almost threaten telling your father, but you know he'll just call you childish. its what he always does when you two argue about something stupid and you pull the dad card. "you're not even my boyfriend, so i don't know why you give a shit," wonwoos nose twitches at the B-word, and you know you've struck a nerve. if theres a couple ways to get under his skin, its to threaten him with your dad and point out the truth to him. "im not yours to worry about. there are plenty of people who do that anyway."

when he doesnt say anything, you keep going. "and so what if jun is with the other side? he doesn't seem to mind being out with me—something you can't handle! you won't even be my boyfriend, so what i do, and who i do it with, is none of your fucking concern."

"watch your fucking mouth, y/n," you're visibly taken aback at his words and his tone. wonwoo rarely, if ever, swears at you. he'll swear in your everyday conversations, but its never towards you. not even when you swear at him, like right now, does he ever do it back.

staring at him with wide eyes, a million thoughts race through your head, the first one being: when did i start being afraid of him? "dont talk to me like that," you say, a slight tremor in your voice.

"don't pull that card now, you've been cussing at me all night," wonwoo spits, puffing his chest out. "that's that spoiled brat shit i'm talking about! you think the entire fucking world revolves around you, but it doesn't!" you can't handle his sudden change in temperament, and your hands ball into fists at your sides.

"quit fucking talking to me like that."

"i'll talk to you how i want to talk to you-" the slap happens before you even realize what you've done, your feet carrying you over to him on autopilot. its not until you pull your hand away from his cheek that you register what you've done, the hurt on his face.

anger flashes on his features, and you have a split second to panic. you tense up, waiting for him to yell at you, but instead he only takes a deep breath and shifts his gaze away from you. "wonwoo..." you whisper, bringing your finger tips up to touch your lips. a red mark in the vague shape on your hand spreads across his pale cheek, and you swallow the lump in your throat. "wonwoo, i..." you trail off, because you don't know how to finish that sentence—you are far from sorry, feeling vindicated because, in your eyes, he did deserve it.

wonwoo runs a hand over his face and opens his mouth, but rethinks and closes it into a thin line. shaking his head, he shrugs on his jacket and grabs his belongings from your coffee table. he slips past you wordlessly and your eyes trail him as he walks out of your apartment, a sort of darkness settling over the room as you're left to stand alone.

wonwoo doesn't call, and after the fifth day you start to lose your mind. the day after the incident, you hardly thought about him, and when you did, it made you angry. the second day, you started to feel his absence, but it wasn't nearly as violent as it feels right now. the tears started on the third day, and haven't stopped. its only now that the guilt has settled in, your dry phone practically taunting you every time that you touch it.

"kwannie, i miss him!" you moan, burying your face into a pillow and letting out a scream. your best friend, seungkwan, gently pats your head and you sigh, turning your head to the side to look at him. "do you think he'll call?"

seungkwan presses his lips into a line and glances around his bedroom. "y/n, you slapped him," he reminds you, making you wrinkle your nose. "and you haven't apologized yet. i would't want to talk to you either."

"okay, but he deserved it! he was being disrespectful!"

"but you put your hands on him. you should have let, like, mingyu or somebody—if not your dad—deal with him," seungkwan says, referring to another one of your fathers men. and seungkwan is right; even though mingyu and wonwoo are friends, you know that his loyalty to your father comes first, which means that you come first. any of his men could have handled it adequately.

sighing, you sit up and hug the pillow to your chest. "he is so..." you groan into the pillow and hold it there for a few seconds. wonwoo is a piece of work. he's quiet and hard to read at times, and can't always give you a clear answer on what the two of you have. he says things that hurt your feelings. but he's also a confidant, your protector, while being something similar to a boyfriend. you trust him more than you trust yourself at times, and sometimes what you feel for him is so intense you wonder if you're making it all up.

its hard to trace when your realtionship with wonwoo began. you've known him since you were 20 years old, him appearing seemingly out of nowhere one day when you came home for a weekend in college. he introduced himself politely, but hardly asked about you or offered any information about himself. you went back to campus with your brain on him and him only. it wasn't until that summer that you saw more of him, but you two hardly interacted. he was always around but never quite where you needed him. your paths hardly ever crossed, unless it was the rare times you happened to be passing by him in the hallway or kitchen. a few months later, when you were home for winter break, you ran into him early in the morning. you'd just come back from a work out and ran into him in the kitchen. he was leaned up against the island, tapping away on his phone and he looked up when he heard your footsteps. you spoke first, saying good morning and asking him how he’s been. he returned the conversation and from there, every time you saw him you two at least spoke.

