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[id: It’s an illustration of Aki holding his hand out in front of him in the signal he uses to summon the Fox Devil. One of his eyes are closed while the other is looking straight forward and a cigarette dangles from his lips. He’s depicted with tan skin and multiple piercings ranging from snakebites to double eyebrow, different sized gauges, and a daith piercing in his left ear. Behind him, the fox devil is drawn in bright orange, purple, and pink. Aki’s hand frames one of her eyes. /end id]
#look at that I can actually render ish when I want to#anyway sorry for the csm stuff recently I just want to draw them ig#even though I’m not really keeping up#csm#chainsaw man#hayakawa aki#nibeul art#eye strain#<- not sure if it’s quite an eye strain but just in case
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Based on my favorite gif lately
#my art stuff#digital art#baldurs gate 3#bg3#astarion#batstarion#once again specifying this is a spawn astarion with some sort of wild shape thing#bat#good morning#gif#I’ve been in such a weird place mentally about art lately#I just keep stopping myself from drawing things cus I want to draw Astarion -#- but fsr my brain decided I draw him wrong and thus makes it pointless to even start#bat form is fine - I have no problems with it. But in his normal form? no can do buckaroo.#It’s one part why I haven’t shared much art lately - I don’t get happy enough about the “quality”#then just don’t share it as a result - in turn making me feel worse because I’m not posting - making me doubt myself more - etc etc#idk man - I got way too giddy earlier today cus someone could tell this was Astarion - even though this isn’t even the version of him I -#- feel insecure about#I keep seeing these artists making more realistic art and cool comics and interactions - most of which are shaded really beautifully -#- and all I can think about is how I CAN’T do that - even if it wouldn’t fuck me up mentally#I just put too much stress on my ability to create realism and I keep “failing” at doing that (by actively avoiding it for my own health)#idk man - I just wish I felt better about Astarion’s stupid chin OTL
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Idk but it really fucking angers me that people are more angry at n*** g***** and his actions because it’s resulted in good omens 3 being a single 90 minute episode instead of a full series than they were at him for sexually assaulting and coercing multiple women. Would you rather have a rapist face no repercussions and benefit from making a new full series or have him fired and get a shorter ending to a story and characters you loved?
#sorry I’m just very fired up this morning#but honestly a) be glad he is basically been fired from the series b) be glad it isn’t cancelled completely#it’s honestly no brainer#it’s a complicated situation and some part of me was hoping it gets cancelled completely (even though I would have been sad about it)#but as I can see it this is one of the better outcomes we could’ve expected#also ppl saying terry or David or Michael or anyone else involved doesn’t deserve this. true#but do you know who REALLY didn’t deserve it? those women#also you can’t separate the art from the artist if you keep supporting their future ventures#it’s completely okay to be mad at him for ruining good omens btw. just that this news is a good thing and we should be focusing on that#good omens
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every single thing i see about hannibal is a masterpiece, every take, every analysis, every edit, every fic, they’re all so good
you’re all literally artists™️
#I’m not really in this fandom even though i love hannibal#i had to show my appreciation#time and time again you all impress me whenever i see something#it’s literally beautiful#hannibal#hannibal lecter#will graham#hannigram#reason for saying this: an edit on tiktok#keep up the amazing work <3
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I would pay an honestly absurd amount of money to see one of Eddie’s friends that Chris knows & likes (whether that’s Tommy since everybody wants him to be an MC, or a good friend from the army or Texas) come over & hang around them, and for Chris to be excited & greet them like, “Uncle Tommy!” (Or whether their name is.)
Especially if Buck is there & gets worried like, “he’s never called me Uncle, am I not as important to this kid as I thought I was?”
Force them both to really look at the role Buck plays in Christopher’s life vs how the rest of their friends act/treat Chris, bc even if Buddie doesn’t get together, I’d love to see it acknowledged canonically just how fatherly Buck acts with Chris.
