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#JUNE MY FAV !!#so many characters in atla and out of all of them a bounty hunter who appears in like 2 episodes is my favorite one. what#hang on so here i am liking a...#morally grey badass intelligent woman side character with long dark side swept hair kind of over her right eye and purplish eye shadow#who works with death but stays silly and had an irreversible impact on the plot despite being a side character#sound liKE ANYONE ELSE WE KNOW#save me... beverly katz from nbc hannibal save me...#incoherent rambles in the tags :]#avatar the last airbender#june atla#atla fanart#atla
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in case anyone was wondering where i’ve been. i am so far up chuuya’s ass that i’ve settled down and started making a home here sjdjsjxjjxcjcj
#bsd has me in a chokehold#and cat is feeding into the hyperfixation#i am so down bad for chuuya#WHY AM I SO PREDICTABLE#A SHITHEAD WITH AN ATTITUDE BIGGER THAN HE IS#SOUND LIKE ANYONE ELSE WE KNOW#WHY AM I LIKE THIS
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Hello, I'm a Whit fan and I'm about to shoot myself in the foot
I'm gonna sound extremely hypocritical but I find it very funny how a lot of people have placed expectations on what Whit's character is based on previous fictionnal experiences (Happy/Joking character is secretly holding back their sadness).
Even though, I'd argue, Whit is the character we know the least about.
I'm not just saying that as like what we know personally about him but I also mean behavioral wise.
Whit is heavily analysed to have a facade, and I believe that too, even though the arguments on what is behind that facade is up for debate. However we don't actually know what Whit's feelings actually are.
(The reason why I believe Eden and I don't believe Whit, is, unlike him, she has shown no signs of being fake or have any contradicting behavior)
Whit's reactions are very very often contradictory like him caring for people and want to make them smile but also having the most tame reaction to death in this killing game (there is more but this is just an exemple)
Which is why he's the most likely pick to be the mastermind by a lot of people, me included. Because unlike him, other popular pick like Rose, J and Eden have already kind of established a "true character" for themselves that would be harmed in the case of a mastermind plottwist.
Basically those picks, in my opinion, would have character moments that would be ruined and feel pointless if they were the mastermind
Whit however doesn't have much to sacrifice if he is the mastermind mainly because he's already tied up in a bunch of character contradictions unlike other picks. These contradictions can be explained without him being the mastermind but he's really the only one who has those contradictions without having been called out yet (like David).
Also, hot take abound, I don't know why people tie the theme grief so much to Whit's character when actually the main thing that's really been brought up so far with him is idolization.
In fact his secret quote, a thing that seems to incapsulate a character's most important moment, is not about his grief but about him idolizing his mom.
I'm not saying Whit's grief isn't an issue for him, it definitely is, but I mostly mean that people are already posting theories ahead of chapter 2 about how charles will die so that Whit will be able to process his grief properly.
Which I feel is a bit too stereotypical ? It definitely feels like the most obvious path for Whit's archetype.
People associate him rejecting negative emotions as him not wanting to deal with grief but I think it's more likely that he's created a persona tied to his mother that he doesn't want to shatter.
In fact in the David music video thing, the words highlighted in pink is brainwashed and degraded copy. Almost as if he got rid of his personality and replaced it with something else.
Really the only time we've got hints at Whit and grief, is him never talking about his mom dying and also his response to Teruko's grieving response.
