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tongue tied [bam x jenn x jimmy]
desc: jimmy teaches bam how to eat pussy
a/n: this is the fic I said no one but me would enjoy and I fully believe that but it's been in my head for literal days. Inspired by the many bloodhound gang songs about oral. weirdly enough, in a fic about eating out a woman, Jenn is kind of not important here, it's a very Jimmy centric fic.
warnings: oral sex, cucking sort of maybe, d/s dynamics, under negotiated kinks, very weird relationship dynamics
word count: 929
Jimmy was, what he would call, a proud pussy connoisseur. Contrary to the usual rockstar stereotype, he loved making his partners cum more than he cared about his own release. It made him feel powerful, the feeling of a woman shaking under him, moaning out his name as she desperately dug her nails into his skin or pulled his hair. And what he loved most of all was feeling the wetness spread across his lips, lapping it up with his tongue until he had them squirming from overstimulation.
So when Jenn joked about how Bam could learn something from him after one of Bloodhound gang's shows, he offered to teach him without a second thought. Jenn agreed, intrigued by the prospect, while Bam looked unsure, embarrassed by his own lack of experience but weirdly turned on by the idea. And that's how they found themselves in Bam and Jenn's room, Jenn sitting at the edge of their bed naked, her legs spread, Bam kneeling between them, shirtless, while Jimmy stood next to them, leaning on the bed, the only one fully dressed, nursing a beer in his hand.
Bam looked at him expectantly, those pretty blue eyes begging for instructions, an embarrassed flush across his face. Jimmy loved seeing him like this, not in control for once in his life, and the thought of the MTV star obediently surrendering to his words sent his ego soaring and blood flowing to his dick. "Warm her up a bit." He said, taking a sip of his beer as he watched Bam press gentle kisses to the inside of his girlfriend's thighs, moving up slowly, fingers tracing her soft skin. Jenn ran a hand through his hair, silently praising him, looking almost like an owner petting their dog and Jimmy had to hide his smile behind his beer can.
Jimmy's eyes met Bam's again, the younger man's lips inching closer to his girlfriend's pussy, unsure of what to do next. "Kiss it." He commanded, his voice low, watching Bam obey immediately, still looking up at him. "Again." And he did, hearing Jenn let out a sigh, smiling against her and looking up to meet her half lidded eyes, before his eyes locked back on Jimmy. "Again." They kept going like that until Jimmy was satisfied with the desperate noises Jenn was making and the wet sound of Bam's kisses. He smiled, the thought of the younger man paying attention to him rather than his own girlfriend while eating her out made him feel like a god.
Jimmy finally moved from his position above the couple, slipping onto the bed behind Jenn, legs spread, pulling her up onto his lap. Bam stared up at them, mouth agape and dick growing ever harder, as Jenn turned her head to kiss Jimmy, not caring that her boyfriend was watching, while Jimmy teasingly ran his hands up her spread thighs. When they pulled away from the kiss, Jimmy looked down at Bam's flushed face, eyes flitting down to his painfully hard dick before meeting his eyes again. "Watch and repeat Bambam."
Jimmy's fingers fell between Jenn's legs, slowly moving his finger up and down, sliding through the wetness and spit before pulling it away, a frustrated noise leaving Jenn's mouth, quickly replaced by one of pleasure as Bam's tongue mirrored the older man's actions. "Keep going until I tell you to stop." Bam nodded, his head between their legs, lapping at his girlfriend's pussy. He felt his hair being pulled lightly, a trail of spit still connecting his lips to her pussy, eyes moving up to see it was Jimmy's hand that was coaxing him away.
"Pay attention." His tone was harsh, waiting for Bam to do as he was told before pressing the pads of his finger to Jenn's clit, light moans leaving her mouth as he rubbed circles on it slowly, teasingly. A drawn out moan of his name made him smile against her shoulder, pulling Bam's head forward by his hair to replace his fingers with his tongue. The room was filled with sounds of Jenn's moans and Bam's tongue eagerly licking her clit, and it was like music to Jimmy's ears, hearing her moan out his name instead of Bam's, the younger man either not noticing or not caring.
"Suck it." The words made Bam dizzy, imagining Jimmy saying that in a similar position to the one they were in now, but without another body between them. He did as he was told, sucking his girlfriend's clit, her moans getting higher and louder, body pressing to Jimmy's chest as her hips rocked forward to meet Bam's mouth. Jimmy pressed gentle kisses along her neck and jaw, his hand moving between her and Bam, sliding two fingers into her while keeping the younger man in place with the hand still in his hair, encouraging him to keep going as their movements made Jenn's body go taut, cumming on Jimmy's fingers, her juices dripping down her boyfriend's chin.