from then on, you exchanged numbers. he’d text you sporadically, checking in on you and asking you about your classes, life, etc. the texts turned to phone calls, late into the night when you were tucked in and he was just getting home from whatever job he’d finished. he never really told you what he did, but you knew. when you’d ask, he’d just say he handled something for your father, almost like he was trying to protect you from his reality, but you knew—you’d grown up around this lifestyle from birth. the calls started getting longer too, going from ten minutes, to thirty, and then for an hour, sometimes more. you’d talk about any and everything, so late into the night that you’d hardly get sleep sometimes, nearly missing class or dozing off during lectures. but you didn’t care, as long as you got to talk to wonwoo.

for spring break that year, you didn’t plan to come home, having plans to go out of town with your friends. b ur you cut your trip short by two days, and came home instead. everybody was surprised to see you, especially your father who wasn't expecting you. you just lied and told him you wanted to surprise him, but that was far from the truth. you were itching to see wonwoo, even if only for a few minutes because of his other duties. it was hours before you finally got to see him, and when you did it was late. you were hot tubbing, and you heard the backdoor open, his dark figure emerging. you called out to him and he walked to the edge of the hot tub, squatting down in front of you. your heart was racing as he looked down at you, and you got goosebumps despite being in warm water. not much was said between the two of you, but it was like there was an electric current flowing between the two of you. you asked him about his day, and he gave you the answer he gives you all the time: "it was a day." and then he asked you, and you said: "better." as in, better now that he's here in front of you. you raised your body out of the water a bit, the water coming up to the bottom of you ribcage. wonwoo shamelessly checked you out, his tongue poking the inside of his cheek. you moved to the edge of the tub, standing directly in front of him, his eyes darting between your bikini clad chest and your eyes. you stood up taller, this time most of your body coming out of the water, to get as close as possible to his face without touching him. he asked you: "do you know what you're doing?" to which you replied: "im positive i know what i'm doing." and then you kissed him, pressing your wet body against his extremely dry and clothed one, your hands gripping the edge of the hot tub. he kissed you with a hunger that made you breathless, and you gripped the front of his black jacket, nearly yanking him into the hot tub with you. when you pulled back to look in his inky dark eyes, you knew you were a goner.

letting out a breath, you let go and drag your hands over your face, closing your eyes. "i just don't get him sometimes," for nearly two years, you have been playing a sick game of cat and mouse with him. you think you have him, and then he'll say something to remind you that you in fact, don't. but he always has you, as much as it pains you to admit it. "h-he says he can't be my boyfriend. but when i try to go out—if i even look at another man—he goes crazy. kwan, i don't even know how he knew where i was. i didn't tell him i was going out."

seungkwan swallows and avoids your eyes. you glare at him, trying to meet his gaze. "seungkwan."

"yes?"

you hold eye contact for a second before he quickly looks away, and you gasp. "seungkwan, what the fuck!" you shout, jumping off of your bed. he holds his hands up in surrender, his eyes wide and pleading.

"y/n, i'm sorry! but he called me randomly, and said that you weren't answering! and he knew i wasn't with you because i picked up the phone, and i swear i wasn't going to tell him, but..." seungkwan trails off and you scoff, shaking your head.

"but what?"

"but... you know wonwoo: he's intimidating. and i don't want any problems with him. i'm really sorry, y/n. but i felt like i had no choice."

you frown at seungkwans words, the gears in your head turning. he had no choice? "did he threaten you?" you ask your best friend, your stomach churning. seungkwan... he's not like the rest of them. his father is also a mob leader and does dealing with your own father, which is how you two know each other. he is your longest and first friend. seungkwan isn't involved in any mob activities per his mother, who made it known that his father was not to involve her only son in any of that business. everybody knows to leave seungkwan alone, that he's like you: off limits. but clearly, your not-boyfriend doesn't know the rules.

seungkwan waves vaguely in the air and you see red for a moment before snatching your purse off of the nightstand and pocketing your phone. "y/n, where are you going?"

"i'll be back," is all you say before running out of his house and down to your car, hopping in and speeding the one place you can guarantee to find wonwoo.

pulling up to the club, you swing your car into a spot and scan the parking lot looking for his black mercedes. you spot it glimmering in the evening sun, and scoff before jumping out. you hardly have to talk to anybody when you walk in and make you way to the very back where wonwoo and five of your fathers men do business outside of your house.

a cloud of smoke hits your face when you push the door open, and you scrunch your face up. the first person you come in contact with is joshua, your fathers right hand man who you've known for the greater part of your life. when your father wasn't around, joshua was. he was more like an uncle to you, practically raising you. "hey, princess," he says, a smile on his face.

"where is wonwoo?" you ask, eyes surveying the room. you see mingyu, minghao, jeonghan, and vernon, but not the man you are here for.

