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Why does everyone I love lie to me…

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Sounds like you should kill yourself bruv

LMAOOOO where did this come from 😭

Trust me I would if the guilt wasn’t too much for me 🌝

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I actually need better hiding places cause if my mom finds it I’m actually so cooked. Omg what do I doooo 😭😭

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Chat my grandma found my weed pen and I told her it was a vape 😭😭😭

Not only did she find it once then I told her I quit, she found it TWICE

Omg she hates me 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

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Everyone ignores me till I go batshit crazy on people

Then IM the one in the wrong

I’ve been screaming for help for YEARS why can’t anyone hear me.

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What he said made me sick to my stomach but I can’t say anything because what hurt me wasn’t even that serious

I’m tired of crying in silence I just want peace….

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No privacy in this fucking house I hate everything and everyone and I want everything to die and I want to scream I hate it I hate it I hate get it I hate it

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I used to be good emotional support and I can't even do that anymore

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Life’s worth living again guys the depression passed 🤪

Until next time

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Being a female with BPD is such a curse.

So I can’t regulate my emotions because of childhood trauma AND because I’m dropping buckets of blood 😐

Someone kill me.

And don’t even get me started on the social aspect of it. To everyone else I’m literally always emotional but I’m just in pain physically and mentally

Why can’t anyone understand that??? Why do I have to be a moody bitch instead of a hurt little girl…

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I’m so fucking sick of going insane trying to keep up with the relationships I have with people

My boyfriend that’s a fucking dickhead and literally makes my life just as bad as he makes it good

My best friend who’s starting to hate me because I’m dating him

My mother.

I can’t do this anymore.

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If I accidentally open TikTok one more time imma blow some shit up.

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My heart hurts so much.

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For the first time ever last night I saw all the bad things people say about my boyfriend present themselves in our argument now I’m sick to my stomach and can’t get out of bed.

But I’ve already skipped 2 days of classes so what do I do… I can’t wait till my time is up

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The last thing I wanted was to be alone in a room with my fucking thoughts.

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My biggest pet peeve is talking to someone and not getting a response

If I wanted to talk to my fucking self I would’ve stayed in bed with my intrusive thoughts like what be wrong with people

JUST RESPOND ITS NOT THAT FUCKING HARD

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Life is literally not worth living

I’m so tired