#drdt#danganronpa despair time#whit young#drdt whit#this post sounds a bit pretentious im not pretending ik better than anyone else#but i just think it's funny how whit has so many people coming for him#weither its for being the mm or being a sad little wet cat when like#really we don't know anything about this pink thing ????#i think it's mostly a consequence of whit being a very common archetype
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Concept: LQR big naturals but also with the flattest ass. Make him a titty dorito
Lan Qiren Breasted Boobily down the stairs of Cloud Recess
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#poorly drawn mdzs#MDZS#wei wuxian#lan qiren#jiang cheng#nie huaisang#lan wangji#lan xichen#bonus comic#The trio gets away with all the hijinks because the sound of their headmaster's big baps alert them to his positioning#and provide bountiful shade#ANON.....I am so sorry for how long I had you waiting for a reply#I wanted to wait until I had introduced NHS and it took a while to get to that point#I bounced back and forth between whether this was funnier with or without the twin jades being present but I like them being there#their inclusion makes it more relevant to where we are at in the story#and i guess this sets up the next comic (which had its spot stolen by this) pretty well?#I don't know if LQR's honkers are gonna stick around in my comics; even if it makes for good comedy#I so deeply love the big naturals meme. So of *course* I was going to draw this#Oh Oh OH Speaking *of*#theres one tumblr user who i see in my activity feed who always makes my day more than anyone else#If you're out there....yodas big naturals.....Thank you for making me laugh
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Anyone else not able to say 'bless you', either because it feels too personal, embarrassing, slightly erotic or a mixture of all of the above-
Buuuuuut also whenever an event interrupts the conversation, you feel so much more awkward not saying anything/commenting on it at all, and so you wish you could just... say that phrase, or have some other thing that makes sense to say to just- shrug it off???
#waterfalltalks#been thinking about this SO much lately like- thought about it before#but i grew up in a household where no one said it#and none of my friends ever say/said it so it was never really a problem#we all just pretty much ignore them THOUGH lately bc of one friend they've started#mocking... the noises/sounds.... which is a WHOLE ass experience both when it happens to me or when it happens to someone else#buuuuttt i digress- the point is more that lately its been a lot more on my mind bc#it keeps happening in the middle of a conversation/when we're watching videos#and it just.... feels so SILENT afterwards and i know no one else is thinking about it bc#no one else puts the pressure on it that i do (cept my one friend that knows but he doesnt usually mention it)#but like.... idk guys i just feel AWKWARD not SAYING ANYTHING but also i feel even WORSE saying something and is just so eguheugheuhjgshueg#idk just!!! thoughts!!! and seeing if im alone in this bc i know other people feel awkward blessing but#does anyone else feel that?? silence????? maybe im just crazy ToT#if you made it this far im sorry for the rambling and thank you for reading ittttt feel free to tell me what u think bc im out of my mind <#waterfallrambles
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I pronounce "wwdits" as "oui-oui-this"
How about you?
#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#wwdits season 6#i never heard anyone else say this in real life#so i just say it the way i think is right#really want to know how people pronounce it#it sounds so weird if i say it like double-u double-u dits#dont take it serious tho#english is my second lang
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i love dead boy detectives to death, and hope with all my being that we can Somehow pull off getting it back (through netflix or otherwise)
but honestly if we cant? if we get stuck at where we are now forever? i honestly think ill miss the potential s2 soundtrack the most
#okay HEAR ME OUT#weve got Hundreds of fics! maybe thousands! (i havent checked the actual count)#which means more Cases and Interactions and Anything that we could get from a new season#weve got fanarts and fanartists Galore that capture So much So powerfully#which means we can Almost see anything weve not gotten!#but the sound track? the Absolute Bangers we already got from season 1? i dont know what we have to make up for that#like. ive got a playlist im working on with all the songs i can find while retwatching. and already the Power the music has is insane#first of all the songs are just So Good? but also i can imagine the show (or parts of it) just by listening to them#every time one of the songs come up randomly i get to think “oh yeah! this song! from this show i love!”#its like a little constant reminder of the incredible scenes and characters and just The Whole Show!#idk ik everyones feeling their own stuff about all of this but losing the same“type”or“feel”of music we could get is really hitting me lol#does anyone else get this? does anyone else feel the same?#anyways if anyones interested in the playlist i can post it here once ive finished it :D#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#save dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#dbda#og
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seeing non-black people critique rick's portrayal of black characters is interesting sometimes. only like 30% of the critiques I see make any sense to me to be honest
