#spilled writing

[inkprilled]

I don't know where you are exactly, but I know you're looking at your phone, I know you're probably alone. So am I. It's nearly 10pm and I've been scrolling through Instagram reels all day, I haven't eaten or gotten up. But I've cried over people singing in the park to passers by, one women lost her mother and felt comfort in the songs. I've cried to family reunions and mother's singing lullabys to their babies, Ive felt this weight of grief for the things I want to experience, which is to not be so alone. But I still lay here day after day, I still like videos about things I hope to do someday. I'm not okay but I will be one day.

[my-unsent-thoughts]

Your action told me to stop, so I did.

[be-on-your-way]

Charles Bukowski.

[threewordusername]

"The Abyss."

d.b.a

[skyeconch]

Y/N @ Jimmy “bitch please. You’re like a penny. Two-faced, smelly, dirty, worthless and in everyone’s pants”

[soliloquyspace]

Not one person who betrayed me or staged that I appear to be what they are… deceitful, conniving, manipulative could ever truly face me…. I wish I knew who they were. Why they have damaged my life so desperately so. I wondered so much….

[marandsviet]

Your heart knows things your mind can't explain.

[trulyyoursdevil]

Nothing matters as tasteful as this

Some temptations become irresistible

[inkprilled]

I can't think about you for too long, but sometimes you climb out of my Amygdala and I let your face press against my prefronal cortex. Your presence is mostly wrapped in bubbler wrap, hidden in a back room, somewhere near the things I can't talk about and the things I should have. I've quietly closed the door, but it's not locked, I don't think it ever will be, I don't think I want it be. But that room isn't a place I like to visit, it only holds you and the things that shouldn't have happened.

[alex-a-roman]

Today, tomorrow

Today I've gone insane It's you, it's me, it's us, It’s everything! You'll never see yourself Through my eyes And you'll never see me, You'll never see me again.

Today I've gone insane I lost all that I had, Forgot my words and now our hearts – Our hearts will never beat the same; Today I've gone insane Tomorrow we'll see, We'll see who's to blame.

~ A. A. Roman

[soultied-bz]

time takes us where we need to be

[dangerouslyfurrydragon]

Sis, Normalize not reaching out to a man who hasn't replied to a text or returned a call in hours or days. He knows he haven't spoken to you, and it's because he don't want to. He's aware you're a good woman, he just don't care. If he wanted to keep you, he would move mountains!

[poemwav]

David Rivard, from "Strictly Speaking" (2017)

[sacriificiallamb]

he liked them obedient

sweet, darling lambs who crawled to their own slaughter

good little things who did what they were told

so i laid still

letting him put his hands on me as he wished

twisting, pulling, groping

anything he wants

as long as he tells me he loves me

that i’m all his

i’m his paper doll

dress me, pinch me, cut me up, baby

tear me apart with bare hands

and throw away the pieces of me

[dive-nire]

“I need to disappear. I need to not have a body at all.”

Dive Nire, METANOIA