As she collected herself, she got off Jimmy's lap, lying down on the bed next to them, fucked out. Bam was still kneeling between Jimmy's spread legs, looking up at him with dazed blue eyes, when Jimmy slipped his wet fingers into his mouth. Jimmy couldn't hide the wicked smile that was spreading across his face as he watched Bam obediently clean his fingers, face glistening from spit, lips puffy, cock still hard in his pants.
"Next time, we should teach him how to suck dick." Jenn giggled, and neither man showed any sign of disagreement.
#guess who doesn't like the end again#I'm setting it up for a part 2 sorryyyy that wasn't the og plan#oh jimmy pop how I love writing you cocky#bam margera#jenn rivell#jimmy pop#jackass#jackass fanfic#jackass fic#viva la bam#bloodhound gang#bloodhound gang fic#bloodhound gang fanfic
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You know, I kind of hate to see people treat Cas!Gil as if he was any less arrogant than his Archer counterpart, when in reality, he just learned that there is a time and place for everything, including arrogance
Same here, and like I kinda understand where those people are coming from since they got used to Saber having a bunch of different versions or alter egos or like Sakura too and some others more. And sure Gilgamesh too has different versions of him like his alter ego that we'll about to see in new volume of fsf or we have proto Gilgamesh or Nebuchadnezzar (well this guy is just Gilface and not actually Gilgamesh but you get the point).
But still you can't treat archer Gil and caster Gil situation as like saber Artoria and caster Artoria because it's a completely different thing and there's a lot of proofs that show that they are one and the same person.
The most obvious one is Babylonia, like there's a lot of moments there that show the connection between caster and archer Gil and it has a huge reference to Gilgamesh's third SG in CCC like I mean.
Also some characters in fgo also mentioning the fact of connection and similarity between archer and caster Gil, like Hakuno for example. She has a line for caster Gilgamesh
AND she uses the same words that archer Gilgamesh mentioned during his third SG speech.
Also in fate samurai remnant there's a lot of archer and caster Gilgamesh references scattered all over his shop. Oh and also this art.
AND there's one official acrylic stand that we have of archer Gil but he wears caster Gil's jewelry.
And caster Gilgamesh can be just as merciless and sharp as archer Gilgamesh
#so yeah those two are one and the same person and who says otherwise is just dumb#also if those people treat caster Gil as alter ego or whatever then why they don't treat kid Gil as other version of him?#because like it's obvious right?#and with caster Gil it's not so obvious because ??? he doesn't look like middle aged or old man ???#I actually have a thought why he still looks young as caster Gil#in CCC Gil mentioned that he managed to retrieve immortality plant or whatever#so I guess he took a test sample and it made him younger#so anyway once again archer Gil and caster Gil is one person. end of discussion#my ramblings#txt#long post#answers
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Next time we should just skip over ep 3 and do a chapters 84-87 reread
#Mmmmmmhhhh.#Well. If anything you can always tell when there's a ss/kk episode by the fact that it takes me two hours to watch it lol#What can I say. I'm a compulsive screencap taker#Mmmmmmhhh... I was right it wasn't as bad as I remembered it. Still moderately bad but not all bad.#It's just. I can feel the animators did their best.#I suppose it's just a difficult episode to animate within a short time frame since it's a specifically action packed one.#And the lack of time really shows. Like there *are* some detailed animated passages here and there. But then there's also these long static#shots that stretch on forever that are just... Idk. A little saddening to see I guess? Like the animators really ran out of time for them#There's also a big component of... I just can't vibe with the newfound artstyle. Like it looks soooo much worse than s1 in my opinion#Which you know‚ is only subjective! But eh... The distance between s2ep11 and this feels abyssal.#Everyone looks so ugly oftentimes. Like even in curated shots‚ they're just very rough and ungraceful.#Which like?? How could you look at Harukawa's art and come up with //that//??????? But it's whatever#And the pacing is so so off 😭😭😭 God please to death with 11 episodes long seasons give us filler episodes back. Please!!!!#The pacing is atrocious and it has not even to do with the animation. Even greatly animated episodes suffer from it.#Mmmmhh... I don't particularly like Fukuchi's vacting... He doesn't sound tired enough. Nor as pitiful as much as he should tbh#Among the three I feel like only Uemura really nails the job. I'm so sorry Onoken but I feel like even Akutagawa needs to sound vulnerable–#once in a while‚ you know? Although‚ if he's only going with how Bones depicts him‚ then I get why he would act him out like that 😭😭😭#There were so many reused shots too... The ones from the end of s2ep11... The s3ep12 kokko zessou one... Ss/kk running in the corridors...#Overall. Not as bad as I remembered it. But at the same time I get why I was so distraught because they really wasted the best four–#chapters of the manga just like that.#The “is his life that precious to you” moment was terrible 😭😭😭 Head in hands fr#Oh well. I babble a lot but it was okay. Like at least it wasn't season 3 kind of bad. And definitely wasn't t/pn s2 kind of bad LOL#I just hope ss/kk will be made justice in the future (╥﹏╥)#Especially since their new scenes (current manga events) are possibly going to be adapted in the first episodes of the new season.#If Bones pulls another s5ep3 on them you're going to see me on the news#Then again I have hope the arc finale will be adapted in a movie... Who knows...#Most of all I hope they change art style direction again D:#random rambles#Whaaaa it's so late already!!!#Edit: Oh also to not forget I've made like. One hundred posts. Maybe it's time to unfollow me now if you haven't already D:
