#they obviously change depending on the situation haha

[whattheskyknows]

Drv3 chapter 1 AU where instead of the motive being a time limit, Monokuma amplifies everyone's personality every day. For example:

Kaede: Her determination will be amplified daily. This isn't too bad to begin with, but the longer her determination increases, the more risks she'll take. For example, pushing people to do the tunnels, even when they're at their limit. Risk level: moderate

Rantaro: His insecurity will be amplified daily. The longer the motive drags, the more wary he will become. If the motive drags too long, he'll eventually become so distrustful, he'll actively avoid everyone, convinced everyone is possibly the mastermind. Risk level: increases the longer the motive remains active

Ryoma: His hopelessness will be amplified daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more hopeless Ryoma will feel. Risk level: moderate/high

Kirumi: Her selfless devotion will he amplified daily. This isn't too bad at first, but the longer the motive remains active, the more dangerous requests Kirumi will accept. Eventually, she'll even offer to help someone get away with murder, if that is what they desire. Risk level: increases the longer the motive remains active

Angie: Her positivity will amplify daily. As the days pass, Angie will become more positive about being trapped. This isn't too bad, but she'll also convince everyone that staying trapped isn't too bad, which will lead to arguments. Risk level: moderate

Tenko: Her emotions will amplify daily. As the days pass, the more intensely she'll experience her emotions. When she's happy, she's REALLY happy. When she's sad, she's REALLY sad ect. Risk level: low

Korekiyo: His intrigue will amplify daily. The more time that passes, the more Korekiyo wants to observe what's going on. He'll actively seek out information about everyone and his surroundings, which will make him more pushy and nosy. If he sees you, expect to be followed and asked several questions. That being said: Risk level: low/moderate

Miu: Her insecurity will amplify daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more Miu will be convinced something bad will happen to her. If the motive lasts too long, she'll take matters into her own hands to keep herself safe. Risk level: increases the longer the motive remains active

Gonta: He becomes more gullible the longer the motive lasts. He'll become too trusting. If the wrong person talks to him, the consequences might be fatal. Risk level: moderate

Kokichi: His paranoia will amplify daily. The longer the motive is in play, the more distrustful Kokichi will become. That being said, murder is the last thing on his mind. Just don't startle or corner him. Risk level: moderate

Kaito: His encouraging nature will amplify daily. For the first few days, this isn't too bad. However, if too much time passes, Kaito will go from encouraging to pushy, which might cause arguments. Risk level: moderate

Kiibo: For some reason, Kiibo is not affected, which he finds robophobic.

Tsumugi: Her plain nature will amplify daily. Nothing about her changes, but everyone will eventually forget that she even exists (apart from Kiibo.) This is great for her; no one will even consider to hurt her. Risk level: Tsumugi? Never heard of her

Shuichi: His insecure nature will amplify daily. The longer the motive is in play, the more hesitant and insecure Shuichi will become. As the days pass, the more Shuichi will struggle to even make basic decisions. He can, however, be pushed around more easily. Risk level: low

Maki: Her wary nature will amplify daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more Maki will isolate herself, unable to trust anyone else. That being said: Risk level: low

Himiko: Her exhaustion will amplify daily. The longer the motive lasts, the more Himiko sluggish Himiko will become. If the motive lasts too long, she'll lose her desire to do anything. Risk level: moderate

[livelaughlovesubs]

Straight up torturing Dazai by only making him cum untouched

I have this problem while writing smut that I forget the character has a dick cuz I over-focus on something else, so most of my fics start out as cumming untouched and I change it later on lol thanks for saving me the trouble

Dom!reader x sub!dazai - reader is gn

Warning: semi public (in an alley), teasing, degrading, marking, hair pulling, choking, sub-space, dacryphilia, nipple play

Edit: does this fic even make sense?

Now he’s done it, fuck, what to do- he didn’t think you’d be this angry.

Normally you weren’t up for doing stuff in public, which is why he used that chance to annoy you to his hearts content. Whenever you two were going home from a mission, wandering down the streets of Yokohama, he’d start being all unbearable and flirty, and the next second he’d run off to god-knows-where to chase after another pretty woman. You were done with all these stunts he pulled, and sadly for him you weren’t as nice as kunikida.

Which is what got him into his current situation. Pinned to the wall in some random alley, you staring at him with an obviously angry expression and the buzzing noises of unaware passengers missing out this spectacle. “Ah fuck…” dazai didn’t know what you were planning on doing, but he had a precognition that it wouldn’t end well for him, so he tried to use his silver tongue to talk you out of it, “heyyyy, y/n~ What’s got you so mad? Don’t frown— come on, how about we take a break and fill our stomachs? I know a good pla-”

You grabbed a fistful of his hair and yanked on them, causing him to arch his back off the wall. It was so sudden that he had no time to prepare himself, and accidentally mewled, “ahh, god, y/n, don’t be so forceful with me.” He almost sang the last part, still bearing that annoying smile on his face. “You should have thought twice before acting up.” The grip you had on his locks tightened, making him bend forward to meet your eyes, “just because we are in public it doesn’t mean you are safe.”

That was a threat, right? That was definitely a threat. And yet- he was grinning from ear to ear, unable to stop himself from clenching his thighs together. “Whaaaat? Of course I’m safe, where is the threat huh?” The brunette chirped, and you clasped your hand over your face. “You really want this, don’t you?” You asked, glaring at him from between your fingers. He shrugged, playing dumb.

You stepped closer to him, bodies pressing against each other. “Will you behave after I punish you?” After these words left your mouth, a shiver ran down his back, and he fumbled with your clothing, “it all depends on you.” You smirked, not planning on backing down from such a challenge. And so you let go of his hair, roughly unbuttoning his blazer and shirt, but not pulling it completely off. Then you placed your hands on his hips, lips pressing against his collarbone.

Dazai grabbed a fistful of your clothes from your back and ran his other hand through his hair, panting softly while watching you trying to work him up. He felt you nibbling at his skin, leaving red bruise marks behind. “Haa-ah, haha… you are being too gentle dear.” His breathing hitched when he spoke, though otherwise he was still pretty composed. You payed him no mind, instead you moved lower to toy with a more sensitive part.

Pinching and flicking his pink buds while sucking on the other one, eating him up, watching his face flush so deliciously. “Ngh- not gonna answer me?” He teased, pulling at your hair to get your attention. You bit down as a result, to tell him to stop, yet he gripped down harder as he groaned, “mhhhm-aaahh~ fuuck.” What a nice reaction, you had to remember this. Slowly you managed to get him hard, seeing the bulge in his pants grow larger and larger. When you finally pulled back and stood straight, he was already sweating, all eager as he cursed at how long you took.

One look and you could tell he was needy, and pretty on edge. His flushed face was actually pretty cute, and his disheveled clothes hung from his shoulders like he was trying to appeal to you. Your hands didn’t stop exploring his body the exploring, like they have a mind of their own. Groping and touching his torso. “Look at you dazai, you look like a slut.” You mumbled with a smile, and his body twitched at that statement. “You are so mean y/n, in what world do I look like one?”

While saying that, he pushed his hips out and slipped his clothed further down his arm. “In every,” you answered and kissed his neck. He raised his chin to grunt and pant at the feels, head and back leaned back against the stoney wall with one both hands on your shoulder. How annoying, you were still only doing the foreplay, isn’t it time to get past it? And when you sucked on a specific spot that drove him crazy, he was at his limit.

“F-fine, I guess I am a whore,” small break before he continued, “for you. So, touch me more, please?” The boy begged, looking a little embarrassed as he avoided your gaze. “I’ll think about it.” Was all you said in response, before you went back to meekly caressing him. “Uhhh.. y/n, that won’t cut it.” He tried to explain through his gasps and whines, and said, “I need more, something more extreme and lewd.”

“Hmm~? I dont know what you mean.” Using his own Methode against himself, how petty of you. He took your hand and guide you lower, muttering, “then I’ll show you how it’s done.” You shook his hand off and hummed, “I’m good, I’ll do it at my pace.” How devastated he looked, it seems he has finally realised what kind of mess he got himself into. He pouted as he slumped back, defeated, hiding his whimpers behind his palm as he kept on complaining, “how could this ever count as punishment?”

“You will see.”

He could swear he caught a glimpse of you smirking all mischievously, but before he knew it, he had been slammed further into the wall behind him. Followed by your hands squeezing around his neck. “Ah- y-y/n..?” “You are the one who wanted this.” Squeeze. With that you started applying more pressure to his neck. “HnnGh..! Ha-arghh..” He choked, eyes half lidded as he weakly pulled at your firm grip around him. A dumb grin spread across his face as his drool rolled down to his chin.