"that's how you greet me?" joshua asks, tilting his head to the side. you don't feel like arguing, so you give him a quick hug paired with a kiss on the cheek. "why are you looking for wonwoo?" he asks.

you bite the inside of you cheek, trying to come up with a lie on the fly, until the door to another room opens, and wonwoo emerges buttoning the first three buttons on his shirt, followed by a dancer. your stomach drops, and you feel like laughing and crying at the same time. wonwoo doesn't acknowledge the woman and turns away from her, meeting your eye in the process. guilt and shock pass quickly over his features, before he composes himself and carries on like he didn't see him.

marching over to him, you stand in front of him as he takes a seat on the couch in the room. "wonwoo, we need to talk," you say, putting your hands on your hips. he picks up a glass of brown liquor and drains its remaining contents.

"then talk."

"in private," you say, widening your eyes. he sighs and stands up, starting to walk over to the room he just came out of. "i'm not talking to you in there." you say, a hint of disgust in your voice.

"then talk," he barks, the room quieting down a bit. your face burns in embarrassment, hating the way he's treating you. he stares up at you like there's better things he could be doing, his gaze hard.

"you're such an asshole."

wonwoo shrugs. "oh well."

"you know what, wonwoo? fuck you. i know you threatened boo the other night, so you can just fuck off! you can fuck with me—fine—but leave seungkwan out of it!"

his nose twitches like it did the other night, but this time you don't stick around to wait for him to explode. you leave just as quickly as you'd shown up.

once outside, the tears start. you lean against the side of the building and sob into your hands. you don't know how, or why, for that matter, you let wonwoo treat you this way. but he's not always like this— you've seen sides of him that prove it. but its been nearly two years of push and pull, him doing both the pushing and pulling. he pushes you away while simultaneously pulling you to him. he knows that you'll follow him wherever he goes.

[blindmagdalena]

legit there is this tiktok audio that is an expert from an audio book all over tiktok (cant remember the book) and it immediately made me think of homelander. It's like "Please choose me, no one ever chooses me, please accept my version of love" and just I can't shake like if he really fell hard for someone and they started to leave him like everyone else because of him being unhinged and they couldn't handle his possessive nature ect and then he just breaks down and starts crying and vulnerable saying please just choose me, why does no one ever choose me, this is the only version of love I know, why can't I be enough, please don't leave, ect. Just the angst bc he just wants to be loved 🥹 and then they stay and tell him they will love all of him and work through it. like do you think the audio fits him as well? I can't get it from my mind 😭 the urge to write this but I'm shit at writing

yesss YES i absolutely see where you're coming from!! you've actually reminded me of this (paraphrased) scene in Eat Your Ego where Layla (oc) really is trying to love him, but she admits that he makes it so hard sometimes.

“I don’t know—I don’t know how else to be. I don’t know how. I don’t know how to make it easy. I was made to be loved. I was made to be everyone’s hero. They manufactured me in a-a fucking lab to be perfect, but no one—”

He bares his teeth like a wounded animal, breath hissing in and out of his clenched teeth as tears roll down his cheeks. “But no one does, no one fucking does, no one loves me,” he says through his teeth, nearly choking on the words.

“I don’t understand how to make it easy, Layla,” he sobs, hands shaking on either side of her face. She can’t tell if it’s from sheer emotion, or the restraint it takes not to crush her skull between them.

“So just tell me what I need to do, please,” he begs her, devastatingly beautiful in the same way the sprawling webbing of a shattered mirror is. “Tell me how to be easy to love.”

i genuinely can't imagine anything more heartbreaking someone begging just to be loved. it's such a simple thing that most people take for granted, and he's never had it. not romantic or familial. not even platonic love. all he's ever known is the hollow adoration of a world that has no idea who he truly is, and the fear of those who do know him.

anon you absolutely should write this because it WILL make me cry

[sukunasweetheart]

//just me venting about sukuna haters sorry

Not me seeing so much discourse about whether sukuna is a well written villain or not... he essentially has no backstory shown as of yet and we barely know anything about him but he is still one of the most naturally interesting and compelling characters in the whole damn series bro 💀 buckle up bc its about to get lengthy (im just glazing sukuna in this post ngl so 🧎‍♀️)

so many whiny ass mfs are weeping about how he "doesn't have any personal goals or a proper reason to be a villain" when that is the whole point???? He lives on his own desires and satisfactions and does whatever he wants to, because he is capable enough to do that. Mfs want "real villains" but cant even handle sukuna 💀 ive seen too many shit ass threads and poorly articulated "critiques" on his character that dont make any valid points. If you can't even separate your personal dislike of a character from your analysis of their writing, dont even bother posting that shit please 😭😭😭 the fact that we haven't even gotten any information about his background yet and people are jumping the gun about him being "poorly written" is already saying a lot 🤨

The fact that yall are so bitter and angry about him that you can write 500+ words about how oh-so-terrible of a villain he is kinda proves that he's doing his job well tbh 💁‍♀️

What also bothers me to no END is how people compare him with villains of other series, who had compelling sob stories that made people empathise with them. Thats nice and all but why should all villains have grand ideals and be subject to feelings of empathy/sympathy from their audience?