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I knew about the post concert depression but no one told me about the post concert constant feeling of AAAAAAAAAHHH that lasts days and makes everything much more bearable and beautiful and some sort of ethereal type of hope is restored into the world, or maybe it's just the "seeing your favourite band after first thinking that it would never happen and later spending many months waiting for it all the while fearing that it wouldn't happen after all because of circumstances outside my control or feeling like it was too beautiful and wonderful to be true so ofc it wouldn't come true" part of it all
#guys i love they might be giants. did you know about this#me days before the show: crying because i will see they might be giants#me days after the show: crying because i saw they might be giants#truth is that i didn't actually full on cry until yesterday evening though so once i was back home so it was all officially over#and it was time to just slow down and realize that oh well wow. so all that just happened. like for realsies#i also finally looked through my videos and my recording of the whole show (yes as an archivist freak who records audio from most concerts#i obviously had to record this one also. now i can listen to it again and again and be remided that i didn't dream it all up after all)#but yeah all this and now i'm supposed to move on and go back to my stupid daily life#like i didn't just have one of those real actual life experiences and moments of pure fun that other people generally get from time to time#and that i haven't had since idk even when a year and a half ago#thats the last time i consider truly amazing on a level somewhat comparable to this. but back to the show and the whole thing.#like this wouldn't have been quite as perfect if i didn't share that time with fellow fans / friends that i ended up attending the show wit#you don't realize how badly you've been wanting to be included in things and for people to be genuinely fond of you and like your company#until you get included and shown that fondness. like wow i'm allowed to have fun too after all. can it happen again someday please. anyway#i'm just glad that in midst of my big bad awful times i could have this truly amazing 10/10 time#and i guess it doesn't have to be the last such time right. even if it's easy to give into the feeling that it is#but ok anyway i'll get to that proper show recap later when i can think clearly again#and maybe more on that more personal side of it all too because well i have many more thoughts obviously#but whether i get to that in 3 days or 3 months is a mystery for now. just kind of a lot to think about once again#and my stupid baka life continues on also whether i like it or not so that has to be taken into consideration as well#time to think again about school that i'm so totally fully failing now with my two weeks long absence yayyy. its fine i'll figure it all out#goosepost
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My new hobby is squinting at the background of Sky Chord and trying to find recognizable silhouettes.
I think the first half is the Living World? And the second half is Soul Society?
I only just now noticed the person walking left to right at the end of the gif, but for both thematic and height-based reasons I think it's gotta be Rukia.
#bleach endings#i realize this looks like the work of an extremely bored person but i assure you i had a lot of fun#i did not have a lot of fun trying to figure out how to do annotations in clipchamp. i did my best#i have a few more guesses but they are more based on the fact that the second one is *mostly* in squad order#it's so unlike a bleach op/ed to separate byakuya and renji#maybe they were talking together and byakuya hung back b/c he needed to tell hitsugaya something and now he's trying to catch up again#who! are! the other children?? i want to say ichigo's sisters but it doesn't look like them#the 'ichigo's classmates' label is based on the fact that one of them is reading (ryo) and one of them slouches like keigo
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real talk, though.
if vision quest is about white vision regaining his memories. even if she's dead, wanda should be in that.
you can't give me wandavision and then pretend that vision's memories wouldn't largely involve wanda. or you can, but then that would carry a through line of wanda caring more about vision than he does about her (or, at least, that his priorities were/are different - which you can support with infinity war and his decision to go jump into battle and leave wanda once he noticed the avengers needed his help). and regardless, she would and should still be part of those memories.
that would be the best place to confirm or deny what the mcu official timeline is speculating re: wanda's death because a white vision who truly regained his memories would also probably seek her out, depending on how he relates to those memories, even if he doesn't accept them into who he is or decides to be.
#musings#mcu#vision mcu#mcu vision#vision#vision quest#wanda maximoff#scarlet witch#wandavision#still big on 'no body no death' here#but like - this was a thing that got brought up in some of my discussions post-dsmom#where. was. white. vision.#if he got all his memories back at the end of wandavision why did he just. completely. never show up not go be with wanda like.#wv ended with 'we will meet again' which SHOULD BE WHITE VISION because he had his memories back#but he just peaced out into nowheresville#and disappeared#and has subsequently been mia for however many projects at this point#at least agatha has the agnes excuse - and also that for the past ten years of marvel stuff prior she was good at staying out of the way#i mean i guess this plays into why kamala doesn't know who he is#if she was 16 in ms. marvel that means she would have been 11 when the snap happened it makes since that she doesn't know him#ANYWAY#THOUGHTS#I HAVE THEM SOMETIMES
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For the character ask game: Whisper the Wolf!
