#haha everything hurts

[blairamok]

my body is in complete shock. i have never done an athletic thing in my entire life and just decide to pick up ice skating. holy fuck i can barely move

I’M HAVING FUN THO

[brainrotisseriechicken]

3 am celebratory post go me

merry christmas to all who celebrate and happy holidays !!!!^_^

[arcanegifs]

God, I'm (yet again) exhausted. What a show. I will say, flaws and all, it's still one of the best animated series I've watched. Ever. No, I don't think it deserves the vitriol it's getting on social media.

I have a LOT of emotions right now. I don't think I'm even thinking straight after watching through everything once. It definitely needs to be re-watched multiple times. No, I'm not offering any kind of insights or anything like that. I think I'm just too emotional seeing my favorite show end.

I really wanna thank the writers, directors, artists, animators, producers, and everyone else who worked on this show for this work of art. It was beautiful, and it's why I love making gifs of this show.

And just because this show has ended, doesn't mean I'll stop making things. There's two whole seasons to work with now. I hope I can have enough free time to post regularly. I still need to make some 8k wallpapers and a ton of gifs haha.

I'll take a break and sleep for now. I'll see what I can make when I wake up tomorrow. I have so many things I want to do, but I also feel like crap and I too, have a life LMAO.

Oh, and I'm still looking forward to the next stories that they tell us! Runeterra truly has amazing lore. Excited to see what's next!

Thank you for all the likes, reblogs, and support you guys give to my lil sideblog! I appreciate you guys so much <3

[tubbytarchia]

Somewhere in the woods, a moth tires of seeking light

[sysig]

How much of me is me? (Patreon)

[thechy-fychannel]

y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.

[aurantiumred]

okay to be clear jason looking like luke absolutely affected his friendship with annabeth and percy

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maybe chiron's "you should be dead." wasn't entirely for jason...

[whattheskyknows]

Drv3 chapter 1 AU where instead of the motive being a time limit, Monokuma amplifies everyone's personality every day. For example:

Kaede: Her determination will be amplified daily. This isn't too bad to begin with, but the longer her determination increases, the more risks she'll take. For example, pushing people to do the tunnels, even when they're at their limit. Risk level: moderate

Rantaro: His insecurity will be amplified daily. The longer the motive drags, the more wary he will become. If the motive drags too long, he'll eventually become so distrustful, he'll actively avoid everyone, convinced everyone is possibly the mastermind. Risk level: increases the longer the motive remains active

Ryoma: His hopelessness will be amplified daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more hopeless Ryoma will feel. Risk level: moderate/high

Kirumi: Her selfless devotion will he amplified daily. This isn't too bad at first, but the longer the motive remains active, the more dangerous requests Kirumi will accept. Eventually, she'll even offer to help someone get away with murder, if that is what they desire. Risk level: increases the longer the motive remains active

Angie: Her positivity will amplify daily. As the days pass, Angie will become more positive about being trapped. This isn't too bad, but she'll also convince everyone that staying trapped isn't too bad, which will lead to arguments. Risk level: moderate

Tenko: Her emotions will amplify daily. As the days pass, the more intensely she'll experience her emotions. When she's happy, she's REALLY happy. When she's sad, she's REALLY sad ect. Risk level: low

Korekiyo: His intrigue will amplify daily. The more time that passes, the more Korekiyo wants to observe what's going on. He'll actively seek out information about everyone and his surroundings, which will make him more pushy and nosy. If he sees you, expect to be followed and asked several questions. That being said: Risk level: low/moderate

Miu: Her insecurity will amplify daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more Miu will be convinced something bad will happen to her. If the motive lasts too long, she'll take matters into her own hands to keep herself safe. Risk level: increases the longer the motive remains active

Gonta: He becomes more gullible the longer the motive lasts. He'll become too trusting. If the wrong person talks to him, the consequences might be fatal. Risk level: moderate

Kokichi: His paranoia will amplify daily. The longer the motive is in play, the more distrustful Kokichi will become. That being said, murder is the last thing on his mind. Just don't startle or corner him. Risk level: moderate

Kaito: His encouraging nature will amplify daily. For the first few days, this isn't too bad. However, if too much time passes, Kaito will go from encouraging to pushy, which might cause arguments. Risk level: moderate

Kiibo: For some reason, Kiibo is not affected, which he finds robophobic.

