#highly sensitive people

[thepeacefulgarden]

[spiritualseeker777]

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

You know what is just mind boggling? Neurotypical people exist. Like there are people who can just DO things and not have depression, anxiety (in every form ever), RSD, sensory overloads, and not get overwhelmed. Like there are people who can work for eight hours every day and still do things after. People who can make phone calls with no struggle. Who aren't constantly bombarded by a cacophony of thoughts both good and bad when they do things. Who have anxiety but it isn't crippling. who can spend hours, WEEKS with people and not get tired or fear that everyone there hates you. People who have no idea what Depression or intense trauma feel like. People who hear instructions and do it right first go. People who can follow a conversation without zoning out, or having to mask.

Like. Do neurotypical people actually exist?

Because I can't even imagine what it would be like to be neurotypical. Or mentally healthy. Both sound alien and foren. But like. Obviously they exist because neurodivergent people wouldn't struggle so much if not for how the world was structured for Neurotypical people but I don't know if I've ever met a neurotypical.

idk. food for thought I guess.

[safe-haven-safe-place]

[cryptcatz]

i hate how much of my life revolves around asking myself “am i being overly sensitive/dramatic or are my feelings valid here?”. being so easily hurt and upset sucks. i feel like im too soft for this world

[studentbyday]

I'd like to think I made it out of survival mode this semester now that I've finally caught up. But once I'm in it, I always find it hard to shake the mindset of it. As soon as I hear of deadlines, even those I actually have enough time to prepare for, I feel my chest tightening and I forget to breathe, bracing myself for... what exactly?

I can't fall behind after reading week because that's the only break we have before finals revision. Yet at the same time, if I don't exit survival mode, I will surely burn out and find it really difficult to carry on, even post-finals.

So this morning I watched this video for some inspo and one of the most important things I got from it (although everything really was a good reminder because i clearly have issues with work-life balance lol) was the different types of rest. The ones I need most right now are creative rest, mental rest, physical rest, and sensory rest (depending on how busy this week will be, how overstimulating my brain and the rest of my life outside of schoolwork will be, and how much my social media use will be).

So here are some things I want to try/restart:

Sensory rest

Wake up before everyone else does for the peace and quiet and to experience the gentle transition to sunlight (rather than have the sun's rays pierce my eyes lol)

Lie on bed, even during day whenever I need sensory rest. Not to sleep if it will throw off my sleep schedule, but just to decompress 🧸

Creative rest

Get out and soak in the nature when I wake up early since that's when the air is best

Soak in the little pleasant sensations of every day (e.g. notice the beauty in food smells and how it combines with the taste and texture, kitchen/study/any other daily life ASMR)

Read fiction first thing in the morning (will also help me wake up by being smth to look forward to...i can even read while I'm out there soaking in the nature)

Mental rest

Meditate (10-20 mins)

Write out all my remaining worries/stray thoughts at the end of the work day (WHICH CAN NOW BE AT LEAST 1 HOUR BEFORE I ACTUALLY GO TO BED)

Physical rest

Exercise to release the stress.

Sleep as much as I want, worry free since I wrote them all down well before bed and sleeping is the first step to prepare myself to tackle them all one by one

[serenityquest]

[itsmahree]

[wordsofwisdomandsoul]

[awareness-and-healing]

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[surrah698]

Yep!! I can taste textures. The way you cut them changes the texture.. therefore the taste... 🙃

[thepeacefulgarden]

It may have kept you safe when you were younger, but now, it's draining you. This isn't to say, "Look out for only yourself, to hell with everyone else!" Yes, their needs matter, but yours do, too. It's okay to say "No." It's okay to cancel plans. It's okay to set boundaries. It's okay to end relationships (of any kind) that aren't good for you. It's okay to take up space. It's okay to fill your cup and take time for yourself. It's okay to rest. It's okay to do less. It's okay to take care of your needs. It's okay to stand up for yourself.

[spiritualseeker777]

Sensitive boys too💖

[feralboo-the-weirdo]

Being the youngest sucks.

Being the youngest is always being lonely

It's always being too young

Always the odd one out, the late one.

The last to leave, the last to graduate

The child the parents give up parenting on because they're tired

It's feeling guilty you're the youngest even though you couldn't chose your birth order.

It's the guilt that you were treated "better"

You got "more."

It's being the baby of the family and feeling suffocated in the wants your parents have for you. It's feeling like you can never leave your parents.

It's growing up too fast because you don't want to be left behind

It's hiding away your emotions because you realize no one really cares

It's trying to be the sunshine child

it's trying to be the child the parents have to do the least for.

it's watching your siblings get punished and wondering when you're next

it's feeling immensely terrified of confrontation because you're never allowed to win.

It's being left with your siblings because your parents gave up on you and being raised by them.

It's listening to your siblings emotions and feeling terrible because you can't do anything to help them.

it's feeling to young

it's feeling like you deserve to be punished for existing.

It's feeling like you're the last straw that broke your parents. That if they just hadn't had you they'd still have money.

It's feeling like you have to be there for your parents because all the rest of your siblings leave. It's feeling like a third parent.

it's watching everyone around you grow old but you're still young.

it's feeling so old but you're still young.

it's being told you're selfish when you're literally a child.

it's being told to grow up when you're a child.

It's feeling like you can't have mental illnesses because you watch the strain it puts on your parents with your siblings. It's watching your family suffer but not knowing how to help and not being able to.

It's constantly eavesdropping on accident out of habit because no one explains what's going on.

It's trying to monitor the situation so no one gets hurt.

it's feeling incredibly uncomfortable talking about emotions because you weren't allowed to as a child because they weren't "important" enough because your oldest siblings just told you "at least you're not an adult" or "it's so much easier at that age."

It's feeling like an only child after everyone moves out.

It's feeling disconnected from your older siblings, like you never had a relationship with them.

it's feeling like a burden on your parents because you're the last one.

You carry so many secrets. You know so many secrets. You don't know what to do with those secrets.

Being the youngest is not carefree. In a way, the youngest caries almost as much as the oldest.

I don't know the experience of many other youngest siblings but mine was not the carefree experience my older siblings tried to make it out to be. But I'm starting to realize my childhood wasn't exactly normal so that probably doesn't help. I don't know that most youngest siblings aren't supposed to feel like a third parent to most of their siblings at like fifteen.

Please don't hate on this post, I'm not trying to hate on eldest and middle siblings, I just want to caution you to remember that your younger sibling is going to grow up and remember the things you said to them. It's not their fault they're the youngest.

Feel free to add to this post.

[starlet-sky]

pay attention to how your body feels around certain people.

[ardent-reflections]

I despise my own hypersensitiveness, which requires so much reassurance. It is certainly abnormal to crave so much to be loved and understood.

Anais Nin