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Kim Kitsuragi moment

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I saw this in my mind's eye and had to manifest it

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Also only now got to read Portrait of A Certain Day's Observation Log and. Good lord Gregor's war memories in the first level but also this conversation he ends up having with Sinclair, Heathcliff, Ishmael and surprisingly Yi Sang?

It's very, very interesting seeing Ishmael and Heathcliff's perspectives nowadays and Sinclair's kind of awkwardness taking in count his own revenge. Specially since Heathcliff kind of....let go of revenge fairly quickly into VI, but seeing this as the vocalization of why he changed his engraving from REVENGE to REMEMBER.......

It actually seems way more that Yi Sang talking about Dongbaek....Yi Sang never looked for retribution or revenge, only she really fits this description in any way, but he always talks about her with this degree of abstraction nowadays now that I notice? Including the conversation about fireworks he has with Heathcliff in VI. It's kind of...interesting to notice that.

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I've always had the idea that some sort of animal has tried to eat Dongrang's hair at least once. It blends in with grass.

They mentioned the cow incident with Yi Sang but taking in count they used to be around farm animals all the time perhaps Dongrang was the one usually subjected to it. Ironically, he first started curing animals trying to find ways to be spared of their gluttony

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Limbus cat doodle dump I've accumulated over the last few weeks 🐈

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Why is Dongrang the only member of the League with a weird fantasy hair color while everyone else has normal colors actually. What is his fucking problem

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to show off the power of a second kindred they gave don a waw single target ego on her enhanced s3

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ain't no way

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Compiled some basic information I know about drawing fat characters for beginners since I've been seeing more talk about absence of really basic traits in a lot of art lately.

Morpho Fat and Skin Folds on Archive.org (for free!)

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could I request a furry don quixote of la manchaland?

I think he would make a very beautiful unicorn

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Actually thinking again about how the memento for Canto IV was the League of Nine group photo, you can see it in the bus window and I feel like that should be made a bigger deal out of. Like...the implication that Yi Sang went back to get it before they jumped onto the next adventure, I wonder where it's kept these days...

I wonder if Yi Sang just.....looks into it sometimes still, because it's made clear that despite everything and even if he doesn't express it, he's thinking about the people he's lost constantly. It's kind of..... bitter everyone but Yi Sang is blurred in it for this shot

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Could we get a drifting fox?

Fluffye

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Sancho has DID: the essay

So I'll start by saying I have DID like officially diagnosed for years so I'm very passionate about this. I also have diagnosed schizophrenia and this can be a doozy of a combo but it also appears to be exactly the fucked up combo Sancho has. Not to brag about how mentally unstable I am but I feel like I'm a bit of an expert here.

Jokes aside: while Sancho/Don Quixote shows obvious symptoms of DID and being a system, it should be noted that this is enhanced by fantasy aspects. She does have the trauma that would lead to development of a dissociative disorder but the method in which her alter “forms” could debatably be complete fantasy due to memory loss from drinking from the Lethe. But to me, fantasy enhanced or not, Don Quixote is still obviously a traumagenic system.

First: Don Quixote has two distinct personalities. Even before Canto 7 we see hints of this.

Her W Corp ID shows her starting out acting one way, and then ending another, even to the point of her voice and speaking style changing. Post Up-Tie, Don Quixote gains a new voice line where she completely drops her speaking quirk, talking more like we later see Sancho speaking.

“Did you know that human life is more resilient than it seems? One may still be breathing even after suffering profuse bleeding and breaking most of one's bones.”

In her Shi identity Up-Tie it calls explicit attention to the fact that her cheery personality is not how she always is. Although this can be taken as her “acting” it is still important to note.

“I doubt anyone knows what this child… is like when she's faking on jobs alone.”

In Canto 2, when dancing for the Mariachi men, Don Quixote’s movements are called “insincere”. Although she does not cease using her archaic language, her voice does notably change when she replies.

There are several other times throughout the game leading up to Canto 7 where you can see her seem to shift in personality but these are the most notable.

Of course Canto 7 is where most of the evidence lies.

Sancho has extreme memory loss as a result of drinking from the Lethe. She was driven to drink from it due to trauma but she was already showing signs of dissociating at this time.