#“rick made carter be an elvis presley fan that's fucked up!” is a real thing I just read#do you think black people can't enjoy elvis even though he appropriated black culture for personal gain#boy you would not like what I have to tell you about eminem. or kpop. or anything else bc black culture has been#appropriated by like everyone forever. are black people not allowed to enjoy iggy or ariana or billie or [the list goes on]#I myself am not biracial but I /mostly/ like carter and sadie (specifically carter who isn't white-passing) as black representation#the part where carter feels indignant that he has to hold himself to a higher standard because the world is harsher on black boys#did genuinely resonate with me when I first read that part as a child and it still does to this day#can we talk about how rick knows nothing about black hair instead#or how hazel is from the jim crow era and seems to not have one single thought about race in the modern era#or hazel's horror over the amazons keeping slaves but “no they're not slaves they just like it that way 🥰”#my problems with hazel are not at all about stereotypes I just don't buy her as an authentic portrayal of a black girl from the 1930s#don't get me started on beckendorf. does every black character need to die a violent horrible death rick#anyways this isn't intended to make anyone feel bad but we need more meaningful nuance in critiques beyond “hey that's a stereotype! bad!”#if you can't discern and communicate WHY it's bad then you're not saying anything of substance#is it a caricature? is it uninformed/underresearched? are all the characters from that group being represented in that way?#is the stereotype itself a degradation of that group? is it being played for laughs? is the character a one-dimensional stereotype?#what can we glean about the biases of the author/narrative and their worldview through their portrayal of certain groups in the text?#a big part of literary analysis and critique is not only pointing out The Thing. you need to also say something about The Thing#like if you have a black character say they like hiphop then sure it's a “stereotype”. but lots of black people do like hiphop#it's an important part of black american culture and portraying that in media isn't racist by default#and in fact lots of poc keep parts of themselves quiet for fear of being perceived as a “stereotype” when we shouldn't have to do that#BUT if you're doing it like jonah wizard was written in the 39 clues then that's where we've got a problem bc wtf was that rick#that was so racist oh my god I was like 11 years old reading that 😭 and then he had the white mc poke fun at him for being a gangster#and him being a “gangsta” was always played for laughs throughout the story#not being pro-rick here as I'm a big fan of critical riordan reading just being pro-thoughtful critiques because some of you guys actually#sound a wee bit ignorant when saying things like what was mentioned in the first tag#baye.txt#pjo hoo toa#rr crit#<- tagging that just for. well the tags basically
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I can’t be the only one whose art style is a mixture of others art styles. It ranges from anime to cartoons to those random tutorials on youtube from 2018 to random art i see on Pinterest. A good portion of the time i look at a small part of my art and just think “who did i get this from???”
That one post was right, your art style says a lot about you.
#beep#art style#artists on tumblr#oc art#original art#to anyone who might post a lot of art#regardless of fandom#if you see ny art and think ‘hey#i do that too???’ best know that I probably either took it from you and forgot who you were or we bith took it from someone else#the ‘forgot who yiu were’ part isnt supposed to sound rude i lowkey have bad memory to these sort of things#i just know i definitely saw you art and exploded inti sparkles at how good it was#like i literally scroll on pinterest and im like :0#some of yall make me freak out at hiw good you are at art#like#DAMN????
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sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)
but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!
so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"
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my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!
SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!
#mind you this was over 10 years ago now. it *could* have gotten better but id be extremely shocked if it has#autistic#autism#actually autistic#adhd#neurodivergent#audhd#school#school problems#yes i know theres rules or maybe even laws for this and its why they are like this but its bad and should change#if they offered smaller classes with less sensory overloading bullshit and other things i needed it would be great!#but they refuse to accommodate your actual needs and make up useless accommodations to legally say they help disabilities#ND people (not just audhd) and other disabled people that graduate with no useful accommodations are so strong and cool. proud of you!#ones who had to drop you youre also cool for not dealing with their bullshit snd allowing yourself to not suffer for a sheet of paper!#(though i know it can feel bad when everyone around you makes you feel bad for needed to drop out or failing out and not going back)#i completely stopped going to my psychology class because i started a week late due to scheduling issues and#suddenly we are told theres a paper due in 3 days and need to hse the textbook i didnt have yet as the source for it all#and it was in the syllabus i didnt get because i was a week late and didnt know we got one. the professor didnt notice me out of#the 100 other students in that large lecture hall. that room was also a sensory nightmare hellscape#too many students made things noisy and distracting. multiple fluorescent lights were flickering constantly and never fixed#the professor used a mic to speak to us and it had a constant horrible loud buzzing. it did that loud mic screech noise randomly#without warning. all the time. the quality of the sound was horrible so it was hard to understand her. on top of that she had a very thick#accent i wasnt familiar with so that on top of the horrible buzzing mkc quality that also cut her out constantly was auditory processing#disorder HELL. I dont know how ANYONE survived thst class but i seemed to be the only one struggling. everyone else turned in their papers#and i gave up and stopped going. was too late to drop the class to get my money back so i wasted probably a few thousand dollars#and THATS what i mean by give me reasonable and useful accommodation. test time would NOT make that class better at all#fix the mic and light issues at least or give me a smaller class with more attentive professor or something!#offer smaller classes for struggling disabled people! if the issue is not knowing who needs them then offer a switch to those struggling!#i got called onto a dean/counselor meeting because a professor noticed my horrible grades and stuff so its possible to catch us and help!#THESE SCHOOLS JUST NEED TO START BEING WILLING TO. dont make us do all the work to accommodate ourselves and expect to do well in school!