“Fu- urgh! Fuck, y/n~..!!” A wet spot formed on his pants, and his face twisted into one of raw pleasure. Tongue hanging out, eyes watery with heart shaped pupils and legs shaking, struggling to hold his own weight. “You didn’t see this coming, did you?” Then more strength was applied, then you whispered close to his face, “can you feel how your air is being cut off, and how your body is desperately trying to squirm free?” And you squeezed down even more, making him gag and choke again. “Haaa-nghhh..! K- kill me, guuUh, I dare you.”

He was still looking all competitive, though he won’t be able to hold out much longer. You pushed your body into his, leg slightly rubbing against his leaking bulge, stealing a loud groan from him. Followed by small whines of bliss, “MmnHhh..! Ah- hngG, uh-urgh.!” Such a naughty boy, enjoying all this. Your hands didn’t leave him alone while you kissed his tears away, the contrast of gentleness and ruthlessness made his head spinn. Poor little dazai was trembling so much, twitching and spasming all over.

“Are you turned on because I’m choking you, or because you want to die?” You mumbled again this skin, the vibrations of your voice tickling him, a small addition to the immense sensations he was already feeling. “Mhhff… haha- both?” He answered cheekily, his own strength leaving his body as his instinctive try to push you away failed. “I see~ well it’s time for the last course isn’t it?”

As the icing on top, you pressed down one last time, watching his eyes roll back as his consciousness slowly left him. His head was thrown back while his eyes slowly closed shut. That’s when you whispered into his ear, “cum for me, dazai.” And like a command he couldn’t disobey, his body shook heavily before a white fluid seeped through his pants, dirtying your leg, making it all sticky.

Right as he wanted to scream his lungs out, you clasped a hand over his swollen lips, reminding him how you two were still in public. He ripped his eyes open for a split second, then tightly shut them, and moaning into your forceful palm, “mnghMm, nghhmmmf…!♡♥︎♡”

Without giving him any time to calm down from his high, you pulled away, causing him to drop onto the floor. The only reason why he hadn’t fallen yet was because you were holding and pushing him up. But now his legs have finally given up. He was still unresponsive as you wiped your dirty hands on his clothes. After you were done, you took a last glance at his kneeling form, leaning against the rough wall for support. Some of his cum dripped onto the ground and he was still panting heavily.

These once fierce eyes were reduced to a melting one, full of desire and need. He wasn’t full yet huh. His clothes got dirty at the tips, and his body was marked from the top to the bottom, especially his neck bore a dark crimson ring of bruises. Some tears and other fluids were still flowing across his features, but it seems he was too tired to care right now. Judging by the state he was in, it’ll take a while before he can stand up and go home.

Though that was none of your business anymore, since this was going to be his punishment. You laughed a little before saying, “you better clean yourself up, osamu. I’ll get going first~”

All he could squeak out was a weak, soft whimper.

[th30sstuff]

Since you guys(2 people) liked that and I'm a validation seeker

OBEY ME TICKLISH RANKING FROM MOST TO LEAST

#1 Luke

He's a child, I feel like if you try you can tickle even his shoulders, he's extremely ticklish and is the kind of kid that falls on the floor and starts rolling around trying to escape.

#2 Satan

Just like Luke but not so extreme, grown ass man would start kicking giggling, he would try to threat whoever is doing this at first but if you don't feel intimidated and keeps going is not going to take long before he's either begging for mercy or in his demon form depending on how much he cares for your health

#3 Asmodeus

Fucking look at him.

#4 Mammon

Probably just ticklish at very specific spots but once you find them he melts completely, probably lasts the least before he's yelling between giggles for you to stop and run to the bathroom immediately before he pisses himself

#5 Simeon

He's canonically ticklish because season 4 but I think if he was actually THAT ticklish he wouldn't wear THOSE OUTFITS?!?!? COME ON THOSE ARE MADE FOR TICKLING!!! Also, I think he's good controlling his laughter in this situation.

#6 Levi

He's hard to tickle specially because he stops it quickly when you see it coming, the thing is, you have to do it when he least expects it l8ke when he's playing a game because HE WON'T TRY TO STOP YOU!!! HE JUST STOPS WORKING AND HAS NO IDEA WHAT TO DO

#7 Beel and Belphie

They are the same amount of ticklish, it's not THAT BAD but they are still ticklish.

Beel probably thinks it's nice when people do it because I feel like because both are the youngests they are constantly tickled by their brothers so Beel sees it as affectionate.

Belphie on the other hand probably would be "haha ok" in a second and suddenly he flips a switch and is pushing you away from him with a pout.(WAKE HIM UP WITH TICKLES!!!!)

#8 Lucifer

I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO BE THE LEAST OF THE BROTHERS BUT😭

Still ticklish but just like Levi he would stop by grabbing the wrist of whoever is trying's wrist and glaring with a stern "Don't."

BUT JUST LIKE LEVI, get him when he least expects it, when he's refusing to leave his office for the third meal in a row, when you're cuddling, WAKE HIM UP WITH TICKLES!! I need this tired grown as man ruined trying to save his pride while he obviously can't.

He'd probably scold you with empty words because he's too embarrassed to think but just give him a few kisses or ego strokes and he's sighing exasperated because what else is he going to do anyways, it's not like he can stay mad forever about something like this.

#9 Solomon

Bro is not ticklish, like he feels something if you try but he's not giggling and pissing his pants, he'd probably chuckle a little at the attempt anyways.

#10 Diavolo

Ok so hear me out,

In my head, the royal family has genetically terrible instincts.

But Diavolo is so fucking playful affection deprived that he'd be EUPHORIC that you'd try to tickle him like "OMG ARE WE THAT CLOSE OF FRIENDS??? THAT'S SO SWEET" and would start laughing specially because of it. (Do it right after a meeting and watch the entire council, I mean the brothers, stare at you with terror because WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU)

#11 Barbatos

Don't try, it's just going to be awkward, he'll stare at your soul while not changing his expression at all.

He'd be confused at first, then notice what's happening and around after ten seconds he'd just politely "Could you please stop? I'm quite busy."

PS: I HAD NO IDEA WHERE TO PUT THE UNDATABLES I AM SO SORRY, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO SHARE YOUR HCS ABOUT THEM

[iikisa]

heres more teacher rin au!!!!

ill have some more deets under the cut about this hehe

Welcome back aoex fandom… I’ve decided for this AU to be called “Tightrope”!!!! Haha,, yeah it’s definitely not what i was saying earlier in that ask..

But yeah!!! I’ll be tagging any post related to this AU under a tag from now on! ;)

(The rest of this will contain spoilers from the manga, but then again this whole AU has been spoilers..)

Alrighty, this time we’re going over the reason for Rin’s appearance… Just as in the manga, Rin becomes “unstable” through Yukio breaking his sword, except in this tightrope au, their relationship was much more rockier than it was in the manga. So much stuff that wasn’t cleared up, lots of avoidance, not so much emotional stability.. There’s a whole background to how Yukio and Rin’s upbringing would’ve happened in this AU because of their little aged-up situation— some events are interpreted differently to fit and others are just completely new, you can assume— so obviously things happened differently between them without Yukio being the cram school’s teacher and Rin actually attending said school to begin with…

So, now that Yukio left Rin for Illuminati, leaving him completely lonely and without a proper purpose to live for in life… Rin’s demonic nature is left in a “tightrope-like” situation.

See how the title relates? And boy does it apply for many other things too.

Where is Mephisto to help with all this you ask? Oh he tried to offer Rin help by going into the past, but even after learning of his origins (I don't think it helped his self-esteem much tbh) Rin still finds himself unable to "restabilize". Like in the manga, it's not until Rin truly accepts both sides to himself is he able to truly stabilize. This AU is obviously more heavy on the twins terrible communication and relationship, so obviously this will be harder for Rin.

For as long as he can remember, Rin's always thought of himself as a nuisance to his family. And with Fujimoto's death, everything seems to be Rin's fault and he's not stupid enough as to not notice the pattern. Unfortunately, this really eats away at Rin, especially with how distant Yukio was with him. So until Rin can learn to accept the uglier parts of himself, he won't be stable. And Yukio is the most important part for him to realize that.

Now… time for the appearance explanation.

When Rin first "unstabilizes" his hair, ears, and eyes change (other smaller details like his canines as well as the newest addition of little nubs on his forehead). The more "unstable" he is, the more prominent these features become—his hair is wholly whitish-blue, his ears and canines are pointier, his eyes are sharper and more vibrant, and his little horns get bigger.

After becoming a not-so-substitute-teacher for the cram school, these features start to become smaller or fade away!!!! Depending on Rin’s emotional state—negative emotions lead to instability and positive emotions leads to stability— his appearance changes. The happier and healthier he is, the more his black roots take place (his original hair color) and the duller his other features become!

