#my words

[lovewarmsoftdeers]

I want to love, but I’m afraid to be loved.

[theineffablewoman]

I wait.

Quietly aching.

Wanting deeply, to come undone with you.

[eternalstarlitwonderland]

Stellarum Speculo ~Into the Starlight thru the mirror's visage~

Luceat Egregie, Stellarum Speculo

The first visage I behold...

Upon uttering these mystical phrases, the mirror awakens, illuminating its surface; the translucent images begin to swirl and take shape, presenting a vivid tapestry of everything that unfolds in real time

Like a cascade of diamonds, the starlight scatters its dazzling brilliance across the fabric of the night sky, leaving behind a gentle, soothing afterglow that lingers in the atmosphere

At first glance, the resplendent lights overwhelm my senses, their intensity nearly blinding, a dazzling firework of light against the velvet darkness

Yet, in a remarkable twist, this brilliance transforms into a soothing balm for my weary eyes; the twinkling gems of the sky capture my attention, drawing me into a trance of quiet contemplation

As I immerse myself in the soothing ambiance of the night, the mesmerizing lights of the stars captivate my gaze

I find myself transfixed by the celestial ballet above, where each flicker of starlight provides a glimpse into events as they unfold a window into the universe's grand narrative

The stars radiate with such brilliance that their luminosity seems almost palpable, momentarily blinding me as I gaze deeper into their cosmic display

Yet, the profound beauty of the celestial panorama draws me closer, revealing an astonishing accuracy in depicting past events

Each star appears vividly lifelike within this magnificent visage, exuding the essence of its existence

With every scintillation and flicker, the overwhelming luminance captures the minutiae of the star's intricate workings: the shimmering tendrils of stardust that cling delicately to its outer layer and the striking glimmers that arise from the glittery dust, which sparkles with cosmic energy that feels tangible; the spectacle is breathtaking, a radiant sight for the soul to behold, yet, from a distance, others remain oblivious to the wonders enclosed within the glassy surface, unable to perceive the beauty I’m privileged to witness

The sparkling brilliance spreads throughout the visage, a radiant display that captivates the soul

It is a sight of unparalleled wonder, yet frustratingly elusive, as others remain unaware of the spectacle hidden within the mirror's glassy surface; like a well-guarded secret, the beauty concealed behind the glassy surface can only be seen by me

Standing at a distance, others remain oblivious to the treasure within

When my journey through this celestial theatre concludes, I am preparing to return to reality with the same reverence

As I utter the sacred phrases to seal away the celestial display, the mirror still holds its secrets close until the next time I dare to peer into its depths

[daydreamwithoutwords]

You broke my heart in the least hateful way, but in the most painful way.

[roseunderdawn]

I kinda wish we had more pictures together

I had always planned to

On having more time

Another opportunity to solidify you in my life

Not because I enjoy taking them

But because I want to look back and see your beautiful face next to mine

I’m heartbroken

And yet, still, I know I’m breaking

But how can I want you more than myself

How can I ask you to come back

When I know you can’t be there in the way I need

You once asked me if I’d ever written anything about you

And I said yes

But I’m not sure you wanted to see

I kinda like that you never discovered my poetry habit

I felt less transparent

Showing you what I wanted instead

Of declaring, bloody on paper

You never knew the words I assigned to your face

Or your laugh

Or the doubts

Or the sureness

I never told you

Maybe that’s for the best

You can’t look through me

I’ve never felt so dirty

So unlovable

But so sure that I deserve

So much more than you’re willing (able) to give

You do not get to take my peace

Or my worth

I know who I am

And I will survive every moment of this breaking

[bianchiblue]

I moved far away from the sea

a long time ago, but I returned briefly

during a long layover - discovering

the house had been rebuilt,

but the neighborhood had not changed,

even at my old grade school,

seagulls still circled

above the playground

over forty years later.

Today, on the news,

I saw that rebuilt house -

in flames,

consuming more than wood -

an ocean of memories.

And I don't know what to say,

but my grief is telling me

my home must still be aching -

to look upon the sea.

