#high functioning depression

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

You know what is just mind boggling? Neurotypical people exist. Like there are people who can just DO things and not have depression, anxiety (in every form ever), RSD, sensory overloads, and not get overwhelmed. Like there are people who can work for eight hours every day and still do things after. People who can make phone calls with no struggle. Who aren't constantly bombarded by a cacophony of thoughts both good and bad when they do things. Who have anxiety but it isn't crippling. who can spend hours, WEEKS with people and not get tired or fear that everyone there hates you. People who have no idea what Depression or intense trauma feel like. People who hear instructions and do it right first go. People who can follow a conversation without zoning out, or having to mask.

Like. Do neurotypical people actually exist?

Because I can't even imagine what it would be like to be neurotypical. Or mentally healthy. Both sound alien and foren. But like. Obviously they exist because neurodivergent people wouldn't struggle so much if not for how the world was structured for Neurotypical people but I don't know if I've ever met a neurotypical.

idk. food for thought I guess.

[theereina]

[tastefuldegenerate]

[cryinginmyroomsposts]

the tragically beautiful pipeline from high-functioning child to burnt-out adult with a laundry pile of hobbies itching to be cleaned and used again but the adult is just too exhausted to do anything more than pick them up from the pile to check if they are dirty enough only to find out... they always will be dirty now that the adult has lost the bandwidth to do laundry

[mariposas8494]

High Functioning Bipolar Disorder is HARD AF 😵‍💫🤦🏻‍♀️😭

[storkmuffin]

visit to the beaches of the east sea, s. korea.

2024.2.24.

my new medication ended what must've been a minor but lengthy depression bc i have suddenly been able to watch fictional films and dramas, read fiction, want to go on trips, visit bookstores to actually buy books, sign up for classes, study languages, take on new creative projects, make specific plans for the future and feel curious about random things (kpop but also since yesterday the history of carrier pigeons). haven't done these things much in 3 years and i figured it was just how things were going to be from here on out. being at the seaside made me cry from joy of recognition at myself. I have been continuously asking everyone and myself, for years, why don't I WANT anything? why don't I HUNGER for anything? is this NORMAL to not want anything?! is life this flat for everyone??

my rigid discipline kept me functioning at an objectively high level - i went to work and did good work, I had a social life, I visited friends and family, I kept up with people I love, I exercised and kept up personal hygiene and responsible cat ownership but ... it wasn't there. the me of it all wasn't there. and now I'm back.

[pearl-harp-and-thread]

high-functioning depression, so you get up in the morning, eat breakfast, get dressed and go to lectures, high-functioning depression, so you're doing great at uni, everyone's praising you, telling you how good you are, high-functioning depression, so you go home, work, do stuff for your next class, eat dinner, go for a walk, high-functioning depression, so you start working late translating English poetry for your master's thesis because you know that if you stop you'll fucking fall apart and start crying.

[princessmacabre]

day 5/100 days of productivity

got up at 8am

morning tea & novel writing

workout & some yoga

40mins walk

cooked lunch

3 h of writing work

3 h of acting class

passed out right after class. i am bot sure if i am resting enough but also i kinda cannot stop myself from working as much as i can? like, i am so afraid that i wont get there fast enough and there is still so much to do idk. not in such a good place these days but all i can do is keep going and hope for the best. and maybe one day i can start to heal…

bisous

xx

[spn-fanfic-reblog-writes]

So, apparently Dean and Sam might have high functioning depression

[rain-rainynights-side]

i'm a rockstar. i can fool you into believing the glamour and glory are real and not a trick of the spotlight

[endlessmidnights]

Just because you can’t see my struggle doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist… people never seem to understand that high-functioning anxiety and depression exists and is a problem

[tabooballoonpolice]

Raise your hand if your mental health is shit and every day is fucking exhausting and you just want to stop trying but that's not an option because you have school/a job/important responsibilities and life doesn't stop just because you're depressed so you have to just go about your day doing the stupid things while feeling dead inside and also somehow convincing everyone you're fine because telling the truth takes way more energy than it's woth because people will listen in the moment and it feels like you're finally making them understand and they say they're gonna support you but the second the conversation is over they literally treat you exactly the same as they were treating you before so you decide to just stop telling people anything unless you're in crisis and even then it's not "crisis-ey enough" because you're still acting like a functioning human because your brain physically will not let you shut down so from the outside it just looks like you're a lazy ass bitch with a really fucked sense of humor.

[spiced-wine-fic]

“…the top high-functioning depression sign to look out for is that you don’t experience any sustained sense of joy or pleasure, despite good things happening.

“People with high-functioning depression remain productive, successful, and able to achieve,” she said. “And yet, the person may not be able to maintain a mood of pride, joy, or pleasure for long, or they may pick apart a compliment or achievement to somehow make it ‘less than’ or inadequate in some way, emphasising that they may not be deserving or they just got lucky.”

[laststep-suicide]

[tastefuldegenerate]

Took a vacation to Mexico but inever left the states 📴

[bebepac]

Happy Heavenly Birthday 👑

Happy heavenly birthday. Recently, your book was released, and reading your words in your voice is like it brought you back, but also reading the sadness and anxiety in your words, your distorted perception of self, was emotional. I said it before and wish you saw yourself the way so many of us viewed you. I hope that you found your peace.