#crying in my room again

[cryinginmyroomsposts]

Everyone talks about the independent eldest daughter (rightfully so). Still, we should also talk about us single daughters who have had to be the son and daughter of the house while also being the parents to our parents and ourselves. We grow up having no one else to rely on and learning to do everything on our own to avoid being a burden. We are the girls who live so much in our heads that we feel like the loneliness is a lifelong companion we are born with. We are the girls who don't need to and cannot ask for help because we learn very early on that only they are going to be there for themselves. This is for the single daughters who constantly feel misunderstood and always alone.

[cryinginmyroomsposts]

Me since moving to the US and forgetting Taylor Swift is literally one of the biggest artists and that I don’t have to get excited every time someone plays her songs somewhere

autistic culture is someone even mentioning a word that is slightly related to one of your special interests and having to force yourself to hold back from infodumping

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[tianhai03]

trying to find excuses to draw dante and leon together again <3

[imsiriuslyreading]

never noticed before that in grimmauld place, sirius’ sign on his bedroom door just says “sirius” but regulus has his full ass government name on his. dramatic king.

[sandinthepipes]

The fact that I can wholeheartedly enjoy ofmd and good omens and appreciate the angst because I KNOW there will be a happy ending.

See, I’ve never had that. None of us queer folks have ever had that.

[starry-bi-sky]

I'm having incoherent thoughts about clone danny again from the clone/clone^2 au (when am I not?) but more specifically I'm thinking about his reaction to finding out he's a clone. The standalone clone au digs into that a little more than clone^2, which is more focused on Danny and Damian's relationship. But neither (so far) really get into Danny's issues about finding out he's a clone after 15 years of thinking he wasn't.

Because he resents his parents for not telling him for so long. He resents the way he found out; through a trivial school project rather than a sit-down talk. He resents the fact that, apparently, they had meant to tell him sooner. But forgot. He resents the fact that they never told him because finding out feels like something was stolen from him when it had the chance to not be.

Danny Fenton, just fifteen, cloned not even half a year ago, knows what that personal violation of autonomy feels like. He knows what it's like to be cloned and while he loves Ellie, he does, she's his sister, and in this au his twin. But he is still left with that feeling of unsafety after realizing he'd been cloned. Being cloned is violating. The onset realization that it's so easy to get DNA without the other party noticing, and that what was stopping someone from trying to clone him again?

Followed only after with the rest of the inexplainable mix of feelings of being cloned, the rest of that inner conflict and panic that's an ugly mocktail of emotions that range from horror to fear. Trying to imagine what it's like to be cloned from the cloned party, and I imagine that it leaves you with the feeling of needing to crawl out of your own skin with discomfort.

And then he gets put on the other side of it. Danny Fenton, only fifteen, was cloned not even half a year ago, finding out he is a clone. And reactions, I imagine, can vary from person to person. But to him, it feels like something got stolen from him, like someone took a hole puncher and stuck it right into his chest and stole a chunk of himself from him.

It changes nothing about him and yet it changes everything. It's a betrayal on it's own to just find out he was a clone and they didn't tell him for fifteen years -- it shouldn't mean anything, because he's still Danny, and yet it means everything. It's him, it's him, it's about him. It's his personhood. It's about the fact that a load-bearing rock in his identity just crumbled beneath his feet and now there's a rockslide.

Because then he finds out that they used the wrong DNA. Its like pouring salt in an open wound. He's not even related to his parents or his sister, when for years he thought he was. It's the fact that pieces of his identity that he's been so secure in for so long just got ripped away from him in an instant. Then they tell him -- only through his own horrified prompting -- that the person whose DNA they used -- Bruce Wayne -- didn't even know he existed. That they accidentally used the wrong DNA, then didn't tell the person whose DNA they used.

The betrayal of being lied to for years turns really quickly into horror at his own existence. Something very similar to the horror he felt at being cloned and the skin-crawling discomfort that made him feel like his own skin wasn't really his. And then its not. It's actually not. Nothing but his own name feels like it belongs to him anymore -- not his hair, not his eyes, not his heart or his lungs, nothing feels like his anymore and he didn't know what that felt like until it was gone.

It's a question of Nature Vs. Nurture -- where does the line of "nature" begin and where does the line of "nurture" end? What of him is actually his? What of him is Bruce Wayne's? It's not logical, it's not supposed to be. It's a load-bearing wall on the house of his identity being destroyed and now everything else is caving down in on him. What belongs to Danny, what belongs to Bruce Wayne?

[introspectivememories]

[nekofra]

Omg I Just came home from haikyuu the dumpster battle I swear one of the best films ever the music THE SOUND EFFECTS ( every time someone dunked or received I got goosebumps), the story the visual KUROOS LAUGH the flashbacks there are so many things ngl I cried at the end I'm so attached to haikyuu it means a lot to me

[sugawara--san]

midoriya hisashi gon come back to find out his son got a new dad like. sorry but he earned that

[unriding]

hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3

[whosectype]

Only way to cope with MAG 200 was to draw a portrait of my favorite character, obviously

[cryinginmyroomsposts]

I just made the gut-wrenching connection between the "you don't want to know me, I will just let you down" in Castles Crumbling and the "You wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking" in Dear Reader...

[thebirdandhersong]

Lol

[spacedace]

My dog, all near 200 pounds of him, crawled into a space he SHOULD NOT BE ABLE TO FIT and ended up hitting the power button on the surge protector I have my computer plugged into, shutting down my computer and causing 9k of words I had written over the course of the past few days to be deleted

Scrivener makes automatic backups thankfully, but the last one was from last night which means I still ended up losing the thousand or so words I'd written this morning 😭😭😭😭😭

(My dog is fine, he got the toy he apparently was after, and now is just confused as to why I'm making high pitched distressed noises)

[greyshuhh]

“I know it’s for the better”

[shima-draws]