Now as for his flames.. I think some logic may be off canon for this but it’ll be fine! He can freely use his flames like he does during the final war-against-satan arc, however, his state of stability changes how precisely he can use them. The more unstable he is, the broader and rougher the attacks. When he’s more stable, his attacks can be more precise and controlled, such as shaping his flames into weapons and other uses.

Anywho, I’ll have to start on making these differences more noticeable for the Rin’s I’m drawing out, because I do like to draw him at different times of his life (if you take note of his hair,,, its one of his best indicators ahah). But yes. Now that I’ve written this concept out (after I drew these sketches whoops) I’ll be showing off a little more of the story once some heavy inspiration hits me. I hope you guys enjoy hearing about this AU as much as I love writing and drawing it!!!!! I’d love to hear feedback or any fic recommendations..! They are my fuel.

Thank you for listening to the end, much love <3

[bunnliix]

The Invisible Strings that Bind Us - Chapter Two

Chapter Two! We have some good cute fluff because it's gonna start getting angsty after this chapter, so prepare for that. But for now, we have some wholesome interactions between y/n and the boys. For anyone that saw this posted before, no you didn't.

a.k.a., I may have had to make a couple changes to it after it went live that I forgot about haha

Masterlist

word count: 1.8k

warnings: food, canon skz chaos, I think that's it

Y/n woke up slowly, feeling a bit disoriented. She felt whatever was beneath her shifting, before she heard an Aussie accent. 

“Good morning sunshine.” She heard, opening her eyes to see Chan looking down at her.

“Huh? What the fuck? That wasn’t a dream?” She mused out loud, forgetting that she wasn’t thinking about it. She heard laughter coming from across the room, finding Changbin and Han bent over laughing.

“This isn’t a dream, we promise you. Now, do you wanna sit up?” Chan asked her, to which she nodded. With his help, she sat up and moved to sit against the back of the couch. 

“You can stop laughing at me, god dammit. It wasn’t that funny.” She lightly glared at the two men. It really wasn’t that funny, honestly, she was ready to slap them. If only they were in reach of her.

“Guys, chill out, please.” Chan scolds the two members, raising an eyebrow at them. The boys apologized to Y/n, bowing and saying sorry to her. She waved away their apologies, telling them it was fine. She really didn’t mind, but it’s still not fun to get laughed at.

“So, where do we go from here?” Y/n spoke up, wondering what would happen now. It may not have been the ideal soulmate meeting, but obviously fate didn’t care about that. There may not have been a big outward sign that they were, but she had never felt more at ease with anyone else ever. Even prior girlfriends she had, that she almost thought were her soulmates, never made her feel this right as these eight boys were right now.

“Well, seeing as you landed right in our laps, and also Binnie has our initials plus one more set, and once we match yours up with the last initial, I’d say you’re our soulmate. We can figure everything else out from there.” Chan said, taking charge of the situation. 

Y/n told them all her full name, and her initials matched up with the last set on Binnie’s arm. This prompted Felix to come over and hug her, whispering in her ear how much he’s glad to have found their last soulmate. He laid his head on her shoulder, his arms still wrapped around her, not letting go of her now that she’s here.

All of the boys’ phones went off, pushing them to check and see who’s messaging. Hyunjin groaned, “Ugh, we have to head back to dance practice, they’re looking for us.” He told the rest of them. This prompted many complaints and cries, the boys not wanting to leave their newest soulmate yet. 

“How long do you have to practice? I can just stay here, honestly, it’s not that big of a deal. I have my phone and I can entertain myself till you all return.” Y/n said, smiling up at them. She didn’t mind being by herself for a little while, it would give her some time to process everything that’s happened.

“If we’re lucky, an hour? Depends on how much of a hardass Minho-hyung is today.” Hyunjin replied to her, not managing to dodge the slap from the aforementioned person. He rubbed his shoulder, feeling the pain from the hit.

“Yah! I don’t want to be away from our soulmate either, but keep it up like that and I’ll make you practice for hours.” Minho snapped back at Hyunjin, looking annoyed.

“Okay, let’s chill out, okay? No need to get violent.” Chan tried to pacify the situation, and thankfully it worked

The boys begrudgingly packed up, Minho leaning in close to Hyunjin as they left, telling him that he’d make a nice snack after 20 minutes in the airfryer at 180 degrees. Y/n laughed as she watched them leave, before moving to sit against the armrest, getting comfortable. She decided to think about her situation later, and grabbed her phone, opening up tiktok and scrolling the time away.

An hour later…

Y/n hadn’t realized how much time had passed, and when the door to the studio opened, she jumped and threw her phone up into the air, as she panicked. She however, managed to not fall off the couch, but her heart was running a thousand miles a minute as she tried to calm down. She held onto her chest, looking at the door to see the entirety of the group standing in the doorway, a couple of them trying to hold back their laughter, as others looked concerned. 

“Could give a girl a bit of a heads up, yeah?” She said to them, a bit over the panic.

“We didn’t think you’d be that absorbed into whatever you were doing, honestly.” Chan replied to her, moving to grab her phone from where it had been thrown, and bringing it over to her. 

She sat up, letting Chan sit down next to her. “That’s fair. I didn’t realize an hour had passed, to tell you the truth. But that’s because I’m bad at telling how much time has passed.” She explained. She truly had very little concept of time. She could look at the clock and five hours had passed when it only felt like it had maybe been an hour. It was one of her greatest weaknesses.

“Don’t worry, some of them get like that too.” Felix piped up, moving closer and sitting on the arm of the couch. “Chan especially, the man works and zones out while doing so.” He continued.

“Yeah, and the rest of 3racha are the same way.” Hyunjin pointed out, to which Han hit his arm. 

“Yah, we’re not that bad!” He shouted, pouting afterwards. His little quokka cheeks made an appearance as he did that.

“I don’t think I believe that.” Y/n told Han. 

He continued pouting, even his newest soulmate was being so mean. He couldn’t believe it, and there were giggles from his other soulmates, showing that they were on her side, not his.

“Well now that you’re all back, and I assume free from idol duties for a little while, I’d like to talk about where we go from here, now that we’ve confirmed I’m your last soulmate.” Y/n spoke up, trying to steer the conversation in another direction.

“Well, I think the first thing to discuss is how prepared you are to be the soulmate of eight other people, who I assume live very far away from where you are from?” Felix asked her.

“Well, considering that I’m from Canada, that’s not horribly far, but still a bit farther than I think is reasonable. So I think I’d be moving here, and not the other way round.” She told them, starting to think about the logistics of moving here.

“Ah, yeah. You’d have to move here, but we can help you with every step you need to take. We wouldn’t leave you to do it all alone.” Chan turned to look at her. “We’d have to move into a bigger place too, unless you’d want your own space?” He continued.

“I wouldn’t mind either option, really.”

“Okay, that’s fine, we can sit down with management and get that figured out. They can also help us look for a place for you as well, just as an option.” Chan said.

Y/n nodded, fine with that. She wasn’t picky, it really wasn’t a big deal to her where she’d be living. She’d just be happy to be near her soulmates, honestly.

Everyone went silent as Y/n’s stomach grumbled, the girl herself curling in on herself to try and hide. 

“And maybe now is a good time for food.” Felix said.

“I’m hungry!” Changbin shouted, making a couple of the boys chuckle.

Chan stood up, holding a hand out to Y/n, who took it as she stood up as well. He pulled her along as they followed the rest of the boys towards the JYPE cafeteria, as it was the easiest place to get actual food. It thankfully wasn’t that packed when they arrived, and the boys quickly picked out their food, while Chan helped her decide on what she wanted. She went for some tteokbokki, and the other boys decided that they didn’t mind sharing bites of what they chose, so that nothing was wasted if she didn’t like it

Y/n tried bites of everyone’s food, and enjoyed most of it, with a couple exceptions. Despite that, everyone enjoyed their lunch, and after everyone finished and cleaned up the table, they all headed back up to their practice room, deciding it was a better place to talk than squeezing into the studio.

“So, obviously we have to tell management about this, and also figure out how long you can stay here before heading back to pack up your stuff.” Minho spoke up, breaking the silence.

“Yeah, and I have to talk to my university and try and get that figured out as well. I’m almost finished with my degree, so I’d like to actually finish it off fully.” Y/n told them.

Wows came from a couple of the younger boys, and Y/n blushed a bit. 

“What do you study?” Seungmin asked her.

“History is my major in university.” She told them, proceeding to tell them some of the subjects she’s studied within history. She talked more about her favorite periods or topics to study, after the boys asked some questions about what in history she enjoyed and why she decided to study it as a degree.