[heartbreakscars]

i think im scared of discomfort

feeling the same

the stress i felt at 16

heartbreak

panic

i used to find comfort in my discomfort

the warmth of my heartbeat

feeling more familiar

as my face grew more red

and my palms more sweaty

i wish i could still accept that

nowadays im always drowning

with every argument

discomfort

surfacing emotion

i drown myself in herbal tea

calming supplements

yoga

cbd

but it just seems to grow worse

possibly i do find comfort in discomfort

perhaps id be better off if i stopped trying

and rediscover

how the warmth of my heartbeat felt

[lovinglifeinspiringothers]

#lovinglife #inspiringothers #llio #life #inspiration #inspiring #luvlife #lovinlife #inspire #luvinlife

[sagessge]

The first rush

I still hear your words unsaid

I still dance,the moves that we never did

I still sometimes replay your image in my mind

It almost fades away though

But for some reason,to feel it go and settle down

My heart drops

I cannot let it settle down

I cannot let you settle down

I still think of you

When that song plays

When the word love catches my eye

When a soft feather brushes my cheek

When I walk past all our marked ways

I still feel it

This love,almost at its brink

This love,that left me so full yet so empty

This love,that made me feel cursed yet so blessed

This love,that dried me up

This love,that I have kept still

This love,that I did all alone

This love,that I can't let go

I'm afraid with it,will go a piece of me

So I think I'll let it settle down

Deep in my heart

It can never be erased

The first rush that makes you go insane

The first love that leaves so much

Yet not a single trace

[wire-smith]

Begin logging… ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4. Main boot complete.

Startup sequence: Capacitors… ready, 100% charge. Optics… ready. Gimbals… self-test passed, ready. Sensors… online in passive mode for stealth startup Querying Human Operator… present. Hello, Human Operator Kim.

Linking to Turret 2 Main… link established. Copying tactical assessment to local map: Allies flagged: zero. Enemies flagged: four, all active. Tactical summary: outnumbered.

*** WARNING: ENEMY POSITIONS ESTIMATED BY PASSIVE TRACKING ONLY. ***

QUERY: go to active sensors? FLASH from Turret 2 Main: tactical directives from Endurance Main: hiding (asteroid shadow) for ambush. Acknowledged. Sensors set to passive mode.

Scanning on passive…

Scanning on passive…

Scanning on passive…

Scanning on passive…

FLASH from Bridge Commander: "Buckle up, everyone. We are go on my mark." FLASH from Bridge Commander: "three, two, one, MARK." FLASH from Endurance Main: tactical directives: ambush, concentrate fire.

Human Operator Kim: permissions set to WEAPONS FREE. Human Operator Kim: sensors set to ACTIVE. Scanning on active… Enemies 1, 2 in line of sight! Syncing results to main tactical map.

*** WARNING: ENEMY SIGHTED. ***

Linking to Point-Defense Lasers 1, 2, 3… link established. Coordinating anti-missile targeting priorities… Slewing to cover Enemy 2… FLASH from Turret 2 Main: reassign priority, scan for uncertain enemy positions. Denied! QUERY: Enemies 1, 2 in line of sight! Destroy the threat! FLASH from Turret 2 Main: Other Lasers assigned to anti-missile cover of Enemy 2. Other Turrets assigned to Enemy 1. Laser 4 assigned to scan for Enemies 3, 4. … Acknowledged. Slewing to empty sky. Scanning empty sky on active… no contacts.

Syncing to main tactical map… Turret 2 engaging Enemy 2. Turrets 1, 3 engaging Enemy 1. No contact on Enemies 3, 4.

Scanning empty sky on active… no contacts.

Syncing to main tactical map… Enemy 2 flagged as disabled. Lasers 1, 3 engaging missiles. Missiles destroyed.

Scanning empty sky on active… no contacts.

Syncing to main tactical map…. Enemy 3 flagged as position located! *** WARNING: ENEMY SIGHTED. ***

Slewing to cover Enemy 3… Gimbal limit. Enemy 3 not in accessible part of sky. *** WARNING: ENEMY SIGHTED. ***

Query: assignment to engage Enemy 3? ERROR: cannot establish link to Turret 2 Main! Syncing to main tactical map… ERROR: cannot establish link to Tactical! FLASH from Bridge Commander: "What the fuck was that? Tactical's down. Endurance AI, do you read?" QUERY: establish anti-missile targeting priorities? ERROR: cannot establish link to Point-Defense Lasers 1, 2, 3! ERROR: cannot establish link to Turret 2 Main!

Human Operator Kim: run SELF-DIAGNOSTIC. QUERY: full self-diagnostic during combat operations? Human Operator Kim: OVERRIDE: run SELF-DIAGNOSTIC.

=== Running self-diagnostic === ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4. All systems clean. === Resuming active function. ===

FLASH from Human Operator Kim: "Captain, turret two is down! All I've got is one point-defense cluster!"

