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mrs-march-ahs · 4 years ago

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Hii, angel! Soo, since you said that no one requested this yet, what about jealous Evan's characters?? 👀 Thankss, have a nice day! (Love uuu 💞💞)

The Evans Being Jealous

So many other fics of mine seemed to fit with this one! An unexpected fic that links well is The Evans Reacting To The Reader Coming Out As Bi, because most of them are jealous!

Sorry this took so long sunshine, enjoy! <3

Tate

-A ghost who would even remotely be interested in you, would be a threat to Tate -Think Gabriel at the end of Murder House -Tate would do everything he could, sob, threaten them, scare them, to make sure they knew you were off limits -If you found this attractive he would just awkwardly tell you that he’s doing it to protect you, that that guy would not treat you as well as he should therefore he needs to go -If you didn’t find it attractive, and found his possessiveness off-putting, Tate would get really upset -In his eyes, he’s doing it all for you, so he would sit and sob and complain to the ghost -Tatey is a soft, sensitive boy but if he had to, he would act tough in front of them -When you and Tate argued about him doing this to every person remotely interested in you, he would get insecure and ask if you found them attractive -If not, he wouldn’t be that relieved because he’s a little insecure -If yes, oh god

Kit

-Pretty easily jealous, doesn’t like when other men even look at you -He would be super angry at them, shout at them, put his arm around your waist -Wouldn’t get into arguments but would just bark something like, “What are you staring at?” -Kit isn’t angry often so it would be insanely hot to you -But he’d be mad at you too -Any jealous situation would make him mad, at everyone -He would somehow try to make you feel as though it’s your fault for being attractive and catching the eye of others -But after he cools down, he would apologise -He never means to lash out or upset you but other men flirting with you or looking at you is the one thing that pisses him off -You may have to kiss him and cuddle him so he can hold you and know in his heart that you’re all his -Jealous Kit Fic

Frat Kyle

-At a frat party, if there was another boy flirting with you or giving you a drink he would just come up to you and put his arm around your shoulders, so it was easy to see for everybody else -Call you more pet names than usual -Baby, sweetie, my girl -If any guy continues flirting with you even in front of him, he’ll humiliate him as much as he physically can to make him seem unappealing to you - “Jeff nobody wants to see your dick, no matter how small it is” -As if you’d consider cheating on him

Franken Kyle

-When in public, Kyle always has his hand in your back pocket, mostly so he doesn’t get lost -You two hold hands a lot too so it’s clear you’re not single -But once in a while somebody will be inappropriate to you when you’re out with Kyle, because to most people he looks like hard work, and they don’t see the sweet boy inside -You two sit in a restaurant having dinner together and the waiter will flirt with you, ignoring Kyle completely cause he just assumes that Kyle doesn’t even understand -Even though Kyle can’t identify his negative feelings as ‘jealousy’, he knows he doesn’t like it -Pushes the waiter over or pulls him by his shirt away from you - “Stop…m-mine” -You’ll just apologise and leave together and Kyle will look back at the waiter and glare at him -Then once you get home you must give Kyle 120% of your attention -Don’t expect his arm off your shoulders for the rest of the day

Jimmy

-It takes the most out of the boys to get him jealous -Wants to see the good in people and will assume that you’re just being friendly, unless he’s already in a bad mood because of something else, or if the friendliness goes too far -50% of the time, he’ll get upset and insecure, thinking that his time with you is up and now you’re gonna leave him for somebody ‘normal’ -Other 50% of the time, his inner Florida man tells him he needs to fight them -Needs reassurance so he might seek your attention in negative ways, if you’re talking to a man with a smile on your face, even while just selling tickets, he’ll walk up to the two of you to assess the situation -“I’ll leave you two alone to get to know each other”, and then walks away just to see if you’ll follow him -You obviously do and ask him what his deal is -“If you’re tired of dating a freak and you wanna date somebody normal, at least have the decency to tell me Y/N” -“Oh my god Jimmy, where would you get that idea from? I obviously want to date you, I love you” -“Alright… just needed to hear that” -That night you need to spoon and cuddle and kiss -He’ll give you a few hickeys to mark you and you’ll do the same to him, making him melt completely -And if he’s mad, he’s mad -Definitely not foreign to bar fights -Would pick a fight with you when you get home just to get you annoyed and have angry sex with you

James

-Gets jealous incredibly easily -You weren’t even allowed to come to Devil’s Night for the first few years because there are so many creepy men around -He’d spot a man buying you drink at the bar -Cleopatra would warn you that he’s incoming probably -James would calmly walk over to the two of you and tell whoever you’re with that you are not interested -If he’s particularly in the mood, he might make some shitty comment - “She is a lady, and a lady needs more to be pleased than a 5”5 man and a Martini” -I have a very in depth fic about this situation, linked here

Kai

-Kai would be angry in front of them, a little shitty to you too -“You think a twink like you could ever score her?” -He would be sarcastic and condescending to you, like usual -He would explain to you how lucky you are that you have a man to protect you from creeps -After one time I don’t think he would kill them, but if they ever even looked at you again, they’d be dead -Probably take it out on you, but not in the same way as Jimmy, not in a protective or angry way but in a possessive way -He would punish you in any way he felt necessary like teasing you for hours and hours, telling you over and over how blessed and lucky you are to have him, and how stupid you are to do anything to ever risk losing him -He might fuck you and humiliate you enough with his words until you cry -Ways in which Kai might punish you -Getting Punished Fic

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marauder-exe · 5 years ago

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Prompt List #2

Welcome to my biggest prompt list ever

if you wanna request something from this list, just use the character and ‘ prompt 34 from prompt list #2′ thank u!

Theres like 200 so be wary

Angst

“I love you ! Is that what you wanted to hear ?”

“I love him/her, and I know that I shouldn’t.”

“Can you just shut your mouth ?”

“wHY DO YOU KEEP LYING TO ME ?”

“We both know that I should walk away, but I can’t.”

“Wait, he/she has a girlfriend/boyfriend ?"

“I lo—-” “No, please… Don’t say that. You love her/him, not me.”

"Could you just take this pain away ? It hurts, so much… Help me.”

“You’re safe here, I got you.”

“Don’t ask her out again, please… You’re killing me, every single time you ask that.”

“Look, he/she wants you, just make him/her happy.”

“If you go, I’ll know that you never loved me.”

“We never were just friends, and you know it.” “I know it, but you deserve someone better than me.”

“SHE WAS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU!!!”

“You love me like I’m the person who actually deserves your love.” “But you are the only one who deserves it.”

“I know for a fact that you’re not “fine”.”

“You’re looking at me like.. you’re disgusted. What did I do? Just tell me what I did, please!”

“What happened between us?”

“Nothing has changed!” “Yes it has, and you know it.”

“Love isn’t supposed to hurt this badly.”

“You said you needed space. You were 5,000 miles away for a year, and you’re still unsure. I’m starting to think that an entire universe apart wouldn’t be enough space for you.”

“I remember when he/she/they used to look at me that way”

“I want you to list every lie you ever told me. Then I’ll forgive you.”

“I don’t hate you. I hate that after all of this, you’re still trying to lie to me”

“I can’t keep this secret for you anymore.”

“I’m sorry I’m not what you signed up for.”

“Why she/her/them? It could have been anybody, and you chose to betray me with her/him/them.”

“This will be the last time you lie to me.”

“You never loved me, did you?”

“You made me miserable and I still loved you.”

“Everytime something goes well, I momentarily forget how much I despise you.”

“We’re never going to have a happy ending, just remember that.”

“Don’t pretend like you’re not happy to see me like this.”

“Your mind must be a horrible place.”

“Hand me the gun and I’ll kill him myself.”

“And I thought you loved me."

" And I thought I loved you."

" Aren't you even going to cry?"

“I didn’t expect you to wait forever. I just hoped…”

“Did you always know that you were going to leave?”

“If you cry, I’ll stay, and if I stay that will just give you another reason to hate me.”

“I’m addicted and at this point I don’t think anything could make me stop.”

”If you wanna know, then ask.”

“You never asked because you knew I wouldn’t tell you what you wanted to hear.”

“We grew apart, and at this point I’m glad.”

“Find somebody else to kiss your ass.”

“When are you going to stop clawing for something that’s never going to happen?”

“What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.”

“It was easier to believe that the you I knew was dead than deal with the fact that I still have to see you every day.”

“What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.”

Fluff

51. “You’re hair is really soft after you wash it.”

52. “Ssh. Stop fussing. I’m just braiding your hair.”

53. “You smell really nice.”

54. “Would it be all right if I borrowed your sweater? It smells like you.”

55. “I might have slept with your robe when you were gone.”

56. “If you steal the blankets, I am going to put my cold feet on you.”

57. “Here, let’s share the blanket.”

58. “You’re comfy.”

59.“You are very endearing when you are half-asleep.”

60.“But I want to hear you sing.”

61.“Don’t get up - I’ll do it.”

62.“Care to give me a back scratch?”

63.“I think I love you.”

64.“Your bed head is really cute.”

65.“How about a kiss?”

66.“You made this for me?”

67.Aw, you’re blushing.”

68. Uh oh, I know that look. What do you want?”

69. “Let me help you with that.”

70. “I don’t want to forget this moment.”

71.“Are you really flirting with me right now?”

72.“I like the way your hand fits in mine.”

73.“You have something in your hair, umm… Do you want me to get it out?”

74.“It’s nice that your voice was the first thing I heard today.”

75.“This movie is really scary, but you’re into it so I’m trying not to cover my face the whole time, but- WHAT IS THAT?”

76.“Wait, don’t pull away… Not yet.”

77.“Half the time I get too embarrassed to say anything”

78.“No, it’s fine. I can wait until you’re done talking to them.”

79.“No, like…. It’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

80.“You’re a big piece of inspiration for this, honestly.”

81.“I’ve been trying to get ready for like an hour and a half, because I know you’re going to look so good and I need to try and match up.”

82.“I wanted to say “I love you” for the first time without stuttering, but that failed.”

83.“My friends get so annoyed by how much I talk about how sometimes.”

84.“No, mom, don’t tell him/her I said that about him/her!”

85.“I can’t get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you’re having breakfast with me in my sweater.”

86.“ You are so beautiful — So fucking beautiful. “

87.“And just WHERE do you think you’re putting your hands?”

88.“Wow, you look even better in the daylight.”

89.“I don’t remember ever having this many hickeys. But I don’t mind.”

90.“We could order pizza and just stay like this all day.”

91.“It was always you.”

92.I love you in every possible way.”

93.“I didn’t mean to love you so much.”

94.“Don’t you hurt a single hair on his/her/their head.”

95.“Duck, you idiot!”

96.“Hey. Pal. I’ve got a wand and I’m not afraid to use it.”

97.“Shh, you’re safe. I won’t let you go.”

98.“It’s not a double date. We’re just third and fourth wheeling.”

99.“Look, I know we don’t know each other that well, but I’m still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone.”

100.“I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..”

Sarcasm

101.“Define normal.”

102.“Do I get bonus points if I act like I care?”

103.“Just remember if we get caught, you’re deaf and I don’t speak English.”

104.“Don’t look for any redeeming qualities. I don’t have any.”

105.“It’s amazing how fast the world can go from bad to total shit storm.”

106.“I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.”

107.“And you wonder why you’re still single.”

108.“Remind me to kill you. Please.”

109.“That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?”

110.“She’s crazy. And just when you think you’ve reached the bottom of her craziness, there’s a crazy underground garage.”

111.“She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but I bet behind close doors she’s latex and whips.”

112.“If my day gets any worse, I’m asking hell if they’re having an exchange program.”

113.“Sorry. I don’t speak skank.”

114.“My middle finger salutes you.”

115.“I don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel.”

116.Somebody’s cranky.” “Somebody needs to shut up.”

117.“Oh darling. Go buy a brain.”

118.“Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.”

119.“All due respect, but that’s a bunch of crap.”

120.“I am one of the few people in the world who can murder you and leave no forensic evidence behind.”

121.“Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.”

122.“What did I tell you about calling her/him the devil?” “That it’s offensive to the devil?”

123.“I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

124.“I need therapy after this.”

125.“You didn’t get in trouble for lying. You got in trouble for lying badly.”

126.“I turned out liking you a lot more that I originally planned.”

127.“I think you’re weird.” “I think you’re boring.”

128.“I’m afraid I’ve been thinking…” “A dangerous pastime.”

129.“Wow, there’s a big surprise. I think I’m going to have a heart attack and die from surprise.”

130.“I’m gonna hit you so hard, it’ll make you ancestors dizzy.”

131.“Sarcasm is the body’s natural reaction to stupidity.”

132.“Well, excuse me, psychic wonder!”

133.“Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.”

134.“She’s hot, but she’s evil.”

135.“Do I regret it? Yes. Would I do it again? Probably.”

136.“I already know that I’m going to hell. At this point it’s really go big or go home.”

137.“I’m not a damsel in distress. I’m a damsel doing damage.”

138.“So stick that in your juice box and suck it.”

139.“Never take life seriously. No one ever comes out alive anyway.”

140.“Sometimes I question my sanity. Occasionally it replies.”

141.“Why should we date?” “Because we are attracted to each other.” “I am attracted to pie, but I do not feel the need to date pie.”

142.“Neither one us is drunk enough for this conversation.”

143.“You’re questioning my methods.” “I’m not questioning it, I’m saying it’s stupid.”

144.“Wow, somebody needs a Happy Meal.”

145.“I didn’t do it!” “Then why are you laughing?” “Because whoever did it is a freaking genius.”

146.“Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.”

147.“You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions.

148.“Obviously you have mistaken me for somebody who gives a shit.”

149.“Rule number one: don’t bother sucking up. I already hate you, that’s not going to change.”

150.“You make no sense to me.” “Welcome to my life.”

Drama

151.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?”

152.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?”

153.“Don’t think I forgot about what you did last time.”

154.“I know you lied to me.”

155.“I’m not even sorry.”

156.“You backstabber!” 157.“I never want to see you again.” 158.“You never mattered to me.”

159.“I knew this was a bad idea.”

160.“Rot in hell.”

161.“It was supposed to be a secret!”

162.“No one loves me.” 163.“He/she/they is/are so petty…” 164.“You made me cry.” 165.“I don’t know who you are anymore.” 166.“How DARE you?!” 167.“I know you’re not talking to me…” 168.“I SAW you with him/her/them!”

169.“Just leave me alone.”

170.“What did you do?!” 171.“I told everyone that I didn’t want to talk but I’m actually dying for attention.”

172. “Just admit that was extra…”

173.“I forgive, but I don’t forget.” 174.“Did you see what he/she/they was/were wearing?” 175.“So what if I had sex with your ex?” 176.“There’s something I have to tell you…” 177.“I can’t do this anymore.” 178.“You weren’t there for me when I needed you the most.” 179.“I never loved you.” 180.“It’s too late.”

181.“Quit ignoring me.”

182. “Don’t you get it? It’s because I love you!”

183.“I love you. I’m sorry.”

184.“I don’t want to be friends.”

185.“Can we please pretend I never said that?”

186.“Friendzoned again.”

187.“You should’ve loved me when you had the chance.”

188.“Fuck you for toying with my emotions like that.”

189.“I was there for you when no one else was!”

190.“Alright – I can tell a ‘no’ when I hear it.”

191.“I’m sorry I acted so creepy.”

192.“Fuck. It’s like what they say – nice guys finish last…”

193.“I’m tired of keeping this secret. Even if you don’t love me back.”

194. “I knew that’d be your answer. That’s why I never told you before.”

195.“When I said I loved you, I meant it.”

196.“Is there any part of you, deep down, that might love me back?”

197.“You were the one that left all those notes for me?”

198.“You’re in a relationship with another person – you know this can’t end well.”

199.“We agreed this was just physical!”

200.“I love you. I know you don’t love me, so don’t say it back.”

Ahhh im sorry that was so long, but if you read all the way to here, your a real one.

Again i write for all Hp characters! Feel free to use these prompts as ur own

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kewltie · 3 years ago

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thinking of bkdk in their late 40s when all their friends have already settled down with a family, izuku muses a lil forlornly how he would like to have someone to come home and katsuki just stares him dead in the eyes and says, "marry me then. i wont let you be lonely in that empty apartment."

the thing is bkdk are super successful heroes, they're the ranking no.1 and 2 and everyone knows their name but because izuku put so much effort into his career he never give himself the chance to meet someone and fall in love because the next things he know he's already 48 yrs old and still very single. as soon as he got right out of UA he had put himself right to work and hasn't truly stop since so izuku feels like he misses out on his youth, the flutter of first love, and now he feels like it's too late to grasp that chance again because he's too old to be stumbling around at love BUT here is katsuki suddenly telling izuku to marry him as though that would solve everything, solve izuku's worries and fears that he'll never experience love the way his friends had or knows what it feels to come home to a waiting arms that will comfort him after a hard day at work.

izuku first tries to laugh it off because katsuki cant be serious right?? but katsuki doesn't crack a single smile. "Do i look like im the type to joke about this kind shit to you?" he asks, voice steady and true. it is then that izuku realizes katsuki had meant every word he said.

but izuku still cant wrap his head around why would katsuki want to marry him of all things?? it is because they're both bachelor and wretchedly alone standing at the very top of their career where nobody can touch or hope to nobody can understand them like they do to each other?? izuku thinks that's a very dry reason to marry someone for the sake of convenience and not love at all because even though he'd devoted all his time to saving the world and helping ppl and HE'S OLD NOW but he still earnestly yearn to fall in love the ways all his friends had.

"If you needed company, we don't have to marry each other. I'm here for you always, you know that," izuku offers instead. "We're partners."

katsuki is silent briefly, then, he says, "You think i want to marry because you're convenience?"

Izuku blinks. "is that not it?"

"No," he says, all grave and serious, and for a moment izuku is breathless with realization.

"Oh," izuku replies, looking down at the table like it has all the answer in the world. "how long?"

"Since our third year at UA."

izuku jerks his head up, eyes wide with shock.

"what—I, wait, you can't mean that right?" he shakes his head as he flounders for the right words. they're both almost hitting their 50s now, so if it started in their third year then it would be 30 years of katsuki waiting for him, of pining over izuku and all that time was lost because of it.

katsuki press his lips into a thin line. "I have never lie to you."