Thank you so much!!
How I feel about this character:
Summed up in a single image:
She can do no wrong in my eyes. And even when she does do wrong, that's OK and I forgive her 💜
All the people I ship romantically with this character:
I headcanon that Claire (from the OG Diamond Cutters, RIP) was her first girlfriend. And then of course, Tangle is her current girlfriend.
But I also like shipping her with Lanolin. 👀 Don't get me wrong, I don't think this would be a particularly healthy relationship. I think they would both enable each other's worst tendencies without realizing that's what they're doing, even as they tried to help each other in terms of coping with their respective traumas or whatnot. But not all ships have to be healthy, and in a situation where the Restoration Civil War arc I've been imagining came to pass (which I'm starting to lose hope will happen in canon, but I can always write it myself if it doesn't), I could definitely see this happening since I do believe Whisper would choose Lanolin's side while Tangle would choose Sonic's, leading to their breakup.
My non-romantic OTP for this character:
Her wisps! My biggest gripe with how Whisper is portrayed in canon is how little thought is given to her wisps. They aren't even given proper names, which is why I had to do find a way to do so while still adhering to how their colors are used in dialogue most of the time. But the wisps were partnered with the original Diamond Cutters; they were as much part of the team as the mobians were, and now they and Whisper are all that's left. So whenever I write stories where Whisper is the POV character, I make sure to include them as much as I can, because they're all she has left of her family, and she's all they have left, too. :(
After the wisps though, I also like how her relationship with Sonic has been portrayed. As much as I don't think she'd take his side in the Restoration Civil War arc (because she'd align more with Lanolin's "take the fight to Eggman and take him out" beliefs vs Sonic's "wait for Eggman to do something and then stop that and let him go" beliefs), she still clearly appreciates him as a friend, because of how respectful he is of her boundaries. Their moments together are always kind and soft, and it's nice. :)
My unpopular opinion about this character:
It's not really an opinion, but I guess just noticing and pointing out that Whisper has an attempted murder count of four in the comics so far? Because I remember getting into an argument with someone because they wanted to insist that Whisper wouldn't be able to kill Mimic, of all people, and so Silver should be the one to do it instead, when Whisper has canonically already tried to kill him twice and only didn't do it the second time because Tangle shielded him with her own body. (And only didn't do it the first time because she had to choose between killing him and saving Tangle, and she chose to save Tangle.) And she's also tried to kill Eggman twice, only stopping the first time because Cream shielded Eggman with her body, and the second time she did shoot him through the heart, but it didn't take because of Eggman's trap sticking her eeby deeby. I got accused of wanting to see Whisper as a brutal killer or a murderer or whatever, and it's just -- no? I'm just recognizing what is textual for her character, which is: if she determines that someone is an irredeemable villain, and she has a chance to kill them, she WILL take the shot. This is especially true if she has a personal vendetta with them, as she does with Eggman and ESPECIALLY with Mimic. I don't know if it's because she's a female character, because she's ordinarily soft-spoken and shy, or both that make some people want to ignore that about her, but it's nonetheless true. There are two characters generally aligned with the heroes (as in, against the villains) in this series who can be counted on to take the shot, and those characters are Shadow and Whisper. And apparently that's an unpopular opinion, but IMO it's not an opinion. It's just fact lmao.
(One could also argue Omega, but I think Omega only destroys badniks, so I'm not sure that really counts here. I think Whisper and Shadow are the only ones who'd take out humans / mobians like Eggman and Mimic.)
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:
Aside from her wisps getting to have actual names / be more present characters as mentioned above (it's not like it's unheard of -- Lanolin's wisp is named Maggie!), I had to write a fix-it fic after the debacle of making her apologize about being upset over Tangle using the name Diamond Cutters for the new squad that Lanolin set up. Don't misunderstand, there was something Whisper did need to apologize for -- namely, trying to leave without saying goodbye prior to the Trial By Fire arc -- but she had every right to be upset with Tangle for using the name Diamond Cutters. That wasn't her name to use, and I think that it was glossed over too quickly, even though I do understand that they couldn't spend pages upon pages of comic space discussing it, lol. (Oh, and I had to show the wisps having opinions about it, too, because again, they were part of the original team, this affected them, too!)
Other than that, it would be nice to get to see Whisper having fun and being happy more often, as she was in the Endless Summer issue. She has been through so much; she deserves to actually smile and enjoy herself sometimes :') it would be nice to see that again.
Thanks again for sending this!!