(Obviously in my dream world & in the fic I’ll probably write, this will be what kickstarts Buck & Eddie figuring their shit out and getting together but that’s just me)
#evan buckley#eddie diaz#christopher diaz#Christoper Diaz has two dads#911 abc#I stg I’m never going to get through all of the fic ideas that I have bc they just keep popping up#can you imagine that discussion between Buck & Chris though#like no Buck you’re not my uncle? you’re a bonus dad#I’ve seen a post about BuckTommy & Chris collecting dads like Pokémon cards#but we don’t even have it canon that Chris sees Buck as an extra dad I think hoping for TWO confirmations is a bit much#also I’m not tagging this BuckTommy bc I don’t want anyone to yell at me for casting him as an uncle instead of a dad#or for mentioning Buddie bc Tumblr feels insane these days#also it doesn’t have to be Tommy he’s just who I thought of since he’s the only friend we really see Eddie have outside the 118#& we also know that Chris likes him and thinks he’s cool#buddie#oliver stark#ryan guzman
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I'm here to make you talk about Aiden pining!
I imagine the difference between Talon and Aiden figuring out their feelings is:
Aiden: oh no
Talon: FUUUUUUCK!
(If you know what I mean)
And imagine Aiden pining as being so sad!
I hoped you’d do that! xD
You are completely right with Talon’s realization of his feelings. Aiden’s reaction would just be the softest “Oh.” Not even an “oh no.”, just “Oh.” (Classic fanfiction moment)
Like I said, Aiden falls first. He’s pretty emotional intelligent, so he recognizes the nature of his feelings for Talon.
However he is not sure how Talon feels about him, cause he gives Aiden mixed signals. Not too long ago the two didn’t get along at all and Aiden values their friendship a lot, which is why he decides not to act on his feelings before he’s got a clear sign that they are reciprocated.
But like I said, lots of mixed signals on Talon’s part. Sometimes he’d do things or react a certain way that makes Aiden think he might like him too, but then he’s being all distant and snappy again.
Now though he doesn’t want to act on his feelings, he can’t help his nature and he’s pretty affectionate with people he likes. All of them (just ask the girls) but with Talon especially. It’s partly just Aiden’s natural behavior and partly testing the water.
Now after some time of having feelings for Talon, Talon himself realizes his feelings for Aiden and freaks out. Unfortunately, Talon’s natural response to unexpected and fond feelings is flight, so he starts keeping his distance from Aiden.
And since they are kings of not communicating properly, Aiden assumes Talon avoids him cause Aiden is too affectionate and he didn’t like it and maybe Talon even figured out that Aiden liked him and keeps his distance because of that.
So Aiden recoils as well, thinking he fucked up. Things get a little tense between them and it hurts so Aiden confronts Talon, which ends up in a fight and a yelled confession on Talon’s side, finally putting an end to both of them pining.
Some more pining Aiden info:
he had several crises because why is Talon so handsome even when he calls him an idiot? and why is he so smart? and why does he have to smile LIKE THAT when he’s proud of Aiden getting a good grade? and why does it have to be him of all people? (He knows exactly why)
he asks Callan for advice, not explicitly stating that he means Talon but Callan knows that it’s Talon anyway and he’s been waiting for this to happen
sometimes Aiden will just stare at Talon and kinda zone out during a study session and he gets stressed every time Talon almost catches him look
Talon buys Aiden food or apple juice for lunch pretty often and it’s a running gag among the girls to call Talon Aiden’s (quite literal) sugar daddy and the first times Aiden laughed along but now that he’s aware of his feelings he can’t hear it without blushing
he’s blushing a lot around Talon in general and it’s a miracle that guy didn’t notice
sometimes he lies awake at night thinking about how Talon could never like him back and how he’s not good enough for him anyway and that he should just give up
quite a lot “I’ll never be with him.” and “He’s too perfect, I don’t have a chance.” moments and loud rants to himself about Talon in the privacy of his room
but he can’t give up. Even when every time Talon does something slightly flirty/caring/idk he gets his hopes up only to be let down at the end whenever Talon is behaving like an ass again
Talon once offered him some of his clothes cause Aiden had to stay the night and didn’t have spare clothes and it made Aiden blush really hard (also if he kept Talon’s shirt a bit longer than necessary before returning it that had no particular reason, no not at all)
taking Talon’s hand when they go to/leave a concert together so he won’t lose him in the crowd has a whole different weight once Aiden has a crush on him
Aiden trying really hard to cover up the fact that he finds Talon attractive (he’s staring at him when watching his friends’ volleyball games instead of focusing on the real game and acts like he doesn’t get why girls are interested in Talon…)
#pining Aiden is so good#in love Aiden in general#you rarely see that cause I often write Talons perspective but Aiden loves so strong#writer speaks#writeblr#wip: the knights of the alder#modern au#giving you another warning: I’ll answer your other ask later when I have more brain capacity#(warning is the wrong word I’m sorry xD)#answering this one was easier in my current mindset cause these thoughts keep dangling in my brain while for the au I’ll have to brainstorm#and idk if I could do this rn#but as a heads up I really like the AU idea! even though ghost Ákos also makes me sad :(
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ovulation horny is something neither ethan landry nor charlie walker is equipped to handle LMAOO
unless.
