#deep feelings

[the-chandrian]

Crave...

[the-chandrian]

To Crave

I know you baby girl. You don't just want. You don't merely desire. You crave. I know because I've spent the time to build that craving within you. I've watched it grow from a simple spark to an all-consuming fire. And that power that I have, to make you crave, was not taken but was given to me by you. And it is that gift that grants me the authority to control you and to take you places you didn't even know you wanted to go.

My warm breath brushing against your tender cheek. Crave

Tracing gentle lines from cheek, to neck, to shoulder. Crave

A fist full of hair, pulling hard to expose your tender neck. Crave

A gentle nibble on lip, ear, neck and breast. Crave

The sound of my low guttural moans. Crave

The dark intensity of my deep blue eyes. Crave

When I whisper "Good girl" into your ear. Crave

Every time I take you to the edge and back again, you become just a little bit more MINE. And ultimately, to be called "mine" is the destination that you crave most of all.

[w-intent]

[peaceishim]

[devilish-moan]

[themindofmine]

I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living

[vielesundnichts]

- reyna biddy

[vroomvroomwee]

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

[wordswithloveee]

[the-chandrian]

A fist full of hair and a bite on the neck.

Crave...

[w-intent]

[peaceishim]

The one who loves the moon, still loves it when it is not in the sky, when it might not be in front of their eyes. The love is still there.

-A.S.

[devilish-moan]

[troyan-light]

When I speak with you, why are you so afraid to show me what's inside of you?

[themindofmine]

I feel sick. Sick of myself, my life and my feelings.