Part of what makes sukuna so interesting is how he's not tied down by morals, rules or long term goals in life. He doesn't limit himself, which is what makes him an unpredictable character. He's completely left behind what it means to be human in many ways, and he's clearly not a character written to be empathised with. He is very purposefully inhumane and distant from everyone else, and that feeling transcends from within the series to real life as well. There is a clear lack of understanding bc most of us can't comprehend what its like to just live without being goal-oriented.

Sukuna is a true anomaly in the sense that he doesnt really fit in any kind of box within the series. He's born from man, but its clear that he separates himself from humans (and nobody else considers him human, either). He's not a cursed spirit. He hovers between life and death. The narrator referred to him as the honoured one, whilst angel referred to him as the disgraced one.

These little contradictions in his character make him all the more complicated and interesting to think about. And even recently, he's been shown to waver a little bit momentarily in the manga, questioning his own irritation at yuuji. He's capable of self reflection, and though sukuna does whatever he wants for the most part, he doesn't blindly go into things without some thought first, he's a constant thinker and analyser, and an intelligent one at that.

And honestly, he is always such a joy to watch and read, his personality is so flavourful, and the way he carries himself is very attractive. He's not afraid to get messy or of getting hurt, theres so much chaos in the way he does things and yet he also has a huge element of gracefulness to him, which shines through the poetic way he speaks. Its undeniable that sukuna simply oozes charisma...

And this isnt talked about enough but this man is genuinely so effortlessly funny (in a kind of sinister way i guess?) Like yes he is an old ass man having real beef with one FIFTEEN YEAR OLD for very little reason, he accidentally healed yuujis arm and somehow expected him to be grateful for it despite how he literally ripped his heart out afterwards, then he proceeded to sit on him after kicking him down likeeee 😭 what kind of behaviour is this sir

His facial expressions at yorozus yapping 💀 THE WAY HE COMPARED YUUJIS FACE OF DESPAIR TO THE HARIMA STATUE 😭😭😭💀😭💀💀😭 omg that was so foul but i was fucking losing it ngl

How he randomly compared gojo to a fish and started talking abt his scales... thats a very unique and descriptive comparison, isnt it? Even in the recent leaks, he was 100% ready and squaring up to a literal child talking abt "youre starting to get annoying" LIKE HELPPP 😭 HE FR SAID "fuck them kids and fuck you too"

I saw someone saying that sukuna has no passion, like are we talking about the same character....? This man is a literal jujutsu NERD 💀💀 he truly recognises talented sorcerers and the only time hes seen to be having genuine fun is when hes fighting a mf... is that not passion? This is literally sukuna when it comes to jujutsu: 🤓

Anyway im done here now, im pretty sure i missed a lot of things i couldve talked about as well but ive done enough yapping

[spacedlexi]

Kenny and Violet anon here YES.

Violet is upset because someone she defended against her found family of 8 years let her get taken by brainwashing adults for 2 seconds and everyone flips their lid.

But Kenny refuses to stop a train, and gets into a whole fight with Lee over it (AND REFUSES TO HELP YOU FIND A LOST LITTLE GIRL WHILE YOU’RE FIGHTING OFF AN INFECTION, where as Violet always defends you in Episode 1 regardless of whether you ignored and/or antagonized her or not), and gets mad at an 11 year old for not being able to handle helping someone in labor by herself and everybody’s like “Nah it’s okay, his family died years ago so he gets to do whatever he wants.” as if Violet didn’t witness one of the only consistent family members in her life die in front of her 💀

There’s so many comparisons I could make and one day I’ll make a Venn Diagram about all of their similarities but for now I’m glad someone pointed this out.