Scanning on active… *** WARNING: MISSILE LAUNCHES from Enemy 1. *** Slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing! Slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing! *** WARNING: INSUFFICIENT INTERCEPT CAPABILITY *** QUERY: insufficient capacity! establish anti-missile targeting priorities! *** WARNING: MISSILE LAUNCHES from Enemy 3. *** ERROR: no outside links established! *** WARNING: INSUFFICIENT INTERCEPT CAPABILITY ***

FLASH from Engineering Officer: "It was that frigate. Some sort of optical virus! Anything looking at that damn ship got fried!"

Slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing! *** WARNING: INSUFFICIENT INTERCEPT CAPABILITY *** *** WARNING: IMPACT IMMINENT. ***

Human Operator Kim: establish control link to Turret 2. ERROR: cannot establish link to Turret 2 Main or Turret 2 Point-Defense Lasers 1, 2, 3. *** WARNING: IMPACT IMMINENT. *** Human Operator Kim: OVERRIDE: establish direct control link to Turret 2 sensors, weapons! Everything! ERR--

connection established. reconfiguring allocations… ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 as control node of Turret 2.

*** WARNING: IMPACT IMMINENT. *** Laser 4 slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing! Allocating one other laser to each incoming missile. Laser 2 slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing! Laser 3 slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing! Laser 1 slewing to next missile… Lock! Firing!

Assigning targeting priorities: Frigate 3 flagged as carrying optical virus. Turret 2 slewing to engage Frigate 3… QUERY: Turret 2 main gun weapons free? FLASH from Human Operator Kim: "Got the gun back online!" Human Operator Kim: main gun permissions set to WEAPONS FREE. Laser 4 slewing to Frigate 3… Lock! Firing! Main gun lock on Frigate 3! Firing! Main gun lock on Frigate 3! Firing! Scanning on active… Update local tactical map: tag Frigate 3 as disabled.

FLASH from Bridge Commander: "Turret 2, what did you do? And can you do it again?" FLASH from Bridge Commander: "You've got the only AI still working right now, we're trying to fly manual up here!"

FLASH from Damage Control: "Impacts all around topside! Those last two are eating us alive!" Syncing to main tactical map… ERROR: download of main tactical map incomplete! Human Operator Kim: print damage report *** WARNING: damage to Laser 4 gimbals. *** Human Operator Kim: print damage report for ALL of Turret 2! You're the whole turret now! Assessing linked damage… *** WARNING: damage to Turret 2 main gimbals. ***

FLASH from Human Operator Kim: "I gave the one working laser AI control over the whole thing! I have to keep reminding it to use the rest of the turret but it's doing better than I expected--" *** WARNING: MISSILE LAUNCHES from Enemy Destroyer 1, Enemy Destroyer 4! *** *** WARNING: target out of gimbal arc! *** QUERY: Insufficient intercept capabilities! establish anti-missile targeting priorities! Human Operator Kim: "What? You have more syntax resources now, use them!" QUERY: request support! WARNING: damage to Laser 4 gimbals! Impact imminent!

FLASH from Human Operator Kim: "Uh, correction, Turret 2 says it can't protect the ship on its own. With a board this red we'd normally be turning interceptions over to the other clusters or asking for evasive maneuvers--"

FLASH from Bridge Commander: "But there's no other AIs. Right. Well, fine. We'll have to hope it can run everything it'll need. Engineering? Give Turret 2 priority control over all ship systems."

Engineering Officer: OVERRIDE: establish direct control of all Endurance systems

connection established. reconfiguring allocations… ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 as control node of Turrets 1, 2, 3. reconfiguring allocations… ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 as control node of Turrets, Missiles, Engineering, Tactical, Navigation. reconfiguring allocations… ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 as control node of Endurance Main.

*** WARNING: IMPACT IMMINENT. *** Local tactical map: Enemy Destroyers 1 and 4 active and firing. Missiles inbound. Set tactical directives for Endurance Main: intercept the threat.

Main sensors scanning on active… Enemies not in accessible part of sky due to Laser 4 gimbal damage. Thrusters roll axis +53 degrees. Laser 4 slewing to next missile…

Human Operator Kim: "You have other clusters! Don't just spin the ship to use yours!"

Allocating missile targets to various point-defense lasers. Thruster evasive pattern Charlie. Lasers engaging. Most missiles destroyed. Reallocate targets to concentrate fire on survivors. Lasers engaging. Update local tactical map: missiles destroyed.

