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current mood: autumn cozy

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"There is no certainty; there is only adventure." — Roberto Assagioli

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If you love the moon, accept its every shade.

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Dear diary,

Sometimes motivation is hard to come by and even if it's there it can slumber because getting started when you are stuck in your own mind and preferring to cuddle into the abyss is like being stuck in a tar pit and it clings to you so you have to be resolute on pulling your self out even if it's crawling slow progressing because slow progression is better than no progress..~

It's a love hate relationship, the burn of the workout sets, the way it makes legs/thighs and calves heat up with a burn, the sweat that I dislike but warms up my insides, the sound of a good playlist that adds fuel to motivate and may increase sexual desires..~

Sometimes I think I overdo it when I feel like that I can't walk normally after, like okay I'm just going to waddle a bit cause clearly exercised some muscles there or when my ankles feel like thick vegetable stalks and ache because I forgot to stretch and I am pushing them to continue on..~

It occurs to me if I could switch out body parts magical or close to it with more desirable ones I'd look like Sally from nightmare before Christmas etc.~

Just stitched together, it's not pretty but then again would it matter? I already have not so pretty scars and I add to them when I make my own marks not that ones I make will last permanently as they will fade..~

Just some lyrics for songs I like weaved together for fun~

Tell me baby, if I get prettier can I be your baby

You say life isn't that hard,

No way you can deny

You feel the most alive when you are terrified,

Sugar's my escape when the dark keeps me awake,

I feel pretty in the dark,

Lay me down tonight in my linen and curls

Black and blue, I'm on the edge

Forgave you with your hands around my neck,

I can't tell you why when you kill me with a smile

Salt inside the wound, keep it up

rub it in and kiss me,

Am I bound to you or just addicted...

Flames burn in my imagination,

I attract what the devil sees and shys away from,

Suffocate me, break me I can take it,

Can I take it?

As long as he tells me it's beautiful and dangerous,

My wrists are bound to this metal bedframe,

I won't make a sound,

I'll still adore you

The desires you seek, hold my hand,

I'll set you free,

Welcome to the devil's playground,

It's your candyland where dreamers dance,

You can look and you can touch,

It's a real fine day at the black parade...

Come sit on your throne,

Where good and bad cease to exist,

Here your command is our wish,

You can bathe in every dream,

What I wanted was to fall asleep,

Close my eyes and disappear,

Like a petal on the stream or feather on the air,

I trembled when he laid me out,

You won't feel a thing when you go down,

Flowers bloom until they rot, men are kind until they aren't, dreams are sweet until they aren't,

You seem to replace your brain with your heart,

You take things so hard and then you fall apart,

Peeling the skin off my face,

Cause I really hate being safe,

The normals make me feel afraid,

The crazies, they make me feel sane,

All the best people are crazy....

You can be the mad hatter and I'll be your Alice,

To tell you the truth I'd do anything you tell me too,

I'd die to just to take another bite of you,

Tell me I'm yours and your mine...

I'm on my bloody knees begging for what I need

I talk to the moon, I don't think she knows she's so cold,

Make me impressed, make me obsessed

Ooh ooh here we go,

Walking, talking like you know I want to be your pretty little psycho,

Cause I like you a lot don't you know,

Kiss me in the dark tonight,

I know what the boys want and I'm not going to play,

Just you and me feeling the heat even when the sun goes down,

I could be yours, be your baby tonight,

You could be my Daddy tonight,

Do I make you nervous?

Do I make you scared?

Do I make you wanna just stop and stare?

Weird, bizarre, unusual,

Sicker than sick, atypical,

A perfect picture of your fucking worst nightmare,

Do I make you frightened?

Do I make you fear for your life?

When you're so certain, I'll infect you when I'm near,

Obscene, twisted, unnatural,

Off the wall, unacceptable,

I'm bulletproof to what you think,

So you can damn me straight to hell,

You can crucify my name,

You can throw me to the wolves,

You can burn me in the flame,

And say, "She's such a strange girl",

Such a strange girl,

The world needs strange girls,

Just like me,

Don't you want to make proud?

Cause I'm so proud so proud of you baby,

I like the way you kiss me,

Scared of falling , drowning too deep,

Falling into the unknown,

Let the moon decide where I go.

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Beautiful~

Jeanette Winterson, from "Why Be Happy When You Could Be Normal," publ. in 2011

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So beautiful~

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See kidnapping can be romantic or affectionately sweet~

All about perspective and those tiny little details~

whatever. your kidnapper handing you your favorite stuffed animal because they "want you to feel safe" when they violate you

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I want to sleep until I feel better.

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Relatable~