#plural vent

[eye-of-norga]

Yep. Have fun with this.

If anyone would like art similar to this for themselves, we take requests. Different alters have different artstyles👍

Anon Alter (he/it)

[the-100-percent]

Guess what (not out yet) endo system had to hold back tears when their mom was talking about how endos aren't real! 🤫🧏🎉🥰

Oh oh! And guess what? She kept bringing up "Alastor" as a sign they are faking being a system! And guess who was co-fronting with me when this was happening? 🥳🥳

-🏳️‍🌈

[echuschasma]

A picture paints a thousand words.

I see the anti-endo raids on our plural spaces and I am realising now more than ever that they cherry-pick which of those words they read. They choose to see our happiness, claim it as an appropriation or glamorisation of their experiences. They choose to believe we're claiming identities we do not have, that we are belittling their lives and their trauma.

And what they refuse to see is that we are more than their (wrong) assumptions. They refuse to acknowledge the fact we too can have trauma, or we struggle to exist as a plural being. These people claiming you appropriate their existence do NOT know your past, your trauma, your struggles. Their words are a one-sided, bigotry-veiled attack on us because they do not know what it means to be like us. They find us threatening, and cannot deal with the fact we exist, so they try to bully us out of our spaces.

I grow tired of blocking them. Of reporting the death threats and misinformation. We, as plurals, should not have to stand as victims to their blind eyes. We should not have to be abused by those who cannot see the full picture and the words it paints.

To all who have been distressed, targeted or in other ways made uncomfortable and unsafe from these recent attacks on our space: We stand with you. We are here, and we will uplift your voices as well as we can. And to all those reading this who have made us feel those ways: We are disgusted by you. Of all the things you could choose to do, you attack people with a rhetoric easily dismantled if you could just open your eyes.

[venting-system]

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[botanical-garden-system]

No one talks about the grief you feel when there’s nothing wrong. The grief you feel when you are in one of the most comfortable places you could be. I know I am safe.

I have wonderful friends, a wonderful mother, a wonderful partner, and a safe place to stay home. I have three beautiful cats who fill me with laughter and joy, I have a life ahead of me, but all I feel is grief. Because it wasn’t always like this.

The ways in which my life had to get here hurt me dearly. I cant help but spend time wishing I wasn’t here. Maybe I could have came here without so much grief, pain, loss. Maybe I could have had a better life and still had this outcome.

I will never know. All I know is that nothing is currently wrong, but something is wrong inside of me. And I don’t know how I can heal something like it anymore.

[arrayoflightarchives]

In the nicest way possible, what is the point of being a system if this is a triggering situation for me and there's no one to deal with it but me

Like pls

There is what 26 of you fuckers that could deal with this but no I have to

/lh

[tearosecafe]

i hate my existence in this system. the only thing i do is make us feel completely isolated and alone. i hate that i exist solely to bring about melancholy. i hate that i am like this.

-🌫️

[catz-brainz1234]

Does anyone else's fronting feel like you're still completely conscious and is pretty much still in control of the body

But

You don't feel right, your reflection isn't you, your voice isn't yours, this family isn't yours, you can feel someone near you but you're not sure who, and something just feels off

[ciezi]

The only thing I want in life is to be called by my name. To be seen as me and not someone else. To have my own body, my own life, my own dreams, my own goals, my own individuality. To live my life where I can be my own person. Where I can be me.

[spacestationsystem]

art about myself

[the-100-percent]

I didn't know people hated my source so much :( I'm an Ashley Graves fictive and someone just told me to kms :(( I can't control that I'm from a weird game but you don't know how source separated I am!!! You don't know how much I hate that aspect of the game!!! I'm a real person!! :(((

-☠️

[a-bunch-of-rats]

i have a question about something possibly being manipulative/abusive/toxic

our ex (who was the one that helped us come to terms with possibly being plural) used to sometimes ask us "who am i talking to?" in the middle of a conversation. it always felt very anxiety inducing to us and sometimes like they were asking to diminish/negate what we were saying, implying we were triggered and unreliable, etc.

they said it would help them figure out the context of what we were saying. we are autistic so bad at tone , but it felt almost accusatory or in bad faith. we can't tell if our perception of that is true or just a fear response

does this sound like something possibly bad of them to do? or do you think it more likely made us feel unsafe/uncomfortable because we're still struggling with being okay with perceiving ourselves as multiple/struggling with the idea we might be faking, etc ?

[scribbledcosmos]

This has not been a good two days

-Riley

[botanical-garden-system]

There’s something so scary about trusting a new relationship, especially when you have so much trauma of past ones. I know at some point in all of my relationships I felt this happiness before, and I know it has existed in me before. I never knew this til I found out I was a system and I had an issue with compartmentalizing my pieces to escape the past. It definitely comes up to bite you, too, without even realizing.

Discovering this.. complicated feature has actually changed a lot of stuff for me, and I find myself not holding back info anymore. I have noticed the memory gaps aren’t AS bad, and it is more just slightly greyed to emotional amnesia rather than black out. Pieces share information and watch for patterns the others wouldn’t know, every part of you is now playing a part after so many rough relationships.

But that’s not what I want to focus on. I want to talk about how scary it is to trust again. To get rid of my analyticals for once, to just put my multitude of walls down. I want to go all in again. I want to put my love into it because I know when I do, it will be rewarding. But Im so afraid I’ll find myself left again, and the only way I could cope with the loss is to create it myself. I feel so unworthy of love, unworthy of this happiness, and unworthy of the relationship.

I want that adorable instagram post that says “I couldn’t live without you, you are my home” to feel safe again. I want the comment “I’m gonna marry you one day” to feel like a real commitment and promise. I don’t want to live in the misery that was my previous treatment.

[sunifixation]

cc

[poisoned-sugar11]

The "i would not fucking say that" introject feeling is really horrible as a factive honestly. Like, worse than it is as a fictive in my experience, and I'd know. I'm a mix.

I wouldn't fucking do that to us. I wouldn't do that to anyone. I wouldn't hurt someone like that.

I actually love my headmates, but I'm not sure if my source ever did.

This isn't Qualia, but I'm not leaving a sign off. I don't want any chance of anyone knowing who I'm an introject of, sorry.