The group continued talking about their own hobbies and other things they’d like to do in life, as Chan moved to check his and the others schedules, as well as notifying management that they needed to have a meeting. He found their schedules to have been cleared for the day, after he got a response from management that they could have the meeting in 30 minutes. 

“Well, good news and maybe good news?” Chan piped up, everyone else going silent, waiting to hear the news. “So, we now have a free schedule for the remainder of the day, but we also have a meeting with management in 30 minutes.” He finished. 

A round of groans commenced at Chan’s announcement, as the boys dreaded the meeting with the managers. Y/n looked around in confusion, wondering why they were reacting this way. 

“What’s so bad about the meeting?” She asked, tilting her head slightly in confusion.

“They’re not fans of the bureaucracy of being an idol, so they dread meetings with our managers and team.” Chan explained, rolling his eyes at the boys’ antics.

“Ohhh.” She understood now, it made sense that the whole bureaucracy of being an idol would be boring. She herself didn’t enjoy those things either, let alone how much of this administrative stuff goes on in the background of idol agencies.

The boys decided to go change into something a little less casual for their meeting, and thankfully, the boys had something that she could fit into. It wasn’t much, but it fit and didn’t look horrible on her, so that was what counted. They just joked around and the boys fought playfully until about five minutes till the meeting, when they all headed up to where the meeting was to take place, where they arrived just in time. Chan did a head count, before he pushed and held the door open for all of us to enter.

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[prince-liest]

Hi! About your staticradio series (which is PHENOMENAL omg😍) - I know you said Vox is kinda falling in love while Al will remain aro. Which is awesome, we love to see rep! But I'm wondering if they will end up as QPPs (who fuck, lol)? Or it'll strictly be FWBs? Gah it's diffifult to describe it bc labels are so subjective and often too limiting, but I guess what I'm asking is whether they'll have an emotional relationship too, however it might look with their orientations? Will Al in particular have any soft feels for Vox & be fond of their unique bond? Even if Vox is in love with him when Al himself isn't? (I worry that would scare Al away😭) An intimate emotional closeness regardless of the specifics?

Thank you so much!! I've been enjoying writing it enormously so it always brings me a lot of joy that other folks are, too. >:D Just a heads up, this post has turned a little long because it got me talking about Alastor and the way he handles his feelings vs his ego in general.

First: I think the answer to this depends fully on how you personally define a queerplatonic partnership! I don't think Alastor would ever go for, like, a committed relationship with Vox in any form, but I also don't think that this would necessarily be a sad state of affairs for Vox, who I obviously write as poly as fuck with his toxic yaoi husband. Maybe it's because I'm aro af, but I feel like from Vox's end, "Yeah, I get to fuck around with the guy I'm obsessed with and he's not, like, nice, but I think I Stockholmed him into giving a shit about me!" is not actually a state of affairs he'd dislike! Especially since it's got that shiny "I'm special!" vibe in the sense that Nobody Else Gets To Get This Far With Alastor.

As for Alastor's side of things...

I think that so much of their dynamic dynamic isn't just set by Alastor being aroace, it's also set by him being a fucking sadist and a narcissist, HAHA. Like, he is very much in the middle of developing feelings about Vox, which (if my favorite interpretation of his little breakdown in the finale is correct) is also where his character arc is heading with regards to the hotel crew in canon, too, but his friendship-and-trust arc is slowburn as all hell and not entirely linear.

Part of the fun in writing Alastor is the process of qualifying all of his feelings with his sense of superiority in a way that is protective of his ego. He is freely and openly fond of people when that fondness doesn't expose any kind of emotional vulnerability in him. For example: He feels a condescending but genuine fondness for Niffty and Mimzy, whom he protects, and that's safe! He's quirky friends with Rosy, who is a benevolent semi-equal who uplifts his ego, and that's safe! He... may or may not have started caring enough about the hotel crew to have put himself at risk for them, and that is not only dangerous to his physical well-being but also massively humiliating, which is arguably worse to someone like Alastor.

He has SO many ego-prioritizing defense mechanisms and it's fun for me to pay attention to because I, too, am someone whose cardinal sin is probably pride. Anything is permissible only as long as it can be framed in a way that doesn't insult his ego.

Anyway, the point is: I don't think "soft feels and fondness for their unique bond" is on the list of ways that Alastor is able to find himself feeling about someone like Vox. The whole reason their whole situation in 666: Live on Air! started is thanks to Alastor's awareness and amusement at how obsessed Vox is with him. He sees himself as above Vox, and knowing that Vox is more emotionally invested than he is is part of the appeal. It's just gone from (derogatory) to (fond). (Which is, guess what? Safe!)

(It also means realizing that Vox is falling madly in love or whatever just nets a reaction somewhere in the region of, "Wait, is that significantly different from what you were already doing?", lol, because the only thing that's changed is the flavor of feeling, not the level of exposed emotional underbelly that he thinks Vox is showing him.)

TL;DR: He likes Vox like a cat likes a favorite mouse.

[wheredoesonegetnameideas]

MHA X SHADOWS HOUSE

Living Doll!Oboro and Shadow!Kurogiri because i said so

(Why is oboros hair so light 😔(also ignore the lack of shoes ok)

This is kinda weird since i feel like these 2 fandoms have literally never met but i did it anyway!!

I didnt really change much in terms of design for kurogiris shadows look, just tried to make it look more fancy and European-ish, i wanted to add a tailcoat but i'd already finished the whole thing so i gave it up.

Kurogiri in this au doesnt have his whole misty body thing, but his soot would make him look similar to canon. His soot is very fine and speards outwards in all directions, getting finer amd lighter at the edges (like mist haha). Other than making him look bigger and being hard to breath next to him, it makes cleaning a hassle for Oboro, especially since it never stops spreading. And while his soot is voluminous, it's quantity is only a bit higher than average when condensed.

I almost forget about soot powers woops, obviously portals and teleportation wouldnt be possible in this AU, so Kurogiri's soot power wouls be the equivalent to Canon!Oboro's quirk, in that he is able to produce soot "clouds" that are good for blocking vision, making hard to breath, and storing things in them depending on the size and density of the "cloud". It wouldnt be the first time he and Oboro used it for silly pranks and hiding things from the star bearers.

I also feel like as much as Oboro is outgoing, shadow!kurogiri would inherit his more subdued qualities. He would be kind, compassionate and definitely have mom friend tendencies. He also likes taking care of others (group leader of shadow!LOV maybe?), and sulks when oboro comes in everyday because he wants to help with chores. (Oboro does encourage this eventually because he is a lazy bumTM and wants less work)

While different, they are essentially reflections of each other (and thats the nice way of putting it), so they get along very well! I also think they would be friends even with the brainwashing undone. (Also i headcanon that animals HATE shadows with every fiber of their being and run away if they're in a 5m radius, and even though there is no way Grandfather(AFO?) allows them on his property, they still still get to pet (and stare at) a cute (badly colored) ginger cat :D )

And in this AU, Oboro's nose bandage would be more important than it (supposedly) is in canon, because it hides a scar along the bridge of his nose that he got on a rainy day. Its not an actual bandage tho because that is gross. It just looks like the one Kurogiri first gave him after he was treated. The scar isnt huge like Barbie's, and really the two arent important enough (or annoying enough to Edward) that Oboro would be sabotaged, but it definitely set him back from being nominated for the Unification.

Speaking of the Unification, if i were to make this AU resemble canon as much as possible, then Kurogiri and Oboro would have successfully Unified (iykyk). But thats up to you really.

As of writing this i'm really considering making the rest of the LOV as shadows (especially Toga if only to put her in the girliest dress i can find and also because her quirk would make a perfect soot power)

More details under the cut:

OMG I JUST SAW HIS EYES OOPSIE ANYWAYS

Oboro does feel guilty for ruining Kurogiri's "face", even if it was an accident. Kurogiri on the other hand doesnt resent him for it and was just relieved he wasn't disposed of. (Strangely enough, Kurogiri didn't dispel any soot that day)

The way i struggled with this part is unbelievable. It looks horrible TOT

The cat is perfect tho

You cannot convince me Oboro would clean up if it wasn't his "purpose". I cant imagine myself in that situation, i would simply pass before the Debut even happens.

Do shadows need to breath? I think they do. Does that mean Shadow!Kurogiri essentially suffocates himself the more he's upset? Wow talk abt hyperventilating

[stnaf-vn]

I’ve had a scenario playing in my head for a little while: What would Friend do if one day they came over and saw Keagan heading towards MC’s apartment door/already talking to MC? If he’s already talking to MC, I’m sure Friend would see the panicked expression on their face as they’re hiding behind the door, obviously looking for an excuse to cut the conversation short. 🤔

TW: VIOLENCE

Friend held the stuffed animal to his chest as he bounced along the pavement towards your apartment. This is the best plushie he’s ever made! It’s super durable, and he’s never made a sloth plush before. It was a test run of a pattern he created, and he was so excited to show you.