#sth#whisper the wolf#skogskisse#the whole ''Whisper would take the shot'' thing ties into how Whisper/Tangle is like the healing/healthy relationship for her#while Whisper/Lanolin is feeding into each other's worst tendencies lol#bc Tangle is like ''no girl don't do it you can't walk back from murder don't lower yourself to his level''#but Lanolin at best just looks in the other direction#and more realistically is probably like ''take the shot''#bc as it says in her description in the art book she is sick of waiting for villains to hurt people & wants to bring the fight to them#which realistically ends in 1 of 2 ways. and we can guess she doesn't it to end with her & her team dying so. you know.#it's not that she WANTS Whisper to kill per se but like. this is war and you have to make hard choices in it#i think Lanolin has a lot of similarities w/ Jake from Animorphs in that respect#she may not be able to do it herself bc she knows she has to be elsewhere to win the battle / war (or bc her wispon#(isn't best suited to it etc) but she knows who CAN do it & will put them in the position to do it & point them at the enemy#& Whisper knows that's what she's doing & willingly goes with it bc this also aligns w/ what she wants re: taking down Mimic or Eggman#see again: feeding into each other's worst tendencies#BUT THIS IS ANOTHER TANGENT FOR ANOTHER TIME#anyway thanks again for sending!!!
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i've watched a lot of good films lately in an attempt to catch up with a bunch of movies that have come out recently, but talk to me was the best movie i've seen in a LONG time
#i put off watching it for so long because i was sure it was overrated + i'm generally not a fan of possession movies#(because so many of them try to be the exorcist and they will never be the exorcist. you know how it is)#but holy shit. genuinely a brilliant movie in every aspect of filmmaking + completely aligned with my personal taste#+ exactly what i look for thematically in possession and/or ghost movies#+ the absolute perfect balance between psychological and gory#and like i said SUCH a good cold opening#tbh i think it's a useful trick to know how to get your audience to buy into a supernatural premise from the very first scene#i think that takes some VERY effective + skillful writing and directing#and as someone who again typically does NOT like possession movies i usually end the movie NEVER buying into the story#not because i'm a 'skeptic' or whatever just because the writing doesn't do the work#but SCENE ONE of this movie i was so in it#anyway. movee of all time to me#also from the trailers etc i had thought that that fluffy yellow sweatshirt mia wears at the beginning of the movie was a bathrobe lmao#my first impression of what this movie was gonna be like was NOT correct#anyway 'recently' means in the past 2 years i guess?#actually maybe this post was a lie because i LOVED nope which was also just an absolute cinematic masterpiece#anytime i watch a jordan peele movie it's just like. this man is so far beyond any other filmmaker out there right now#it's almost unfair to watch lol like an olympic gold medalist running laps around a middle school track team#anyway ummm. yeah talk to me was good though
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the way gloria has zero plot or thematic relevance to the story she is JUST there to be rocios love interest and incite her development and to be cool. lesbians in straight girl fields
#i'll come up with something#<but it actually is kind of interesting that someone who is so selfish and purposefully distanced from others#and also an extremely bad person lol#would end up trying to protect and comfort angel + be a moral compass to rocio#not bc she is inherently kind but bc thats how dire the situation is. that it brings that out from her yk#shes still like annoying and mean I dont want her to lose her personality entirely obviously#but like. capable of caring about another person and looking underneath the surface i guess#realizing she doesn't really like watching people suffer lol. take responsibility#but again like. what does this have to do with the themes. IDK#well she is also a foil to rocio. interpersonal connection + responsibility to others (in a personal and political context) are good usuall#there you go. very deep and unique themes#I always forget im not going for like fine literature here lol like I want it to be coherent but doesnt have to be insanely groundbreaking
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Dabi danced then changed clothes and burned himself to near death again and everyone just left the fandom hdjsjshdhjs like his chapters used to give us early leaks just saying 💅 (but srs the pacing of this last arc has been horrible, for understandable reasons but still, and even tho the volumes have been selling well in japan bnha is not important or relevant to SJ currently so i wonder if hori doesnt hurry with the ending it wont eventually get canceled)
I don't think a title like bnha is under risk of being cancelled, ever, what with it being in the top ten sellers of the year. The rushing is just pacing issues and possibly editorial interference imho. The former is something Hori admittedly always suffered from. Overhaul's needlessly long arc comes to mind as the first example, but then also the overarching Todofam plot went at a snail pace, so much so that fans predicted where it would eventually go years before it became the focus. Hori's not the best at figuring out how much space to give to big plot points, and with the story reaching its climax and many character arcs converging, he sort of... Let down a lot of expectations? He tried to give everyone space but sorta ended up with a big messy soup imo.