"I—I'm not—" izuku flushes, because this wasn't anything he had plan for. who would anyway? no one would ever believe that katsuki has been in love with him for almost 30 years and izuku only found out about it now. even though katsuki has revealed the secret he has been hiding for 3 decades, izuku has no answer for him. he didn't notice katsuki's feelings for this long not because he chose to willfully ignore it but because he has never thought of katsuki in that light and that is the sad truth of it all. katsuki must have realizes that too because he doesn't press for more from izuku.

"i'm sorry," izuku says, mind racing to come up with a proper reply to katsuki's feelings because he deserves that much. "it's not you—"

Katsuki scowls. "shut the fuck up, don't even start that with me."

izuku quickly shuts his mouth, floundering for another reply that with save both of their feelings.

"Six months," katsuki says instead, eyes firm and never once dull since izuku has known him. "give me six months to convince you and if it doesn't work out we can get divorce then."

"you still want to marry me?!" izuku asks in disbelief. "shouldn't we like date first at least? isn't that how normal relationship work?!"

katsuki roll his eyes. "we co-own an agency, you have your toothbrush at my house, and we spent 18hrs out of 24 together almost everyday. our friends joke about us being a married to each other as much as to our work, we're each other's first emergency contact if something were to happen," he continues, straightforward like he's listing their grocery for today, "and i cant ever imagine wanting anyone more than i ever want you."

throughout this strange turn in their conversation, izuku realizes not once has he ever heard katsuki said he loves him but the way katsuki had revealed his unwavering devotion that lasts 3 decades and the dry, bluntness in which he spoken of wanting izuku, it's heavy. this hefty thing that katsuki has carried with him for nearly 3 decades, and in those years what izuku thought katsuki was just disinterest in any romantic connection because not once had izuku seen him look at another person, but it's because he has eyes only for izuku and nobody else.

izuku should have known never to expect anything less then 120% with katsuki because if there's anything that means something to katsuki, he would give it all and then some. it's humbling really, to be loved so fiercely and with such devotion that 3 decades is worth every second of it but izuku doesn't know if he's worth it especially when he's hesitant about his own murky feelings. he loves katsuki undoubtedly. they're partners in more way then one, but he doesn't know if he can love katsuki the way he deserves to be love in return, to return that same level of intensity.

"and what if the six months went by and there's nothing show for it?" izuku mumbles, hands clasp together under the table. i dont want to ruin this friendship of ours, he doesn't say. "what if you get bored with me and realized this isn't something you want now. what happen then?"

"you're stuck with me for life even if we get a divorce. i won't let you ever get rid of me either way," katsuki says, lips twitching with the slightest hint of amusement. "and if you're worry about me getting bored of you, don't. i fucking wont." It’s firm, assured, and completely sincere.

izuku thinks anybody with a half a brain at all would see this admirable man right in front of them with his unwavering affection and devotion that he had nurtured for 3 decades would be half way in love already, but izuku neither race or skip a beat; it remains dull and unmoved. maybe he's really too old to love like this. maybe, it's not that he's too busy to ever search for it like everyone else but because he has all the love for everyone but none ever hold a special place in his heart. for all of katsuki's sharp edges, his feelings burn ever so brightly while izuku has since been numb to his own emotions. to give too much to the world, to his job that he has never let himself fall freely and unconditionally. it's terrifying.

"what if i hurt you instead?" he says, quiet and severe. "what if in the end i couldn't return what you've given me?"

katsuki doesn't answer right away. the air around them tenses, threatening to suffocate them in the waiting silence. then a hand grab his and draws it toward katsuki's chest. "don't fucking underestimate me, idiot. i can and will make you fall in love with me in 6 months. 6 months is more than enough to make you realize what a fucking dumbass you have been the entire time for not taking notice of me while i have been looking at you for almost half of our life," he says with the cocky assurance that propelled him to the no. 2 position and beyond.

for the first time since this exchange had started and taken a strange, strange turn that left him his world shaken to its core, izuku's heart feels lighten. He stifles a giggle. "i still think we should date at least. marriage is maybe jumping the gun a little too soon."

"No." Katsuki's eyes narrow, and he squeezes izuku's hand firmly. "i'm not giving you any chance to escape from this. we can do all the dumb dating things you could ever want but we're getting marry first."

izuku tries to draw his hand back but katsuki remains undeterred. "Kacchan, please," he says. half begging for his hand back and half pleading against his insane idea. who in their right mind would ever marry first then date each other?! That's just not how it work! yet, katsuki is an unmovable fortress against increasing izuku's distress.

"deku," he says, thumb running across izuku's knuckles in a soothing circle, "give me this chance. let me prove it to you that i can do it. take this leap of faith with me and i won't disappoint you. trust me with your heart like you trust me with your life and i promise i will keep it safe."

izuku draws out a long, lingering breath that leaves his head heady with a dawning realization. "o-okay," he finally acquiesces, shaken with the knowledge that his heart suddenly doesn't feel safe at all for the first time in a long time in the hands of the man in front of him. bakugou katsuki is dangerous, but to the tender beat of his heart.

Katsuki's lips stretch upward into a small, precious smile that rarely see the light of day, leaving izuku breathless just for a moment. "we'll go get the marriage license tomorrow."

"tomorrow?!" izuku shrieks.

maybe he has been wrong all along, maybe you're never too old fall in love and experience it for the first time and that sometimes the things that matter the most to you are always worth the wait even if take 3 decades and katsuki always been more patient then people give him credits for.

#bakudeku #not!fic

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shoyodon · 4 years ago

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𝟓𝟎𝟎 𝐅𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐂𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐛𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧!

Hi! oh my gosh It feels like my blog grew really fast? I’m really grateful to every one of you and I’m so glad that I get to do what I love while also making you guys happy! My 500 follower celebration may not be the most exciting or original but I wanted to do something different for the occasion! Im putting my WIPS on pause and opening up prompt requests!

Send an ask with a number w/ 2 characters max and I’ll write a short fic or HC (depending on prompt) about it! Both HAIKYUU! and BNHA characters are available!

*depending on amount of requests, I will cap the amount of requests I take on, sorry 🥺

Requests closed!!

The prompt requests will be open until tomorrow at 6pm CST so send them in! below is the prompt list, all credit for this list goes to @marauder-exe !

Angst

“I love you ! Is that what you wanted to hear ?”

“I love him/her, and I know that I shouldn’t.”

“Can you just shut your mouth ?”

“wHY DO YOU KEEP LYING TO ME ?”

“We both know that I should walk away, but I can’t.”

“Wait, he/she has a girlfriend/boyfriend ?"

“I lo—-” “No, please… Don’t say that. You love her/him, not me.”

"Could you just take this pain away ? It hurts, so much… Help me.”

“You’re safe here, I got you.”

“Don’t ask her out again, please… You’re killing me, every single time you ask that.”

“Look, he/she wants you, just make him/her happy.”

“If you go, I’ll know that you never loved me.”

“We never were just friends, and you know it.” “I know it, but you deserve someone better than me.”

“SHE WAS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU!!!”

“You love me like I’m the person who actually deserves your love.” “But you are the only one who deserves it.”

“I know for a fact that you’re not “fine”.”

“You’re looking at me like.. you’re disgusted. What did I do? Just tell me what I did, please!”

“What happened between us?”

“Nothing has changed!” “Yes it has, and you know it.”

“Love isn’t supposed to hurt this badly.”

“You said you needed space. You were 5,000 miles away for a year, and you’re still unsure. I’m starting to think that an entire universe apart wouldn’t be enough space for you.”

“I remember when he/she/they used to look at me that way”

“I want you to list every lie you ever told me. Then I’ll forgive you.”

“I don’t hate you. I hate that after all of this, you’re still trying to lie to me”

“I can’t keep this secret for you anymore.”

“I’m sorry I’m not what you signed up for.”

“Why she/her/them? It could have been anybody, and you chose to betray me with her/him/them.”

“This will be the last time you lie to me.”

“You never loved me, did you?”

“You made me miserable and I still loved you.”

“Everytime something goes well, I momentarily forget how much I despise you.”

“We’re never going to have a happy ending, just remember that.”

“Don’t pretend like you’re not happy to see me like this.”

“Your mind must be a horrible place.”

“Hand me the gun and I’ll kill him myself.”

“And I thought you loved me."

" And I thought I loved you."

" Aren't you even going to cry?"

“I didn’t expect you to wait forever. I just hoped…”

“Did you always know that you were going to leave?”

“If you cry, I’ll stay, and if I stay that will just give you another reason to hate me.”

“I’m addicted and at this point I don’t think anything could make me stop.”

”If you wanna know, then ask.”

“You never asked because you knew I wouldn’t tell you what you wanted to hear.”

“We grew apart, and at this point I’m glad.”

“Find somebody else to kiss your ass.”

“When are you going to stop clawing for something that’s never going to happen?”

“What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.”

“It was easier to believe that the you I knew was dead than deal with the fact that I still have to see you every day.”

“What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.”

Fluff

51. “You’re hair is really soft after you wash it.”

52. “Ssh. Stop fussing. I’m just braiding your hair.”

53. “You smell really nice.”

54. “Would it be all right if I borrowed your sweater? It smells like you.”

55. “I might have slept with your robe when you were gone.”

56. “If you steal the blankets, I am going to put my cold feet on you.”

57. “Here, let’s share the blanket.”

58. “You’re comfy.”

59.“You are very endearing when you are half-asleep.”

60.“But I want to hear you sing.”

61.“Don’t get up - I’ll do it.”

62.“Care to give me a back scratch?”

63.“I think I love you.”

64.“Your bed head is really cute.”

65.“How about a kiss?”

66.“You made this for me?”

67.Aw, you’re blushing.”

68. Uh oh, I know that look. What do you want?”

69. “Let me help you with that.”

70. “I don’t want to forget this moment.”

71.“Are you really flirting with me right now?”

72.“I like the way your hand fits in mine.”

73.“You have something in your hair, umm… Do you want me to get it out?”

74.“It’s nice that your voice was the first thing I heard today.”

75.“This movie is really scary, but you’re into it so I’m trying not to cover my face the whole time, but- WHAT IS THAT?”

76.“Wait, don’t pull away… Not yet.”

77.“Half the time I get too embarrassed to say anything”

78.“No, it’s fine. I can wait until you’re done talking to them.”

79.“No, like…. It’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

80.“You’re a big piece of inspiration for this, honestly.”

81.“I’ve been trying to get ready for like an hour and a half, because I know you’re going to look so good and I need to try and match up.”

82.“I wanted to say “I love you” for the first time without stuttering, but that failed.”

83.“My friends get so annoyed by how much I talk about how sometimes.”

84.“No, mom, don’t tell him/her I said that about him/her!”

85.“I can’t get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you’re having breakfast with me in my sweater.”

86.“ You are so beautiful — So fucking beautiful. “

87.“And just WHERE do you think you’re putting your hands?”

88.“Wow, you look even better in the daylight.”

89.“I don’t remember ever having this many hickeys. But I don’t mind.”

90.“We could order pizza and just stay like this all day.”

91.“It was always you.”

92.I love you in every possible way.”

93.“I didn’t mean to love you so much.”

94.“Don’t you hurt a single hair on his/her/their head.”

95.“Duck, you idiot!”

96.“Hey. Pal. I’ve got a wand and I’m not afraid to use it.”

97.“Shh, you’re safe. I won’t let you go.”

98.“It’s not a double date. We’re just third and fourth wheeling.”

99.“Look, I know we don’t know each other that well, but I’m still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone.”

100.“I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..”

Sarcasm

101.“Define normal.”

102.“Do I get bonus points if I act like I care?”

103.“Just remember if we get caught, you’re deaf and I don’t speak English.”

104.“Don’t look for any redeeming qualities. I don’t have any.”

105.“It’s amazing how fast the world can go from bad to total shit storm.”

106.“I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.”

107.“And you wonder why you’re still single.”

108.“Remind me to kill you. Please.”

109.“That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?”

110.“She’s crazy. And just when you think you’ve reached the bottom of her craziness, there’s a crazy underground garage.”

111.“She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but I bet behind close doors she’s latex and whips.”

112.“If my day gets any worse, I’m asking hell if they’re having an exchange program.”

113.“Sorry. I don’t speak skank.”

114.“My middle finger salutes you.”

115.“I don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel.”

116.Somebody’s cranky.” “Somebody needs to shut up.”

117.“Oh darling. Go buy a brain.”

118.“Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.”

119.“All due respect, but that’s a bunch of crap.”

120.“I am one of the few people in the world who can murder you and leave no forensic evidence behind.”

121.“Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.”

122.“What did I tell you about calling her/him the devil?” “That it’s offensive to the devil?”

123.“I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

124.“I need therapy after this.”

125.“You didn’t get in trouble for lying. You got in trouble for lying badly.”

126.“I turned out liking you a lot more that I originally planned.”

127.“I think you’re weird.” “I think you’re boring.”

128.“I’m afraid I’ve been thinking…” “A dangerous pastime.”

129.“Wow, there’s a big surprise. I think I’m going to have a heart attack and die from surprise.”

130.“I’m gonna hit you so hard, it’ll make you ancestors dizzy.”

131.“Sarcasm is the body’s natural reaction to stupidity.”

132.“Well, excuse me, psychic wonder!”

133.“Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.”

134.“She’s hot, but she’s evil.”

135.“Do I regret it? Yes. Would I do it again? Probably.”

136.“I already know that I’m going to hell. At this point it’s really go big or go home.”

137.“I’m not a damsel in distress. I’m a damsel doing damage.”

138.“So stick that in your juice box and suck it.”

139.“Never take life seriously. No one ever comes out alive anyway.”

140.“Sometimes I question my sanity. Occasionally it replies.”

141.“Why should we date?” “Because we are attracted to each other.” “I am attracted to pie, but I do not feel the need to date pie.”

142.“Neither one us is drunk enough for this conversation.”

143.“You’re questioning my methods.” “I’m not questioning it, I’m saying it’s stupid.”

144.“Wow, somebody needs a Happy Meal.”

145.“I didn’t do it!” “Then why are you laughing?” “Because whoever did it is a freaking genius.”

146.“Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.”

147.“You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions.

148.“Obviously you have mistaken me for somebody who gives a shit.”

149.“Rule number one: don’t bother sucking up. I already hate you, that’s not going to change.”

150.“You make no sense to me.” “Welcome to my life.”

Drama

151.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?”

152.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?”

153.“Don’t think I forgot about what you did last time.”

154.“I know you lied to me.”

155.“I’m not even sorry.”

156.“You backstabber!” 157.“I never want to see you again.” 158.“You never mattered to me.”

159.“I knew this was a bad idea.”

160.“Rot in hell.”

161.“It was supposed to be a secret!”

169.“Just leave me alone.”

170.“What did you do?!” 171.“I told everyone that I didn’t want to talk but I’m actually dying for attention.”

172. “Just admit that was extra…”

181.“Quit ignoring me.”

182. “Don’t you get it? It’s because I love you!”

183.“I love you. I’m sorry.”

184.“I don’t want to be friends.”

185.“Can we please pretend I never said that?”

186.“Friendzoned again.”

187.“You should’ve loved me when you had the chance.”

188.“Fuck you for toying with my emotions like that.”

189.“I was there for you when no one else was!”

190.“Alright – I can tell a ‘no’ when I hear it.”

191.“I’m sorry I acted so creepy.”

192.“Fuck. It’s like what they say – nice guys finish last…”

193.“I’m tired of keeping this secret. Even if you don’t love me back.”

194. “I knew that’d be your answer. That’s why I never told you before.”

195.“When I said I loved you, I meant it.”

196.“Is there any part of you, deep down, that might love me back?”

197.“You were the one that left all those notes for me?”

198.“You’re in a relationship with another person – you know this can’t end well.”

199.“We agreed this was just physical!”

200.“I love you. I know you don’t love me, so don’t say it back.”

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Every single prompt I have written?

I think that this is every prompt that I’ve done so far, as of 28/03/2020

1. “Come to bed with me?”

2. “Do you even still love me?”

3. “I think you’re bleeding…”

4. “Get off my foot!”

“Get your foot out from underneath my foot.”

5. “Shh, it’s okay, you don’t need to cry.”

6. “I can’t sleep.”

7. “Why did you lie to me?”

8. “Don’t move, they hit your head really hard.”

9. “Have a good day.”

“Don’t tell me what to do.”

10. “Do you want a bedtime story?”

11. “Are you sure that you have enough blankets?”

12. “Get out. I am done with you.”

13. “That looks broken. You need a doctor.”

14. “Oh, you can go to hell.”

“Stop threatening me with a good time.”

15. “[mama/papa]’s got you.”

16. “I need a hug. Please?”

17. “Isn’t it your bedtime?”

“Hypocrite.”

“Come to bed with me then.”

18. “I love you, but please, shut up.”

19. “Don’t touch me.”

20. “I can’t stand the sight of you right now. Get away from me.”

21. “I said that I never wanted to see you again. Why are you here?”

“I just wanted to help!”

22. “Please… I am begging you, just open your eyes. Please. You can’t die.”

23. “I’m not hurt.”

“You are actively bleeding.”

“Oh. So I am.”

24. “Don’t pass out on me now, we’re nearly home.”

25. “Isn��t this illegal?”

“Yes, but technically no.”

26. “Penny for your thoughts?”

“If my thoughts are only worth a penny, I shall keep it to myself.”

27. “Did you just stab me?”

28. “…How on earth did you manage to get up there?”

29. “Put the cookie down, eat your dinner first.”

30. “I think I can feel them kicking!”

31. “Are you asleep?”

“Not anymore.”

32. “What if I don’t get better? What if I am broken?”

33. “That is going to leave a really nasty scar.”

34. “Nothing could go wrong, you said. Well guess what? Everything has gone wrong!”

35. “Quick, I think the baby is coming!”

36. “You made me breakfast in bed? What did you do this time?”

37. “I trusted you.”

38. “I don’t… I don’t feel good.”

39. “Come any closer and I will hit you with this book. I swear to God!”

40. “Where did you put your blankie this time.”

41. “Can you check for monsters under the bed?”