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btw I don’t know if this is a thing anyone is thinking about but I’m not gonna stop drawing Jimmy as a canary. It’s a lovely bird. It’s still something that’s been really important to his series. There’s no reason to drop the canary headcanon just cuz Lizzie fell into the void.
#warning: don’t open up these tags I went on a very heated and rather unrelated rant cuz I’ve been mad#trafficblr#life series#secret life spoilers#secret life smp#jimmy solidarity#also I’m sick of seeing ppl celebrate Jimmy surviving because they hate the canary curse fans like SHUT UP!!! LET US HAVE FUN GOD!!!#LIKE LITERALLY EVEN IF NOBODY CAME UP WITH THE CANARY METAPHOR WE WOULD STILL BE TALKING ABOUT HOW HES ALWAYS DYING OK WE DIDNT MAKE UP THAT#HE DIES FIRST HE JUST DOES. GOD. so what if some people make shakespeare sounding posts about the curse that I don’t understand. we are JUST#having fun and making connections where we don’t need to BECAUSE ITS FUN. NOT CUZ WE DONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE. sorry for the past few#days I’ve been genuinely mad at this fandom’s growing hatred towards its own community.#LIKE IM FINE IF ITS NOT YOUR THING BUT GOD. WE ARENT EVEN DOING ANYTHING 😭😭😭 THE LORE LITERALLY WRITES ITSELF OR IS WRITTEN BY MARTYN LOL#I’ve just been getting SO TILTED man. like ohhh yeah okay ur right i said too much guess I won’t say anything anymore#does anyone else genuinely not know wtf ppl are talking about when they say a certain hc takes over everything about the character#cuz I literally see so much varied Jimmy content yet I’ve seen several ppl complain that ppl ignore aspects of his character in favor of#WHATEVER when I literally don’t see that happening to him. step out of ur circle or something I don’t even HAVE a circle man
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I literally want you but you never pay attention to me
well rn you're on anon so idk who u are.. also im sorry that im not paying attention to u everything is too jumbled and cloudy and im not capable of making out what is infront of me or around me. i just dont know. im sorry.
#also its just hard for me to comprehend anyone wanting me#also maybe thats a littlw bc my brain works dofferently and i need a deep emotional connection to strongly want someone#differently* im not wearing glasses#like dont we have to talk? get to know eo? how else can we know eo well enough to know eo#well enough to want eo** ugh i cant type when im sleep deprived#and what does it mean that im not paying attention to u? are u messagin me or talking to me like idk :(((#anyway im sry i actually dont mean to ignore u i just dont know#like we need a talking stage and becoming friends and then know that we want eo#and if i sound too needy for u then yeah.. idk :((#what i mean is that as far as i know im like only even talking regularly to 2 ppl#and there needs to be a built rapport and mutual connection and like conversation for me to even feel something#so im just a bit confused.. do u want me.. actually get to know me and know eo#or do u just want me to be a certain way and fot a certain image? im confused#fit*... i need glasses
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America doesn't like Fireworks
Here's a headcanon/projection I have for America. I also thought I already posted this but I actually dreamt that…totally not a sign of #mentalillness
content warning: mentions of multiple real life deaths, great war and world war two are mentioned, mentions of ptsd/shell shock.
i'm not fully sure those need a warning but just in case I wanted to provide them.