there are some things kenny does that have No excuse (like refusing to help bitten lee look for missing clem all because hes mad you didnt side with him enough. leaving lee to singlehandedly save himself in the pharmacy because he got scared. threatening to slap clem for blaming herself for lees death. off the top of my head). but his behavior on the train is annoying yet understandable. he doesnt want to admit his son is dying and he feels like duck dying in the first place is his fault for not saving shawn. you can convince him to stop without things getting physical

the Problem comes in when people can understand and sympathize with kennys annoying/shitty actions, but when it comes to violet (who has the same "my family is dead and its made me bitter and closed off" backstory (and her whole arc is about learning to love and care again)), suddenly all understanding goes out the window. even tho shes not even a FRACTION as annoying and shitty as kenny can get 😭😭

violet is mean to clem for the One scene where youre introduced to her (ignoring your first moment with her in the courtyard where shes smiling at clem so you already know her shitty attitude later is a lie. louis even defends her. wingman lol. and depending on what you say in response to her you can Immediately see the regret on her face LOL). but before the scene even Ends shes complimenting clem and clem loves it. then youre forced to talk to her and tenn about the twins, you have a nice card game where you can joke around with her, then she shows up at the dorm and they have a nice heart to heart about how theyre BOTH struggling with the loss of people theyve loved, and they can sympathize about both being harsher than they intend (THEY GET EACH OTHER CANONICALLY)

and vi not being "a people person" is a huge part of her arc?? she doesnt like that shes like this 😭 but shes also better with people than she gives herself credit for and its why she makes a good leader. (and even if you pick the "came off strong" option clem is OBVIOUSLY teasing about it but vi cant tell and gets defensive ("its not like im trying to be bffs or whatever. sorry" is so "you want to kiss me so bad it makes you look stupid" of her)

and then after this shes never mean to clem again?? (unless you antagonize her but even then its mostly just about her standing her ground and not taking shit she doesnt deserve. which is fair). shes only mean to brody while fishing (and shes mean to brody because deep down she blames HERSELF) and the whole POINT of that scene is to try and mend their broken relationship which immediately makes vi a happier/nicer person if you do (also interesting how louis doesnt get any shit for His behavior while hunting 🤨 no hes just cool and fun). violet also apologizes for being "weird" in the dorms the previous night as well (bby girl why are you afraid that everything you do is weird 😭 she says that word a lot)

violet will Always have clems back (in EP1 and 2!!) No Matter What you do or say to her. i think people take her loyalty for granted. so if you dont save her in EP2 and expect to continue to have her unwavering loyalty in EP3? thats a You problem. she is Fucked Up mentally on that boat by lilly and her not-exactly-ex, and then gets caught in the explosion she didnt want anything to do with. AND THEN SHE APOLOGIZES because she recognizes she was WRONG

(not her literally trying to make a joke about it to ease the tension 😭 people dont give her credit for also having a sense of humor. like louis is the only one who cracks jokes around here) but again when it comes to kenny his actions are understandable and defendable even without an apology 🙄 i literally side with kenny on Everything except the larry thing and if you dont make the right dialogue choice with him? he will not help you look for clem. because of larry 😐 i killed your son for you bro and then took care of his walker doppelganger so you didnt have to. and this isnt even touching his behavior in S2. and yet despite everything he does hes still one of the most beloved characters in the fandom 🤨

i just have to remind myself sometimes that all vi options were made 53-61% and the vi haters are a loud minority. her always being above 50% is so interesting to me because i love when choices are split perfectly 50/50. but the way the fandom talks about her (and the women in general) you wouldnt think shes technically the more popular option (and i Hate playing the popularity card its so annoying, but im only doing it bc people also say shit like "maybe if vi wasnt so mean more people would pick her" they DO pick her!!! you just got mad she was mean for 5 seconds, never payed attention to her again, and used her determinate reaction on the boat as justification for not liking her 😑) (also ignores how mean louis gets in EP2 regardless of choice?? but like kenny His actions are defendable and sympathetic and hers arent 🙄)

[karmaajr]

haiiii silly :3

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yall this is so stupid but my girlfriend barely looks at my account n shit never comes up for them anyways so ima just say this here cuz I have to say this SOMEWHERE omg

okay so like. I cant help but blame myself? I dont knkw why but like. I cant help but feel like hes just gktten worse since meeting me???? maybe its paranoia, maybe its past experiences but like. hjs weight has dropped further, his mental health is still bs, theyre cutting deeper than ever (when I first met the girlypop, their cuts were MUCH lifhter than now and now im js so fucking worrjed and I hate ittttt cuz like omfds is a relationshol supposed to feel like. so? idfk) and like idkkkk yall 😭😭 n this is so stupid but I doubt anybody will see this anyways so ima just say jt

I dont

think

that theyre like

good for my mental health ejther? cuz I lowkey had recovered from my ed from last year n was feeling slightly okay abt my body but after knowing them I just like. relapsed into old ways ig and this is the first time im admitting it but I feel like im redeveloping an eating diskrder? like fuckkk what 😭😭 n like ya I was clean-ish for a month back then n now jm cutting stryos every fucking day again and its like. damn lol

n im just so fucking insecureeee and its terrible and THIS is terrible n I feel like im blaming it on them when in reality its all my fault like. why cant I handle this? why cant I be a fucking good girlfriend fkr the first time ever n help them and not be such a useless fuck n just fuck everything up oh my goddddd

anyways ya im just a rlly shit girlfriend like. why cant I handle this wtf??? AND THE THING IS THEYRE NOT EVEN VENTING TO ME A HELLA OR DOING ANYTHING BAD?!??! ITS GENUINLEY ME WHOS THE PROBLEM LIKE.