42. “You broke my heart.”

43. “Hey, are you alright?”

“Do I look alright to you?”

44. “That best not be the last of the milk… Oh you bastard.”

45. “One little shoe. Two little shoes. All ready to go out.”

46. “It’s just a bad dream. I’ve got you, it’s okay.”

47. “I wish that I never had met you.”

48. “It’s so cold.”

“You need to hold on a bit longer, you are going to be fine. Just stay awake a little longer.”

49. “Roses are red, violets are blue- ow. Fuck you!”

50. “They have grown so much, it’s hard to believe how little they used to be.”

51. “Have you stolen my shirt?”

52. “Stop lying to me!”

53. “I can’t breathe.”

54. “Okay, start from the beginning, you lost me right after you said that you punched someone.”

“That was the first thing that I said.”

55. “I want another baby.”

56. “I never want you to feel like you are alone.”

57. “You are the worst mistake I have ever made.”

58. “Where am I?”

“Are you day drinking?”

“It’s apple juice, not whiskey.”

59. “Say goodbye to mama and papa, they’ll be back soon.”

60. “Kiss me.”

61. “You loved me!”

“Loved. Past tense.”

62. “Don’t go. Please. I can’t lose you.”

63. “Do you pinky promise?”

“What are you? Five?”

64. “Stomach bug?”

“No, morning sickness.”

65. “I feel safe in your arms.”

66. “Am I just a game to you?”

67. “I’ve got you, you are going to be okay.”

68. “Lunch?”

“It’s half seven. In the evening.”

“Dinner then?”

69. “It could be worse?”

“They got jam everywhere!”

70. “I dreamed about you last night. I woke up happy.”

71. “Stop pretending to care.”

72. “Please tell me that isn’t all your blood.”

73. “What are you reading?”

74. “You really are your [mother/father]’s child.”

75. “I was thinking, you, me, the bottle of wine in the kitchen and sitting in front of the fire. Thoughts?”

“Yes please.”

76. “You hurt me!”

77. “You’re burning up.”

78. “I don’t mean to alarm you, but the spider in the shower is frankly massive.”

79. “So… the baby is fine, I want you to know that first, they are absolutely fine.”

“What did you do?”

80. “Thank you for looking after me.”

“For you I would do anything.”

81. “Wouldn’t you rather be with [him/her/them]?”

82. “I think you need to see a doctor.”

83. “You didn’t see anything.”

“Yes, I did. I saw all of it.”

84. “They won’t stop crying and, in a minute, I think I am going to start crying too.”

85. “Are you wearing a new lip balm? It tastes really good.”

86. “You ripped my heart to pieces. Did it even hurt when you left?”

87. “It’s just a bit of blood. I’m fine.”

88. “I will make dinner if you don’t speak for the rest of the afternoon.”

89. “Stop wiggling! I need to get you changed!”

90. “Do you have a reason to get out of bed today? Let’s just stay here as long as we can.”

91. “Did you ever love me, or was it just an act?”

92. “It’s just a nightmare. I’ve got you.”

93. “Can I adopt the stray cat out in the street?”

“Do you want fleas? Because that is how you get fleas.”

94. “You are perfect, my little [pet name].”

95. “Stop smiling at me like that, I am trying to concentrate.”

96. “I feel like no one could ever love me.”

97. “Take a deep breath.”

“It hurts.”

“I know, but you have to breath.”

98. “Do we have any cookies in? No? I’m making cookies.”

99. “Did you have a bad dream?”

“Uh huh.”

“Come on, get into bed with us, you can sleep in bed with us tonight.”

100. “Can I kiss you?”

101. “Leave me alone. I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.”

102. “You’re going to be okay, just breath. Oh god… is that bone?”

103. “What would you do if I said that I may have burnt the dinner?”

104. “Take a break. I’ll stay up with them, you need some sleep.”

105. “Yes, you look great in my shirt. But I kind of need it back.”

106. “Go ahead, leave, I am not going to stop you.”

107. “That hit hard, are you okay?”

108. “The amount of alcohol I am going to need to forget this is going to kill me.”

109. “How did you get pen that high up the wall?”

110. “I am madly in love with you.”

“Why?”

“I don’t have a clue.”

111. “You’ll come crawling back to me.”

“Never.”

112. “Please breath, please… oh god.”

113. “I may have… mildly panicked?”

“You shot at me!”

114. “Please don’t vomit on me. Please don’t vomit on me. Please don’t… You vomited on me.”

115. “Kiss me. Now.”

116. “Please don’t say that, I don’t think I can take it.”

117. “Did you get shot?”

118. “You drank my coffee? Why must you hurt me in this way?”

119. “How many coffees is that?”

“You try having a toddler who refuses to go to bed.”

120. “May I have this dance?”

121. “Fuck off and fall off a cliff.”

122. “Don’t you dare die on me, you promised me!”

123. “What do you mean you aren’t interested in me, it’s me!”

124. “It’s your bedtime.”

“Can I have a story?”

“I just read you a story.”

“’nother story?”

125. “Hold me, please?”

126. “I’d have stayed, if you had asked me to.”

127. “It hurts.”

“I know, it is going to be okay, I promise.”

“It burns, please… Make it stop.”

128. “Hungry?”

“Depends on if you are cooking or we are going out.”

129. “I just put them down for a nap. We probably have an hour of peace.”

130. “Did you make me breakfast in bed? I think that I love you.”

131. “I’m sorry, but I didn’t have a choice.”

“There’s always a choice!”

132. “Your nose is bleeding.”

133. “No, I am not playing spin the bottle with you.”

“But it will be fun!”

“There are only two people here!”

134. “Fuck.”

“Fuck!”

“No. Don’t repeat that. It’s a naughty word.”

“Fuck.”

135. “Happy birthday!”

136. “After everything you put me through, you come here and ask for my help? How dare you!”

137. “Hey, you passed out, stay laying down for a bit longer.”

138. “Did you just get dragged through a bush, or are you always this messy?”

“I couldn’t find a comb.”

139. “If the kid can nap, am I allowed to as well?”

140. “Look up. Mistletoe.”

141. “Bite me.”

142. “How did I get here?”

“I had to carry you. You hit your head really hard.”

143. “How do you feel about killing spiders?”

“Where is it?”

144. “When mummy and daddy love each other very much…”

145. “Don’t you just look absolutely stunning?”

“You are biased.”

“I am your partner, I am allowed to be.”

146. “I hate you so much.”

“I know. I deserve it.”

147. “I’m calling the doctor.”

“I am fine.”

“You really aren’t.”

148. “Why are you on the floor? Did you fall?”

“Would you believe me if I said no?”

149. “Can you tidy your toys away please? Preferably before I break my neck tripping over a stuffed turtle.”

150. “Did you sleep last night? At all?”

“God no, what do you take me for?”

151. “Get out!”

“Please let me explain.”

“Out!”

152. “it could be worse.”

“You aren’t the one bleeding.”

“Look, you are still alive. Stop whining.”

153. “Pass me that would you- no, no the other one. On your left. No… your other left.”

154. “Hush little baby don’t say a word, mummy has a headache and your crying hurts.”

155. “You and me, together. We’re unbeatable. We can go against all odds and come out on top.”

156. “Who the hell do you think you are?”

“Well-“

“That was rhetorical.”

157. “Are you bleeding?”

“We don’t have time to deal with it. I’ll be fine.”

158. “Is this heaven?”

“Well, judging by your presence here, hell.”

“Oh. So I am dead?”

159. “Is it wrong for me to wish that they never grow up and I can keep my baby forever?”

“I kind of want that too.”

160. “Why are you looking at me like that?”

“I am just… speechless. You look beautiful.”

161. “Don’t touch me!”

162. “Walk it off.”

“I don’t know if I can walk.”

163. “Alright, which one of you idiots left your shoes out for me to trip over again?”

164. “Open wide. Come on, eat your dinner!”

“It probably tastes awful.”

“It doesn’t- okay. No, it is pretty bad.”

165. “I’ve had nightmares. That was like a living hell.”

166. “Did you sleep well?”

“Only because you were with me.”

167. “Love me!”

“I love you. Now shut up and go to sleep.”

168. “Don’t move. The spider is on your shoulder.”

169. “How many stitches?”

“Eight. But I think I just ripped two of them out.”

170. “Can I sleep in here? I don’t like the storm.”

“Scared of a little thunder?”

171. “You’re dripping blood everywhere.”

“Sorry, is there a place you’d prefer I stand and bleed?”

“The bathroom. It’s easier to clean up.”

172. “Let’s play a game.”

“Oh no, you are a cheat. I’m not playing against you.”

173. “Bite me.”

“Have you ever said that and been bitten?”

“More times than I’d like to admit.”

174. “Pour us a drink would you? It’s been a long day.”

“Whiskey, brandy, wine or water?”

“If you pour me a glass of water I may actually leave you.”

175. “Get out the shower! You’ve been in there for hours!”

176. “I’ll get the first aid kit.”

“I’m fine.”

“You’re a liar. Sit down and let me patch you up.”

177. “Mama.”

“Did they just… Was that their first word?

178. "I’m going to the shops. Needs anything?”

“A will to live. And coffee.”

“A will to live sounds expensive. I’ve got a tenner.”

“Coffee and chocolate then. Close enough.”

179. “Shit it’s on fire.”

“What did you do?!”

180. “How’s the baby doing?”

“They won’t stop crawling underneath the bed.”

181. “How do you feel?”

“Like I’ve been stabbed.”

“Have… Have you been stabbed?”

“A little bit.”

182. “Why are you in a tree?”

“Why aren’t you in a tree?”

“Are you stuck?”

183. “Let’s get a pet.”

“There’s a spider in the kitchen. That’ll do.”

184. “What time is it?”

“Way too early.”

185. “Bed time.”

“I’m an adult.”

“An adult who has been up for nearly thirty six hours, go to bed. Before I drag you up there myself.”

186. “Did you have a good dream?”

“Yeah, you were there.”

187. “What did you do this time?”

“What makes you think I did something?”

“The black eye is a bit of a give away.”

188. “I’m begging you. Please. Please. Just wake up. I need you to wake up. I can’t be without you. Wake up, please.”

189. “What did you do to [her/him]? Tell me!”

190. “I’m actually going to smack you in a minute.”

“Go for it.”

191. “What are you doing?”

“Wasting time.”

192. “You’re bleeding.”

“I know.”

193. “This is going to really hurt.”

“I know, just do it.”

194. “Let’s just get really drunk.”

“Bad day?”

“Bad doesn’t cover it. We have wine in, right?”

195. “Tuck me into bed?”

“You are an adult.”

“So?”

196. “Kiss me, please?”

“Nah.”

“Fine, I will kiss someone else.”

“No, don’t do that!”

197. “Come to bed. I sleep better with you there.”

198. “It would be better if you just forgot me.”

199. “I don’t want to talk about it, just leave me alone.”

200. “I love you.”

“But I don’t love you.”

201. “Where did you get that scar from?

202. “Hold still, I think it’s broken, I can set it, but this will really hurt.”

203. “I haven’t slept in days. The nightmares won’t stop.”

204. “Wake up, I think someone else is here.”

205. “One drink, two drink, three drink, floor!”

206. “How is the hangover?”

“You can great straight to hell, do not pass go, do not collect two hundred pounds.”

207. “I love mummy.”

“What about me?”

“Just mummy.”

208. “Your brat keeps kicking me in the kidney.”

“How come you say they’re mine whenever they are doing that?”

209. “First day of school, are we excited?”

“No.”

210. “Stay in bed a little longer. It is warm here.”

“Alright, five more minutes, then I have to get up.”

211. “I want to hate you, I really do. You repulse me. So why can’t I stay away from you?”

212. “Does it hurt here?”

“Everywhere hurts.”

213. “Are you cheating?”

“What makes you think that?”

“Because you cannot have three aces when I have two.”

214. “They’re asleep. We finally have some time to… and you are already asleep.”

215. “How do you always look so kissable?”

216. “How could you do it? To me?”

“I’m sorry.”

“I don’t think sorry is going to fix this.”

217. “Oh god I think I am going to throw up.”

218. “Cup of coffee?”

“God?”

“I… I don’t think I am.”

219. “Is… Is it mine?”

“Bastard, of course it’s yours!”

220. “I just want to steal you away to somewhere private and have my wa- oh! I didn’t see you there.”

“I gathered.”

221. “I wish that I had never loved you.”

222. “I can’t stop the bleeding. Please, I need help.”

223. “Ow shit!”

“Language.”

“Ow Merde!”

224. “I go away for six months and I come home, and you have a baby.”

225. “Will you be my Valentine?”

226. “I got you a gift.”

“Why?”

“It’s Valentines day today?”

227. “A candlelit dinner?”

“Anything for you my dear.”

228. “Why are there roses all over the bed?”

“Valentines day?”

“You can tidy that mess up.”

229. “I made dinner reservations.”

“So did I. Surprise?”

230. “Supri- oh shit you’re not [insert character name].”

“Oh god! What the hell? Where are your clothes?”

231. “There are flowers on the doorstep.”

“Who from?”

“I think that you have a secret admirer.”

232. “I guess that you could say that I am a hopeless romantic.”

“I would have just stopped at hopeless.”

233. “I love you.”

“I know. No, I’m just joking! I love you too!”

234. “Happy Valentines day.”

“I didn’t think we would do anything for it.”

“I changed my mind, I wanted to treat you.”

235. “You. Me. Quarantined for two weeks. Anything could happen.”

“Yeah. I may kill you. Or we may both get sick.”

236. “You know, in thirteen years, we could get a quaranteen out of this.”

“I think that I would rather just get sick. Thanks though.”

237. “You have quite a high temperature.”

“Do… Does that mean you think I’m hot?”

“And you are clearly delirious.”

238. “You are coughing an awful lot, you really should be in bed.”

239. “We should do what they did in Edinburgh.”

“Which was?”

“Anyone who was sick got bricked into their homes and left to die.”

“Oh… No, we aren’t doing that.”

240. “We are running out of milk.”

“God, I hate black coffee.”

“Maybe someone shouldn’t have got sick then?”

241. “Is this necessary?”

“You sneezed. You get locked away.”

242. “If you cough on me, I will end you.”

243. “If this kills us, I am glad that I got to spend my last few days with you.”

“It’s a bloody cold.”

244. “I wonder what the world will be like when we can go outside again.”

“It’s two weeks, not two decades.”

245. “I made you some tea.”

“Thank you.”

“But I am not coming into your room, I’ll leave it out here.”

246. “I made you some soup. Open your mouth, I just want to check your temperature first.”

247. “I just want… chocolate.”

“We have three days left. Then you can eat so much chocolate that you are sick.”

“That is the plan.”

248. “I have nothing to read.”

“What about those books on your bedside table?”

“I’ve been inside for ten days. I’ve finished them.”

249. “I can’t believe that I want to be exercising right now. Anything that isn’t these same four walls for another week.”

250. “I am so bored. I would do anything right now.”

“Anything?”

“Anything but you.”

251. “How many rounds of snap have we played?”

“Um… Thirty-six. It’s not my fault you’re bad at any other card game.”

252. “How long will we be inside for?”

“Fourteen days.”

“This isn’t enough coffee.”

253. “I swear there is mistletoe everywhere.”

254. “Close your eyes. I want to surprise you.”

“I hate surprises.”

“You’ll like this one.”

255. “Mince pie?”

“Raisons disgust me.”

“I made them myself.”

“I suppose that it couldn’t hurt to try one.”

256. “You are awful with wrapping paper.”

“I nearly gave up and just wrapped myself up instead.”

257. “What are you doing?”

“Tying a ribbon around you.”

“Why?”

“You’re a gift.”

258. “Do you think you can survive Christmas with my parents?”

“Can you?”

“We are going to need a lot of alcohol.”

259. “I think it’s snowing.”

“I think I am not leaving the house today.”

260. “We need hot chocolate, cream and marshmallows.”

261. “We should go ice skating.”

“I don’t know how to skate.”

“That’s fine, I could do with a good laugh.”

262. “You forgot to get them a present, didn’t you?”

“I didn’t realise that we were actually doing anything for Christmas!”

“A fool’s error.”

263. “Do I get a kiss at midnight?”

“Depends.”

“On?”

“If I am still awake. And sober.”

264. “I think that I am on the naughty list.”

“Oh yes, you definitely are.”

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that-weird-fandom-girl · 4 years ago

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Prompt List And Who I Will Write For

When requesting a oneshot you can but are not required to choose a prompt off this list (which is one of @marauder-exe‘s prompt lists that im using because i physically cant produce prompts lol) and just tell me what character you want it with (i will list characters and ships that i write for at the end)

Send requests here

Angst

1. “I love you ! Is that what you wanted to hear ?”

2. “I love him/her, and I know that I shouldn’t.”

3. “Can you just shut your mouth ?”

4. “wHY DO YOU KEEP LYING TO ME ?”

5.“We both know that I should walk away, but I can’t.”

6. “Wait, he/she has a girlfriend/boyfriend ?“

7. “I lo—-” “No, please… Don’t say that. You love her/him, not me.”

8. "Could you just take this pain away ? It hurts, so much… Help me.”

9. “You’re safe here, I got you.”

10. “Don’t ask her out again, please… You’re killing me, every single time you ask that.”

11. “Look, he/she wants you, just make him/her happy.”

12. “If you go, I’ll know that you never loved me.”

13. “We never were just friends, and you know it.” “I know it, but you deserve someone better than me.”

14. “SHE WAS CRYING BECAUSE OF YOU!!!”

15. “You love me like I’m the person who actually deserves your love.” “But you are the only one who deserves it.”

16. “I know for a fact that you’re not “fine”.”

17. “You’re looking at me like.. you’re disgusted. What did I do? Just tell me what I did, please!”

18. “What happened between us?”

19. “Nothing has changed!” “Yes it has, and you know it.”

20. “Love isn’t supposed to hurt this badly.”

21. “You said you needed space. You were 5,000 miles away for a year, and you’re still unsure. I’m starting to think that an entire universe apart wouldn’t be enough space for you.”

22.“I remember when he/she/they used to look at me that way”

23. “I want you to list every lie you ever told me. Then I’ll forgive you.”

