#quiet borderline personality disorder

[bpd-aware]

[nagichi-boop]

I am trying to stop believing I have BPD but I keep seeing posts/videos about BPD that fit me to a tee.

[wickedmental]

What does quiet borderline look and feel like?

On the outside:

On the inside:

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

omg maybe life is worth living [i had a decent day] —> i cannot be saved [the slightest inconvenience occurs] —> i am a fucking god and everyone loves me [someone laughed at my joke] —> i am going to kill myself [i feel a little bit unwanted because of someone’s reaction]

and this shit just goes on and on and NEVER stops

[peachteasoda]

I still harbor this negative core belief deep inside, that “I must present as 100% every day” I’m so glad I found this post. This is a lovely gentle reminder to those that relate or need a nudge that’s it’s okay to let down the cascade of: “I’m fine”, “I don’t need help” “I don’t want to be a burden/a burden to others”.

Those above are mostly my inner thoughts. I’ll go print this out and frame it right now.

I don’t remember what 100% feels like!

[its-simply-just-krys]

“Mouthful of Forevers”, Clementine von Radics

[maddisons-headspace]

Everytime I let it slip how bad I’m actually doing, I’m reminded I’m not allowed to actually feel anything.

I have to be okay all the time that’s my job.

[nemosopenletters-blog]

So where do you go, when nobody cares?

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩

𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭.

[rainywhispersblog]

[perisbpddiary]

Apologies without change is manipulation ASSHOLE

[bpd-aware]

[another-0ddity]

No sanity or stability here, just a delusional emotionally unstable person who feels too human or not human at all.

[bpd-chimere]

Can't stop thinking about how it's so easy for them to not talk to me, yet I become physically ill at even the idea of not having them around

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

bpd is being TERRIFIED of being forgotten but also wishing people couldn’t perceive you. so weird

[luluscandystore]

imagine you get shot in the heart and punched in the gut at the same time. it feels like your world is collapsing around you and you feel the urge to vomit but you just can't no matter how hard you try. the pain in your heart and stomach then travel and pulse throughout your whole body, it feels like something is inside you, eating you alive. nothing is the same as it was just a minute ago. you want to tear out your hair and rip out your heart and stomach. instead, you lash out. leading to you pathetically begging on your hands and knees for forgiveness because you arent the sweet pure angel you always try to be percieved as. you're selfish and you know it. and now everyone else knows it too

thats what jealousy feels like to me