At first America loved fireworks to celebrate the fourth of july. He had loved the display of colors and patronism his citizens showed! He was a freshly indepent nation when the fireworks began in 1777. He thought they were beautiful, amazing, spectacular, and a wonderful sign of what the future would hold.
He also greatly prefered fireworks to the guns and canons set off during the 4th and was happy that after 1812 that phased out.
When Independence Day became an offical holiday in 1870 he cried with joy. That year he watched the firework display with an intense feeling of pride in his heart.
But then it began to change for him. In the years between 1903 and 1909 there were 44 deaths due to fireworks and even more injuries. He began to feel a bit of unease over the citizen's love for fireworks.
Then the Great War happened...So many young men came back from the war shell shocked. Hell, America even had some shell shock for a while. That first year after the war and the fireworks going off, he felt all those men's fears and his own fear.
That was a major turning point for him.
It didn't help that between 1928 and 1942 there were another 56 deaths in factories and stores due to fireworks. And then after World War Two, the sound of fireworks began to make America's heart race.
After a few years America decided he would leave his big house in Washington DC and go to another one of his houses. This house was further away from any firework show the city was doing. He wouldn't feel anxious and would be able to celebrate his independence/birthday in peace and quiet. But by that time it was the 1980s and more people were doing fireworks in the comfort of their backyards. The noise and smoke that filled the street of America's suburban house terrified him. Were they under attack? He had rushed to investigate only to find people with fireworks and firecrackers.
America gave up, it was probably just him upset by this whole mess. Those who had shell shock probably got used to it by now, correct?
But then in the 2000s he began to hear more talk, more talk of veterans struggling with the fireworks. Dogs struggling with the fireworks. Pets, kids, many more people then he assumed were scared of the loud fireworks. And in a way it explained to him why at the turn on the 1900s he began to have a change of heart about fireworks, a feeling of unease and uncomfort. Because despite how much he partied or celebrated on July 4th he still just didn't feel right, that something was wrong.
Then more and more states began to ban the setting off of fireworks for personal use but that wouldn't stop the citizens despite the growing number of people who found discomfort with them. America wouldn't go anywhere in the South around the 4th of July mostly staying in States that had the strictest bans on fireworks. By this time his fear of fireworks had greatly decreased especially since he realized the cause, it wasn't all his feelings but Americans feelings as well.
He even began to host some birthday parties where you could see the city sanctioned firework show. Firework shows were different to him then just the random ones in someone's back yard, those were expected, well controlled, a professional was doing it.
America hopes that one day he'll be able to like fireworks again but that probably wouldn't be until people stopped doing it on their own or when people and animals stopped being upset by it. Both those cases seem unlikely, so America will just grit his teeth and accept the firework tradition.
I even used some sources for this *insert surprise pikachu* History of Fireworks Firework Accidents and Deaths I couldn't find out when it became the norm to do your own fireworks but I assumed at least by the 80s. I also believe states began putting in place bans/laws about personal fireworks in the early 2000s but don't quote me.
#Hetalia Headcanon#hetalia headcanons#Hws America#Aph America#America Headcanon#Hws America headcanon#Fireworks#Alfred Jones#4th of july#I am tired of fireworks#fireworks suck#Fireworks cause so many accidents- so much stress for people and pets - so much unease#Also so fucking loud!#Hate being in the South#💔💔💔#They've been doing fireworks since SUNDAY#My dog is scared of them because one time she was burned by a NEIGHBOR'S firework (we weren't doing them!) that had fallen into the yard#Anyway America dislikes Fireworks in support of veterans; pets; kids; and those with sensory/audio issues; and anyone else#Idc what anyone has to say this is my headcanon#And idc I hate fireworks they scare my dogs and sound like gunshots.#Hate the question of did my neighbors set off a firecracker a week early or was that a gunshot?#CW death#Cw PTSD#cw war mention#cw multiple deaths#Vent#Rant#Rant in tags#My headcanon#I don't know how to move tags sorry the CW's are further down I had planned to move them but can't on mobile
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I love your polls and it’s great you try to be on both sides to give fair chance to everyone, but the way you talked about shanks/buggy is crazy They’re fine together but in canon they’re brothers and your shipping googles got so tight you actually sounded like you could believe they’re anywhere close to canon which is u know stupid af
lmao, okay, this came out of nowhere 😂 Like... I talked about that months ago. But okay.