24. “I don’t hate you. I hate that after all of this, you’re still trying to lie to me”

25. “I can’t keep this secret for you anymore.”

26.. “I’m sorry I’m not what you signed up for.”

27.“Why she/her/them? It could have been anybody, and you chose to betray me with her/him/them.”

28. “This will be the last time you lie to me.”

29.“You never loved me, did you?”

30. “You made me miserable and I still loved you.”

31. “Everytime something goes well, I momentarily forget how much I despise you.”

32. “We’re never going to have a happy ending, just remember that.”

33. “Don’t pretend like you’re not happy to see me like this.”

34. “Your mind must be a horrible place.”

35. “Hand me the gun and I’ll kill him myself.”

36. “And I thought you loved me.” “ And I thought I loved you.”

37. “ Aren’t you even going to cry?”

38. “I didn’t expect you to wait forever. I just hoped…”

39. “Did you always know that you were going to leave?”

40.“If you cry, I’ll stay, and if I stay that will just give you another reason to hate me.”

41. “I’m addicted and at this point I don’t think anything could make me stop.”

42. ”If you wanna know, then ask.”

43.“You never asked because you knew I wouldn’t tell you what you wanted to hear.”

44. “We grew apart, and at this point I’m glad.”

45. “Find somebody else to kiss your ass.”

46. “When are you going to stop clawing for something that’s never going to happen?”

47. “What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.”

48. “It was easier to believe that the you I knew was dead than deal with the fact that I still have to see you every day.”

49. “What you’re doing is going to kill you one day.”

50. “Why do you have tO BE SUCH A HYPOCRITE ALL THE TIME” (this is my prompt bc the numbers were being weird)

Fluff

51. “You’re hair is really soft after you wash it.”

52. “Ssh. Stop fussing. I’m just braiding your hair.”

53. “You smell really nice.” 54. “Would it be all right if I borrowed your sweater? It smells like you.”

55. “I might have slept with your robe when you were gone.”

56. “If you steal the blankets, I am going to put my cold feet on you.”

57. “Here, let’s share the blanket.”

58. “You’re comfy.”

59.“You are very endearing when you are half-asleep.”

60.“But I want to hear you sing.”

61.“Don’t get up - I’ll do it.”

62.“Care to give me a back scratch?”

63.“I think I love you.”

64.“Your bed head is really cute.”

65.“How about a kiss?”

66.“You made this for me?”

67.Aw, you’re blushing.”

68. Uh oh, I know that look. What do you want?”

69. “Let me help you with that.”

70. “I don’t want to forget this moment.”

71.“Are you really flirting with me right now?”

72.“I like the way your hand fits in mine.”

73.“You have something in your hair, umm… Do you want me to get it out?”

74.“It’s nice that your voice was the first thing I heard today.”

75.“This movie is really scary, but you’re into it so I’m trying not to cover my face the whole time, but- WHAT IS THAT?”

76.“Wait, don’t pull away… Not yet.”

77.“Half the time I get too embarrassed to say anything”

78.“No, it’s fine. I can wait until you’re done talking to them.”

79.“No, like…. It’s just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

80.“You’re a big piece of inspiration for this, honestly.”

81.“I’ve been trying to get ready for like an hour and a half, because I know you’re going to look so good and I need to try and match up.”

82.“I wanted to say “I love you” for the first time without stuttering, but that failed.”

83.“My friends get so annoyed by how much I talk about how sometimes.”

84.“No, mom, don’t tell him/her I said that about him/her!”

85.“I can’t get over how a few months ago I wanted to learn your name and now you’re having breakfast with me in my sweater.”

86.“ You are so beautiful — So fucking beautiful. “

87.“And just WHERE do you think you’re putting your hands?”

88.“Wow, you look even better in the daylight.”

89.“I don’t remember ever having this many hickeys. But I don’t mind.”

90.“We could order pizza and just stay like this all day.”

91.“It was always you.”

92.I love you in every possible way.”

93.“I didn’t mean to love you so much.”

94.“Don’t you hurt a single hair on his/her/their head.”

95.“Duck, you idiot!”

96.“Hey. Pal. I’ve got a wand and I’m not afraid to use it.”

97.“Shh, you’re safe. I won’t let you go.”

98.“It’s not a double date. We’re just third and fourth wheeling.”

99.“Look, I know we don’t know each other that well, but I’m still worried about you. No one deserves to be alone.”

100.“I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..”

Sarcasm

101.“Define normal.”

102.“Do I get bonus points if I act like I care?”

103.“Just remember if we get caught, you’re deaf and I don’t speak English.”

104.“Don’t look for any redeeming qualities. I don’t have any.”

105.“It’s amazing how fast the world can go from bad to total shit storm.”

106.“I love you. You enormously stubborn pain in the ass.”

107.“And you wonder why you’re still single.”

108.“Remind me to kill you. Please.”

109.“That’s a little melodramatic, don’t you think?”

110.“She’s crazy. And just when you think you’ve reached the bottom of her craziness, there’s a crazy underground garage.”

111.“She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but I bet behind close doors she’s latex and whips.”

112.“If my day gets any worse, I’m asking hell if they’re having an exchange program.”

113.“Sorry. I don’t speak skank.”

114.“My middle finger salutes you.”

115.“I don’t have enough middle fingers to let you know how I feel.”

116.Somebody’s cranky.” “Somebody needs to shut up.”

117.“Oh darling. Go buy a brain.”

118.“Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.”

119.“All due respect, but that’s a bunch of crap.”

120.“I am one of the few people in the world who can murder you and leave no forensic evidence behind.”

121.“Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.”

122.“What did I tell you about calling her/him the devil?” “That it’s offensive to the devil?”

123.“I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

124.“I need therapy after this.”

125.“You didn’t get in trouble for lying. You got in trouble for lying badly.”

126.“I turned out liking you a lot more that I originally planned.”

127.“I think you’re weird.” “I think you’re boring.”

128.“I’m afraid I’ve been thinking…” “A dangerous pastime.”

129.“Wow, there’s a big surprise. I think I’m going to have a heart attack and die from surprise.”

130.“I’m gonna hit you so hard, it’ll make you ancestors dizzy.”

131.“Sarcasm is the body’s natural reaction to stupidity.”

132.“Well, excuse me, psychic wonder!”

133.“Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.”

134.“She’s hot, but she’s evil.”

135.“Do I regret it? Yes. Would I do it again? Probably.”

136.“I already know that I’m going to hell. At this point it’s really go big or go home.”

137.“I’m not a damsel in distress. I’m a damsel doing damage.”

138.“So stick that in your juice box and suck it.

” 139.“Never take life seriously. No one ever comes out alive anyway.”

140.“Sometimes I question my sanity. Occasionally it replies.”

141.“Why should we date?” “Because we are attracted to each other.” “I am attracted to pie, but I do not feel the need to date pie.”

142.“Neither one us is drunk enough for this conversation.”

143.“You’re questioning my methods.” “I’m not questioning it, I’m saying it’s stupid.”

144.“Wow, somebody needs a Happy Meal.”

145.“I didn’t do it!” “Then why are you laughing?” “Because whoever did it is a freaking genius.”

146.“Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.”

147.“You couldn’t handle me even if I came with instructions.

148.“Obviously you have mistaken me for somebody who gives a shit.”

149.“Rule number one: don’t bother sucking up. I already hate you, that’s not going to change.”

150.“You make no sense to me.” “Welcome to my life.”

Drama

151.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?”

152.“Can you stop thinking about yourself for once?”

153.“Don’t think I forgot about what you did last time.”

154.“I know you lied to me.”

155.“I’m not even sorry.”

156.“You backstabber!”

157.“I never want to see you again.”

158.“You never mattered to me.”

159.“I knew this was a bad idea.”

160.“Rot in hell.”

161.“It was supposed to be a secret!” 1

62.“No one loves me.”

163.“He/she/they is/are so petty…”

164.“You made me cry.”

165.“I don’t know who you are anymore.”

166.“How DARE you?!”

167.“I know you’re not talking to me…”

168.“I SAW you with him/her/them!”

169.“Just leave me alone.”

170.“What did you do?!”

171.“I told everyone that I didn’t want to talk but I’m actually dying for attention.”

172. “Just admit that was extra…”

173.“I forgive, but I don’t forget.”

174.“Did you see what he/she/they was/were wearing?”

175.“So what if I had sex with your ex?”

176.“There’s something I have to tell you…”

177.“I can’t do this anymore.”

178.“You weren’t there for me when I needed you the most.”

179.“I never loved you.”

180.“It’s too late.”

181.“Quit ignoring me.”

182. “Don’t you get it? It’s because I love you!”

183.“I love you. I’m sorry.”

184.“I don’t want to be friends.”

185.“Can we please pretend I never said that?”

186.“Friendzoned again.”

187.“You should’ve loved me when you had the chance.”

188.“Fuck you for toying with my emotions like that.”

189.“I was there for you when no one else was!”

190.“Alright – I can tell a ‘no’ when I hear it.”

191.“I’m sorry I acted so creepy.”

192.“Fuck. It’s like what they say – nice guys finish last…”

193.“I’m tired of keeping this secret. Even if you don’t love me back.”

194. “I knew that’d be your answer. That’s why I never told you before.”

195.“When I said I loved you, I meant it.”

196.“Is there any part of you, deep down, that might love me back?”

197.“You were the one that left all those notes for me?”

198.“You’re in a relationship with another person – you know this can’t end well.” 199.“We agreed this was just physical!”

200.“I love you. I know you don’t love me, so don’t say it back.”

Characters/people i write for

Marvel

Steve rogers

Clint Barton

Scott Lang

Tony Stark

Sam Wilson

Thor Odinson

Loki Laufeyson

Bucky Barnes

Peter Quill

Peter Parker

Pietro Maximoff

Bruce Banner

Stucky (ship)

Criminal Minds

Spencer Reid

Derek Morgan

Aaron Hotchner

Greys Anatomy

Alex Karev

Mark Sloan

Andrew Deluca

Actors

Matthew Gray Gubler

Chris Evans

Tom Holland

Tom Hiddleston

Johnny Depp

Jensen Ackles

Sebastian Stan

Daveed Diggs

Colin O’Donoughue

Once Upon A Time

Killian Jones

Jefferson

Harry Potter

Fred Weasley

Sirius Black

Remus Lupin

Draco Malfoy

James Potter

wolfstar (ship)

Miscellaneous

Steven Hyde (That 70s Show)

Jack Sparrow (Pirates Of The Caribbean)

Dean Winchester (Supernatural)

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sarcasticbabywhispererjess · 5 years ago

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The movie “Secret Obsession” opens with the main character Jennifer being chased through a rest stop bathroom by a knife wielding maniac. She escapes out into the rain (very dramatic), gets hit by a car and is subsequently brought to the hospital.

The following happens in the hallway of the hospital and OR...

Bagging patient randomly off and on.

“She’s going into v-fib.” (closed captioning says v-tach)

No compressions are started.

“She’s unstable.” (no shit)

No one starts compressions… way to fail ACLS step 1. Get on the chest!

“We need to start compressions.” Yes, please!

No one actually starts compressions, but someone does listen to her with a stethoscope.

“Miss can you hear me?” She’s in v-fib and you’re not doing compressions, her brain isn’t being perfused… she ain’t gonna answer you, doc.

“She’s unresponsive.” Ya think?

“I’m losing a pulse.” She’s been in v-fib, but had a pulse this whole time? I think your monitor is faulty. Also, why start compressions if there’s a pulse… not that they have done any compressions so far.

Still no compressions.

Shocks with 300 joules… with paddles that we don’t ever use anymore. (You don’t shock with 300 joules on any defibrillators, 120-200 on biphasic, or 360 on monophasic… yes I looked this up.)

“Bradycardia. 30… 90/50.”

Patient is in an organized rhythm and has a pretty good BP.

“Charge to 360” What?! Why?! Shocks her again.

WTF?! Why did you shock her? You don’t shock bradycardia.

“Get another amp of epi”… shocks again.

That was three shocks in like a minute… never any compressions.

Pulse is now 75… they call it a success and say they can start surgery.

That was a DISASTER of a code. I get that it’s a movie, but codes are exciting when you follow actual ACLS guidelines (less defibrillating though), they didn’t need to do this. Plus, just edit and reorder some of those lines and it would have made more sense. Also...

DO SOME FUCKING COMPRESSIONS!

Ok, below I continue with a play by play and commentary on the rest of the movie... warning, spoilers ahead.

Jennifer is in a hospital bed, extubated after surgery, but hadn’t regained consciousness after surgery. No, we don’t do that.

Leg is in a brace and sling. Huh? Why?

Has Coban, but no gauze wrapped around her head like a headband (not sure where her injury is… somewhere near her hippocampus since that is where her brain injury is according to the doctor when he is explaining about how her memory is going to be affected by her brain injury) and random pieces of white tape on her nose and fingers. ???

Jennifer is in the hospital for several weeks it seems after the montage of memory card games and learning to push her own wheelchair. All of her facial abrasions are healed as she’s being discharged which also denotes the passing of time. I’m not quite sure why they kept her so long.

She is standing at the counter and is told by the nurse discharging her (who also was there the night she was admitted) that her CT results came back and is given a vague update. Nurse gives her prescription bags… I mean, I guess it’s a nurse, she’s not wearing a badge but is wearing a stethoscope around her neck (confirmed later, she’s a nurse). She gives Jenn a cane to walk with when she gets home… 2-3mins a day (That’s like no time at all). Jenn is given no instruction of how to use it, I’ve only ever seen her use a wheelchair.

Jennifer is sent home with a wheelchair. Her leg brace is gone. So can she not walk because of her brain injury, not her leg injury?

Man, this nurse works a lot… she seems to be there every day/night. And she’s in charge of follow-up calls/appointments. They’re in California, so at least she probably makes pretty good money since she runs the whole damn hospital.

OK, cane/wheelchair is because of her leg. Why the fuck doesn’t she just have crutches? That’s dumb. I guess it’s to make her more helpless.

God damn, her skin is so nice.

Russell and Jenn start to get intimate, Jenn has a scary memory flash and rebukes his advances. Russell doesn’t take it well. He roughly grabs her arm. He starts talking about how much he has done for her and how he’s her husband (is he though?), so he deserves better. Twat. Jenn is freaked out both by her memory and Russell’s behavior, but just turns off the light, rolls over away from him, and goes to bed. I would have left.

Damn, nurse Masters is still at work? She literally works 24/7 in this ED. Jenn still has an active chart? There are doctor’s notes in it? This place hasn’t switched to EMR yet? But they have high res security cameras that hospital security can pull up and email files within minutes? Impressive. Do a lot of crimes happen in this hospital? So those are their priorities? Weird.

Wtf is a heritage tattoo? That’s how the detective figured out her maiden name? Seems far fetched, but I’m not looking it up.

The detective enters Jennifer’s home that she shared with her parents according to records… and he keeps touching things without gloves on. You’re a shit detective, dude. How have her parents been dead this whole time and no one has looked for them? They didn’t have jobs? Were they hermits?

Russell leaves and Jenn hears a lock sound from the bedroom door. She jiggles the door handle and can’t get it open, “Did he just lock it?” Well he didn’t unlock it ya dumb bitch. Well apparently she was some kind of criminal in her past life, so she can open locks with a bobby pin. Really? The password on Russell’s computer is Jennifer’s maiden name. FFS. This is the most unrealistic thing in the movie.

Why would he cut the cord for the internet? Just to be dramatic. He could just as easily have just unplugged the cord and taken it with him. Did he not want to use the internet anymore either? Anyway, he planned far ahead enough to disable the internet just in case she got into the computer, but didn’t delete all the pictures pre-photoshopping off his computer? Idiot.

Who just swallows a pill that someone puts in their mouth just because they also forced water into your mouth? You’re not a dog, Jennifer.

Russell uses a chain and lock that he happens to have in his pocket to chain her to the bed. Pretty sure she can get that chain off of her ankle if she wanted to. It’s not that tight.

Oh my goodness, nurse Masters isn’t at work! Russell is super weird to her and then speeds away from the store where he bought lye.

The chain is much tighter suddenly… but loose enough that Jenn could get it off. Ok, wtf is wrong with her leg… she can’t seem to straighten it from like 30 degrees… they should’ve kept that brace on her from the beginning of the movie and also done more ROM exercises with her while she was in the hospital for all those weeks. She apparently used to be some kind of medic? Duct tape as an ace bandage ankle wrap? Probably not the most effective, but could be worse. Though I imagine she’d only have some soft tissue injury from that chain, I don’t know if she needs to wrap her ankle.

Jenn gets into the garage where she acts like it smells bad.. like a dead body, maybe? She hides in her car that is in the garage when fake Russell gets home. He also acts like the garage reeks. Why does he open the trunk to see the real Russell’s dead body? Like, he knows that it’s in there and he could already smell the decomposing body… he just wanted a better whiff? Also, why hasn’t he buried the body yet? He buried that witness the day he killed him. Well, semi-buried… it was a really shallow grave that Jenn tripped onto and touched the dude’s hand. Honestly, he did a piss-poor job at hiding the body. Also, now that I’m thinking about it, real Russell’s body isn’t very decomposed for having been in the trunk of a car in a hot garage for several weeks (unless the garage has A/C, but there would still be a lot more rotting of the flesh after such a long time). Jennifer’s parents bodies decomp was much more progressed even though it seems they’ve all been dead the same amount of times.

The detective is at “their” house, he knows Russell isn’t Russell and there’s something nefarious afoot. This detective needs to go back to detective school. Stop touching potential evidence without gloves on. Why would fake Russell just cover up an old sign that has his actual last name on it? Just get a new sign, you nut job. Well, the shitty detective isn’t aware of his surroundings and doesn’t have his gun drawn, so of course fake Russell/Ryan is able to sneak up behind him and hit him over the head. He’s dead… actually probably just unconscious in an ice chest since fake Russell is only good at killing people most of the time. Also, I have a feeling we’re going to need the detective later to help save Jenn.

Uh oh, glasses are off… I guess he’s not Russell anymore. He’s crazy, obsessive Ryan.

Yes, take time to watch that video on your phone, Jenn… get sentimental while you’re trying to run for your life.