Tsumugi: Her plain nature will amplify daily. Nothing about her changes, but everyone will eventually forget that she even exists (apart from Kiibo.) This is great for her; no one will even consider to hurt her. Risk level: Tsumugi? Never heard of her

Shuichi: His insecure nature will amplify daily. The longer the motive is in play, the more hesitant and insecure Shuichi will become. As the days pass, the more Shuichi will struggle to even make basic decisions. He can, however, be pushed around more easily. Risk level: low

Maki: Her wary nature will amplify daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more Maki will isolate herself, unable to trust anyone else. That being said: Risk level: low

Himiko: Her exhaustion will amplify daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more Himiko sluggish Himiko will become. If the motive lasts too long, she'll lose her desire to do anything. Risk level: moderate

[kristoffs-lullaby]

At the end of Everything, hold onto Anything

[crustyfloor]

The idea of Till having a certain sentiment of regret, hate? towards Ivan for what he did in round 6 jumbled up with his already mixed feelings about Ivan because of the person he is and how he treated Till when they were kids up until now, it's a lot. It breaks my heart but feels a little too real.

[unriding]

hi evie !! how have you been ? :33 i hope you dont mind me borrowing you and moze for something ehehe <3

[mirensiart]

I just kinda assumed Wars smacked Wind's bottle away and gave him a Look, but now Miry over here making me worry at midnight omfg the fic potential if that doesn't pan out

I KNOW it's almost 4am here and I'm spiraling over this kfbfkfnf

[alexiethymia]

Hazbin Hotel Ep 5

Ok wow Ep 5 (and 6) was such a ride.

It's so fun to dissect Alastor since he's pretty much the only one who's character is hard to pin right now.

I can easily believe that Lilith is the one he has a contract with (hence the on a leash comment). I can believe that he might or might not be there because of Lilith (either he's obeying Lilith or he's getting close to Charlie because that in some way will help him get rid of his leash). I can also believe that he is intentionally pissing Lucifer off.

BUT

The thing is, even with all of this, I really thought that the Alastor we would see was the same Alastor we saw who handled Vox with so much class. Someone did a mini analysis about their face off. Alastor was completely unbothered and in control of the whole situation. He didn't bother interrupting Vox and the whole encounter with Vox losing his top and Alastor keeping his cool definitely showed that Alastor won that round.

But with Lucifer, it's different. Lucifer is pathetic and desperate. It would be so easy for Alastor to rile him up while still being calm, but there's none of that here. Where's the manipulative persona? Rather, it even seems like Lucifer brought Alastor down to his level of pettiness.

There's visceral rage right from the beginning when he sees the welcome banner, and the uncontrollable twitching of the eye when he sees Lucifer hug Charlie. The funny thing is Alastor is the first one to react to Lucifer while Lucifer is completely focused on his daughter. Twice we saw this petty eye twitching - when he was annoyed with the Egg Bois and when Carmilla could care less about where he disappeared to. So we know Alastor is capable of it. He's not as high and above everyone as he thinks he is.

Lucifer's lame comeback was enough to get him to swear?? It was such a whiplash from what was established about Alastor so far. But for him to show his annoyance at Lucifer in such an obvious way, shows that there's something about Lucifer that just pisses him off, enough to slip his usual control.

Same with his final encounter with Mimzy. They're established as good friends, but the hotel is a red line. He's not all lofty like in the past episodes when Mimzy confronts him about whether or not he actually cares about the hotel. We as the audience are supposed to be sure that he doesn't, but I was expecting at least a smirk or his usual pleasantness and I-know-something-you-don't attitude. But he was as serious as he ever has been when he gives Mimzy an ultimatum. And the thing is, it's not a show he puts on to get on Charlie's good side or to piss Lucifer off since neither of them see it.

Again, I could easily interpret the entire sequence between Lucifer and Alastor as Alastor still being on top, and willfully manipulating and using Charlie just so he can have one over Lucifer if not for those two things. His uncontrolled reactions - swearing at Lucifer and the uncontrollable eye twitching when Lucifer and Charlie hug - because what benefit even does that get him??

So maybe he is taking this step-dad thing seriously because Lilith and him are involved somehow (which, yikes in so many ways), maybe he hates Lucifer for a separate reason unrelated to Charlie and/or Lilith or his hatred of Lucifer has everything to do with Charlie (even if it started with a deal with Lilith initially) and Charlie (as well as the hotel) are starting to have more of an influence on him than he expects.

Either way, it was awesome and this was exactly the found family chaos I was hoping for and I sure am glad to get it.