like they have this vent acckunt and its posts pop up onto my dashboard a hella n like, most the time i don't interact with them but I always read them n its like. either so fucking triggerknh for ed reasons or I just feel so shit for not noticing it and its like fjckkkk I cant handle thos guys it's just. a lot idfk im sk useless omg

also!!! another thing that's so bad (abt me, again!!! cuz in the wise words of taytay 🎶hi its me, im the priblem its me🎶) is that like. I fewl jealous? like jealousy has always lowkey been a problem of mine but imagine being jealous of ur own partner omg?!?! and fkr literally being wrse than you like??? like how tf are u gonna be wanting to be qorse how ducking retarded can a person be to WANT to be qorse omg 1💀💀

anyways theres more but likr. chat im rlly tired

not like, physically but just emotionally n mentally do fucking drainef (look who sounds like her motherrrrr, yippee /heavy zarc) n I can't rn lmfao 💀💀💀💀 ANYWAYS YASSSS BYE YALL (im so preppy 🤭)

[lapdogchase]

season 8 episode 14 liveblogging

^😭 i love her badly

also FIVE TWO???they give her and taub so much shit for being "short" but she's 5'2" and he's like 5'5" or 5'6". neither of them can reclaim short. well park maybe shes under 5'3. which is my cut off for short people. (four foot eleven voice)

HIS MOM TRICKED WILSON INTO THINKING SHE HAD CANCER BY SAYING SHE DIDNT HAVE CANCER SO HE WOULD TELL HOUSE SO HOUSE WOULD GO SEE HER. WHY IS THIS WHOLE FAMILY FUCKING INSANE

"coincidence. buying that, house?" he wants him to want to fuck him so bad

if i may take a moment to be infected by chouse brainworms- i feel like their dynamic is that house Doesnt want to want to fuck him but does, and chase WANTS house to want to fuck him, but they DONT fuck they both just think about it.

STOPPP PARK TRIPPING BALLS???

she should go have sex with chase next. <- get it because people in this show L,OVE foing patients' drugs and having sec with chase

bunnyboy chase. let's discuss.Nvm we cant discuss my Penis which i Have got too hard and i Died from lack of blood to the head.sorry

park is bisexual. to me. just too many incidents to dismiss atp. taking a picture of adams' boobs for one

^SHE LOOKS SO SMALL also i thought her shoes were really awesome boots for a sec but theyre not

^WHEEZING

HOUSES PARENTS HAVE DONE ACID TOGETHER???

(guy with a one-track mind voice) so when house's parents know how to help someone having a bad acid trip it's all "how do you know about handling a bad acid trip" but when chase knows about diagnosing DID and communicating with various alters,

i like how adams is suddenly getting into like. disability justice?

"youre more me than you pretend" they are GAY

[squid-socks]

My “WHY???👀👀👀” list. If you are non-disabled or non-neurodivergent please read✨

(These are things that suck imo - the bare minimum is to be aware something isn’t fucking working and seeing it. Bcs the more you know the more you realise why you don’t see many disabled or neurodivergent people - spoiler; THEY CANT GO ANYWHERE)

constant building works. From fucking with your accessible journey to overstimulating the brain✨ I hate to imagine how much more id get done in a day if the constant drilling of building works literally everywhere didn’t take half my spoons to tune out.

Noise pollution in general. In a cafe people don’t use their inside voices, establishments don’t set up quieter areas or infrastructure that absorbs sound, main roads are always close to residential areas and buildings are not built to tune out their horrible noise. Sound✨

Heavily scented areas or perfumes. You are killing your fellow asthmatic and anyone with a tendency to have migraines👀👀 (you don’t need 10 lit candles in a non-personal area. And you don’t need to drink strong perfumes so it seeps out of all of your pores🫶)

Escalators being far from elevators and requiring staff assistance at all times. It’s just stupid. It is. It is just SO FUCKING STUPID AND I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHY??? JUST PUT THE ELEVATOR BY THE ESCALATORS AND SHUT UP✨✨

Not having public bathrooms or putting them in weird places or making them by request only??? I shouldn’t have to run to the 4th floor of a far away mall bcs I have to vomit whilst my knees feel on fire??? And the more bathrooms the less gross each bathroom will be bcs LESS TRAFFIC???👀👀👀 like what????