#you push them down under you and they just stare at you eyes big as hell#they’re both fine as fuck how could they not expect to be jumped#CONSENSUALLY OFC EVERYTHING IS CONSENSUAL#now i’m thinking of cnc with ethan landry or charlie walker but instead of them being the ones in charge it’s you#ethan could be studying or charlie could be watching a movie or or or or or really anything i’m just#*gnaws at the bars of my enclosure*#them putting up a bit of a fight (CONSENSUALLY) or trying to deter you but eventually giving in and letting their sweet gf use them#pushing or grabbing at you to deter you turning into either hands being pinned above their heads or grabbing at you to pull you closer#protests and insistences and weak complaints fractured by curses and groans until they dissolve into moans and whimpers#telling you that you two shouldn’t be doing this right now or you have to stop even though their breath is trembling and they’re on the#verge of cumming#and they choke on their words when you clench around them and dig your nails into their chest and keep using them to get yourself off#OR them just being ready to give you whatever you want#they just let you do what you want#you wanna suck their dick? say no more. you wanna sit on it? say no more.#SCREAMS#I JUST#claws at floorboards#SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME YOU SEE THE VISION
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My five year old has his very first day of kindergarten tomorrow 🥺🥺🥺 I didn’t expect to be hit with such a huge wave of emotions but I’ve been a WRECK all day
#personal#he’s so excited#we’ve been talking about school for so long and he’s so excited that it’s finally here!#and a little nervous too he said but he keeps asking about the other kids and if he gets to have lots of friends now#he really liked his teacher when he met her and he’s excited to see her#the only thing that tripped him up a little was when I told him that me and his daddy are bringing him to the school but we can’t go with#that he has to just listen to his teacher and we’ll see him after school 🥺#I’m mostly worried that he’s not going to get enough food at school because he doesn’t eat very fast at home#he doesn’t focus well on meals#I’m hoping that positive peer pressure helps him with that#if he sees the other kids eating he will hopefully follow their lead#he’s going to be taking the bus home as well and I’m nervous about that for him too#even though it’s silly because his bus will pick him up in the morning and bring him directly to the school and then drop him off first#after school#he’ll be on it for maybe 20 minutes each day#I just worry too much#i worry about how issues he might have that I can’t help with like what if it’s too cold in just one room#but I don’t know that and send him in shorts?#or what if he gets teased for things I can’t anticipate right now? how can I best set him up for success with his peers?#I only know what he likes not what other five year olds like#I don’t want him to feel like the odd one out#but maybe that’s inevitable at some point#I can’t protect him from the world if im not there 😔#that’s the hardest thing about it#obviously this is supposed to happen and school will be so good for him#but he was a tiny little baby just yesterday#at least that’s how it feels#they say it goes by fast but damn
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been walking so much my knees ache 🫶🏽 good god
#been on a vacation w family so that’s why I’m on less but wow I haven’t gotten this much exercise in a long while#it feels nice bc I’ve been wanting to get more exercise this summer but damn it’s starting to make different places ache#im all sore. just gotta wake up and keep being sore and that’s it really#my cousin was saying we did something like 10k steps yesterday..#anyways 🕺🏽 just wanted to complain about my knees even though I don’t like to complain
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GGS TEAM PAST!!!