But tbh it wasn't even the pacing issues for me. My passion for the series dwindled when a lot of character arcs took weird directions or straight up stopped moving. Which is as much Hori's fault as it is mine I suppose. I expected bnha to act more on its premises than Hori really wanted to, and as a result felt pretty "meh" when entire plotlines were swept under the rug or forgotten about in favor of character stagnancy and protecting the status quo
It's just... Eh. I'll own up to the fact that I probably shouldn't have expected the story to go my way, but I also think Hori wasn't entirely honest, either. The quality of the writing took a nosedive when Hori got scared by his own premises and backtracked. Personally, I find it a dishonest way to tackle the plot. Either commit or don't hype it up as though you intend to
#Anyway if I sound salty is because I spent 6 years being invested in this#And by the end it felt like I cared more about the characters than the author himself#And that's just sad#Unbearably sad#The way dabi's arc was built on the idea that the pay off was gonna be empathy#And then it got wrapped up in the most cruel of ways was just. The last drop for me#Ali replies#Anyway sorry to anyone who's currently enjoying the series!#I know you're out there and I hate to be a party pooper. That's why I left really!#But I just. I loved this series dearly and I guess that love doesn't vanish overnight. It just became frustration#Sorry again#Will go back to not posting about bnha I promise lol
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#super freaking out cos my friend who is a vet has offered me a job at her practice as a care assistant#so my job would just be to do all the little jobs. help looking after the animals. cleaning. sometimes calling patients etc#it's a fantastic opportunity but it looks so much more difficult then anything i've ever done before#and on the one hand i'm like ''yes! i love animals! i need a steady income! this is perfect!''#but on the other... i haven't been at my current job that long. so it feels like a dick move to up and leave.#i don't know if i'd be able to cope with the animals dying all the time. some of the stuff i'd have to do looks really technical#and i'm scared i'll do it wrong (eg put the wrong label on the wrong medicine) and it'll lead to an animal dying#like it's a proper full time monday-friday 9-5 kinda gig#which is great cos my current job is a ''are we gonna give you more than 2 days next week?? who knows! it's a supprise!!''#and that situation is stressing me out. so i do need something different#but this is like a proper serious job. and idk that's scary#plus my friend would be my boss. which i don't mind. but i dont want her to vouch for me and then i'm terrible at it...#cos that's not fair on her#they've offered me a trial shift next week. so i guess i could do that and just scope it out..#it also feels like nepotism which doesn't super sit right#but it's not a sure thing. the other vets and practice owners have to agree and they may not like me. it's not like i have experience#and it's only a low paid position so if its nepotism its not like... super beneficial nepotism...#sigh. i know i should go for it. just last time i went for a big different job like this it ended badly#and i ended up back in retail.#so i don't wanna go thru that all again#but i also dont wanna stay working in this shop forever. it wouldn't be too bad if only i had regular hours. .#and i knew what those hours were more than a week in advance#i know this is like.. a non-problem. i'm just stressing about it#plus its making me feel guilty whenever i go into my current job. like i'm cheating on them#i do need that regular income tho#screams in anxiety
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opinions on helen of sparta being compared to prey animals? blink blink
*blink blinks back* Then immediately sits like this because of the question.
It's a good question that I'm happy to answer! It just makes me mad.... I sincerely hate the wording of "prey" being used to describe her.
SHE IS A VICTIM! THAT DOES NOT MEAN SHE IS "PREY"!
I can...see how people in ancient times may have used that word and still meant it in how she is a victim... but modern-day English-speaking people calling her that??? (considering how in different languages the word "prey" could have different meanings.) I'll just say that as someone who has been "prey" herself at one point, I REALLY hate that word as a descriptor. Just say victim or survivor. 👍
Honestly to call ANY victim "prey" is so fucked up. "Prey" to me, feels like "it's meant to happen." "Prey" are part of the food chain and so that's what happens. And to compare that to abduction and SA? Almost as if "that's our place"? It also kind of implies something being "eaten" or killed... Helen SURVIVES. She's traumatized and definitely needs healing and support but it's not like she can't find joy or peace ever again. Prey just feels so fucking gross.
Also, if someone calls victims "prey", I hope they know that Moose, Elk, Boars, Bovine, ZEBRAS, etc. are technically "prey". And these are VERY aggressive animals while still being "prey" for some other animals. And also that doesn't mean that "Oh, they're powerful! Clearly they should've been able to stop it." That's victim blaming :P
She is a clever, determined, caring woman who was ripped from her home for YEARS because Paris was a dipshit who decided he needed the prettiest woman in the world despite already having a wife. He didn't care about the fact that Helen didn't want to be there and was already married. He is so selfish that he will not let her go back even when THOUSANDS have died in the war! EVEN HIS BROTHER HECTOR AND PRIAM DO NOT BLAME HER! Granted, we do not know if Aphrodite would have let him undo their deal of "I want the prettiest woman" if he DID end up feeling bad for Helen and he wished to let her go home (I doubt it based on his personality though).
"Oh, if she is so independent/strong, then why didn't she just kill Paris and leave?"