[irrealisms]

having disabilities that are very sharply stress-triggered is....weird. i am hella privileged and so i can live my life basically entirely supported by others (cf #housecat arc) and when im doing this i can basically pass as normal and not have any serious mental breakdowns* . i hang out with friends and i watch videos and i read books both fiction and nonfiction and i play minecraft and i write stories and i go to church on sundays and it's a boring life and i don't always feel like i'm living it very much but i'm not really in crisis. i feel like, basically normal. like i am basically a regular person. i am no longer freaking out about being watched by a mysterious Them who are tormenting me; i can basically live my life as though it is real; my hallucinations are uncommon and not particularly distressing when they happen; i am not suicidal; outside of occasional episodes of speech loss, i am coherent--articulate, even!--in my speech and writing; it's been many years since my last violent meltdown; i eat three meals a day; i am able to get out of bed every day. and then i try to do productive things for like 3 hours and i start banging my head against the wall and crying because i Can't i just Can't. it's incredibly stark. it's a pretty good justification for being a housecat honestly because if i weren't then i would not only be "losing money to groceries rent etc" i would also be "losing money much more quickly to intensive treatments and/or bad decisions" and i think "losing money more quickly" is the opposite of the goal of "trying to have a job" but definitely uh if i were less privileged wrt Ability to housecat indefinitely i would be Fucked. i deteriorate Terrifyingly Fast under Literally Any Stress.

this isn't a new observation or anything--chat message from august of last year--

It’s kind of eternally astounding to me how much my issues are ~stress-mediated? I can basically be fine and normal-passing if I’m not expected to do anything ever; the amount of breakdown i have correlates pretty directly w how much is expected of me. This feels incredibly fake when I’ve been doing nothing for long enough and think i have gotten better but then i am expected to have pretty basic conversations with people irl for like two weekends in a row and i spend 20 minutes pacing my room and hyperventilating and self harming and i would not be surprised if i end up having a [I stop moving] episode before the weekend is up. and this is not very bad or anything on the scale of things but notably also i am not being expected to do very much!!! Idk it’s weird how like. When I am being a house cat I can be— not maximally fulfilled or anything but basically okay and normal. And then I do things for more than one day and it’s like Oh this is why I housecat. not even in a bad way fully just. huh yeah

and it doesn't even surprise me or feel fake to me at this point but it's weird and i don't like it. i don't like how fast i can go from "i am basically doing fine" to near-crisis when i am expected to do very basic everyday life things. it scares me. i'm getting better but it's hard to tell how much of that is just....redefining my goals and expectations, rather than actually having more abilities. even writing my "i'm basically a normal person when not expected to do things" i kept running up against. like. oh yeah. i don't actually shower/clean myself with any sort of regularly. i don't cook for myself. i spend long stretches of time only changing clothes or leaving the house for church on sundays. i could probably make life changes to do better at some of these things but it's all tradeoffs and idk if it'd be. worth it. i keep coming back to this post bc it really is how i feel. i run into my limits drastically less often than i used to and i am doing much much better. this is mostly because i am living my life so very very carefully within those limits. i am like a delicate orchid who does okay in Ideal Conditions but threatens to die at the slightest hint of overwatering. and i am very lucky to be carefully managed by people who love me immensely and have a lot of resources and many people do not have this and i really do not want to understate this!!! but being a very lucky orchid is still ... very different than being a mint plant

*ok in 2024 i did have a few months where i was actively suicidal and regularly self-harming and not really eating much and having nightmares all the time. um. i don't have a defense here that isn't "you should've seen me before i dropped out" or maybe "okay but it wasn't that long". i didn't have to go to IOP and....i would say "i didn't drop out/get fired from anything major" but that's because i already didn't have any responsibilities cf the rest of the post........ummmmmmmmmmmmmm anyway. i didn't do anything drastic (not exclusively a suicide euphemism) despite considering it. does that count for anything

[sysig]

uuuumm for the request thing maybe pastel gaster? maybe with the evil goatparents or evil alphys, haha. or maybe even evil temmie lol.

Day 29 - He's studying you with a smile...

[starzzytisms]

ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow ow someone please sedate me I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN.

WHY AM I DISABLED EVERYTHING HURTS.

MOOTS. GIMME KISSES TO MAKE IT ALL BETTER. PLEASE.

also if anyone would like to take me to urgent care or the emergency room that would be great.

AHGGGG