Why is this dude so hyper focused on this chick? He’s hot. He could have his pick of plenty of girls. I suppose it’s hard to think in rational/logical terms with a sociopath no matter what he looks like.

Oh good… he’s doing the villain speech where he explains his backstory. Apparently he had to light a single taper for it. I have a feeling the candlestick holder might come into play later… in Jennifer’s benefit. No, wait... he left the lighter and tied her up with flammable rope. But she knocked it on the floor… moron.

Oh good, the detective is alive. He’ll save them both even if he’s also an idiot. Since all women need saving.

Wait, she got herself out. Why hit him with the vase? The solid metal candle holder would’ve been a better choice. Solid work falling down the stairs, Jenn

The detective is out of the ice chest. And he’s using the Babe from Kill Bill incentive… yelling at himself to make his brain/muscles work. He at the very least has a concussion/TBI from being knocked unconscious, yelling at yourself doesn’t fix that.

Jennifer! Why are you going into the woods? You have his keys and there are so many cars on the property, you probably have a key that will work on at least one of them. Even if you didn’t have the keys, if you can pick a lock, can’t you hotwire a car too? Why do you think you’d get better signal in the mother fucking woods? Yes, try to hit him with a heavy log that you can barely lift. You’ll get good momentum and swing. Just use one of those rocks you just threw to distract him. Idiot.

Ok, she shot fake Russell/Ryan in the back while he was wrestling with the detective. The first shot was fairly high in the chest and had a pretty good chance of hitting his lung or something important, but he’s still able to come at her. Her second shot got him in the upper right abdomen, so probably the liver and he just goes down... dead. FFS. At least have shot him in the heart area, that would’ve been slightly more believable. Oh well, I guess that’s that. A little follow up with the detective and Jenn. She’s moving back to San Jose (hopefully she’s getting a new place since her parents were murdered in her old house) and the detective is moving to AZ even though he never found his daughter that had gone missing as a child many years ago (a part of his backstory that brought nothing to the story and was never resolved).

Guys, this was not a great movie. I did kind of enjoy tearing it apart though.

#secret obsession #movie review #acls review #don't watch movies with nurses #we're the worst #why can't any movies or tv get codes right?#just do some damn compressions people!#netflix #netflix original

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trickormemes · 7 years ago

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Black Panther sentence starters

120 starters * includes quotes from deleted scenes feel free to change gender pronouns ’read-more’ added for length content warning: violence

“Tell me a story.”

“Let me see how you are holding up.”

“Why are you here?”

“No need, _____. I can handle this alone.”

“Just don’t freeze when you see her.”

“What are you talking about? I never freeze.”

“Are we under attack?”

“You will speak nothing of this day.”

“This never gets old.”

“It is so good to have you back with us.”

“Are you finished?”

“Just because something works doesn’t mean it cannot be improved.”

“You are teaching me? What do you know?”

“It’s better to leave the crime scene more spread out. Makes us look like amateurs.”

“You’re gonna be a rich boy.”

“This corset is really uncomfortable, so could we all just wrap it up and go home?”

“I accept your challenge, _____.”

“Where is your god now?”

“Show him who you are!”

“Yield! Don’t make me kill you!”

“You have fought with honor! Now yield!”

“Wakanda forever!”

“Stand up. You are a king.”

“I am not ready to be without you.”

“A man who has not prepared his children for his own death has failed as a father.”

“Have I ever failed you?”

“You’re a good man with a good heart. And it’s hard for a good man to be king.”

“Come home, _____. Stay.”

“I’ve seen too many in need just to turn a blind eye.”

“I can’t be happy here knowing that there’s people out there who have nothing.”

“If you were not so stubborn, you would make a great queen.”

“I would make a great queen because I am stubborn.”

“I see _____ is back. You guys going to work it out?”

“But waging war on other countries has never been our way.”

“(insert location) does not need a warrior right now. We need a king.”

“It’s too great an opportunity to pass.”

“Take me with you. We’ll take him down together, side by side.”

“You sure it’s a good idea to take your ex on a mission?”

“WHAT ARE THOOOOOSE?!”

“The idea is to not be noticed.”

“Not that hard, genius!”

“Can we please focus? Thank you.”

“It just got a little more complicated.”

“Now, whatever the hell you’re up to… do me a favor, stay out of my way.”

“I’m not here to make a deal.”

“Well, that is quite the entourage. You got a mixtape coming out?”

“Please, don’t make me listen to your music.”

“It’s now or never.”

“I made it rain!”

“Put some music on. What do you think this is, a funeral?”

“We’re not going to make it!”

“Guns. So primitive!”

“Did you think we would forget?”

“Every breath you take is mercy from me.”

“If he touches you again, I’m going to impale him to this desk.”

“I don’t trust anybody, not in this job.”

“I see you took your time, didn’t you?”

“So now we are just supposed to let him die?”

“I cannot just let him die, knowing we can save him.”

“Great! Another broken white boy for us to fix. This is going to be fun.”

“With you, I thought it’d be different. But it’s more of the same.”

“To them, you’ll just be an outsider. You’re crazy to think that you can just walk in there.”

“Do not tell me what is possible. Tell me the truth!”

“Some truths are too much to bear, _____.”

“That is not your choice to make.”

“All over the planet our people suffer because they don’t have the tools to fight back.”

“What kind of king… what kind of man does that?”

“No man is perfect.”

“You can’t let your father’s mistakes define who you are.”

“Only reason I don’t kill you where you stand is because I know who you are.”

“I want the throne.”

“It’s not our way to be judge, jury, and executioner for people who are not our own.”

“This is your last chance. Throw down your weapons, and we can handle this another way.”

“I lived my entire life waiting for this moment. I trained, I lied, I killed. Just to get here.”

“And all this death, just so I could kill you.”

“Snap out of it, _____!”

“Is there nothing that can be done?”

“Him? He’s supposed to protect you?”

“Help me overthrow him before he becomes too strong.”

“I am loyal to that throne, no matter who sits upon it. What are you loyal to?”

“The king is dead. Come with me, unless you want to join him.”

“What did I tell you about going into my things?”

“No tears for me?”

“Everybody dies. It’s just life around here.”

“When I tell you to do something, I mean that shit.”

“Burn it all!”

“The outside world is catching up, and soon, it will be the conquerors or the conquered. I’d rather be the former.”

“One more word, and I will feed you to my children… I’m kidding. We are vegetarians.”

“You were wrong to abandon him.”

“You were wrong! All of you were wrong! To turn your backs on the rest of the world!”

“I cannot stay here with you.”

“I cannot rest while he sits on our throne.”

“I must right these wrongs.”

“I’m in too. …What? You’re gonna need all the help you can get.”

*yawns* “Are you done? A-a-are you—are you done?”

“I owed you a great debt. A life for a life. Consider it paid.”

“No harm will come to her. I give you my word.”

“The world’s gonna find out exactly who we are.”

“He lives.”

“Your heart is so full of hatred, you are not fit to be a king!”

“Yeah, I don’t know what I’m doing with this.”

“You’ll never be a true king.”

“You want to see us become just like the people you hate so much.”

“The world took everything away from me! Everything I ever loved!”

“Would you kill me, my love?”

“Can you believe that? Kid from (insert location), running around believing in fairytales.”

“Maybe we can still heal you.”

“You can’t blame me, I almost died.”

“When you said you would take me to California for the first time, I thought you meant Coachella or Disneyland.”

“Now, more than ever, the illusions of division threaten are very existence.”

“More connects us than separates us.”

“In times of crisis, the wise build bridges while the fools build barriers.”

“We must find a way to look after one another, as if we were one, single tribe.”

“Listen, it’s not my place to say, but, man, I really don’t think you should do this.”

“I will no longer rule out of fear. Not ours or anyone else’s.”

“I’ll do my best to keep ‘em off your back.”

“He wasn’t fit to lead.”

“Our children will be leaders of a truly free world.”

“There will be war and death, but in the end, it will be beautiful.”

“Time. It has a way of making you look back on the things you have done.”

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danganphobia · 6 years ago

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For the ryokira drabble: number 120!! (I absolutely adore your writing, thank you for creating awesome content!!!❤)

Send me a prompt and I’ll write you a drabble for ryokira

120. “This is fun.” “Seriously we’re trying to hide a dead body.”

They’ve busted in countless of places, abandoned buildings, parking lots, supermarkets, places that ranged from likely premises withholding many demons in hiding – to unusual places such as in the middle of a walmart causing a ton of riots, not to mention it was broad daylight. One time, it was at Chuck E Cheese.

It’s like a spinning wheel, you never knew where demons would strike – but as soon as Ryo got the signal, they had to be on it. It’s not like they’re the most organized, they were just two people, Akira happening to have the ability to shift into a Devilman, by a miracle, to survive these bloodthirsty creatures from wreaking havoc in their town on a daily tiring basis.

So, Akira would say that he expects weird shit. It’s normal, at this point. But finding out that a strange individual was going out eating children in the afternoon – according to Ryo, riding around in an ice cream truck – he’s hearing this correctly – luring kids into buying a cold, delicious treat only for them to disappear from their families, this is where he wanted to draw the line.

Arriving to the scene where the supposed suspicious vehicle were to tour around searching for prey, it’s several minutes later when Ryo shot through the window after kindly asking if he and Akira would get two ice cream sandwiches, because it happened to be strange at the fact that the driver wasn’t really as friendly towards older individuals compared to how they usually appear towards children.

“Come on.” Ryo cocked his head, opening the door to enter the truck, the familiar children’s tune is playing on blast and it makes Akira feel awfully unsettled that they just murdered an ice cream truck driver who was ten seconds away from killing them if Ryo hadn’t shot the demon in time.

“What the actual fuck?” Akira asked, the demon’s dead, thank God – it’s rotting face really shows that the thing managed to put up a disguise to fool kids into thinking they were a friendly human. “It’s like they’re getting more and more creative these days.”

“Indeed. It’s unsettling, isn’t it?”

“An ice cream truck?”

“We had to pretend to attend a concert once because one of the band members were also–”

“I don’t even want to get into that,” Akira sighed, “When I joke that our missions can’t get any more worse, we get this shit!” He gestured to the body, “What the fuck do we do with it? It’s three in the afternoon and there are innocent people who are probably thinking, hey! It’s the perfect time for us to buy some ice cream, I wonder if the driver will still be here. Alive.”

“Drastic calls call for drastic measures.” Ryo placed a hand on his hip, resting his fairly large shotgun on his shoulder casually. Contemplating in deep thought. “I could drive, you could be my co-driver, whatever you call it. We have to leave the body here because bringing it anywhere else will draw suspicion, and I don’t think you’d be okay with us dumping the body in a garbage can.”

“We won’t do that.” Akira deadpanned, “Absolutely fucking not.”

“The response I was expecting. So we have to move it further in the back. Quickly.”

Tossing the dead corpse across the truck in some obscure corner where eyes couldn’t see was a suitable idea.

“I thought a task like this would be grueling, but I was sincerely wrong.” Ryo chuckled once they’ve safely hidden the body, “This is fun.”

“Seriously, we’re trying to hide a dead body.”

“Like we haven’t done it a million times before.”

“Ice cream trucks are the highlight of every kid’s childhood, it was the highlight of mine! And we killed something in it!”

“Jokes on you, I didn’t have a childhood.” Ryo snorted, “Not a single shit is given.”

“What are we gonna do now?”

“I certainly hope you know how to make ice cream.” Ryo strode over to the front, sitting down to grab the steering wheel. “We’ll have to pretend to be ice cream drivers for a day.”

Akira laughed in disbelief. “You’re fucking with me, right?”

An afternoon was spent putting up a friendly facade, happily greeting children who ran up to the window asking for ice cream, feeling bad about taking their money but this was business, turns out – it wasn’t as bad as Akira thought. A couple messy cones turned rather decent, and all their customers were satisfied.

If he dared to ask if Ryo would help out at least a little, he’d do a shitty job at it because he disliked kids and often said crossly what do you want? Hurry up and buy something, we don’t have all day.

That’s because they didn’t. Little do the customers know that there is a demon corpse lying in the back of the truck, and when someone had asked about a driver that they knew usually riding this truck – Akira was at a lost of words. So Ryo had to tell them he got fired.

Eventually once night time hit, figuring out how to turn off the haunting jingle coming out of the truck – they took it to the fleet of ice cream trucks an hour drive away with a help of Ryo’s GPS tracker, taking the body out of the car to throw it in the large sinkhole a walk’s distance away, in a secluded area of town.

“We never speak of this again.” Akira said after some time, mournfully. “I’m gonna go home and tell Miki and Taro that I watched you kill a guy in an ice cream truck today.”

“Or, you don’t have to tell them.” Ryo patted Akira’s shoulder. “Say, I could use some ice cream. Wouldn’t you?”

Ryo liked to fuck with him, dark sense of humor and all – though this was a whole other level.

“You’re the most heartless person I’ve ever met.” Akira whispered, yet, the both of them end up laughing walking up the hill away from the sinkhole – headed to the Baskin-Robbins store just a block away.

#devilman #ryokira #van writes #thank you so much dear <333 #this is complete crack #because the only thing i can do is comedy naturally lmao #Anonymous

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On February 13th 1692, a Royalist force, under the command of Captain Robert Campbell of Glenlyon, carried out the Massacre of Glencoe.

A rather long post but I feel that some people are under the illusion that the events that occurred at Glencoe 326 years ago was a Clan thing between the MacDonalds and the Campbells.

Early that morning in the aftermath of what has been termed the Glorious Revolution and the Jacobite uprising of 1689 led by John Graham of Claverhouse, a massacre took place in Glencoe, in the Highlands of Scotland. This incident is referred to as the massacre of Glencoe, or in Scottish Gaelic Mort Ghlinne Comhann or murder of Glencoe.

The massacre began simultaneously in three settlements along the glen—Invercoe, Inverrigan, and Achnacon—although the killing took place all over the glen as fleeing MacDonalds were pursued. Thirty-eight MacDonalds from the Clan MacDonald of Glencoe were killed by the guests who had accepted their hospitality, on the grounds that the MacDonalds had not been prompt in pledging allegiance to the new monarchs, William and Mary. Many more died due to the harsh weather conditions as they fled the carnage.

So why did this atrocity happen? Well the Highland Chiefs were given an ultimatum to swear an allegiance to William and Mary or suffer the consequences, a deadline was set of January 1st 1692, MacIain of Glencoe, the-old Chief of the MacDonald Clan left it late, he also mistakenly set out for Fort William, where the governor, Lieutenant Colonel John Hill told him he was not authorized to receive the Oath, Hill sent MacIain to Inverary with a letter for the local magistrate, Sir Colin Campbell. The letter confirmed MacIain's arrival before the deadline and asked Sir Colin to administer the Oath. He did so on 6 January and MacIain returned home.

With that the oath signatures, the letter, and other business was sent by dispatch to Edinburgh Privy Council. Colonel John Hill sent a letter to MacIain in Glencoe, as was the protocol, stating that clan MacDonald was now under the protection of the garrison at Fort William.

When the package of oaths was presented before the Privy Council in Edinburgh, among them was another letter from the sheriff asking whether Chief MacIain’s signature should be accepted or not. The clerks of the Privy Council, among whom were powerful Campbell lawyers, would first have put all the information into a presentable order to come before the Privy Council. Historians suspect that some corruption of the information may have taken place here, but this can’t be proved. Whatever was presented to the Privy Council caused them to declare that MacIain’s signature was unacceptable, an illegal late submission, and to order it be struck from the record.

Just five days after MacIain had signed the oath, Dallrymple received word that his name had been removed from the list due to a ‘technical fault’. Dallrymple, the joint Secretary of State for Scotland was gleeful, he had a deep hatred of the Highland clans and so no place for them in scheme of things in a modern Scotland.

He wrote: ‘just now my Lord Argyll tells me that Glencoe hath not taken the oath, at which I rejoice.’ Other clans had not taken the oath either, bad weather or refusal had prevented them. But Dallrymple singled out the MacDonald Clan. He went on to say ‘It’s an act of great charity to be exact in routing out that damnable sept, the worst in all the highlands.’ Quite why he hated the MacDonalds more than any other clan is not known. They may have been naturally rebellious and given to banditry, but they were certainly not the only clan with those qualities. Other rebellious clans, were more powerful, with better connections. The MacDonalds though were insignificant enough to be made an example of without reprisals from other clans. Fate and circumstance had dealt an already unfortunate clan a nasty card.

Dallrymple urged the king to act, making particular reference to the MacDonald Clan. The commander-in-chief in London received the king’s final instructions which he sent back to Dallrymple in Edinburgh. Colonel Hill tried to postpone military action against the highlanders. He wanted to give them a chance to make their case. But he was overruled. Two of his officers, Major Duncanson and Lieutenant Colonel Hamilton planned the attack, acting directly on specific orders from Dallrymple. Dallrymple knew that MacIain and the MacDonalds were under the illusion of safety, and he used that knowledge to plan a covert action. It was also an illegal action, a form of treason known as ‘slaughter under trust’.

Captain Robert Campbell of Glenlyon was given the command of two companies of about 120 men in total. On 1st February 1692, ten days before the massacre, they were ordered to march into Glencoe and await further instructions. It is unlikely that Glenlyon knew at this point what he would be ordered to do next.

At 60 years old Robert Campbell of Glenlyon had never made it higher than captain. He was not a successful man. He was a heavy drinker and an inveterate gambler, a black sheep of the Campbell family. Historians have speculated that this man was chosen especially for the job because of certain weaknesses in his character, and because no one would care if he took the fall. An even more cynical reason presents itself: Glenlyon was related to MacIain. The betrayal would be all the more acute.

When the MacDonalds of Glencoe saw the redcoats marching over their valley it must have been quite a shock, however they were under the protection of Fort William garrison and had no reason to fear these soldiers. Instead at the company’s request to be billeted, they welcomed them into their homes and gave them food and drink. Glenlyon told the Chief they were collecting taxes from each clan, by order of Colonel Hill. He could even produce papers to that effect. This satisfied the MacDonalds. The captain, Glenlyon, was billeted in the Clan Chief’s own house. Glenlyon’s neice was married to MacIain’s youngest son, and Glenlyon also visited daily with his niece and her new family. The rest of the company were billeted in homes up and down the valley about 3 or 4 to a house. Unknown to Clan MacDonald fatal danger now lay within the heart of each home.