With a spring in each step, he climbed up the stairs towards your apartment, humming to himself happily.

What he didn’t expect, however, was what would be waiting for him at the entrance of your apartment.

You were talking with someone it seemed.

He giddiness grinded to a halt as he took a moment to process the situation.

The man seemed to be agitated, and was speaking in a harsh tone. Your eyes flittered around anxious, your mouth in a complacent smile.

He walks up behind you and places the sloth on your head.

“Hellooooo sweetheart!! I have brought thee a gift!”

The sloth’s legs dangled in your face, startling you as you looked back at your companion.

“F-Friend, hey! Why don’t we-“

You started to say, but you were immediately cut off by …

“Wow, still friends with this creep, huh?”

Friend raised his eyes from you to the person you were speaking to.

Brown hair, blue eyes, calling him a creep…

The it hit him.

“Oh, I remember you now! You look very different from how I remember you.”

Friend lays his arms in your shoulders, slightly pushing your back into his chest.

“Okay, good for you, I’m not here to talk to you. I’m surprised you haven’t been locked up yet.”

Keagan scowls at him, crossing his arms defiantly.

Friend hugged you a bit tighter to his chest.

“Haha, the keyword is yet! That can change depending on how this conversation goes.”

Friend smiled.

“You don’t intimidate me, idiot. I need to talk to—“

“Dearest!”

Friend excitedly says, cutting Keagan off. He placed a hand on your lower back as he led you inside your door.

“Why don’t you sit tight and watch a movie or something, hmm? I’ll be right in there!”

Friends threat to Keagan left you nervous about leaving the two alone together, but you also just do not have the energy to deal with Keagan right now.

“We were in the middle of a conversation!”

So, you allowed Friend to get you through your door, and you hear the sound of it closing behind you.

As the door shut, Friend glared at the man before him.

“What makes you think that, after all this time, they’d want anything to do with you?”

Friend stood stock still, his anger boiling inside of him. How dare this lowlife just come out of nowhere and think he could weasel his way back into your life? After what he did?

"I know you're blonde but I didn't think you were stupid too! I'm not talking to you, I'm talking to THEM, now get outta my way."

Keagan reached for your front door, his fingertips brushed the knob before Friend grabbed his arm roughly.

"Take one more step, and I'll snap your arm in half, then your other arm, your legs, and then drop you off in the middle of a desert somewhere."

Friend spat, his words dripping in anger.

Keagan looked at him warily before yanking his arm away.

"You do realize they are a grown adult, right? They can take care of themselves, and if they don't want to talk to me, they are able to say so."

Friend eyed him angrily, and Keagan slightly shifted. The floorboards creaked at the movement.

"They are mine."

The words echoed throughout the building, bouncing off the white plaster walls.

Keagan blinked in confusion, before it dawned on him.

"You think- ha!"

He couldn't stop the laughter from bubbling out.

Friend was not amused.

"They are mine and mine only, now get out."

Wiping a tear from his eye, Keagan shoved his hands into his pockets.

"First off, they are a PERSON, not a thing. You don't own people, you psycho. Second off, the fact that you think after all this time I have any sort of romantic feelings towards them is hilarious."

After a beat of silence, Keagan walked towards the stairs.

"I'll come back at a later time. Try not to kill them or traumatize them while I'm gone."

And with that, he left Friend in his spot, still soaking in his anger and hatred for him.

[obsidianpen]

Hey Pen :) So complete change of topic but I found out I‘m pregnant a few weeks ago and I‘m very excited but also a bit nervous. None of my friends are having babies yet (this little one was not planned haha), I don‘t live in my home country so obviously my parents aren’t around and I think you mentioned you had a baby last year?

Only if you wouldn’t mind sharing ofc but how did you decide on all the big baby stuff like what prenatal diagnostics to have them do, when/if to do vaccines, breastfeeding,… I feel like there‘s so much info out there and I‘m very unsure which to follow and I guess I would love to hear how you handled it all / your perspective on everything. Or if you’re not comfortable sharing: Can you recommend any books?

Sorry if this is too personal of a topic to address, I just don’t really have anyone else to ask.

hi anon! Congrats!!!

I’d be happy to answer questions and talk about my experiences, but I can’t really say what I think anyone else should do because the choices you’ll make will be SO dependent on your circumstances - your support system, your financial situation, what benefits your country has, what your baseline health is, etc, and of course what you are comfortable with and want. If you want to chat you can message me! I guess what I can say generally that I did and would recommend to anyone who is able is: 1. breastfeeding is soooooo beneficial for both you and baby so if you can do that, do it! And look into donor milk if you can’t! It’s amazing how many people are willing to donate breast milk. For free. I’ve done it a few times myself. Worth looking into!

My favorite resource was the La Leche League website:

https://llli.org

[marshmallowprotection]

I've been questioning this for a long time...

When Suit Saeran is talking, so to speak, to V in the garden on the 9th, Suit angrily tells him that he had abandoned him to which V replies that it was Saeran who abandoned him. I think V says something like this "It was you who abandoned me" I don't know, it just makes me cringe every time I read this sentence, but I just can't explain to myself why V would say something like that?

Okay a lot of things happened, mistakes and misunderstandings but isn't it so blatant of V to say that to Saeran? (V knew that Rika had taken Saeran and did nothing to go after him during all that time).

Is there something I'm not seeing, is there a reason behind those words, what does V mean when he points to Saeran as the one who abandoned him? I'm going on the side that it's a script error or something unless if there is an explanation. I don't get it, sorry haha.

To preface this, I don't think you should take anything you read when it comes to specific lore like this in the literal sense. They are known to change things after the fact in this game and the rest of us have to work to piece it together to make sense of it. The story of how Saeran was brought to Mint Eye changes depending on where you are in the game.

In the diary, Saeran is kidnapped by some of Rika's guards on the street and brought to Mint Eye on his way home from the Cathedral. He's tortured countless ways in Mint Eye until the pain becomes too much to handle and Ray awakes in response.

[Check out Saeran's Diary in this post.]

That is the canon we are supposed to follow in this situation, ignoring anything that might have been shared in the casual and deep routes up until this point. Because, there are bits and pieces in those other routes imply that he might have gone along with Rika willingly, that he might’ve been the one to kill his mother instead of Rika, and that he might’ve had more time with Rika and V than what we see shown.

I have my own thoughts on those theories, but I digress. In the diary, when he gets kidnapped, he mentions two specific instances that're meant to correlate to this. Before he’s kidnapped, he finds Rika in the church, taking his photo off the wall of children that are members of the church. Whatever conversation he has with her is definitely off but he tries not to think much of it.

It's not long after that that he's followed home by a strange group of people, and he thinks it's his father coming after him, only to realize that those people don't work for his dad in the midst of the isolation he's put in at Mint Eye before he's brought to Rika in the basement. 

It's further developed in the After Ending by building on what's in the diary. Saeran spent most of his time at the church when not trapped at home with his mother. He didn't have a lot of one-on-one based interaction with most of the adults at the church, and what little time he did have with them, it wasn't spent fostering any sort of familial relationship. He says himself that he doesn't really view Rika or V as parents. I’d argue that Saeyoung does / did, but that’s not the case for Saeran. 

So, I do believe it's possible that if we follow this line of thinking that is given to us from the diary and the game, V was meant to meet with Saeran some time after Rika had him kidnapped and he didn’t show up. 

My problem with this specific set of information is that we are missing a lot of crucial details to round out this situation. Mother Choi was killed by Rika in self-defense, Jihyun was there with her and they had to “take care of it”.

Saeran wasn’t home during this altercation, obviously, but my main question is: where in the world was he staying if he wasn’t living with Rika and V? Rika and V talked Mother Choi into letting him attend the cathedral classes. I can only imagine that the church was letting him stay there overnight now and again.

That is the only thing that makes sense to me at this point in time with what information that's been given to me. It's the only thing that makes sense with the information they've given us, but there are a lot of holes in this because Cheritz is not that good at communicating between writing teams as these things are created as there are a lot of plot holes that pop up that shouldn’t be there.

I will admit they did a lot to make it cohesive, but there are a few holes here and there that haunt me to this day. This would explain why when Saeran tried to run home and found police tape at the scene, Jihyun had all the reason to pull him away from the crime scene and cover everything up. Saeran might’ve wanted to see his mother after staying at the church, and V couldn’t say no, so that’s how that happened. 