#DUUUDE THIS WAS SO FUN#dreadful#veji#art#splatoon#splatoon 3#grand festival#grand fest splatoon#Man I shed like a few tears by the end of the reveal news thing#Like not out of sadness cause my team lost but just from the joy that all this happened and I was here for it.#I never got to experience splatoon 2’s final fest so I’ve waited 3 years for this and I’m…. Just so happy!#If you couldn’t tell from the colours in the drawing I’m team future btw#I laughed so hard seeing the results lol we got NOTHING#Oh and I guess I should put my reasoning for my pick of future#so here it is:#I picked it because the future scares me. But it’s gonna happen anyway so I might as well look forward to it#I can’t let myself worry about where I’ll end up and who I’ll be when I’m older#But I do need to keep looking forward#I also chose it cause of deep cut. Like that was a big factor in my choice#Their music shaped my tastes. I just love it so much#And sure the characters themselves aren’t as fleshed out as the other idols#But they still mean a lot to me as splatoon 3 is the game that got me into the franchise#Even though I played 2 before 3 could never fully enjoy it as I came too late#I missed every splatfest cause I got it a year before splat3#So I could never connect the way I did to 3#Hearing anarchy rainbow for the first time changed me man. I fell in love instantly. It just means so much.#As an autistic person I actually surprisingly don’t really stim that much. But hearing anarchy rainbow just… flipped a switch.#I couldn’t stop moving. Literally like DJ Octavio man. It was a crazy experience to just feel like I had to move.#to walk around or something. To wave and flap my arms. Copy their dances. It sounds a little weird and childish when it’s written down#But it’s true. Splatoon’s music showed me that my autistic stimming was something I should embrace.
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i’ve been listening to/watching many (many, many) reactions to steven universe (because that’s what you do when you become newly obsessed with something. see what everyone else thinks about it and drive yourself mad) and it’s so interesting to see all the unique ways people tackle it and the common threads between them all.
there’s podcast recaps (pressure to over-analyze) vs youtube reactions (pressure to overreact). everyone knowing the show (yay) vs fans guiding newcomers (interesting) vs everybody being blind (often disastrous). don’t mind silly fun? they love the first season and amethyst’s character. told about how ~deep~ it gets and expecting only that? they love pearl and have to be dragged through the beginning. even how they chunk the episodes affects things—in watching episode-by-episode, people go the most mad as they try to squeeze meaning out of episodes they can’t yet appreciate until later (or are just. bad at analyses.). in chunks of two, people assume su will have much more horror after watching frybo and cat fingers back-to-back. and chunks of 5 are completely different too!
this only skims the surface. i can watch any episode of su and point out which jokes usually make people laugh, what people pick up on, and how their opinion of the situation reflects on whether they have mommy issues.
#steven universe#the ‘thats what you do’ comment was a joke ftr#i love seeing yt comments be filled with the same people btwn diff channels#bc i know they’re on my journey too!#the most popular one is s/orta stupid reacts bc they are quite intelligent and respectful#s/putnik’s spyglass is fun bc u can tell the reactor got truly invested!!#g/allifrey gals gets so emotional even at the ‘silly’ episodes they’re my favorite ;-;#s/pilling the milk is stupid humor. but they genuinely love the show and will defend it ALWAYS#(though it’s more apparent if you watch their uncut reactions and watch them wrangle twitch chat)#podcasts have been more disastrous for me.. the hyper-analysis format for newcomers not only sets up unfair expectations for the show#but also are almost always all over the place which is the podcasters’ decisions!!#they can talk about their personal lives! i’m listening to it all for free#(also it’s funny bc 99% of podcasters say how no one is watching them meanwhile im there. watching them.)#but it’s just not as enjoyable. also they tend to have really annoying opinions srry.#had to listen to two guys seriously discuss steven and amethyst as a ship. without mention of the age gap WTF?#and in another some guy said how ‘he can’t consider su best television if they keep having silly episodes’#acting all pretentious like know your genre smh#oh and podcasters tend to be guys so i have also listened to guys be like sadie and amethyst r so ugly :/#and ‘when will there be male gems i can’t relate to any of the characters if they’re all girls#oh there’s steven? he’s a fat kid though’#<-none of these are exaggerations it’s really painful#for podcasts i recommend ‘the b/its su podcast’! they’ve watched it all before and everyone’s queer so it’s all great :)#it’s still ongoing too#now i sound harsh on podcasts bc i don’t mention the bad yt reactions ive seen#(and i’ve seen them)#but idk there’s not many good reaction podcasts#now you may be reading this and think i’m writing wayy too much on the topic of reactions random ppl on the internet have for a show#and you’d be right. BUT i’m like those little kids that get frustrated when a movie has no interactability#i have to listen to people say the s1 finale was underwhelming as i scream in my head how they’re watching the wrong order bc h/bo max sucks#yes i have gone crazy. i truly mean it when i say i have watched and listened to SO MANY of these
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i’m home !!
