#systemhood

[cosmicvenusnebula]

When you get to comfortable using "We" pronouns and accidentally use it in front of someone you probably shouldn't:

[drakesvalley]

The wildest part about being a system and having known you are a system for a while (6+ years for us) HAS to be seeing people who are just figuring it out fall into holes that you've long left behind.

Like. Yeah. We also thought we needed to keep tabs on everyone to increase communication. In the end it became too unwieldy. Especially since DID evolves with what you experience all the time.

Microlabels are cool and I fully support anyone who uses them, but figuring out what to call every single structure in your system isn't for us anymore.

Another thing we notice is people who try their best to know who is fronting at all given times. A lot of that comes naturally to us nowadays, but it's also... OK not to know. Especially if you're not focusing on anything system related at the time.

I guess a lot of this boils down to, it's okay not to care. It's okay to go with the flow of things and figure out at your own pace. Identity is fluid, especially if you have a dissociative disorder. You don't HAVE to have everything figured out 100% of the time.

It's okay to take it slow. It's okay to not know. It's okay to just exist for a bit. It's okay to live and experience things beyond being a system.

To all the people who are just starting to comprehend this. You do not need to know and label exactly what is happening in your head all the time. Fuck, we sure don't. And we're happier for it.

It's okay to just be you.

[turnitsysclusive]

One thing I don't see talked about dissasociation is how it messes with your other senses. For example:

Becoming so dissasociated we lose our sense of our surroundings

Inability to process sounds / some sounds becoming "blocked off"

Dizziness, lack of balance, scattered thoughts

Which is pretty damn cool that the brain can just-- DO THAT. But also it can be TERRIFYING.

[mindotaur]

I love systems who make picrews and pinterest boards and playlists for different headmates, systems who have different styles of clothes and makeup depending on who got ready in the morning, systems who are unapologetic in their plurality and joyful in their expression.

[attentionneedyqueen]

Shout out to alters and systems who were made BECAUSE they wanted attention! Who thought it would make them more interesting. Nothing wrong with wanting validation. Attention makes the world go round, babe! 🩷

No this isn't satire, I fucking mean it.

[manyminded]

you have an internal monologue? pussy shit. I have an internal dialogue

[haymarketvtubestuff]

Tumblr may not be the place for it, but might as well try ...

(Reblog if you feel comfortable doing so, for a larger sampler size, or share with others privately)

[beingcultureis]

Plural being culture is not knowing who you are and feeling drained…

[sovereignsystem]

Extremely curious because I have a theory. So, systems;

PLEASE reblog for sample size.

(THIS POLL IS ANTI-ENDO, DNI IF YOU SUPPORT)

This poll was inspired by the time I was in a discord server and mentioned how I was a premature birth and wondered if that contributed to (NOT FORMED) my system forming, and discovering 5 other systems who were also premature. This is not meant to be an airtight, without a doubt REASON for anyone to be a system, I'm just curious how much (if at all) overlap there is!

Thank you!!

-❔ (It/He)

[positivitycombopack]

Shoutout to systems who experience no joy about being a system.

Your life is… hell. Having a CDD is hell. What we’ve been through is atrocious, and you do not need to pretend to enjoy it for my sake. You’re allowed to be angry. You’re allowed to be miserable.

The positive people around you aren’t trying to actively be malicious, but I understand nonetheless how it can hurt. How isolating it may feel.

This blog is safe for you. If you need to let the hurt out, this post is open. Vent. Bitch. Scream. Get the suffering out.

I hope it can get better for you soon, and that you don’t need to wallow in this suffering. I hope you can reach recovery and positivity like so many others.

But until then, you’re still welcomed here.

[xdistantskies]

I love my alters. I love you, i do. 🫂 Thank you for being by my side.

[greens-spilled-tea]

Doing some thinking on parts and people language and just. Honestly I hate that it's framed as dichotomy of one or the other. Some systems have members that prefer one over the other, some systems will use both interchangeably, some systems have a more complicated and/or nuanced relationship with parts and people language.

Me, though? I'm realizing I don't really view any singular alter in my system as either of them. It's why my preferred language of choice is *version* of me. A part implies I'm part of a greater whole, and while that felt true for me when I was more dissociated and thus only had access to specific emotions and memories and stuff, nowadays I'm so integrated I don't really feel like a part of Reimei anymore. I just... am Reimei.

On the other hand, I'm also not all of Reimei. If you only know Green, you're not getting the entire Reimei experience. I am Reimei, but I'm not the only Reimei, yknow?

And that's why I use version, which really encompasses how I feel about myself these days. Sometimes when you're talking to me, the version you're getting is argumentative and blunt and kawaii as fuck, and that's the version of me that calls himself Green. But sometimes you may get a different version of me: someone who's more of a know-it-all, or who's peppy, or who's obsessed with audio engineering, or whatever. And those are all as real as this "me" that's talking and typing.

I don't like part because it doesn't feel accurate for my current experiences anymore- but I also don't like person because I'm only one facet of the complex person that is Reimei. So I'm a version of me.

[tales-from-systok]

Got fakeclaimed because we signed off our comments LMAO

HELP WHAT LMAO

[thefluxsystem]

There is not a moment that goes by in which I do not despise being a system.

No amount of love for the others, no amount of talking it through, no amount of community building will ever change the torment that comes from a disorder like this.

Every second is a reminder that my entire upbringing was founded in inescapable pain and suffering.

I was broken into pieces before I was big enough to defend myself.

My free will was stripped from me before I could so much as babble.

My life will always move on without me, in spite of me. I will continue to lose people with no option of goodbye. Oftentimes I will never learn why they even left.

Nothing belongs to me. My existence, my voice, my body, all are mine to borrow, but never mine to own.

This was done to me, and for the rest of my life, I will pay for the sins of my perpetrators while they continue to thrive.

All this to be here, to be told I “make this stuff up for fun”. Tell me, what sounds fun about this?

[manyminded]

ily plurals ily neopronouns users ily plural neopronouns users, either by specific headmate or collectively

[sunnymarigold69]

having a bunch of insys parents is weird cause you’ll be co-con for like .0002 second and then their face will get all soft and they’ll go “you’re a good kid” or “I get what [other insys parent] sees in you” like huh??