Bit more random - but recluse spaces. There should be spaces people can hide away and recover from the noise and the bustle and the questions. I shouldn’t have to have a cigarette to be respected needing to leave and get some air👀 I shouldn’t have to smell shit and hear people farting to get away from everyone for a minute (bathrooms)👀

Those stupid tiny handled coffee cups👀👀 no. Just no. It could be the biggest cup but it still has that stupid little handle?? No. My hands hurt. Old people’s hands hurt. WHO IS THIS GOOD FOR. WHY DONT YOU HAVE ALTERNATIVES😂 (just a few mugs for people to request)

No brail anywhere. This is the dumbest of the dumb. Even more when I find brail it’s like 2 letters?? Granted - I don’t know brail but I imagine if I need like 100 words of information on my sandwich then 2 letters is not enough for them!??? What????👀👀 if you’re blind I hope you don’t have allergies or something?😀😀 (though I suppose not text to sprach exists which is wonderful✨)

The underground trains. I’m not explaining I think every single variation of a disabled or neurodivergent person can offer a litany of complaints and issues.

The sun. This one’s a me thing. But I hate that glowing satanic butthole in the sky😑 (good for plants tho…which is nice.)

Now this one may sound a bit much but - wheelchair paths. Or walking issue paths. We have the bike lane, the pedestrian area and on the most inner side to the wall or bushes (for safety reasons) a disability path. So wheelchairs or the slower can just do their thing no problem✨ we anyway should have less cars so…I mean…we could just replace the roads🌈 idk add those rope, electric carriage things I see in Germany all the time🫶

Why are the pedestrian paths in parking houses so skinny?? Anyone bigger than me is half out the fucking safety zone👀👀👀😀

Heavy doors. No bcs what the fuck. I don’t want to have to press my whole body against an icky door to open it. And now imagine I’m on my own in a wheelchair just fucking trapped👀 or I’m too germaphobic to touch the door or everything hurts 😑😑

Lamps where the switch is in the cable and not the lamp. Fuck that.

Sunscreen. I love her but the overstimulation is bullshit😭😭 I think I’d rather wear a balaclava

If I have to squeeze through an isle in a store - it’s too close together. Fuck you. 😀 and before someone tells me “it’s cultural” or “it’s a small store”. no it’s just inaccessible. Culture should not be an excuse for ableism👀 My grandma is German is it ok if she is out here hating foreigners. FUCK NO.👀👀👀

Information boards being so low down. Why? No one can see that. Some of them have brail but why should someone have to bend over all the way to touch it😑

Imma stop I’m getting too angry 😅😅

I realise this is on a disability blog with disability hashtags so no idea how helpful this will genuinely be. But for now it was nice to vent. Which may help no one but it helped me a little😀

[cravingpepsimax]

HI i am also an autistic nerd that loves critique and i agree w/ u. but i feel like i also get why ppl get defensive about it. a lot of proshippers have been unfairly critiqued for what they write, and struggle to separate that from well-intended, well-thought out critique. also rsd makes ppl's kneejerk reactions (often defensiveness) come out

but the thing is, if you disagree with someone's critique and dont want to engage with it, you can also just scroll past. you have to understand that other people like to see opinions that differ from their own. as long as they aren't butting into someone else's blog or fic to criticize it, ppl can discuss negative opinions, bc that is fun for a lot of people.

i have rsd so i also have a knee-jerk reaction to critique, but i also think that seeing opinions that differ from mine make me a better writer! in the right headspace, i can digest someone's negative feedback and apply others' opinions to my own work. i can understand that different people can interpret a character differently based on their lived experiences and what resonates with them. and, most importantly, none of those interpretations are necessarily right or wrong. you can like or dislike it, or personally believe that it's poor characterization, but there is no objective right or wrong. thats the thing about art - there is nothing objective about it. people inevitably interact with it in a different way. and sometimes, that way is by seeing it as a whole and picking out what you like and dislike about it.

i feel like the less confidence you have in your own work, the more likely you are to react with offense or dismay. when you rely on other people's positive feedback to want to write, negative feedback feels like the end of the world. i can say that bc i used to be like that, before i started drawing/writing for myself instead of other people. wanting positive feedback isn't bad, per se, but being unable to function without it isn't healthy or sustainable in the long run.

so, yeah. it isn't a personal attack for someone to dislike a characterization that you like - it just doesn't jive with them, and that's okay. and theyre allowed to talk about it, because negative opinions are allowed to be expressed too. if you cant handle seeing those opinions, it isnt a personal failure. it isn't your fault, but it also isnt their fault for having those opinions. they arent trying to hurt you. they just want to freely discuss their opinions, positive or negative, and i would think proshippers/profic ppl should be able to connect with that, even if they are used to being targeted by bullies. sometimes, seeing a post, even a tactically worded one, will make you feel bad, and it isnt anyone's fault. there is no ill intent. life happens. people discuss what interests them. sometimes, you won't like that, and thats fine. but you shouldn't make them out to be the bad guy for it.