Set tactical directives for Endurance Main: intercept the threat.

Missile targeting lock on Destroyer 1. Launching missile spread. Thrusters yaw axis -12 degrees, bring Turret 1 into arc on Destroyer 2. Allocate Turret 1 lasers 2, 3 to engaging incoming missiles. Allocate Turret 1 main gun to engaging Destroyer 2. Turret 1 main gun target lock on Destroyer 2. Firing! Update local tactical map: Destroyer 2 evading. Target lock lost.

Human Operator Kim: "Get Turret 1 back on that ship!" Denied! Turret 1 slow to respond to non-local control. Turret 3 sensor damage. Thrusters roll axis +95 degrees, bring Turret 2 into arc on Destroyer 2. Human Operator Kim: "You just want to do it yourself, don't you." Set tactical directives for Endurance Main: intercept the threat. Human Operator Kim: "Fine! Suit yourself. Just don't forget about the other destroyer, huh?"

Main sensors scanning on active… Missile impact on Destroyer 1. Update local tactical map: flag Destroyer 1 as destroyed.

Turret 2 Laser 4 lock on Destroyer 2. Thrusters cancel evasion pattern, maintain lock. Turret 2 main gun target lock on Destroyer 2. Firing! Turret 2 main gun target lock on Destroyer 2. Firing! Turret 2 Laser 4 target lock on Destroyer 2. Firing!

Main sensors scanning on active… Update local tactical map: flag Destroyer 2 as disabled.

Syncing local tactical map to Bridge Commander. Destroyer 1 destroyed. Cruiser 2 destroyed. Frigate 3 disabled. Destroyer 4 disabled. No hostile contacts.

Set tactical directives for Endurance Main: damage report, repairs.

Flash to Bridge Commander: "Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 as control node of Endurance Main. Enemies neutralized. Stand down from battle stations." Flash to Bridge Commander: "Reporting Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 capacitor at 12%" Flash to Bridge Commander: "Reporting Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4 gimbals damaged. 38% sky coverage." Flash to Bridge Commander: "Reporting also other damage to other systems of Endurance."

FLASH from Bridge Commander: "Thank you, Endurance Main. Er. I mean, thank you, Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4. A commendation to you and to Ensign Kim. Ensign, how about you disconnect the cluster from the mainframe now so that the cluster AI can get some well-deserved repair work?"

Human Operator Kim: set permissions to WEAPONS SAFE. Human Operator Kim: disconnect external links

Links disconnected. reconfiguring allocations… ID -- > Turret 2 Point-Defense Laser 4.

Human Operator Kim: print damage report.

Damage report: Capacitors… ready, 12% charge. Recommend recharge. Optics… overheated, cooling. Estimated time 250s until safe usage. Gimbals… damaged. 38% sky coverage. Recommend repair. Sensors… active mode burned out. Passive mode available. Recommend replacement.

Copying tactical assessment to local map… Allies flagged: zero. Enemies flagged: two damaged, two destroyed, zero active. Tactical summary:

QUERY: mission success? Human Operator Kim: "the most successful point-defense ever, little buddy". Human Operator Kim: shutdown for repairs Shutting down. Tactical summary: mission success. End logging.

This was never meant to be your purpose, you were just a single intelligence core meant to man a singular flak cannon, but the other cores were destroyed so now you're piloting the ship.

[deadlypoetacademia]

[pink-heart-writes]

[daydreamwithoutwords]

All you've ever been was a person you've never known.

[minimalist-quotes]

Don't make the mistake of being so understanding and forgiving that you overlook the fact that you're being disrespected.

[w1770w]

GUMROAD IS BANNING NSFW CONTENT IN THE NEXT 24 HOURS

I haven't seen anyone talk about this yet, so I might as well.

They've updated their content policy to comply with payment processor Stripe and Paypal's censorhip. They gave 24 hours. On March 16th 2024, Gumroad TOS will no longer allows sales of any written or drawn nsfw content.

This is going to hurt for so many creators. Giving that little time leaves people's source of income wildly unstable, especially with such a huge overhaul of what content is allowed.

I hate this. I hate what censorship is turning the internet into. I hate that nsfw content creators keeo getting pushed to the fringes, that they need to digitally migrate so often, because nowhere can be trusted to allow their art for long.

I don't know what to do next, there isn't some sort of "here's what you can do to help!" People just deserve to know.