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NEVERMIND MY BF FUCKED N CAME IN ME IM ALL BETTER NOW YIPPEE HORRAY

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my heart is so filthy and disgusting. i want to be pure again. please. I'll beg on my hands and knees just to be pure and kind

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imagine you get shot in the heart and punched in the gut at the same time. it feels like your world is collapsing around you and you feel the urge to vomit but you just can't no matter how hard you try. the pain in your heart and stomach then travel and pulse throughout your whole body, it feels like something is inside you, eating you alive. nothing is the same as it was just a minute ago. you want to tear out your hair and rip out your heart and stomach. instead, you lash out. leading to you pathetically begging on your hands and knees for forgiveness because you arent the sweet pure angel you always try to be percieved as. you're selfish and you know it. and now everyone else knows it too

thats what jealousy feels like to me

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Hey guys maybe DONT hate on literal children doing skincare ???? Maybe think abt the ppl making them believe they need it ????? " oh my god this 13 yro wants Dior lip oil for Christmas what the fuck !!!!! " IT ISN'T THEIR FAULT ??????????????????????

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i think one of the worst parts of NPD is that i genuinely have no idea how to distinguish if my emotional reaction is appropriate because what happened was genuinely fucked up, or if my reaction is being disproportionate to something i think is fucked up but really is just my ego speaking. and i can't just ask people to help me figure it out because it would be so easy for them to manipulate me in that situation. they could say whatever they want and i'm so desperate to not be a self-centered scumbag that i'd believe them. i fucking hate this miserable disease

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me after i give somebody a compliment but they don't compliment me back so now i have to kill them with a gun

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☆ving is so hard but its the only way I can eat all my dinner. gave in today though and had some berries bc it was too much

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adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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i think i might have dyscalculia but like how do I know?? my mom wont believe me

I cannot read analog clocks or music AT ALL its absolute hell. i dont know which letter is which in the alphabet and have so much trouble with distances and measuring things. I've always hated math my entire life and have always had the worst grades in it. its the only subject that would make me start bawling. i cheat on all of my math work because I cannot understand it no matter how many times someone explains it to me, same with chemistry. my sister suspects it but my mom wont believe me. i dont know what to do or if i even have it. ask me questions if you want/gen

I'm amazing at english and always get straight A's in it and have been told I'm a great writer. its just like math and chemistry that I struggle with. sometimes science in general too. I do have diagnosed adhd if that helps. my math teachers have always hated me and yelled at me for never understanding what im supposed to do or how to do it. I also cannot braid and can only tie one kind of knot. i have trouble tying my shoes if that is related at all

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i wanna make people happy but im fucking useless and disgusting

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i dont deserve to live

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i dont know whos fronting rn

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i hate myself i just want to be kind and pure but im disgusting and worthless

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im so disgusting i should be dead

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Does anyone wanna join my smoke circle? We can get faded and talk about the socio-economic downfall of society while looking cute and playing video games.

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Reblog to give an endogenic system a hug 💗