For ten days the soldiers stayed, ate and drank, played cards, gambled and sang songs. Some even shared female beds. They belonged to the same highland culture; in that culture it is understood if you invite a stranger into your home and break bread with them, they are no longer a stranger but a trusted friend. Mutual protection was assumed. This code was sacred to Highlanders. Ten days and nights, then, of friendship and community the hosts shared with these soldiers, and the soldiers shared with their hosts. It makes what happened next all the more appalling.

On the night before the massacre Captain Robert Campbell of Glenlyon, who was dining with his host, Alistair MacIain and his family, received a dispatch from Major Duncanson, who was stationed outside the glen. The letter is now an infamous one. It said: by order of the king, at five o’clock the next morning every member of Clan MacDonald under seventy must be ‘put to the sword’, and on no account must the ‘old foxe and his sones’ escape the slaughter. If Glenlyon did not carry out this command he would be ‘dealt with as one not true to King nor government’ in other words he would be deemed guilty of treason. It is hard to imagine with what misgiving Glenlyon relayed this message secretly to the other soldiers billeted along the valley that night. But that was the command and it had to be carried out.

Major Duncanson told Captain Campbell he would join him, but he ordered him to start the action 2 hours before he was due to arrive on the scene. In the end bad weather forced him to arrive 6 hours later. A Campbell was to be the main instigator. Very few of the soldiers bore the Campbell name. Most were lowlanders. But the name Campbell had to stick to this crime one way or another.

Next morning on the 13th February 1692, in the dark of early morning, the massacre began. MacIain was slaughtered in his bed, but MacIain’s two eldest sons both managed to escape into the mountains. In total around 38 people were killed. All along the valley crofts were set on fire. It is not known exactly how many of the women and children who escaped later died of exposure. Estimates range between 40 and 300.

Some historians suggest the troops must have known before the orders came that they were there to commit an atrocity. Some historians suggest that although the soldiers carried out their orders, they deliberately did it badly, or simply couldn’t do it. According to one account some soldiers broke their swords rather than murder their kin. Of the 1000 or so people who lived in Glencoe, 38 ambushed is by no means a large number for a company of 120 armed men.

Before nightfall on the 13th February, some of the survivors ventured down from the mountains to bury their dead relatives. The clan chief and his close family were given their due burial in the MacDonald burial ground, the island of Eileen Munde on Loch Leven. Others were buried in and around the glen.

Dallrymple, when he heard the news that the massacre had not been complete, that two of the ‘old fox’s’ sons still lived, was furious. He wanted to prove to the king that he was the man to control the Highlanders. He ordered that the survivors be hunted down, sent to the plantations or killed. He wrote letters urging this, but it was never carried out. His vengeful, unrepentant attitude was not shared by others, who were horrified at what had happened.

After the event Glenlyon was seen in Edinburgh getting drunk and lamenting what he had done. The soldiers too began to speak of it, of the terrible thing they had been ordered to do. Journalists picked up on the information with interest. Somehow Glenlyon lost the written order to attack. It was picked up and sent to Paris. There it was published in the Paris Gazette and news spread across a shocked Europe of the atrocity. It was not going to just go away.

King William was fighting battles in France, and, to his shame, ignored what was happening in Scotland. Dallrymple was never disciplined for the disreputable order. Colonel Hill too seemed unconcerned, despite recognising MacIain’s desire to make the oath. He wrote to the Lord Chancellor of Scotland telling him in a military report that he had ‘ruined Glencoe’, among other business. If he had misgivings he didn’t share them.

At this point Charles Leslie, Jacobite barrister, tabloid pamphleteer and political propagandist decided to seek the whole truth. He was thorough and precise, collecting documentary evidence, talking to the soldiers and recording eye-witness accounts. Parliament tried to dismiss his findings as a Jacobite conspiracy theory. Queen Mary, however, started asking questions. By 1693, with Charles Leslie stirring up the public and Queen Mary putting pressure on the government, King William was forced to hold an official enquiry. It was a cover-up, exonerating the King, and no one was satisfied with it. Questions continued to be raised in Parliament.

In 1695, the year following Queen Mary’s death, there was a second enquiry. This time the king was not allowed to look at the report before publication. The second enquiry went further. It concluded that an act of treason had been perpetrated on the people of Glencoe by their own government. But who would take the actual blame for this crime? In the first instance it decided a ‘mistake’ had been made not accepting MacIain’s oath.

The King was once again spared from blame. Dallrymple was deemed to have ‘wrongly interpreted’ the king’s wishes. He was dismissed from his post as secretary of State for Scotland. Later the 19th Century politican and historian, Thomas Macaulay, accused King William of a ‘great breach of duty’ in not disciplining Dallymple further. Not long after, through the revolving door of politics, Dallrymple was back in office. After William’s death in 1702, he played a key role in forming the single state of Great Britain.

The axe fell heaviest on Robert Campbell of Glenlyon and the other officers involved that day. They were found guilty of ‘slaughter under trust’, despite the fact they were following the orders of their superiors. Parliament recommended they stand trial. In the end no one did. Robert Campbell of Glenlyon died of alcoholism. He never recovered from the burden of following those orders. It was recommended to the king that Major Duncanson and Lieutenant-Colonel Hamilton should also be made to answer questions. The king declined to act.

As for the MacDonalds, they returned to their glen, they re-built their houses and re-settled their families. John MacIain, eldest son of Alistair, became the 13th Clan Chief, building his home on the site of his father’s house. Three hundred years later opinion is still sharply divided on whether Clan Campbell should be held accountable for the murders. The truth is too complicated to unravel. I myself can be a forgiving person and hold Dalrymple most accountable, it's a shame he was never brought to task for the murders. The Campbell's around the Highlands in my opinion were not complicit in the murders, the high heid yins in Edinburgh though were probably up to there ears in it, although to what extent they knew of the planned attack is debatable.

I was going to post a pic of Dalrymple but decided against it, instead we should remember the people of Glencoe who were wronged in a horrible way that day.

#Scotland #History

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tkmedia · 3 years ago

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2021 NBA Finals: Bucks' Giannis Antetokounmpo making good on promise to Milwaukee with historic performances

Getty Images MILWAUKEE -- Late in the fourth quarter of Game 3 of the NBA Finals on Sunday night, with the game well in hand, Giannis Antetokounmpo walked off the floor to a standing ovation from the adoring crowd inside Fiserv Forum. It was a scene that has played out hundreds of times since he arrived in Milwaukee. Only this time it was on the biggest stage of the sport, and he had just led the Milwaukee Bucks to a 120-100 win over the Phoenix Suns to cut the series deficit to 2-1.It was a moment 17,240 days in the making, as the Bucks notched their first Finals win in Milwaukee since 1974. In the 47 years since, the Bucks have fielded some good-to-great teams. Marques Johnson and Co. were a real problem in the 1980s, as were the Ray Allen-led squads of the early 2000s, but they were never able to break through. And other than that, things have been dark.Growing up in Milwaukee over the past 20-plus years, there were times where it felt more likely that the Bucks would leave the city than get back to the Finals. Reasons to see the team were few and far between, and when you did file into the cavernous Bradley Center back in the day it was to see whatever star happened to be in town that night. There weren't many more depressing or dead-end situations in the league. That all changed when a wiry, bright-eyed kid showed up from Greece in 2013. It was curiosity at first. Who was this kid who one day wired all his money back home and started running to the arena because he didn't have anything left for a cab, only to catch a lift from a friendly couple. Then cautious intrigue. Bucks fans had been burned by false dawns before, but this seemed different. The things he was doing in games were unlike anyone in the league had seen, let alone Milwaukee. He had unique physical gifts, and the work ethic to match. After all, he was nicknamed the Greek Freak for a reason.Finally, a full on love affair. Around 2017, when he made his first All-Star Game and All-NBA team, it started to become clear that there was really something special brewing here. Then came the MVPs, the No. 1 seeds and the playoff runs. The city had waited so long for a superstar, a reason to care and feel hopeful about the team, and it finally had one. And then he stayed. When he failed in the playoffs, he stayed. When seemingly national media members were questioning his future in Milwaukee, he stayed. When the rest of the league was forming superteams, he stayed. The bond was forged, his legacy in the city cemented. Whatever happened from there on out, he had chosen Milwaukee when few others would. He was their guy. "The way that this city has supported me and my family has been amazing from Day 1," Giannis said after signing his five-year, $228 million supermax extension. "I was 18, I'm 26 right now. All I know is Milwaukee. When I came here I fell in love with the city, it's a city that loves basketball. It's a place that I want to be, it's a place that I want to raise my kids. I feel good here. My family feels good here. I'm good."Sitting inside a raucous Fiserv Forum on Sunday, it was hard not to be emotional watching it all come full circle. In today's NBA, relationships like this between player and city are growing rarer and rarer. But here were the Bucks, so often overlooked and disregarded, succeeding in the Finals thanks to their homegrown superstar. The fact that he had nearly snapped his leg in half a few weeks earlier only made the whole thing more surreal. In Game 3, he was relentless and dominant, looking every bit the self assure superstar he's become over the past few years. He finished with 41 points, 13 rebounds and six assists on 14 of 23 from the field. No loose balls or rebounds were escaping his grasp. No mismatch was going unpunished. He became the first player since LeBron James in 2016 to score 40-plus points in back-to-back Finals games, and joined Shaquille O'Neal as the only players in Finals history to put up 40-plus points and 10-plus rebounds in back-to-back games. With two more 40-point outings, he would match Michael Jordan's Finals record. What he's doing is quite literally, historic, and he's doing it all in a Bucks uniform. "I feel like I've come a long way just to be able to sit here, being interviewed by you guys, playing in this game, being with my teammates, thinking I'm going to be out for a year, coming back," Giannis said after the game. "It's been a long journey and I'm trying to enjoy every single moment of it. I've said in the past I know I'm going to be doing this for a while for the next 10, 12, years, whatever my goal is. So, I just try to enjoy each day and try to take as much as possible from each day and try to be in the moment. "And just being able to be out there," he continued. "Being down or up or whatever the case may be in the series, 20,000 fans outside the arena, cheering your name, cheering for the team and just happy to have NBA basketball at this time of the year with two of the last teams standing after, I don't know, 50 years, whatever the case might be the last time we had an NBA Finals game, that's amazing."But for all the excitement, there's also the lurking reminder that this was just one out of four. He's always made it clear that his ultimate goal is to bring a championship to Milwaukee, not just a Finals appearance. This has been a great run so far, but the job's not done yet. The Bucks are going to need, at the very least, a few more otherworldly performances like we've seen in Games 2 and 3, and will have to win at least once in Phoenix. If Giannis can pull that off and bring the trophy home for the first time in 50 years, he will truly be the stuff NBA legends are made of. Read the full article

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How Rhode Island Fell to the Coronavirus PROVIDENCE, R.I. — The numbers began ticking up in September. After a quiet summer, doctors at Rhode Island Hospital began seeing one or two patients with Covid-19 on each shift — and soon three. Then four. Cases climbed steadily until early December, when Rhode Island earned the dubious distinction of having more cases and deaths per 100,000 people than any other state in the country. The case rate still puts it among the top five states. Where did this tightly knit state go wrong? Former Gov. Gina Raimondo’s “pauses” on economic activity were short-lived and partial, leaving open indoor dining, shopping malls and bowling alleys. But the shutdowns were no patchier than those in many other states. Until late summer, she was lauded for reining in the virus. Even now, few residents blame her for the bleak numbers. (Ms. Raimondo was sworn in as the secretary of commerce on Wednesday night.) Experts point instead to myriad other factors, all of which have played out elsewhere in the country but converged into a bigger crisis here. The fall chill sent people indoors, where risk from the virus is highest, and the holidays brought people together. Rhode Island is tiny — you can traverse it in 45 minutes. But crammed into that smallish area are a million people, for a population density second only to that of New Jersey. If everyone in the world is connected by six degrees of separation, Rhode Islanders seem to be connected by maybe two. Central Falls, the epicenter of Rhode Island’s epidemic, has a density of 16,000 people per square mile, almost twice that of Providence. “Just imagine, 16,000 people per square mile — I mean, that’s amazing,” said Dr. Pablo Rodriguez, a member of the government committee that guides Covid vaccine distribution in Rhode Island. “It doesn’t take much for the spark to create an outbreak.” Apart from its density, Rhode Island has a high percentage of elderly residents in nursing homes, accounting for the bulk of deaths. Packed into the state are multiple urban areas — Central Falls, Pawtucket, Providence — where language barriers, mistrust and jobs have left immigrant families in multigenerational homes particularly vulnerable. The state is also home to multiple colleges that set off chains of infection in the early fall. For months, the hospitals in Rhode Island were understaffed and overwhelmed. Doctors and nurses were trying to cope with rising caseloads, often without the protective equipment they needed, with constantly shifting guidelines and with their own resilience stretched to the limit. Dr. Megan Ranney, a researcher and public health advocate, is also an emergency room physician at Rhode Island Hospital who has witnessed the full scope of the state’s crisis firsthand. What she saw unfold over a single shift offers a window into what happened. Plowing Through It One day in late December, as the crisis reached new heights, Dr. Ranney girded for a long eight-hour shift. The sores behind her ears, where her glasses and the straps of the N95 and surgical masks dug in, still had not healed. But how could she complain, Dr. Ranney said, when her medical residents “eat, sleep, breathe Covid” five days a week? The patients had it worse, she knew. Anxious and isolated, they became even more discomfited by the masked and unrecognizable doctors and nurses rushing around them. During Dr. Ranney’s shift the prior week, she had seen a broad spectrum: elderly people on a downward spiral, otherwise healthy young Latino men, Cape Verdean immigrants with limited English comprehension. These demographics are partly what made Rhode Island particularly susceptible, said Dr. Ashish Jha, dean of the School of Public Health at Brown University in Providence: “Certainly in New England, it is the poorest state — so a lot of poverty, and a lot of multigenerational poverty.” As in most of the country, the Latino community has borne the brunt of the epidemic. In Rhode Island, Latinos have 6.7 times the risk for hospitalization and 2.5 times the risk of death, compared with white people. In the days before her shift, Dr. Ranney had been working in a part of the hospital intended to deal with non-Covid cases. But even people with other ailments, like ankle fractures, turned out to be positive for the virus, she found. “I never know from day to day how bad the surge will be,” she said. “I’ve just got to plow through it.” It turned out to be an extraordinarily busy day. “The E.R. is full, the hospital is full, the intensive care unit is full,” Dr. Ranney said. “All of our units are moving as quickly as they can, but the patients keep coming in.” Every time she took off masks during a shift, she ran the risk of contaminating herself. She had had four cups of coffee before this shift, and nothing since. The average age of the patients that night was about 70. One elderly woman who had trouble breathing could not isolate because she lived with her children and grandchildren. At any rate, she arrived at the hospital 10 days into her illness, too late for isolation to matter. Updated March 5, 2021, 5:03 a.m. ET Rhode Island’s epidemic has been disastrous for immigrant families in multigenerational households. “How do you isolate from someone when you have one bathroom?” Dr. Ranney said. It’s a problem throughout this diverse state. When Djini Tavares, 60, became infected in July, she was prepared to spend about $120 a night at a hotel — a sum many in her Cape Verdean community cannot afford — to isolate from her vulnerable 86-year-old father. Even before the pandemic, Ms. Tavares was fastidious about hygiene, keeping mounds of wipes and cleaning supplies in the house at all times. She could not imagine where she had picked up the virus. The loss of her godmother and a friend to Covid-19 had shaken her. Cape Verdeans are a close-knit community, and not being able to mourn the dead has been painful, Ms. Tavares said: “Culturally, I think it’s causing us to hurt even more.” On her shift, Dr. Ranney encountered Covid-19 patients who had blood clots or heart problems, or who still needed oxygen weeks after their diagnosis. Many patients had been very careful — or said they had — but were infected after a family member brought the virus into the household. The story is told too often in Rhode Island. Abby Burchfield, 58, lost her mother and stepfather to Covid-19 within days of each other at an assisted living center in New Jersey in April. Devastated and afraid, she and her family stayed away from restaurants, washed their hands often, and tried to wear masks everywhere. It wasn’t enough. Ms. Burchfield’s younger daughter, Lily, 21, became infected at her college in Virginia in August and was hospitalized. Then, in late October, her husband, Jimmy, 58, caught the virus from a co-worker who was infected but did not wear a mask. Despite Ms. Burchfield’s best efforts she, too, was infected. She was hospitalized after she collapsed suddenly in the family kitchen. She recovered, but her husband, who was also admitted to the hospital, still has no taste, a limited sense of smell, and continuing fatigue. “My biggest fear right now is protecting my older daughter,” Ms. Burchfield said. Workplace exposures have especially hurt the Latino and Cape Verdean community, many of whom hold jobs that cannot be done from home. But in state surveys, it also became obvious that people still were holding get-togethers of 15 to 20 people even as the virus spread, said Dr. James McDonald, medical director of the Covid-19 unit at the Rhode Island Department of Health. What You Need to Know About the Vaccine Rollout “People weren’t willing to live differently during the pandemic,” he said. Dr. Ranney said there were several such cases in the emergency room that night. “It’s frustrating to see patients come in from car crashes when they were not wearing a seatbelt, or to see patients with a firearm injury because the firearm wasn’t stored safely,” she said. “It’s like that to see folks with Covid.” The Masks ‘Were Disgusting’ Some nights in emergency medicine, the diagnoses and treatments are immediately obvious. But on this shift, Dr. Ranney said, “there was very, very little that was straightforward or smooth.” A number of patients with substance abuse problems appeared, as well as people with mental illness who had become a danger to themselves. And “we’re seeing a lot of people who are just lonely,” she said. Dr. Ranney would get a respite, but many medical residents and nurses in Rhode Island were already burning out. Some felt that hospital administrators had not protected them. Early in the pandemic, most health care workers in Rhode Island, as in other parts of the country, did not have N95 masks. The masks are single-use, but when the nurses received an N95 each, they were asked to place them in paper bags at the end of their shift and put them back on again the next day. “They stunk, they were slimy, they were disgusting. They made your face break out,” said a nurse at Rhode Island Hospital, who spoke on condition of anonymity because the hospital had instructed employees not to speak to the news media. If a strap broke, the mask would be returned with new straps stapled on. “The staples would dig into your face,” the nurse said. Many nurses got just 40 hours of sick time a year, which roughly translated to three 12-hour shifts; a fourth day out might earn a reprimand. Because of this, many nurses weren’t tested, and some came to work even when they were sick. At Eleanor Slater Hospital in Cranston, R.I., ill staff members led to an outbreak of at least 29 employees and nine patients. It’s a phenomenon seen in hospitals throughout the United States. The rules for patients don’t always accord with the science, said one nurse at Rhode Island Hospital. At first, the hospital did not allow anybody up from the E.R. until test results were back. But as the first surge ebbed, the rules became lax. Patients were sent up with pending test results, potentially exposing other patients as well as the nurses who cared for them. After treating one such patient, at least nine nurses tested positive for the virus, the nurse said. The policy at most hospitals in Rhode Island now is to have health care workers wear N95 respirators or similar reusable masks at all times, and to test anyone suspected of having Covid-19. But that does not account for patients who might be asymptomatic and who come in for other ailments. Rhode Island has adopted one unusual approach: Officials are distributing vaccines to anyone who will take them in Central Falls, regardless of age. It’s a strategy that few other jurisdictions have tried. “We decided to do that because of the horrific toll of the pandemic in those communities,” said Dr. Rodriguez, the vaccine committee member. Twenty percent of the adult residents have received at least one dose at local clinics, not including those who may have been immunized at work or elsewhere. The state’s plan to immunize those at highest risk by age and geography, he added, “will put out the fire where it is burning the most intensely.” In recent weeks, the number of cases in Rhode Island have fallen, as they have in the rest of the country. And fewer health care workers are getting sick because they have been immunized, so hospital shifts are better than they used to be, Dr. Ranney said. But cases in the state are still the third highest per capita in the country. And doctors are continuing to see patients who have so-called long Covid, she said: “The trouble is that once patients get admitted, they don’t leave.” Source link Orbem News #coronavirus #fell #Island #Rhode

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Hope Street

By Rasam

[caption: The author, Rasem, with his father in Kabul, 1978].