procedure went real well, everything was really smooth and almost as soon as they said, “you can count backwards if you want,” i don’t think i even said ten before i was suddenly in recovery and sipping some ginger ale.
honestly the worst part was the iv because they had to do it on the side of my wrist because apparently my veins are crooked ?? i just hate ivs anyway so that’s no surprise but other than that no complaints.
everyone was real nice and made sure i was well taken care of (my nurse even had me pee one more time before so she wouldn’t have to do a catheter which with my history…..thank you)
but yeah, i’ll have a follow up in about a month just to make sure everything’s good and the iud is doing its thing !!
i do have some cramping and bleeding but that’s normal, although a little funny because i literally just stopped my period yesterday but…oh well !! hopefully in a few months i won’t have hardly any so this we can handle and i hace some medicine (and my ~medicine) that’ll help so i’m all set.
mom had to go run some errands so my little recovery buddy is keeping me company. also, a moment of recognition for my new favorite shirt (thank you as always, Boss Dog Art; i’ve already got my eye on another one that says, “i think therefore i am against transphobia around the world” or something like that and it’s got a cool skeleton on it; this is my third shirt from them and they’re really comfy and good quality so not sponsored but check them out, they seem cool):
#It’s been a rough week leading up to this i’m not gonna lie#one of my neighbors was shooting on Sunday when i was in the pool#which i’m used to at this point#but for some reason i got triggered into a panic attack#and could not catch my breath#could not calm down for several minutes just scream crying#had to dunk my head underwater a few times and splash myself in the face#eventually i just buried my face in my towel and screamed cried until i physically had to stop#because i thought i was about to have a heart attack#so that wasn’t so chill#spent the rest of the day shaking#guess you just never know when it’s gonna hit!!#another plane has hit the ptsd towers#sorry#not for nothing though but the shooting stopped so there’s that#they probably thought someone had a fuckin’ ari aster movie turned up over here#nope just a mentally unstable bitch doing her best which clearly isn’t great but what can ya do!!#it was kinda funny though because i’ve been hesitant to go back out there since#but finally yesterday i had even worked longer the day before so i could really enjoy it#it had been sunny all day#no signs of rain#i’m ready to get some exercise in because i knew it might be a while#before i can again so i was really looking forward to a nice 30 minute run#damned if it didn’t start raining as soon as i got out there#and that was fine#i still ran a little got my water weights in#but the kicker was i looked at the weather on my phone and it looked like it was going to keep raining#so i said okay let me just go take a shower and settle in for the night#it didn’t rain and the sun came back out so oh well!#but point is…today went well and i’m doing okay and things could always be worse so no worries <3
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Chat how soon is too soon to return to a job after being thrown a goodbye celebration under the pretense of you moving across the country 🫣
#TO BE FAIR I DID THINK I WAS MOVING AT THE TIME#I hate hate my new job#and I only got it for the pay#but my check after working 2 4.5 hr shifts was $50#which does NOT meet the $300 a week I told them I wanted to make in my application#nor the $15 an hour I asked for and was told I would make an avg of 13-18#in theory I’ll make more after I’m done training#but even then it’s only $8 plus a percentage of sales#and so far it has been dead all the days I’ve worked#in theory I could work up to being a server#but that would still be more training less money#and I don’t even think I would like being a server#raises the question of should you keep a job you don’t like for the moeny#I can’t stay a host though I don’t know if it’s worth staying#I spend all day thinking abt my old job and how much better it was in every way#and I want to go back but they made a big deal abt me leaving#and it would feel really awkward to go back would it be too awkward#honestly I should just bite the bullet#I could get past the awkwardness and return to a job I like and am comfortable at#and know id make enough money at :|#like gen how weird would it be to go back after they wrote me a farewell card and bought me cookies —#kestrel calls#chitter chatter#text post#PLUS#new job scheduled me one shift next week ???#what the helllllllll#I’m not staying there I’m not I’m looking elsewhere
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I need to be put in a waffle iron or something