But, my main problem with him being kidnapped stems from the fact that he was trying to leave the cathedral and go home that day those believers got him, a home that should've been impossible for him to go to because his mother was no longer there and the police would have been scouring the area for him. Certainly they would not have allowed him to continue staying in that house given what happened there. 

Rika and V were at odds after Mother Choi's death as well. That was Rika's breaking point, her point of no return as seeing herself as the devil who cannot be saved, so at least, that explains why Rika and V had no communication between them which led to Saeran being all by himself in this situation to get kidnapped to begin with. I wonder sometimes if V assumed Rika would keep her promise and still look after Saeran while he was away, likely hunting for information to do what he could to ruin Saejoong Choi's career, and that's why he was the one who said: "Saeran, you left me."

I don't think V knew it was Rika who took Saeran at first, but it would not take much for him to start putting the pieces together given what we know.

He had to spend a lot of time figuring out where she was, where she took him, and what she was doing in the mountains. There is so much information we are not given in this game about Rika and V at the end of their relationship and the start of Mint Eye. There is so much there that could help us create a more cohesive understanding of this situation, and while I will admit that Rika Behind fills in a lot of these holes, I’m left wondering more and more every day with what I wasn’t told. 

I don't think that was the best choice of words, even if he pieced together the truth of the situation there was no reason to say that Saeran left him, but V is not one to use the best language even when he's trying his best to help. I mean, after all, he definitely didn't make himself look good at the beginning of Ray Route.

He kept pushing for Ray to listen to him, begging and pleading in a way that certainly made him, and the RFA by extension, look bad. In universe, at that moment, even if you have doubts about Mint Eye's goals and the truth behind the RFA, you see something that would make anyone doubtful.

Who would you believe in that situation? Ray lied to you about Mint Eye and the RFA, but he also warned you that V and Seven were horrible, horrible people. You might be rightfully upset with him, but when V shows up and Ray has a panic attack, what does that look like? What do you think about someone who has a presence that sends somebody into a downward spiral?

You don't have enough time to process all of what V’s saying, you just see Ray huddled over in pain. This isn't the last time his language isn't the best in his attempt to save Ray and Saeran. But, the true intent is there, it's just his execution and dialogue that end up being messy. V is a character who can be best described as the path paved to hell is made with good intentions. 

That being said, I wish I could give you an exact answer, but unfortunately, I can't give you an answer when even I don't have the slightest idea how to frame this situation outside of what I've told you here. This is one of those things where you're just going to have to draw your own conclusion or rip your hair out. 

[other-peoples-coats]

coats hello :( weird question but i think i semi-majorly fucked up at work, do you have any general advice on dealing with that?

Hi anon! disclaimer up front: I am not a professional at anything related to like, mental health or employment law, I'm just a potato with some fucked brain chemistry and a willingness to read a lot of legal documentation.

that said: first up, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when that happens, you're 100% not alone and you're allowed to feel bad about it, but also, try and chill out. brains are shit. jobs are extra double shit. sometimes you fuck up and that's ok, you're human, you're allowed to fuck up and this isn't the end of the world.

second up: I don't know anything about what you fucked up, or how major it was, but like. there's probably been bigger fucks ups, likely even at your specific company/department. I can almost guarantee you that.

I also don't know what your particular job situation is re:how much going to your boss/leader/team and being like 'whoops there is a problem and I made it' will be detrimental to you - on the scale of 'your boss/person who keeps you employed' will be like DEATH TEN THOUSAND YEARS POVERTY (in which case: fuck them, most mistakes can be rectified and learnt from) to 'haha that's ok, lets work to fix it and make sure it can't happen again, no worries anon it happens', but you...will have a better idea of that.

either way, on the practical front: if what went wrong is something fixable, come up with a plan to fix it. doesn't have to be a huge apology tour /I will work day and night without food nor water nor rest until the kingdom is safe the fuck up is fixed / whatever, but y'know, if it's a 'I approved a print run and we printed 10,000 copies of this book which is missing chapter 6 entirely, has 3 chapter 9s, and misspells the author's name' (True story my wife has seen happen! on the milder end of the moderate fuck up scale!), maybe you're like 'I will re-read more thoroughly the approved document and run a shorter print run for quality/ work out how to organise our print schedule so everything is still done on time/what the fuck ever'. Leave room for your bosses to change stuff, because.... some people loooove to be able to Have Input, but be prepared to run with whatever you've got as a patch.

This will depend on your boss/organisation/field, obviously, so apologies for the generic sort of answer here. Some bosses fucking love it when an underling comes to them and is like 'hey problem (mea culpa) BUT it's not a you problem because I've already planned to fix it, just need you to ok the fix which you do not have to do any more work about', some bosses really want to be involved and micromanage it. or collaborate, or have eyes on something else that you don't know about that is also impacted.

Ideally, you also come up with a way you can try and avoid this sort of mistake in the future. not that you 100% will! but it looks good if you can be like 'I have learnt from my mistakes and in order to avoid them or similar in the future I will [whatever]'. Don't pitch this as a 'there's a problem with The Company's Processes'; that looks like shifting blame. (even if it's true.)

non-ethical corollary here: if your boss/job is the kind to be like 'you forgot to cross the t on page 15402, you're FIRED', and your fuck up doesn't actually endanger people (so like, you accidentally approved 40000 books to be printed wrong, not you accidentally put arsenic in the communal sugar pot) you might have to sort of. fudge it. a little bit. which I am not recommending, but also, like, sometimes you gotta 'haha whoops the technology demons anyway here's a fix to this totally unrelated to me problem'. This is not recommended. Do not do this if you are likely to be 1)dealing with the law about it 2)internally investigated about it 3)caught out about it or, frankly, 4)rewarded for the fix, but also, sometimes you just gotta throw some tech under the bus to make rent. It's shit. that's late stage capitalism for you.

Don't throw anyone else who's not related to it under the bus for your fuck up, though. That's dogshit behavior.

(please decide how comfortable with lying here you are. and how good at it you are. before you commit to this path. Which, again, I am not recommending, but also, I've definitely had jobs where 'haha the tech demons anyway here's a patch for this weird issue bye' was the thing standing between me and uh not making rent that month)

Emotionally, dealing with the 'oh fuck I fucked up I fucked up I fuckedup'...yeah. it's fucking rough. acknowledge (to yourself! fuck your boss, this is your emotional health not their business) that you did, that you didn't do it on purpose, and try and put into place strategies to stop it happening again, because even if your boss is like 'lmao no wukkas mate she'll be right we'll just patch it in post', you are probably in the 'I could walk into the sea' mindeset, and that's just how it sometimes be, because...brains bad ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

second: be kind to yourself! watch yr fave shows or play some games to not think about it for a bit. do your hobby. talk with friends. talk with friends about times they fucked up at work even! talk to your partner/s if you've got 'em about it; my wife was the one who started me on the keeping a book of communal fails to have an outside perspective on how mcuh everyone on my team fucks up.

I would probably recommend documenting everything related to this in a separate file NOT ON A WORK DEVICE cannot emphasize that enough, just so you have like, a clear timeline of events should you need it. ideally you end up with like:

-[thing you should have done]

-[thing you messed up AND WHEN YOU REALISED]

-next steps you took

-what your boss did in response

-any other stuff - your plan to not have it happen again, potential fall out, etc etc, any messages you have abou this or related yo this, who you've told what and when.

Hopefully you have this just as reference for yourself later - both as a 'last time I fucked up this is how it went!' and also, honestly, as a story for job interviews when they're like 'so tell us about a time you fucke dup at work'. (which is a cruel interview question, tbqh, but an increasingly common one, in my opinion.)

or to give to HR. like, I hope it doesn't get there, but like. y'know. cover thine own ass.

And finally -- again, keep that record of ways other people in your team are fucking up, to just kinda reassure yourself,. maybe even make it retrospective, if you can remember any other issues! remember last month when Jenny accidentally emailed the client briefing to George in accounting instead of George in accounts? in your note book of communal fails it goes. not to throw people under the bus, but to get a more objective sense of how bad this actually is on the scale and how unusual. (weight it though; you're more likely to remember your own fuck ups than anyone elses).

But also like. it's ok. you're allowed to fuck up sometimes. I'm sorry that you did, and I'm not saying that it's gonna be fun or easy to deal with, but like. You're human. You're allowed to fuck up sometimes.

(also, anyone who is actually a experienced in uh. an even related field feel free to chime in here; this is hugely biased by both being Australian and the labour laws/work culture on the whole here.)