and ik fandom is a lot of people's safe space where positivity trumps all, but it isnt like that for a lot of people. if you want fandom to be your protective bubble, you can restrict yourself to only those who share your opinions. but you also have the right to agree to disagree, and other people have the right not to want an echo chamber. if you treat a whole sphere of the internet like your own personal bubble, you will be sorely disappointed when it pops.

woof that was long... i really am not trying to start shit with anyone - that is the last thing i want to do 😭 but i wanted to share my opinion on this bc i am a critic at heart and that is not necessarily a bad thing

i agree with all of this!!!

"toxic positivity" is an overused term, but i think its use here is justified. i've also got rsd, and sometimes, receiving critique can feel really bad, too. my dad's a writer, and i always feel scared to show him my work bc i rlly respect him and hearing him criticize my stuff can rlly hurt LMAO

but. like. i recognize that as an issue. and i certainly don't get offended when i see people criticize a trope? i didn't make that. in fact, i find critique of tropes more helpful than anything -- they provide a perspective that i might've never considered that i can now add to my own works.

the emotions of proship discourse only amplify this -- i'm critiquing depictions of fictional rape. it doesn't matter that i'm not calling people or the fiction itself evil, it doesn't matter that my critiques come from a place of actual fiction analysis instead of a bizarre appeal to emotion -- i'm critiquing depictions of fictional rape. antis do that. i'm doing an anti thing. doesn't matter that the anti thing i'm doing doesn't have all the shit that makes the real anti thing bad.

i do think this toxic positivity is one of the main reasons antis have become such a problem recently, though. antis don't really care about the harm of proshippers, they think it's gross icky bad. but they can't just say it's gross icky bad. you can't express dislike!! that's being mean!!!!! you can ONLY express dislike for morally bad things!!!!!!!! so, they come up with moral reasons that don't actually exist.

people can dislike things. they can express that dislike without going "that's just my opinion tho!!!" a million times to avoid people going "shhh let people enjoy things". they can express that dislike without going "and that's why liking this makes you the devil".

[voidedaurora]

Hey can we NOT sexualize kidnapping/ s/a and cannibalism? This is fucking gross. You have a minor fanbase and you post softcore porn. Put some fucking clothes on these god damn ocs. their is minors who enjoy your art and yet you send shit like this with the “:3 this is so cool and kawaii guys omg look at this post”

also id LOVEEEE to know why you deleted it, did you figure out it was bad? :(

Firstly, not any form of porn just suggestive at most, and thats okay 👍 also not s/a😭

Second, post is still up you silly goose

Third, there's a warning RIGHT on the post literally saying that it was lore related and discouraging any real abuse/kidnapping 👍

You are absolutely entitled to your opinion anon but its part of my story and I wanted to illustrate it, if you dont like it/aren't comfortable thats what the warnings are for and you proceeded anyway <\3

You even tried psychoanalyzing my tags for the post, i am allowed to add like idk ":3" , though despite your points being pretty doodoo i will refine the tags a bit since i was tired and rushed adding them on my initial post anyway

Also my contents never been for minors, especially not my Flaws of Dawn related stuff. Its a story with extremely uncomfortable and mature themes at times so its never been shown off or suggested minors look at it.

Additionally my contents always been suggestive in some nature so that adds extra to the most my content isnt suitable for minors. The stuff thats ACTUALLY age restricted, such as my 18+ content is locked behind things that require you to be 18. This comic would be out of place and honestly weird for me to put on those platforms, considering its not porn and is illustrating an important part of the lore 💪

Also bro boo hoo 😭 she's in a bra and underwear get a grip please, they aren't fornicating, they arent touching each other innapropriately, its suggestive because of the dialogue and bc she's in a bra, not porn

Ur seriously just trying to find stuff to be mad about because you can, since you dont agree with my content and clearly don't wanna see it I'll do you a favor and block your burner, i suggest you just block me on your main if you're uncomfortable, instead of complaining to me about how you cant handle my characters lore bru 😭

Shouldn't have to say this again, but real kidnapping, abuse, cannibalism, etc. are all really really bad things IRL! They are absolutely not okay and if anyone takes any action irl like whats depicted in my story , you're fucking stupid and need help 👍

Anyway, Flaws of dawn is not for a child audience and I add Trigger warnings and disclaimers to keep anyone who shouldn't /cant handle seeing certain things away. I cannot control who looks at my stuff, but its never been advertised for children so im allowed to post my sfw/suggestive art to MY platforms <\3

Good day 👍