#i am. really stressed!!#i hate being online i keep losing friends#Majority of them did shitty stuff to me and it makes me so sad#I already have trust problems so when people come and say theyll always be here for me and then the next thing i know im blocked because i#Expressed my discomfort about something shitty they did it makes those trust issues even worse#We were pretty close and now i regret telling him shit because he could use it against me#And im starting to fall out with my “best friend” irl. Everything is making me sick#I can’t do this anymore I really want to disappear#There has to be something about me so repulsive to people#That i just turn them away#its gonna be like that for the rest of my life isnt it? I probably wont even get a partner in the future#I just don’t know why I fuck up every friendship so bad even if it wasnt. My fault#I shouldve kept my mouth shut even if i was uncomfortable#my last friendships ended like this too#I caused a huge server fight by saying I was uncomfy and I’m pretty sure everyone hates me now because of it#even though some said they werent#I am just really lonely and feel like a piece of shit#Because I am one#I don’t really know if I want to keep being here anymore#I genuinely think nobody likes me#Even when I was in school nobody liked me#I was the “weird girl”#I just wish I was normal and likeable and then maybe I’d have friends irl#I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I’ve considered suicide over it multiple times#I ruin everything#My friendships. My life. My parents marriage. My art. Everything.#I doubt anyone will read this or gaf so just. ignore me
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Feeling another random burst of self confidence (probably due to lack of sleep honestly) so have a heavily made-up eye reveal I guess? 😂
#this is from my bridal makeup trial back in December#and tbh even though it’s not exactly what I wanted I still really liked it and the overall look looked good in my engagement photos#we’re gonna change a few things for the day of but yeah#no one asked but I actually like my eye shape for the most part#I feel like they can look kind of sleepy or a bit too small sometimes in photos where I’m not wearing as much makeup#or any at all#but I still like them especially since they look like that less often now#maybe it’s bc I’ve kind of grown out of that and I haven’t really noticed until recently#or maybe it’s just bc I’m getting a little better at taking photos lol#either way if you’re a teenage girl or a woman in her early 20s and you have these random but prominent insecurities like me#I just wanna say that you’ll get past them/grow into them#maybe it’s just those awkward teen years or maybe you’re not completely comfortable with how you look or taking pictures yet#but it’s okay you’re beautiful in your own way#and it’s okay to have insecurities too#everyone has them whether you realize it or not#I def still have other things I’m insecure about#but it’s important to talk and think nicely about yourself even when it’s hard#so that’s what I’m doing here#I’m gonna try to keep practicing that from now on#hopefully I can keep it up bc I really do think too negatively about myself sometimes
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Last post before I crash and no-one hears from me until I return from my first final the morrow’s eve (a changed man no doubt) but there’ll never be anything funnier to me than consistently being viewed as a composed and calm saviour by peers while I’m, actively and uncontrollably losing it.
#not said sarcastically or as a vent by the way I genuinely find it so terribly amusing. you think I have it together ? aw <3 you fool.#i’ve been pacing around my room like a starving lion since the past week in whatever free time i’ve had.#and i keep getting people in my messages begging me for last minute help ? which is endearing but. i’m hanging on for dear life myself#helping isn’t foreign to me; i have 4 (?) people in my class who almost exclusively refer to me as ma’am and even refer to me as a teacher.#but helping last minute is so. deeply chaotic.#and I have this issue with me where having others around me makes me immediately drop into a ‘role’ of sorts?#i’ll be freaking out but then someone else starts freaking out around me and my immediate response is to just.#hey. we are going to make it out of this. it’s easy as pie. do you see me worried? no right? <- on the verge of hyperventilating#there’s this one guy in particular who got so excited to find out we have the exact same examination set-up tomorrow.#i gave him like basic pointers and i don’t think i’ve ever been thanked so earnestly and desperately in my life.#i remember during mocks my friends would message me what I wrote in questions and then they’d immediately go oh thank Fuck.#they’d literally just act like they’re absolutely going to pass now just because we had points in common.#as if i’m some sort of fucked up correct answer sheet incarnate.#it’s genuinely really sweet to me though; like i’m not posting this ranting or such.#having so much faith in another to the point that you can put yourself completely at ease says. alot i think.#and i’m glad i can be that person for so many.#and I feel like it helps me in a way too because i become so concerned with others that I forget to drown myself in my worries.#i forget that I’m worried because there are others to care about and console and help. so i suppose they help me in a way as well.#but also who is going to be that person for ME. who is going to console ME. im going fucking neurotic /jest#<- woman with ego issues & control issues who would rather die than accept help.#sigh. oh well. I’m sure we’ll do just fine. cannot wait#🥀🍷 — colloquy.
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