[brunchbitch]

Re: weed and addiction. I had a realization a few months ago that I am more so addicted to numbness than to a particular substance. Like, in the evenings it’s weed, but obviously I can’t be high during work, so I listen to podcasts constantly. And in the morning I scroll social media…I’m basically addicted to, or at least highly dependent on, things that effectively take me out of my own brain. I guess this ties into what your therapist was saying too about personality, because yeah everything is kinda turned down, that’s the point haha. Anyway, I’m working on changing my relationship with all of the numbing tools, including weed, and learning to be alone with my own mind sometimes. It is very difficult. But easier with the awareness. Not saying this is your exact situation or anything, just my own experience!

I definitely relate!

[acromandus]

Finally getting around to doing this! Thank you @thelifeinmyshadesofgrey for tagging me ♥♥♥♥♥ I haven't done these in ages so it was fun to feel like we were back in the 'golden era' of tumblr xD

Tag someone you want to know AND/OR some of your besties: I don't wanna pressure anyone to have to do this, so consider this a warm suggestion rather than a I-will-judge-you-if-you-don't kind of situation @heyitszev :) (and if anyone else reading this feels like it, go ahead, the more the merrier lmao)

Favourite colour: This is a tough one because it all just depends on context so much. I'd say typically I veer more towards darker tones in general: really like a nice dark green, or a dark red or crimson. Purple is lovely too :D

Last song: Two Knights and Maidens by Crash Test Dummies https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NS2EcHzdYY

Say what you want about the lyrics, but the chord progression in this song is *chefs kiss*

Last movie: 9. A bit of a strange one perhaps, but an interesting take on a post-apocalyptic world brought to life in a style that reminds me of Tim Burton a little bit. Basically, the world has been destroyed in a war between humans and machines, and we're introduced to a group of sentient dolls, each with a number on their backs from 1 to 9, who have had to survive in this strange new world while figuring out why they were made in the first place. I don't wanna spoil this for anyone who hasn't seen it, so I'll leave it at that :)

Currently watching: I'm in-between series atm haha. Waiting for season 4 of the Boys, and just finished watching season 2 of 30 Coins. Might just do a rewatch of Andor or the Punisher to fill this void.

Other stuff I watched this year: Err… from what I remember (and yes, since we're only in January, I'm counting 2023 into this as well) I'd say Moon Knight, Andor, 30 coins, a rewatch of Supernatural (up to season 12), and the One Piece live action series. Out of all these Andor was perhaps my favourite, but I enjoyed all of them, and was pleasantly surprised at how well the One Piece adaptation remained loyal to the original works :D they obviously had to adjust some things but it still felt true to form. With Andor, I was hesitant to watch it at first because the last SW series I had watched had been declining in quality (weird writing, etc), however… Andor completely blew me away. The way it builds up to the climax was just so well done, the writing is superb, music fantastic, and it's one of those series I wish I could forget about completely so I could experience it for the first time again.

Shows I dropped this year/didn’t finish: I haven't watched many series I've not finished since I usually watch them to the end anyway, but looks like that new Percy Jackson series may unfortunately fall into this category?

Currently reading: I've been powering through the Harry Potter books. Started during the Christams holidays and I'm now on book 6. So far so good, though I've had to slow down with holidays being over. Might need to reread the Robert Langdon series as well after this as it's still one of my personal favourites.

Currently listening to: This changes daily but I do find myself drifting back to Riot music very often. So, that's music made for League of Legends, Valorant, etc. Not the soundtracks, but songs like Worlds anthems like "GODS" (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3GouGa0noM) and 2021's "Burn It All Down" (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Z6CHioIn3s). I also absolutely love "Breathe" from the official launch video for Legends of Runeterra (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNhKAJwlj04). I also like this vid for it heavily featuring Darius, the only champ I ever played when I attempted to get into LoL before the toxicity got to me and I decided it's not for me :3 (didn't take long, but left me with a bit of a soft spot for him lmao)

I absolutely do not play any of these games but man… the music is on point imo. Something again about chord progression, don't ask what my obsession with that is lmao.

If I'm not listening to these and songs like them, I'm listening to heavy metal (industrial or symphonic), movie or game soundtacks, or oldies belonging to various genres from the 70s and 80s, occasionally 90s as well. Here's a couple examples:

Once You've Tasted Love by Take That

Take the Long Way Home by Supertramp

Evil Woman by Electric Light Orchestra

Misplaced by Sonata Arctica

And I will leave it at that as I've already included too many songs lmao

Currently working on: I'm currently making a backend for a gym app I'm working on. I somehow got the GraphQL elements working, now I need to get it saving to a database of somekind. I could do this locally or learn to save data to the cloud but I haven't yet decided which approach to take lmao. Overall, I'm just upskilling in the hopes of eventually landing a job as a full-stack developer. NO LUCK SO FAR aside a couple freelance frontend opportunities :/

Current obsession: Hmm….. good question. I'd say, despite me not playing it as much as I used to, I am slowly getting back to Elder Scrolls Online? Fire Emblem Fates is another, as well as Bleach.

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hi so this is for if you care about my writing ! my new blog is @suturism and im gonna be posting updates about my wips on there alongside my other mainblog shit :) i also have a twitter by the same username but i really just tweet abt random shit on there lol , but feel free to follow me if u want !!

im about to ramble a bit so if tail lights is your concern that's below here

obviously , i barely wrote last year , especially compared to the year before that . i didnt really make an effort in my writing at all after about march or so . and it wasn't lack or motivation or ideas

for a lot of people , it's really easy to write TO cope with like difficult situations but for me that's just . not it . im a very tunnel-visioned person and i can really only focus on one goal at once , and my goal for 2023 was literally like: survive . because of life situations plus my own health . i also didnt know whether id have to get extended care , so i didnt want to start any like big fics or anything during that time because i didnt know if id be able to update . thats the primary reason i didnt write much

the second is literally just insecurity and posting anxiety which sounds stupid LOL but it's super real for me . im really trying not to be so self conscious about what i post and to be content with the fact that i have progress to make , but it's hard at times . esp because (imo) tail lights was lackluster and i REALLY want my next multichapter to be better and something i can be proud of . so up to this point ive kinda been too anxious to post much if im being honest ! but i can feel that ebbing and it's simultaneously exciting and scary !

the third reason is just that like up til recently i didnt see a point !! my perspective towards writing has been really negative for a while but now im like rediscovering my love for it in my own and others' works and im just so . it makes me gush and also ANGRY because i feel stupid for neglecting it for this long LOL

so yeah with that: tail lights haha . im sorry but this the official funeral :| better now than holding out hope .

its status is basically: i have no PLANS to finish part two and i dont WANT to finish part two , so dont anticipate anything . not saying it wont ever happen if one day my feelings change but like i really dont see that happening so

i just have too many ick feelings associated to continue it and also enjoy it , so i really am sorry about that

BUT just because i am less invested in tail lights doesnt mean it isnt important to me still !! i appreciate everyone who read it/kudosed/commented/holds it dear 🖤 more than you can ever know . writing that showed me that people WILL actually read what i write , and that they care about it too , and thats a priceless sentiment i cherish

and with THAT: new writing !

so i dont wanna say anything super concrete but what im posting next is PROBABLY going to be yellowjackets related , but it may be saltburn or even tlou !! ill probably write a fic or two related to tlou after the remastered comes out depending on how much content we get and if its anything i can work with :)

but yeah if u read this far thank u for caring about my writing i love you

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1801

Has anyone ever made fun of your taste in music? Not to my face but I'm familiar with the sensation. Society at large had historically made fun of girls who liked One Direction, and we're getting a repeat treatment for the most part with BTS.

What’s your favorite season of the year? We don't have seasons so I've never been able to relate with your four.

Do you have pop-tarts in your house right now? No – the markups for those get so expensive so we only occasionally get them. Like they taste okay, but definitely not worth how much they'd usually cost.

Is anyone’s birthday coming up? It's my dad's birthday in a little over a week.

Does someone owe you over twenty dollars? Yep my sister's been paying me in installments for the tickets I got her to both Seventeen and the upcoming Manila run of Miss Saigon.

Do you remember who you liked in grade eight? That's equivalent to freshman year, right? I wasn't into anyone then.

When was the last time you burned any part of your body? It fortunately didn't leave a mark but a couple of months ago I touched a freshly-cooked mozzarella stick, but my instinct wasn't quick enough so I unintentionally let it linger in my hand even though it was scorching hot. Anyway, it obviously hurt a lot lol and the affected fingers were throbbing for a few moments before subsiding.

Have you ever overflown a bathtub? Nope.

Are you dressing up for Halloween this year? It's only January and very early to tell.

Have you ever called somebody dollface? I don't think so.

If I gave you ten dollars, what would you spend it on? Immediately put it in savings.

