#I am tired of fireworks

[billowingangel]

America doesn't like Fireworks

Here's a headcanon/projection I have for America. I also thought I already posted this but I actually dreamt that…totally not a sign of #mentalillness

content warning: mentions of multiple real life deaths, great war and world war two are mentioned, mentions of ptsd/shell shock.

i'm not fully sure those need a warning but just in case I wanted to provide them.

At first America loved fireworks to celebrate the fourth of july. He had loved the display of colors and patronism his citizens showed! He was a freshly indepent nation when the fireworks began in 1777. He thought they were beautiful, amazing, spectacular, and a wonderful sign of what the future would hold.

He also greatly prefered fireworks to the guns and canons set off during the 4th and was happy that after 1812 that phased out.

When Independence Day became an offical holiday in 1870 he cried with joy. That year he watched the firework display with an intense feeling of pride in his heart.

But then it began to change for him. In the years between 1903 and 1909 there were 44 deaths due to fireworks and even more injuries. He began to feel a bit of unease over the citizen's love for fireworks.

Then the Great War happened...So many young men came back from the war shell shocked. Hell, America even had some shell shock for a while. That first year after the war and the fireworks going off, he felt all those men's fears and his own fear.

That was a major turning point for him.

It didn't help that between 1928 and 1942 there were another 56 deaths in factories and stores due to fireworks. And then after World War Two, the sound of fireworks began to make America's heart race.

After a few years America decided he would leave his big house in Washington DC and go to another one of his houses. This house was further away from any firework show the city was doing. He wouldn't feel anxious and would be able to celebrate his independence/birthday in peace and quiet. But by that time it was the 1980s and more people were doing fireworks in the comfort of their backyards. The noise and smoke that filled the street of America's suburban house terrified him. Were they under attack? He had rushed to investigate only to find people with fireworks and firecrackers.

America gave up, it was probably just him upset by this whole mess. Those who had shell shock probably got used to it by now, correct?

But then in the 2000s he began to hear more talk, more talk of veterans struggling with the fireworks. Dogs struggling with the fireworks. Pets, kids, many more people then he assumed were scared of the loud fireworks. And in a way it explained to him why at the turn on the 1900s he began to have a change of heart about fireworks, a feeling of unease and uncomfort. Because despite how much he partied or celebrated on July 4th he still just didn't feel right, that something was wrong.

Then more and more states began to ban the setting off of fireworks for personal use but that wouldn't stop the citizens despite the growing number of people who found discomfort with them. America wouldn't go anywhere in the South around the 4th of July mostly staying in States that had the strictest bans on fireworks. By this time his fear of fireworks had greatly decreased especially since he realized the cause, it wasn't all his feelings but Americans feelings as well.

He even began to host some birthday parties where you could see the city sanctioned firework show. Firework shows were different to him then just the random ones in someone's back yard, those were expected, well controlled, a professional was doing it.

America hopes that one day he'll be able to like fireworks again but that probably wouldn't be until people stopped doing it on their own or when people and animals stopped being upset by it. Both those cases seem unlikely, so America will just grit his teeth and accept the firework tradition.

I even used some sources for this *insert surprise pikachu* History of Fireworks Firework Accidents and Deaths I couldn't find out when it became the norm to do your own fireworks but I assumed at least by the 80s. I also believe states began putting in place bans/laws about personal fireworks in the early 2000s but don't quote me.

[tribbles-the-lesbian]

🍎Apol Thieves🍎

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⬇️Background + various close-ups⬇️

[comfied-chriterature]

Finished the Penacony story and my heart fr stopped at THIS MOMENT

THAT??? That’s love.

And then she LITERALLY died for us.

[napping-sapphic]

Why doesn’t the world make itty bitty teeny lil kitty sized noise canceling headphones😭😭

[echthr0s]

tfw I'm listening to an artist's solo album for the first time and I think to myself, "hm. lyrics are a bit more... mawkish than I expected" and then I have to cast about in my knowledge bank of recent nü-metal history to finally remember that this is the guy who left the band to become a Christian

[orcelito]

4th of July more like "fuck you, you can't sleep"

Worst day to try to go to bed early

[reanimated-owl]

((bleh. feelin kinda yucky. probably the migraine.

hopefully will feel better tomorrow but rn i dont have it in me to do asks :(

[offshore-brinicle]

uhh I'm trying to gain more energy to draw again but for PM/Limbus people since I also am so much more active in here and talk a relative amount would it be a better idea if I post it here or in my alt if do eventually (@yetanothershore)

[victim9d]

my brain is so empty after work days that i just sit here trying my best not to post a post thats just "you guys dont get ittt!!!!!"

[cube-toast]

I know I'm late but

Please stop the fireworks youre scaring my dog

[ambersky0319]

store manager just called me asking me if i could do a shift today from 8am to 4pm

she called at 7:45am

the morning after 4th of july

[featherymainffins]

That feel when a crisis center decides your crisis seems a little too big and also what do you need a crisis intervention for anyway when your therapy starts in some 30 days?

Like ok slay I guess I'll have to haul my ass to the other crisis center, where I didn't want to go because they tend to dismiss people's problems as too small, first thing in the morning and if they tell me to get the fuck out I'm just killing myself for real and nobody will be able to say I didn't try.

[jtownraindancer]

haven't been this kind of exhausted since college

[babygirlvanitas]

,,, whoopsies

[uwooyoungs]

i ended up getting like 4 hours of sleep last night and i feel like im dying 💞

[contagious-addiction]

Dark shout out to nerodivergency and the fact I cannot for the life of me find something stimulating enough for my brain to watch/do/listen to/play etc. so I’m just in bed typing here in silence while my brain feels like it’s on fire