The journey from Kabul to New York took us two years. I won't go into all our difficulties except to say the time did not pass pleasantly. I was a carefree seven-year-old when we left Afghanistan, an anxious nine-year-old when we arrived.

No one met us at JFK airport. We sat down to wait. What were we waiting for? I didn't know. When I asked Dad about it, he just muttered something about "some nice people." I could see that he was nervous, and that made me nervous too. The hours passed, and my butt went numb, sitting on those hard plastic airport chairs. At one point, I overheard my mother, asking what we were going to do about money. Dad assured her everything would be okay but didn't say how.

Finally, two men in a van picked us up. Who they were or where they were taking us, I didn't know, but that was my normal state. We drove for three hours because our destination was not New York, but in West Philadelphia. The men dropped us off in the pitch-black dead of night and drove away. We could see that the apartment was completely empty. Dad did the light switch-- nothing happened. He moved the switch up and down: still nothing.

"Is this America?" I asked Dad.

"Can we go back?" said my sister.

Dad didn't say a word to either of us. He just took our only suitcase inside, and our new life began.

The next day, a local church supplied us with a bunch of mattresses, and just in time because on our third night in America, Mom started having contractions: she was pregnant with her fifth child. We didn't have a phone, so Dad went out to look for help, leaving my sister Perveen in charge. By the time he came back, 14-year-old Parveen had delivered our family's first American citizen: Azam.

I remember how the sheer abundance dazzled me the first time I went to the supermarket with Dad. Look at all the milk! Look at all the everything! I couldn't believe my eyes. Shelf after shelf of...stuff! My mother had often described heaven to me as a place with rivers of milk. Standing in that supermarket, I could believe we were in heaven. "Is this America?" I thought.

Then we started home with our groceries. All of a sudden, an African American guy came up behind us and asked my father for a light. My father was wearing a suit jacket, as many Afghan men do. When he took out his lighter, his food stamps showed. In a flash, this guy grabbed the stamps out of his father's pocket and took off. My father just stared after him, not even bothering to chase after him. I felt dazed, but then, dazed was how I mostly felt during our early days in America.

West Philadelphia was just a pause for us. After only two years, my father decided to move us to North Philadelphia, where the rents were cheaper, even though the neighborhoods were much worse. We ended up in an old, broken down, two-story on Hope Street, and there we spent the next eight years. The house had three bedrooms and one bathroom. A large crack ran down the front of it from top to bottom, and the whole building looked like it was about to tip over. A sewer pipe ran right across the basement, and when that pipe broke (as it often did) the basement flooded with sewage. Dad had to fix it himself, and I always served as his assistant how I came to dread that basement!

Dad had a room to himself. My brother Ibrahim and I shared another room because we were the oldest boys. The rest of the pack, all six of them, jammed into the third room with Mom. That's right: six: Mom had given birth to two more children after Azam was born, Fatima and Ahmad Shah (and would have on more later on). I don't have to tell you life was tight in that third room!

North Philly was a little more diverse than our old neighborhood. We had black people, white people, and Puerto Ricans living around us, but we still didn't fit in because we were none of the above. My people thought we came from India-- if they were told that we were from "Afghanistan," they just scratched their head: they didn't know where that was.

The summer after night grade, my father decided to get me a job working on a hot dog stand owned by a Pakistani friend of his. The "stand" was a metal booth in front of a busy hospital. In the summer, it heated up to about 120 degrees in there. I worked 12 hours days and made $200 a week- and I worked hard! I had to wonder: Was this really how hard people had to work to make a measly $200? After two weeks, the owner let me go (he said I was too slow). I had never been so glad! I hated that job, hated the heat: it reminded me of Pakistan.

Losing the job, however, left me at loose ends. Then one day, my friend George said, "Hey, you want to help me in my business?" I need the money, so I said okay.

George's "business" was selling crack cocaine. In the beginning, I was just a lookout: I stood on the corner while the older boys sold drugs, and every time I saw a cop, I yelled "Agua!" which was code for "here-comes-a-cop." For this "work," I got paid $200-- a day, not a week.

That job opened doors. George trusted me because I didn't cheat, didn't try to rip him off, and didn't do drugs. Soon enough, I was moved from scouting to bagging, a mark of trust. I would be given a whole kilo of cocaine, and I would divide it up into little "dime bags."

After six or even months, George and the people he worked for promoted me to dealing. I became one of the guys standing around in the street, waiting for white junkies from the suburbs to come by. We worked on commission, getting dime bags for seven dollars and selling them for ten; and believe me, they sold like hotcakes. On a busy day, I could make anywhere from $400 to $1,000.

At one point I had a ring on every finger, gold medallion, lots of bling even though I was only 14, I drove one of my friend George's many cars. It was just crazy how easy it was to be doing that-- and how hard it was not be doing it-- because in that neighborhood if you weren't on the corner selling crack, you were in an aluminum hot dog stand, working twenty-hour days, in 120 degrees heat, for less than minimum wage.

Even with all the bling, I couldn't get a date. I just didn't have much confidence in myself. I came across as a tough guy because I knew certain people, but I wasn't tough at all. The actual tough guys accepted me and liked me, though, and the more they trusted me, the more I wanted to be trusted, so I did my best not to let them down. Looking back, I find that whole era very strange, yet I understand why I fell into it. The temptations were just so strong. In junior high, all my clothes came from thrift stores. We never went to barbers because we couldn't afford it. The first part of sneakers my father ever bought me brand new was in eighth grade. Besides, by the time I was in high school, I had expenses. My father insisted on my paying rent.

There's one day I'll never forget. I was at George's place, working at my daily chore of bagging cocaine. I had about two kilos of white powder sitting there and maybe $20,000 in cash, plus some guns. Suddenly I heard the dut-dut-dut-dut of somebody knocking, went downstairs, opened the door, and saw a cop standing on the porch with a middle-aged couple. My heart starting pounding, but I kept my cool. I wiped my fingers casually against my jeans-- I never used gloves when I bagged, so I had all this cocaine packed under my fingernails. Then I invited them into the house-- I figured it would look suspicious if I didn't. Now I had a cop standing in the hall and two kilos of coke heaped on a table upstairs; that was my whole life on the line, right there.

The couple turned out to be the parents of a 15-year-old girl George knew. They couldn't find their daughter and wanted to ask George about it. I said, "Well, I'd love to help, but he's not here. When he gets back, I'll ask him to call you..."

They accepted what I said and left. I rushed upstairs, frantic-nervous, gather my stuff, and took off. That was the closest I came to going to jail. I was totally in the life, though, the whole nine yards. I was there when fights broke out because somebody was trying to take over our hot corner. I mean fists, guns-- you could not believe what went on. When you're in that life, you lose perspective. You could kill someone, get killed, go to jail-- you don't notice. It all seems normal. Guns are like some joke. You're living on some edge, but you don't even know it. I spent almost all my time out on those streets. I rarely went home, and when I did, I paid scant attention to the rest of my family. I had no idea what was going on with my siblings.

One day, right in the middle of that time of bling and coke and guns and money, I came home and saw a bunch of strangers in the house. I went upstairs and found my mother fixing my sister Perveen's hair and putting mascara on her eyes. Perveen must have had a pound of makeup on her face, but behind that mask of makeup, she was wearing a devastated look. I knew something big was going on, but I didn't know what.

My father then came upstairs and spoke to Perveen and Mom in a voice too low for the guests downstairs to hear. "Do you want this marriage?" he said. "Now is the time to say something. Will you go through with this?"

Marriage? This was the first I had heard of any marriage. As it turned out, this was the first that any of us had heard of it, including Parveen! At 18, according to our Pashtun traditions, Parveen was too old to be single; she was, however, barely out of high school. Yet my father had suddenly arranged a match for her.

He didn't know the man he wanted my sister to marry. He didn't even know much about him, except he was Afghan-- that was the only thing that mattered. The only other Afghan family we knew in Philadelphia had referred him to my father.

I don't remember Perveen responding to my father, but Mom said, "Yes," with her eyes cast down. She was just telling him what he wanted to hear. I think my dad wanted to feel like he was giving the women an option, but there was no option, really. There was no way my sister or my mother could have told him, "Call the whole thing off. Send them home." Not at that point.

I went to my room, feeling very confused. I didn't know what to make of it all. I didn't want to be connected. My life was outside, hanging with my friends on the streets. A few minutes later, I went out to meet some of those friends. On the way out, I saw Perveen sitting downstairs with her head drooping, surrounded by strangers, all of whom were smiling at her. One of the strangers, a blad older man with a round belly, had a particularly big smile on his face: he was to be Perveen's husband.

A few days after the marriage announcements, my sister went out as if was going on an errand, but she never came back-- or rather she came back just once, very briefly, accompanied by a gigantic, intimidating African American guy. My father was out, but she told my mother that the marriage was off. Then she left again, and she was gone for good, just gone.

Eventually, we found out she had run away to Puerto Pico with her boyfriend. My father didn't even know Parveen had a boyfriend. He didn't know a whole lot about any of us. For that matter, none of us knew much about each other, either. I had no inkling about the boyfriend, for example. I was too involved in my life outside the home.

None one us ever even saw the boyfriend. He wasn't the intimidating black guy, who was just a friend. The man Perveen ran away with was a Puerto Rican fellow who lived up the street from us.

My father reacted badly to Perveen's disappearance. Basically, he said he was going to kill her for this. Would he really have killed her? I don't think so, but he did have an intensity about him that she feared. We all did. NO kind of his could talk to him without being scared. He wasn't a big guy, and outside the house, especially around other Afghans, he was unbelievably charming, friendly, courtly, and diplomatic, but he did not have a drop of emotional weakness in him: he was one of these proud Pashtuns who held his own, any time, any place.

God knows I was afraid of him: he beat me mercilessly many times-- many, many times. I don't even know how many times. He'd take the radio cord and hold my feet up. He'd take a broomstick and hit me on the back.

And yet, in that whole drama surrounding Perveen's engagement, I lined up with my father emotionally. I was angry at Perveen! I remember doing stupid things like cutting her picture out of a family album. I saw ashamed of her on father's behalf. He beat me, but I still identified with him and only later looking back di dI come to understand my feelings. I was an adolescent, still trying to discover my own identity, my manhood, and I couldn't stand any humiliation to my father. Shame on him was shame on me. Being the oldest boy, I felt like a had a to upload whatever was left of our family honor. Looking back, I can see that ignorance was a big part of it all, but this didn't soften what I felt at the time; painful, painful shame.

We never had much contact with the tiny Afghan community in Philadelphia, but after my sister broke her engagement and ran away with her boyfriend, even that slight connection was completely severed. My father felt his prestige had suffered with the community and that every time Afghans looked at him, they were thinking, "That man can't even control his own daughter." In his heart, the worst thing that could possibly happen to an Afghan man had happened to him.

And it was then-- amidst all that turmoil of my father's rage, my life on the streets, Perveen's disappearance-- it was amidst all that madness that my mom gave birth to her eight and last child: Nicolle.

We didn't keep her. After what had happened with Parveen, my father announced that he didn't want another girl in the house, so we would give this one up for adoption. My mom had no say in it, nor did any of the rest of us. Nicolle was sent away at birth, and we didn't see her again for eighteen years.

My friends ask if all that abuse scared me. I say, not at all, not at all. I'm not scared because I've learned to let go of that kind of grudge. I know it does no good to hold onto hatred. Besides, I've always reasoned that my father suffered in his own way when he was young. His mother died when he was little; he never had a mother to love him. He got hit a lot when he was young, as a way of being disciplined. The fact is, he didn't know how to deal with any situation except to hit. He didn't know any other way to solve things. His communication skills just weren't there. The beatings? They were his way of communicating. His way of saying, "I love you."

My drug dealing days didn't last long. Within one year, George's cocaine business had gone down. He got locked up and lost most of his money and all of his cars. I never did get caught, and I broke away from the business to look for a safer route through life. Perveen came back from Puerto Rico after a year, but I had little to do with her at first. I was still angry. I didn't really connect with her again until many years had passed and I had gone through my own changes.

The only Afghan Dad kept in touch with after that was his friend Ibrahim in California. They had known each other since their teenage years, and Ibrahim had often urged Dad to come to California, telling him that he would have a better life there because the San Francisco Bay Area had a much bigger Afghan community.

I longed for us to make that move. I longed to live where I could find other people like me. The day my father told us we were moving to California, I felt so happy. I couldn't sleep. I just lay in bed all night thinking about that warm California sunshine. Dad and I got a 15-passenger van for our drive across the country and small U-haul trailer for our few possessions. When the day of our departure came, at last, we packed quickly, much as we had done the day we left Afghanistan. Dad said, "Bismillah-i-Rahman-i-Rahim" (In the name God, the bountiful and the merciful) and started the car. Once again we set off almost empty -handed with no idea of what new life we were heading toward, only that we were leaving Hope Street for a better future-- we hoped.

Notes

This autobiographical story was first published "Snapshots: This Afghan American Life" edited by Tamim Ansary and Yalda Asmatey 2008. The publisher Kajakai Press kindly permitted to republish this story on Afghan Magazine.

Purchase the book at Amazon.

Visit the Tamim Ansary's website

About the Author Rasam

Rasam was born in Kabul, Afghanistan and came to the United States at a very young age. He began drawing at the age of nine. As a shy kid in a new environment, it was easier for him to communicate with others through art than with words. Over the past several years, his art education has been centered on classical realism.

Visit Rasam's website

Read Rasam’s piece Cultural Taboos

April 2019, AfghanMagazine

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hecate-herself · 5 years ago

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To mark 100 Invisible Library one shots on AO3 I am setting myself a challenge.

The first 5 people who anonymously send me a prompt from the list below the cut (every single prompt that I have come up with, including new ones that I haven't posted yet) and a shipping/ scenario, will get 5,000 words written for that prompt.

If it isn’t anonymous, I won’t do it, if you can’t decide on a shipping that’s less important, but I will only do anonymous responses for this specific thing

1. “[mama/papa]’s got you.”

2. “…How on earth did you manage to get up there?”

3. “After everything that you put me through, you come here and ask for help? How dare you?”

4. “Alright, which one of you idiots left your shoes out for me to trip over again?”

5. “Am I just a game to you?”

6. “Are you asleep?”

“Not anymore.”

7. “Are you bleeding?”

“We don’t have time to deal with it. I’ll be fine.”

8. “Are you day drinking?”

“It’s apple juice, not whiskey.”

9. “Are you sure that you have enough blankets?”

10. “Are you wearing a new lipbalm? It tastes really good.”

11. “Bite me.”

12. “Can I adopt the stray cat out in the street?”

“Do you want fleas? Because that is how you get fleas.”

13. “Can I have a story?”

“I just ready you a story.”

“’nother story?”

14. “Can I kiss you?”

15. “Can you check for monsters under the bed?”

16. “Can you please tidy your toys away? Preferably before I break my neck tripping over a stuffed turtle.”

17. “Come any closer and I will hit you with this book. I swear to God!”

18. “Come to bed with me?”

19. “Come to bed. I sleep better with you there.”

20. “Did you ever love me, or was it just an act?”

21. “Did you get shot?”

22. “Did you have a bad dream?”

“Uh huh.”

“Come on, get into bed with us, you can sleep in bed with us tonight.”

23. “Did you just get dragged through a bush, or are you always this messy?”

“I couldn’t find a comb.”

24. “Did you just stab me?”

25. “Did you make me breakfast in bed? I think that I love you.”

26. “Did you sleep last night? At all?”

“God no, what do you take me for?”

27. “Do we have any cookies in? No? I’m making cookies.”

28. “Do you even still love me?”

29. “Do you have a reason to get out of bed today? Let’s just stay here as long as we can.”

30. “Do you pinky promise?”

“What are you? Five?”

31. “Do you want a bed time story?”

32. “Does it hurt here?”

“Everywhere hurts.”

33. “Don’t go. Please. I can’t lose you.”

34. “Don’t move, they hit your head really hard.”