The way she responds to Bari before she drinks is dismissive and depressed. Drinking from the Lethe is akin to a suicide attempt for Sancho.

Bari asks Sancho how she will live on (quoting both something First Kindred Quixote asked Sancho and something Sancho asked him) Sancho replies to Bari with: “I've lost everything. And now I prepare myself to lose even the remnants of what once was. Do you think that question means anything to me?”

Bari herself does not know what to say to this, showing that the way Sancho is acting is uncharacteristic.

Sancho may have also been prone to bouts of disassociation in general even before this point.

Dulcinea explicitly says Sancho acts like a “detached observer” and “as though you were not part of the world”. This is a pretty obvious way to describe disassociation.

Even Nicolina says she thought Sancho was condescending her, which Sancho denies. She did not even realize that she was acting in a way that may be interpreted as such. She simply acted uninterested, unable to express herself. This is common in other disorders, such as autism which Sancho also definitely has, but when paired with Dulcinea’s comments, it appears to be closer to disassociating.

Then there is the more obvious memory loss. Although it is caused by the Lethe, the way it is described is the same as dissociative amnesia is.

Xichun describes it as extremely disorienting. “Coming to terms with the realization that those hazy, nightmarish visions were in fact her own memories, that they weren't just dreams, has to be…”

Hong Lu finishes for her. “Yes. It will be sad. And complex.” He continues, speculating on which is the dreamer. “Is it myself as I had existed in that dream, or myself who has awakened from it?”

Traumatic memories being like blurry nightmares is not something specific to DID or other similar disorders, but it is very common among those who have DID.

Memories between alters are often hard to grasp, feeling like they happened to someone else or were a dream, just like Sancho. What happened to her when she was Don Quixote feels far away, and for Don Quixote, what happened to Sancho was simply nightmarish visions.

This is especially obvious when after killing Cassetti, Don Quixote is unable to remember the time Rocinante was not on her feet.

Specifically there is no reason for this except something related to trauma and DID. Rocinante itself does not suppress memories.

Then we have Don Quixote’s rendition of Pass On.

The song starts out with one singer and then turns into a duet with two distinct singers. This is obviously Sancho and Don Quixote.

There remains two voices singing even at the end, where they swap between singing lines and then sing together. I think this clearly shows there are still two personalities.

The final spoken line starts with Sancho’s voice and then changes to Don Quixote. I like to think this is a cute way to show a shift in who's fronting…

There are also Don Quixote’s announcer lines. In many lines you can hear Don Quixote switch to sounding and talking like Sancho, showing they both are still around. Italics are Sancho’s voice.

You insolent— Ahm! Their vile trickery is but a passing misery! In the end, we shall prevail and break their spears!

Thou mustn't fear having to take a knee from time to time! A bit of my slobber upon thy wound, and it shall be healed posthaste, forsooth! ... Um. Perhaps that was too much…

... I shall remember thee; as shall Manager Esquire. Thou hast fought valorously. I await thy return with anticipation.

What would you have done in such a situation, Father? ... Haha. I don't suppose he was ever in such a situation. Hark! 'Tis not the end, my compatriots!

Just like Dulcinea's elaborate preparations for her Parade's finale… But I already knew it was coming, so it didn't affect me much. ...Thus! We shan't be troubled by such craftiness! Prithee, prepare thyself accordingly!

Did they feed them blood packs or something...? N-no. Our foes stand over yonder, brimming with morale! Prithee, watch thyself!

'Tis clear that thy strike against them was much like splashing water against myself! Ugh... I threw up a little merely by mentioning it.

Ah, thou hast chipped off a part! This brings to mind an adventure of mine when— Mm.

F-fie… Agh... Father could have obliterated that fool in an instant...

I won't cover every part of the Canto but it is obvious Sancho has two separate personalities, the Bloodfiend Sancho and Don Quixote that developed in the Lighthouse after her memory loss.

Could Sancho then just be going back to play the role of the Don Quixote personality? Sure. But the point remains she has multiple personalities that formed from trauma (with the help of fantasy magic sure) who do not seem to share memories until the end of the Canto.