AGAIN! Victim blaming!!! First thing, people who ask that have media literacy that is piss on the poor. You also have no idea about the political implications that would have happened if she DID kill Paris. She literally cries about staying there and argues with Aphrodite about seeing Paris, only to get strongarmed by Aphrodite as, guess what? A GODDESS WILL ALWAYS OVERPOWER A DEMIGOD. (This isn't Percy Jackson where he "killed" Ares as a 12 year old (Percy, you were my childhood, but that's bullshit.))
Even confined in Troy, she ARGUED with APHRODITE about going to see Paris! She is not some meek woman who just does as she's told with no pushback! She argued with a GODDESSS! Very few survive doing that!!!
She's not "Prey to fate", she's a "VICTIM of Fate".
#Thank you for the ask anon!!! :D It's a very fun question! I just really don't like the word of 'prey' being used to describe her.#...#Yes. there's poetic shit with writing. but if I heard someone say 'Helen is prey to Paris' I would be miffed and think that person's stupid#Prey just feels like 'one and done. You'll be a victim from now on and nothing else. You have no life after this.'#I mean you can probably say that if you simply mean that Paris is an abuser I guess. but...idk homies. I just really hate Helen being calle#that you know?#as if she could never be anything but prey in a way. as if she herself has never been the one pulling the strings or the trickster#Helen isn't a rabbit in an eagle's talons about to be eaten. She was a PRISONER. Who still lives and thrives afterward.#idk I'm probably looking too far into the word 'prey' and what it means to ME as an animal lover and survivor but it just feels#really bad to me. like wrinkling my nose and thinking 'out of all the words out there. that's the one you use?'#*sighs*#probably got quite fired up about this :P#ask#anon#yes I plan to write Helen as a big buff cheeto puff but again. she could never fight a goddess no matter how strong!! she's Mortal!#end of story!! I just want to write her that way as A.) it's fun. B.) Sparta upbringing.#(I got SUPER into ancient athletes stuff. (look up Pankration. it's so cool) and since I really love writing women. I just...like it :D#And no. everybody is strong in their own way even if they don't physically fight. I have plenty of women who are not fighters#but still have their own strengths and personalities and silliness#Leda actually doesn't like the 'exercising lifestyle of Sparta'. Ctimine loves running but that's it. Anticlea is the one who taught#Odysseus how to carve wood and is a 'trickster' but she's not really into athletic stuff. (she actually has a heart condition later on)#there's more too it but...tags are already long as hell#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#kind of#If Helen is prey then she is “prey” like those clever mother birds who pretend to be injured to get predators away from their nest.#*shrieks into a pillow* I'm fine now :D#essay
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So busy with Sparkstember that I almost forgot that I go back to school on tuesday
#honestly maybe it's better this way. i'd rather just not care at all rather than be super stressed about it#just like i've been doing with every little thing for most of my life#might have missed the date when we were supposed to choose our elective courses. well whatever Lol#and i still don't even know what my schedule is or what classes i have this semester oopsie#well the university itself doesn't seem particularly pressed about giving us the schedule either#but i'd probably better still read up on the classes at least before they start#i don't have high hopes for this year just like with the last. probably should just stop pretending that i still want to study anything atp#this wasn't even my first choice of a course bcs i had to prepare for that damn exam to be accepted for my preffered one#but i couldn't be bothered to study for it again which probably should have told me enough abt whether going into this again is a good idea#i'm so tired just thinking about it but i know that actually looking for a job and then having a job will be a thousand times worse so uh#but at least i'd have my own money and start doing something ughhhh. useful maybe. who knows what it will be though#i have no ideaaaaaa. but this feels like just putting off the inevitable. like at some point i need to get my shit together#i will probably report at the end of the next week about how i'm so done already#i don't really knowwww mannnnnm. i don't feel like i had any vacation at all even though 3 months have already passed#and i also sort of didn't prepare something relatively easy to do that would have given me an actual document#that would confirm that i actually finished that part-time school thing last semester#can't really be bothered to come back to it at this point though#well at least i learned something actually useful and interesting from that and that's enough for me tbh#and a lot of it is also relevant to my current area of interest (digital drawing and computer graphics in general)#well speaking of which i'd better just get back to drawing now lol. just one more left to finish!!!#in short i guess that my new way of dealing with stress is just ignoring it all#well it's worked in some way at least so it can't be an entirely bad thing lol#goosepost
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MORE ELDEN RING DLC NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW
#Finally finished Shadow of the erdtree and I had a grand old time#I won't properly finish the game I don't think because I'm not sure if I can bring myself to go through the whole game again if there is on#Kinda lame that they didn't explain what the scadutree was. And that it didn't really feel like beating miquella... did anything#Like.I dooooo get that he was mind controlling people to be nice. and that he cast aside his ability to love but#out of all the endings I honestly think miquella's age of compassion wouldn't be so bad. At least for the average lands between resident#maybe on par with Ranni's ending#ok so looking at Leda. Maybe if some people managed to defy his charm they would be ganked. But this option seems like minimal bloodshed#Not morally awesome I suppose but. You can do whatever you want unless it involves hurting others under the charm or miquella...#I guess the age old question is do the ends justify the means? When the means for all the endings are all horrific in their own ways#Miquella doesn't seem that terrible. maybe an age of compassion without love would be bad. or maybe it removes any bias. Who's to say#.txt
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Only the cutest prettiest sparkliest aliens (Patreon)
Bonus comparison | 2023 | 2021
Oh no he’s been yasssified
#Doodles#SCII#Arilou#ZEX#YIK#Leftover SCII doodles! Remember how I left off on SCII at the end of September? That feels so long ago!#I had a few ancillary doodles left over ♪ A bit of Pirate Fic a bit of just general silliness :) Fun!#Outfit designing for the guest Arilou at the Captain's defense-planning table :D Cute!#I went looking for references of maritime naval uniforms for them as well but nothing in particular stood out to me :P A shame#So I mostly went with something comfortable and easy to move in :D And cute of course! The Arilou's shoes in their actual outfits are ♪ cute#They also give me Knifecat vibes lol - I guess I'll have to see how that holds up once I meet one for real#Looking forward to it for sure!#A couple of ZEXes - thinking around flintlock pistols! Again while I was rewatching Muppet Treasure Island lol#Gosh that feels like years ago now haha - but the scene where Silver leaves in the boat with the stolen treasure#I just like ZEX with weapons ♪ Doesn't intend to use them just puffing up to appear more deadly than he wants to have to act on#Always always paired with the knowledge of his history and where he stands with other humans - the blood on his hands! (Arms? Tentacles?)#But he wouldn't really want to hurt him <3 Would he even be able to? I guess it's mostly a matter of aim and fire#One arm around the barrel - ouch - and one squeezing the trigger#These weapons are not made with VUX in mind!#A Very pretty ZEX - there was an animation meme going around and my brain was Fighting me for who it would better suit#Between Scriabin and ZEX actually lol - normally it'd be an easy choice (which way??) but I was So in on SCII at that moment#It was the GOD meme - first of all so many gorgeous entries hhhh <3 <3 But they are honestly both kinda perfect for it??#ZEX wins this time ♪ Good for him#And rounding off with a YIK <3 <3 <3#I don't remember if there was any inspiration for drawing her in a veil other than just - she pretty ♥ No thought just YIK 💖#She did end up super pretty :) I think veils would work well for VUX! Especially like jewel or gold embroidered ♪ All the decoration!#Oh and technically sort of one more - I had forgotten I'd made a similarly-posed doodle of ZEX a bit back lol#Interesting style evolution and Totally Nothing Else lol
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I love being the always single person in my family, mad respect to my sister for constantly dating guys for the last 8 years, I would have shot myself
#whenever my mom asks if i have love news of my own while we're talking about my sister's newest catch and i say no#i hope she doesn't feel pity because like. this is the life that i choose. my sister's ex boyfriends were enough for ME even#and i only met a handful of them personally but heard more than enough shit about them#i just always think i'm only flirting with some guys only to never talk to them again or ghost them because it's fun#fat girl who's always been seen as ugly by other people gets to flirt with good looking people is the ultimate ego boost arc#if i ever date anyone seriously again it better be true love and end in kids and marriage until death or i'll live as a hermit#until that happens tho...... life is a party i don't wanna miss a thing break some men's heart get revenge yolo etc etc#also the thought of actively dating freaks me out. if i meet someone and we tolerate each other long term that's good#but dating apps or going on dates with several people and deciding who's the best like on the bachelorette?? death first#plus i lowkey don't like men as a concept. at least the type i've dated. i guess you could say my last ex traumatized me hahaha 👍🏻 (🔨🔨)#i think i'm too young to be in a committed relationship anyway. or even to seek getting into one. there are much more important things rn#i know former classmates my age are having kids or getting married but idgaf the one who got engaged last year has been with him for 7 year#which is a decent time tbh you change quite a bit during that time and if it feels right why not#but i can't wrap my head around searching for a relationship when you don't even have a stable job and know what else you want in life#rambling again sorryyyy but yeah proud single here and i'm not saying this out of spite because i genuinely enjoy it#all relationships i've been in were so draining (tbf they were long distance too) and got me at rock bottom and had me filled with regret#also these men can be so controlling and jealous when you just wanna go out with friends while they do whatever they want too#but when you say you don't want a jealous partner they think that's a free pass for them to cheat like what the actual fuck#do you see the difference between being unnecessarily jealous when you hang out with friends and being rightfully jealous when they cheat??#at this point idk what to say. i'm very entertained by my friends' dating journeys but that couldn't be me#all the gossip i provide for them is which people i flirted with for the ego and who i ghosted and who ghosted me#mel talks
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