35. “Don’t pass out on me now, we’re nearly home.”

36. “Don’t touch me!”

37. “Don’t you dare die on me, you promised me!”

38. “Don’t you look absolutely stunning?”

“You’re biased.”

“I am your partner, I am allowed to be.”

39. “First day of school, are we excited?”

“No.”

40. “Fuck off and fall off a cliff.”

41. “Fuck.”

“Fuck!”

“No. Don’t repeat that. It’s a naughty word.”

“Fuck.”

42. “Get off my foot!”

“Get your foot out from underneath my foot.”

43. “Get out!”

“Please let me explain.”

“Out!”

44. “Get out. I am done with you.”

45. “Go ahead, leave, I am not going to stop you.”

46. “Happy birthday!”

47. “Have a good day.”

“Don’t tell me what to do.”

48. “Have you stolen my shirt?”

49. “Hey, are you alright?”

“Do I look alright to you?”

50. “Hey, you passed out, stay laying down for a bit longer.”

51. “Hold me, please?”

52. “Hold still, I think it’s broken, I can set it, but this will really hurt.”

53. “How did I get here?”

“I had to carry you. You hit your head really hard.”

54. “How did you get pen that high up the wall?”

55. “How do you feel about spiders?”

“Where is it?”

56. “How is the hangover?”

“You can great straight to hell, do not pass go, do not collect two hundred pounds.”

57. “How many coffees is that?”

“You try having a toddler who refuses to go to bed.”

58. “Hush little baby don’t say a word, mummy has a headache and your crying hurts.”

59. “I am madly in love with you.”

“Why?”

“I don’t have a clue.”

60. “I can’t breathe.”

61. “I can’t sleep.”

62. “I can’t stand the sight of you right now. Get away from me.”

“I just wanted to help.”

63. “I don’t mean to alarm you, but the spider in the shower is frankly massive.”

64. “I don’t want to talk about it, just leave me alone.”

65. “I don’t… I don’t feel good.”

66. “I dreamed about you last night. I woke up happy.

67. “I feel like no one could ever love me.”

68. “I feel safe in your arms.”

69. “I hate you so much.”

“I know. I deserve it.”

70. “I haven’t slept in days. The nightmares won’t stop.”

71. “I just put them down for a nap. We probably have an hour of peace.”

72. “I love mummy.”

“What about me?”

“Just mummy.”

73. “I love you, but please, shut up.”

74. “I love you.”

“But I don’t love you.”

75. “I may have… mildly panicked?”

“You shot at me!”

76. “I need a hug. Please?”

77. “I never want you to feel like you are alone.”

78. “I said that I never wanted to see you again. Why are you here?”

79. “I think I can feel them kicking!”

80. “I think you need to see a doctor.”

81. “I think you’re bleeding…”

82. “I trusted you.”

83. “I want another baby.”

84. “I was thinking, you, me, the bottle of wine in the kitchen and sitting in front of the fire. Thoughts?”

“Yes please.”

85. “I will make dinner if you don’t speak for the rest of the afternoon.”

86. “I wish that I never had met you.”

87. “I’d have stayed, if you had asked me to.”

88. “I’m calling the doctor.”

“I’m fine.”

“You really aren’t.”

89. “I’m not hurt.”

“You are actively bleeding.”

“Oh. So I am.”

90. “I’m sorry, but I didn’t have a choice.”

“There’s always a choice!”

91. “I’ve got you, you are going to be okay.”

92. “If the kid can nap, am I allowed to as well?”

93. “Is it wrong for me to wish that they never grow up and I can keep my baby forever?”

“I kind of want that too.”

94. “Is this heaven?”

“Well, judging by your presence here, hell.”

“Oh. So I am dead?”

95. “Isn’t it your bedtime?”

“Hypocrite.”

“Come to bed with me then.”

96. “Isn’t this illegal?”

“Yes, but technically no.”

97. “it could be worse.”

“You aren’t the one bleeding.”

“Look, you are still alive. Stop whining.”

98. “It could be worse?”

“They got jam everywhere!”

99. “It hurts.”

“I know, it is going to be okay, I promise.”

“It burns, please… Make it stop.”

100. “It would be better if you just forgot me.”

101. “It’s just a bad dream. I’ve got you, it’s okay.”

102. “It’s just a bit of blood. I’m fine.”

103. “It’s just a nightmare. I’ve got you.”

104. “It’s so cold.”

“You need to hold on a bit longer, you are going to be fine. Just stay awake a little longer.”

105. “It’s your bedtime.”

106. “Kiss me, please?”

“Nah.”

“Fine, I will kiss someone else.”

“No, don’t do that!”

107. “Kiss me. Now.”

108. “Kiss me.”

109. “Leave me alone. I don’t want to talk to anyone right now.”

110. “Look up. Mistletoe.”

111. “Lunch?”

“It’s half seven. In the evening.”

“Dinner then?”

112. “May I have this dance?”

113. “Nothing could go wrong, you said. Well guess what? Everything has gone wrong!”

114. “Oh god I think I am going to throw up.”

115. “Oh, you can go to hell.”

“Stop threatening me with a good time.”

116. “Okay, start from the beginning, you lost me right after you said that you punched someone.”

“That was the first thing that I said.”

117. “One drink, two drink, three drink, floor!”

118. “One little shoe. Two little shoes. Already to go out.”

119. “Open wide. Come on, eat your dinner!”

“It probably tastes awful.”

“It doesn’t- okay. No, it is pretty bad.”

120. “Pass me that would you- no, no the other one. On your left. No… your other left.”

121. “Penny for your thoughts?”

“If my thoughts are only worth a penny, I shall keep it to myself.”

122. “Please breath, please… oh god.”

123. “Please don’t say that, I don’t think I can take it.”

124. “Please don’t vomit on me. Please don’t vomit on me. Please don’t… You vomited on me.”

125. “Please tell me that isn’t all your blood.”

126. “Please… I am begging you, just open your eyes. Please. You can’t die.”

127. “Put the cookie down, eat your dinner first.”

128. “Quick, I think the baby is coming!”

129. “Roses are red, violets are blue- ow. Fuck you!”

130. “Say goodbye to mama and papa, they’ll be back soon.”

131. “Shh, it’s okay, you don’t need to cry.”

132. “So… the baby is fine, I want you to know that first, they are absolutely fine.”

“What did you do?”

133. “Stay in bed a little longer. It is warm here.”

“Alright, five more minutes, then I have to get up.”

134. “Stomach bug?”

“No, morning sickness.”

135. “Stop lying to me!”

136. “Stop pretending to care.”

137. “Stop smiling at me like that, I am trying to concentrate.”

138. “Stop wiggling! I need to get you changed!”

139. “Take a break. I’ll stay up with them, you need some sleep.”

140. “Take a deep breath.”

141. “It hurts.”

“I know, but you have to breath.”

142. “Thank you for looking after me.”

“For you I would do anything.”

143. “That best not be the last of the milk… Oh you bastard.”

144. “That hit hard, are you okay?”

145. “That is going to leave a really nasty scar.”

146. “That looks broken. You need a doctor.”

147. “The amount of alcohol I am going to need to forget this is going to kill me.”

148. “They have grown so much, it’s hard to believe how little they used to be.”

149. “They won’t stop crying and, in a minute, I think I am going to start crying first.”

150. “Tuck me into bed?”

“You are an adult.”

“So?”

151. “Wake up, I think someone else is here.”

152. “Walk it off.”

“I don’t know if I can walk.”

153. “What are you reading?”

154. “What do you mean you aren’t interested in me, it’s me!”

155. “What if I don’t get better? What if I am broken?”

156. “What would you do if I said that I may have burnt the dinner?”

157. “When mummy and daddy love each other very much…”

158. “Where am I?”

159. “Where did you get that scar from?

160. “Where did you put your blankie this time.”

161. “Who the hell do you think you are?”

“Well-“

“That was rhetorical.”

162. “Why are you looking at me like that?”

“I am just… speechless. You look beautiful.”

163. “Why are you on the floor? Did you fall?”

“Would you believe me if I said not?”

164. “Why did you lie to me?”

165. “Wouldn’t you rather be with [him/her/them]?”

166. “Yes, you look great in my shirt. But I kind of need it back.”

167. “You and me, together. We’re unbeatable. We can go against all odds and come out on top.”

168. “You are perfect, my little [pet name].”

169. “You are the worst mistake I have ever made.”

170. “You broke my heart.”

171. “You didn’t see anything.”

“Yes I did. I saw all of it.”

172. “You drank my coffee? Why must you heart me in this way?”

173. “You hurt me!”

174. “You loved me!”

“Loved. Past tense.”

175. “You made me breakfast in bed? What did you do this time?”

176. “You really are your [mother/father]’s child.”

177. “You ripped my heart to pieces. Did it even hurt when you left?”

178. “You’ll come crawling back to me.”

“Never.”

179. “You’re burning up.”

180. “You’re going to be okay, just breath. Oh god… is that bone?”

181. “Your brat keeps kicking me in the kidney.”

“How come you say they’re mine whenever they are doing that?”

182. “Your nose is bleeding.”

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Forest is a useful app that helps you go phone-free by inspiring you to plant trees

I'm obsessed with my phone. Addicted to it, really. It's not something I'm proud of, but alas, it's true.

I've tried my fair share of productivity apps in hopes of cutting down on screen time, and while many have helped me hone my organizational skills, apps rarely hold users like me accountable if we don't follow through. That's what makes the Forest app so refreshingly different.

With a simple mission to help users "stay focused" and "be present," Forest trains people to manage their time and become less dependent on their phones in a fun, purposeful way. By spending time away from their phones, users grow virtual trees and earn coins, which can then be saved up and used to help plant real trees in five countries in Africa — Cameroon, Kenya, Senegal, Uganda, and Tanzania. The app also gently shames you if you don't successfully complete your goal, which is apparently the component I've always been missing.

In an ideal world, I'd spend less time glued to my iPhone on the weekends. I'd give dining companions my full attention during meals rather than rudely checking incoming push notifications. I'd spend my commute deeply immersed in a book instead of pausing to check social media every ten minutes, and I'd drift off to sleep in the dark without having exposed my retinas to a half hour of blue light beforehand. I downloaded Forest in hopes that it would help turn my unplugged dreams into a reality, and to my great surprise, it did.

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Forest can be purchased on iOS devices for $1.99, and though there are several in-app purchases that help you receive more coins per virtual tree planted— $0.99 for a bottle of Sunshine Elixir, or $1.99 for a box of Sunshine Elixir — you can definitely enjoy the app without them.

To plant real trees across the world, the app partners with Trees for the Future — a nonprofit organization that works to end hunger and poverty by planting trees that help feed families in need. But understanding how the partnership and the app itself work takes a bit of explaining, so let's dive in.

Welcome to the Forest

After downloading Forest, all first-time users are welcomed with a simple set of instructions. The app explains that it will encourage users to stay focused and be more present in their daily lives by planting virtual trees. The trees planted in the app take a certain amount of time to grow — which you can customize depending on how long you want to abstain from your device — but because the trees can only grow if the app remains open, people have to put down their phones if they want to add to their virtual forests.

Before you get started, I recommend visiting the settings page in the app and creating an account so all of your data will be tracked. After that, you're ready to grow.

Image: mashable composite: forest app

To plant a virtual tree, set a timer by dragging the green button around the circular photo of a plant on the app's homepage. The app allows you to set the timer for a minimum of 10 minutes, a maximum of 120 minutes, or any 5-minute increments in between. During the set time, your virtual tree will grow provided you keep the app open, and it will die if you exit the app or attempt to use any outside feature on your phone for longer than a few seconds.

While the death of a digital tree is obviously very low-stakes, and there are no real consequences if you let it bite the dust, over the course of a week using the app I learned that just knowing a few measly minutes away from your phone is all it takes to save a life — even that of a fake tree — is a surprisingly successful motivational tactic.

Planting a virtual tree

When it came time to plant my first virtual tree I wanted to get the feel of the app, so I only set the timer for 10 minutes.

Once you hit the "plant" button, Forest graciously gives you 10 seconds to cancel your impending phone-free commitment, just in case you want to send an important text first, or realize you've made a horrible mistake and aren't ready to unplug, but don't want to put a virtual tree's life at risk.

After embarking on my first Forest experience, I noticed that after the 10-second grace period expires, the cancel countdown is replaced with a button that straight-up says, "Give Up." You can press this at any time during the run of your timer to abandon your mindfulness mission, but just know that doing so will prompt the guilt-ridden question: "Are you sure you want to give up? Your cute little tree will die." 💔

If you're not the type to admit defeat via Give Up button, you always have the option of leaving the app of your own free will — which I will admit I did several times accidentally, simply because I'm so addicted to using my phone. But before killing your tree, Forest gives you a chance to redeem yourself.

The app will send a push notification seconds after you leave, which reads, "Go back to Forest immediately to prevent the tree from dying!" You have less than a minute to return to the app and save your tree, and if you fail to do so, the next time you open Forest, an image of your sad-looking husk of a tree will appear alongside the words: "Oops! you can do better next time!"

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Should you fail to wait out your full timer, a dead tree will show up in your virtual forest to serve as a reminder that you gave up. You won't receive any coins for the minutes you remained in the app before abandoning it, but they will be counted towards your total daily focus time, which is nice.

Planting my first tree was a delightful experience until I received a measly THREE COINS as a reward! After playing around with the app, it appears the maximum reward users can receive for a single plant (without the help of in-app purchases) is 43 coins from a 120-minute timer, which wouldn't be so disheartening if a real-life tree didn't cost a whopping 2,500 coins to plant.

Planting a real tree

If you're downloading the app with the goal of planting real trees, it can definitely be done, but it's going to take a bit of time (or additional money invested in the app) to save up the necessary coins.

The way the system works is that each time a user spends 2,500 virtual coins on a real tree, Forest donates real money to Trees for the Future, which uses that money to plant a tree in Africa.

Unfortunately, due to "budget constraint," the number of real trees each user can currently plant using the app is limited to five. Forest assures users that there will be "limited time events that will allow users to plant more real trees" in the future, though, and planting five trees is still far more productive than not planting any.

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Features galore

While the app's teal home page presents an extremely minimalist design, Forest is full of elaborate features.

For starters, by using the notch located in the upper center of the screen, users can switch from planting solo to planting with friends or family. Enabling the app's Plant Together feature syncs several Forest accounts and raises the stakes by challenging everyone to go phone-free simultaneously. If one person in the group uses their phone, everyone's trees will die, which makes it perfect for group dinners or movie nights.

In the upper left of the app's home screen lies the main menu, which offers a trove of customizable options. It includes nine expandable features: Forest, Timeline, Tags, Friend, Achievements, Store, Real Forest, News, and Settings. Each has the potential to enhance your in-app experience, should you take advantage of them, but I want to highlight the most important.

Image: Forest

The "Forest" option in the Forest app is where you can see all the virtual trees you’ve planted so far. You can use it to track your visual progress over days, weeks, months, or years, and use more specific filters to review your historical app data.

The Tags feature allows you to search more specifically, by the labels you use to tag your plants, such as Work, Study, Social, Rest, Entertainment, and more. This is especially helpful if you’re curious about which types of activities you spend the most time on when you’re not glued to your phone screen.

Achievements allow you to keep track of all your performance awards, such as when you reach four hours of focus time. (These rewards are extra fun because they come with coins.) And the Real Forest page is where you go to turn your coins into real life trees, should you ever reach that impressive milestone. The page also reveals that many real trees have been planted as a result of the app. (At the time of writing, Forest and Trees for the Future had planted 434,459 trees around the world.)

Image: mashable composite: forest

For those of you itching to blow your coins as you earn them, however, the store is the place for you. Forest's in-app store allows users to unlock different species of virtual bushes and trees in hopes of making the virtual gardens more exciting.

Each additional plant — from virtual cacti and trees to flowers and more — takes 500 coins to unlock, and you can also use coins to unlock ambient sounds like "Café in Paris," "Rain and thunder," and "Times Square" to turn phone-free time into a more meditative experience. To listen to an ambient sound while planting a tree, simply press and hold the headphone icon in the upper righthand corner of the app screen.

The verdict

Up until a week ago, I seriously struggled to separate myself from my phone. Now, I'm free from my mobile device whenever I want to be — even if it's only 10 minutes a day.

After using Forest for just a few days, I felt transformed. I used the app at a restaurant one night and it helped me fight the temptation to periodically check my phone. I turned on timers when I wanted to watch television or read books and successfully did so distraction-free. And right before bed, I'd set a 120-minute timer to prevent me from falling into the vicious cycle of late-night social media scrolling. (The creators of Forest have another app called SleepTown that was specifically created to help build more healthy sleep patterns.)

I love that Forest lets users categorize each break they take, and add descriptions — this way I can track whether I spend more time working or binge-watching Queer Eye. And I had some fun with the personalized message feature, which lets you write your own encouraging phrases that pop up throughout your phone-free journey.

Image: forest

The app also lets you set up to five Planting Reminders during a day, so you don't forget to unplug, and I discovered that if you really need to send a timely text message in the middle of a Forest timer, you can cheat the system.

By quickly leaving and returning to the app a few times, you can manage to type and send a text without sacrificing your plant progress. It's not a loophole I abuse often, but it's one I do like knowing exists. There's also an additional "Work With Phone" option on the settings page that allows users to leave the app without killing plants, but you have to sacrifice half of the final reward and the tree will not be counted towards the leaderboard.

Ultimately, I think the app is well worth the money, and I have very few complaints, but I would like Forest's timers to show up on my lock screen when the app is in use like a regular iPhone timer does.

If there's a setting to make that happen I haven't found it yet, but when I'm in the focus zone I'd rather be able to tap my home button and see how much time I have left until my tree grows than unlock my phone and go back into the app.

Otherwise, Forest exceeded my expectations and genuinely helped me unplug during times when I desperately wanted to but didn't know how. It's an uplifting app that celebrates and rewards you for the time spent away from your phone, rather than trying to curb your phone addiction by highlighting all time you do spend using social media and other apps.

If you have a healthy conscience, the low-stakes death of a virtual tree will be enough to inspire you to focus. And the thought of working toward planting a real tree should successfully motivate you to commit the app for the long haul.

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