Have you ever thrown food at a stranger in a movie theater? Wow, no?

What are you most excited about right now? Well there's the Rumble happening this weekend and I have a hunch AJ will be making a teeny weeny appearance, so I've been hyping myself over that for the last couple of months now haha.

Does / did either of your parents serve in the military? They never did.

Are you somewhat of a perfectionist? To a fault.

Do you like sour candy? No I quite dislike anything sour actually.

Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? I've never really thought about it. Somewhere secluded in like Spain would be nice.

Do you have Verizon? We don't have that.

What do you do to stay awake when you’re tired? I just drink coffee. Maximizing the brightness on my phone also helps.

Are all nighters something you have grown used to? I'm not 'used' to it, it's just something I like doing.

Do you usually wear sunglasses when you’re driving? I never do that.

Do you wear your shoes around the house? I'm Asian. We take our shoes off no matter what.

Is there ever a time that you enjoy cold showers?

Yeah, when it's really hot and I've been at work outdoors.

What clothes are you most comfortable in? Sligihtly oversized tops, denim jeans, sneakers. Jackets/cardigans that are one size larger are also nice.

Is there anybody you’re not ashamed to tell anything to? Angela would be the closest.

What has changed most about you in the past year? I've been a lot more generous to myself in setting boundaries.

Are you good at painting nails? Not at all. I can't even do mine neatly.

Smoothies or slushies? Slushies.

Are you good at filling silence in awkward situations? It depends. Sometimes I know so little about a person (maybe we've only met, maybe we're worlds apart when it comes to our interests) that it's just impossible for me to keep a conversation going; it'slso harder when they also don't make the effort.

Ignoring nutrition, could you live off veggies for the rest of your life? No, I need my meat.

Elaborate on a way you have volunteered? I've never volunteered but I've shown support in other ways. I donate to crowdfunding efforts for injured stray dogs at least once a month, and there's a rescue community that I have a subscription to – the monthly fees go to maintaining their shelter.

Do you use a full length mirror daily? Yep, just to check how I'm looking and if I need to fix my hair or whatever.

Can you walk in heels, or do you feel awkward in them? I used to love wearing heels and owned several pairs, so if you asked me put a pair on now I'll be just fine.

Any TV shows you sit down weekly to watch? I'll watch at least one Friends episode once a week but that's it.

Does anybody know about your sex life other than your partners? Sure.

Even if you don’t like politics, do you still have opinions on the issues? Yes.

Are you one to sneak food into movie theaters? We don't 'sneak' food because we don't have to do it, lol. Bringing outside food works just fine here, and there's a mutual understanding among Filipinos that the one line we draw is just with smelly food. People will bring sushi or fries or hotdogs or pizza but you'll never see anything that's like, flooding in garlic or vinegar or whatever.

Will you tell someone if there’s something in their teeth? Yes, 100%.

Do you ever actually make your bed? Yup, I need to otherwise I wouldn't be in the proper headspace to work.

Do you make an effort to eat healthy? Just whenever I can but it's really not a practice of mine. I love spoiling myself with all my food faves lol.

How are things between the person you like / love / are with?

Where did you sleep last night? Below my loft bed, which is where I sleep on weekdays. My actual bed is only reserved for weekends.

The last time you kissed someone, what color of shirt were they wearing? Idk.

What year do / did you graduate? I graduated college in 2020.

What kind of booze did you last take shots of? Soju.

What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall? An inhaler because I recently lost mine :(

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you that you were sexy? I don't think so.

If you could see any musician live, front row, who would you choose? BTS or Beyoncé.

If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret? The money.

Are you taller than your mom? No. She's short, but I'm still shorter :( Hahaha.

Have you ever been around someone who was high? I have, back in college.

Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning? I used to be such a major evening shower-er but lately it's been in the mornings. I need to get my showers in as soon as I wake up because I find it helps SO much with calming me down and making me feel relaxed just before I start work.

Think back to June. Were you in a relationship? I have not been for the last 3 Junes.

What’s so special about what you’re wearing? I got this top from my extreme last-minute outfit shopping for Kim Seonho's fanmeet last year. Basically I went to the arena with an outfit I pre-decided on, come to discover that there was apparently a color code (his fandom color is blue). I had zero blue on so I rushed to the nearest H&M and bagged the first blue top I could find, lol.

Do you have any ‘naughty’ photos on your phone? Nopes.

Could you handle living with a male roommate? It'd be quite unique but I'm not closed off from that situation.

What were you doing at 10:00 this morning? In a virtual meeting.

Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? We haven't talked in over three years.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you? No.

What do you miss the most about your past? Not feeling like I am stuck.

When is the next time you will kiss someone? I don't know. Never? Hahahaha.

Has anyone taken their shirt off in front of you? Yes.

Plan on getting drunk or high tonight? Nah.

In the past week, have you cried hysterically? Yeah, I cried like Monday to Wednesday over work. And it wasn't just your light sobs; I was struggling to catch my breath and everything I said came out shakily and I was crying from pure anguish.

Do you think you’ll actually live a happy life with somebody? No. I'm okay on my own.

Are you on birth control? Nope.

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? Nah.

Last time you were really happy? Seeing Seventeen last week, hehe.

Do you tend to fall for players? No.

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex? We're estranged now.

Have you ever asked a boy for advice? Yes, I've asked plenty of advice from Hans before.

Are you wrapped in a blanket? Nopes.

Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night? Yes I did, actually. I fell asleep earlier than usual – around 10:30 AM – so that helped a lot.

Have you spoken to your mother today? Father? Mom yes, dad no.

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9, 22, 25 for both :)

To save everyone else from my lengthy answers, they're provided under the cut haha

9. Do you have a specific lyric or quote which you associate with your OC?

Loezia: "No, I didn't mean to get you deep in the back of my mind // Just swimming around it // All these bruises and your scars down within // No one here to see you under them"—"Again" by Mako

The song as a whole reminds me of them both together and the effect they have on each other, but this verse feels particularly "Loez" to me.

Wuld: "He retreats like frost in sunlight // Melts like wax beneath a flame // A kindly dog, when cornered, bites // He must be caged if he can't be tamed"—"The Bird Is In The Birdcage" by Dirt Poor Robins

This is just Wuld's reality and I think highlights how his nature might have been changed by his nurture. I like to think Wuld would or could have been a pacifist—much like Loez—but instead, he is a pacifist by necessity and action only, and at heart . . . ohhhh he would love to kill people.

22. What character alignment would you consider your OC to be?

Loezia: Obviously none of these fit for either of them, because the alignments are used as a sort of tool for when you're starting off with a character, but if I had to simplify to the most accurate metric, Loezia would be Neutral Good.

He's Lawful when he feels beholden or joined to a community or communal effort, but Chaotic when he's severed. He's therefore Neutral by default, but does not hold himself above Lawful or Chaotic because he holds himself above no one.

He is Good, but also not so Good that he might not make a Neutral decision, such as killing someone innocent for a personal reason he believes justified (the killing people thing with him is uhhh Complex). But there we get into how Good is only of substance when there is an Evil in opposition, and Evil is almost always determined by politics (and I mean Evil specifically, not Right/Wrong). The fundamental distinction of import is that Loezia does not think himself Good or anyone else Evil, and that matters.

Wuld: Here we once again run up against the struggle of what is demanded of Wuld in order to survive vs who he actually is. Societally, he is Lawful Neutral. Personally, he is somewhere between True Neutral and Chaotic Neutral. The Chaotic part is purely a result of what he has endured as an ostracized and subjugated "member" of any society.

He does not care whether people are Good or Evil. He cares about virtually no one except himself. He only cares about the law because if he doesn't obey it, he will be punished (and is perfectly aware that the law doesn't protect him even when he abides by it).

25. What is your favorite thing about your OC?

Loezia: I think it's his humility. Not because I think it makes him a better person—I think it's just as much a flaw as it is something that's helped him survive—but because it makes him a really fascinating narrator. He's self-aware and observant, but dependably unreliable regarding his own abilities and achievements. While he sees himself accurately, and he knows exactly what he's capable of, he never assumes he's better than any situation or person he's up against.

Again, this has helped him survive, but it's lacking in the context that shapes everyone else's reality. As a result, it's been really fun to write him in the most recent chapters, where readers can hopefully begin to pick up on just how isolated his self perception is.

Wuld: So much of Wuld's character is proportioned and strengthened by the necessity of survival, so saying that my favorite part of him is his adaptability, for instance, is strange, because the immenseness of his character that encompasses that is a result of him needing to utilize that part of him for his survival. If that makes sense.

Because of that, I think my favorite part of him is where his survival mechanisms break. He's extremely adaptable in a hostile environment, but deeply brittle in a welcoming one.