Anyway, Shuggy is canon. They're making out behind you right now.
#Anon please 😂#Calling me stupid because you think I think shuggy is canon#but all the while claiming that the fact that they are brothers IS canon#My dear... neither are canon. It's all in our heads.#as far as I know only the marines said Shanks used to see Buggy as a brother#and what the hell do they know about the relationship between two pirates?#sounds like historians talking about queer relationships by saying 'they were REALLY good friends'#And... I don't usually talk about my ships on this blog but that was for the shipping war#shipping goggles was what the tournament was ABOUT...#But come closer... come look at my main blog...#I assure you you can only enter that blog with shipping goggles on 😂#This is all meant jokingly from my side of course#I don't see any ship but the confirmed ones as canon#even though some might be canon TO ME but that's something else entirely#Why not... you know... let people ship what they want to ship however much they want to ship it?#Do you see me taking offense to people who don't want to ship something?#No everyone is free to see relationships as platonically - even if they're canon confirmed to be married#I just take offense to people calling other people stupid because they don't agree with them on fandom things#Especially when they're claiming THEIR headcanons are actually canon#Honestly imo anyone talking about 'shipping goggles' is just trying to make people who enjoy shipping feel inferior#I'm sorry you can't believe we're all equals no matter what we ship or don't ship#anon#ask#not a poll#I hope you all get that this is not an invitation for you all to send me more messages about this#I don't want to start a discussion#I just want you all to respect each other#shuggy
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one death and Im out, one
#screw grammer i bite#grian#limited life smp#mcyt#trafficblr#i guess#this was not what i was planning on positing at aaaallll#but i just got so absirbed by drawing bad hands that i just kinda you know anyhow#anyhooowww what a season am i right!!!#oh i wanted bigb to win so bad you dont understand but oh well gratx to martyn im sure there is already angst#!!#also ye si kow it did not at all happen like this but if everybody else can make everhing angsty so can i#anyhow!!!#we are lisenting to sound of violence by other lives#because duh#uhm otherwise well uuuh oh yeah htis is totally a hint to another waaay older peice i made for pearl#so if anyone remebrs that well uh yeah#my art
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havin the weirdest crisis of my life
#this is like. did related so im gonna sound completely uh#what’s the word. odd and shit for a sec okay? okay#so I’ve been here. hi im cheri silver yknow me for about 20 years total but jay used to front for years when we were in middle school#im not the. original host I guess but I’ve been around since#we were in the early single digits and never left#so im the host right? I existed to go thru the Trauma#but. it’s been my life for so long. my parents don’t know Her#they’ve only known me#but like. we’re finally starting to let go of that trauma#errr not let go but make peace with it. and we’ve been holding onto it for so long. I’ve been holding on to it for so long#but.. who am I without it? like yes that’s my trauma but also. is my purpose over?? is that why we haven’t been able to draw?#I’ve been the host for 20 years this is my life#my friends my gf my life my hobbies it’s mine not anyone else’s#I let others take the wheel when I can’t (or they forcibly do it for me) and jays been gone for like 3 years he only came back because I’ve#been being traumatized everyday recently. but like. will I have to go too??#reintergration is not really our goal. never has been but like#if we do. will I be here or will She come back? we’ve had false alarms before but it’s mostly been decided that it’s my front my life#maybe im just triggered all the time and that’s why I feel extra out of it#less myself#New Traumas are happening to us everyday#but yeah. I dont talk abt this aspect of my life much but it’s so scary to think about#I’ll talk to Chevy when they get off of work tomorrow abt it if it’s still like. freaking me out#I am me. we are a bunch of niggas but I am me.#did niggas when the identity disorder makes them dissociate smh#😫
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