The writing seems to be trying to make it obvious when Sancho “shifts”, often using ellipses or her clearing her throat. I feel like from a writer's perspective, there is no point to this except to draw attention to it. Why make it so obvious if it is just Sancho playing a role? That is just me who has been writing plural characters for like 20 years.

If you discard the connections, Sancho still exhibits signs of many other disorders. Autism and schizophrenia most of all. She is delusional and traumatized. She disassociates and has two personalities.

There is room to argue she is now, as of the very end of the canto, one personality playing the other most of the time and sometimes that “mask” slips, but it doesn't change that, as a person with DID, I see myself in Sancho and I wouldn't mind if she became good representation for plural people and systems.

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pjm deciding to go back and make canto iv significantly less annoying is great bc now you can experience the horrors without being interrupted by 738291 waves of enemies every other chapter node

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The changing of sides on Sancho’s Armadura is deliberate.*

*This is an ID that does not supplant any existing character in the Canto like Spicebush Yi Sang or Captain Ishmael did. As Sancho likely existed in this mirror world as she did in ours before the construction of La Manchaland, I will make the assumption that her Armadura had sat on her left shoulder during that time for the purpose of this discussion.

In previous posts, I became mentally ill over which hand Don Quixote/Sancho holds her weapon in and how her costuming reflects her current priorities, held desires, and mental state. There, I examined her Armadura being on her left shoulder despite her apparent left-hand dominance as Don Quixote as a matter of knight imagery and style over visual field. After all, many suits of plate armor feature a larger, more thickly armored pauldron upon the shield (or non-dominant) arm, allowing the sword arm to swing unimpeded. Given the explanation of Captain Ishmael’s harpoon leg being on the opposite side of Ahab’s as a quirk of being mirrored, I was willing to set my initial theory until more footage was released of Manager Sancho.

That time is now.

Why would Sancho decide to move her Armadura from her left shoulder to her right? Seeing that she is gripping her spear in a left-hand dominant two-handed grip, I believe she’s made this change for two main reasons.

To fight at her absolute best while facing her Father Don Quixote in mortal combat. Against humans and other Kindred, Sancho has confidence enough in her martial superiority to have her vision blocked by her Armadura when fencing one-handed or to use her right hand for visual clarity instead. In other words, nobody else warrants Sancho bothering to prepare for a battle to her death.

To shield herself from the sight of the cardinal sin she is about to commit. Sancho is holding her lance in the left hand, allowing it to cross over her body so that her right hand grips higher on the shaft. This position puts the Armadura on her right shoulder directly across her line of sight, as if she were raising her shield to charge an enemy. Sancho, in all her devotion, was — is — the First Kindred Don Quixote’s most loyal Kindred. Despite her misgivings about the longevity of La Manchaland and the capability of a Bloodfiend to surpass bloodthirst, she placed all her attention and efforts on accomplishing this dream. So much so, that in a different world, she was willing to believe that her work would hold as she left on a journey with Don Quixote. Not here. Not when the distance between her and her Family, not just Don Quixote, has become so small. Where she failed to show her love to Dulcinea, Nicolina, and Curiambro in another world, her mirror self remains at their sides with unblinking devotion, forced to watch as her Family withers and starves. Love is the hand that guides her weapon towards Don Quixote’s enemies. Love is the final straw that raises her lance against Don Quixote’s festering dream. Allow her this one mercy, to shield her from the betrayal in her Father’s eyes.

In our world, Sancho was not allowed to stay by her Father’s side and potentially sacrifice her life to defend his dream. That dream that eventually became her own as she lived amongst humans on their travels. Instead, she chose to sacrifice her self and her memories to Oblivion to pursue his dream in his stead. That is her duty as his Second Kindred.

Here, despite staying in La Manchaland to fight for her Family, Sancho is once again sacrificing herself in the name of duty. She is Sancho, Don Quixote’s most loyal and illustrious Kindred. She is the Second Kindred, responsible for the life and happiness of all Kindred of La Manchaland. She will face their Father Don Quixote’s wrath in their stead.

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Meeting Gerald for the first time

It's that one scene from Adventure Time in which BMO meets his dad.

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some art + doodles (last two are older)