#I ruin everything

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[xthefaultisminex]

Sometimes, I wish my tongue was simply cut off and/or removed. Everything I say and everything I do is always a huge problem. Nothing I ever do is right or good enough for anything. Sometimes, I feel like running away or disappearing altogether. What if people were better off...

I feel as if time is completely eluding me and that I have made no progress in the time that has passed. What is actually positive about me? What can I say for myself that has proved some sort of worth?

I am mentally ruined and falling back down into the negative spiraling void.

09/02/24

[late-for-the-sky]

[sp00kysk3lly]

Why am I such a fuck up?

All I ever do is fuck things up. My life, my friendships, any relationship I had in the past. Something is wrong with me, I'm a curse.

[grungasgirlexistence]

It’s all my fault. Why can’t I just disappear

[weirdo09]

i’m so foolish, i’m such a dumb dumb person, i should’ve just kept my big mouth shut

[ajxrn-archive]

I need to be put in a waffle iron or something

[vent-account00]

⚠️sh cvtting/ranting/upset⚠️

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I got in one of my moods last night cvt my arm in multiple places and today I had my sleeve rolled up like an IDIOT and I’m like 80% sure my mom saw the area bc she grew a bit awkward and quiet even though I was playing it off like nothing was there. She later came in my room and handed me a stuffed animal. and now I feel bad because she is probably worried or something or maybe I’m overthinking?? I can’t be. She looked at my arm I mean…idk if she thinks I’m doing it bc of her or for attention or because I want to d*e or what :/ I don’t think this is the first time she’s seen my arm/s like that either. She probably looked at it and thought “damn..again?!” God I ruin everything

[angelicoblivion]

When I try change and to be nice, halo hovering over my head, polite but ruin it 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️💔

[angelicstalker]

I ruined it I ruined it I ruined it I ruined it I ruined it

[xthefaultisminex]

I'm sorry I am stressful, and I am lazy, and I don't look after things properly, and I leave things in places they shouldn't be, and for not being happier, and for not bringing more income to have less worries, and for not being very pretty, and for not doing my hair/makeup all the time, and for not being slimmer, and for eating all the time, and for wearing the same clothes all the time, and for not having things organized or prepared, and for not being serious, and not being more understanding, and for not doing as much as I can to make things better, and for not being a better person, and for being so sensitive/emotional, and for not being more fun, and for being kind of a loser in life, and for procrastinating everything, and for not being more successful, and for not making you proud, and for not having many skills, and for not being more independent, and for everything in general.........

I'm surprised that anyone even bothers to stay around me and my dwindling, chaotic, pathetic life.

[3motionallyunavailable]

Let him go. Detach from him now. So it won't hurt. You. Especially him. He doesn't deserve what you put him through.

He doesn't.

Keep away, shut down, make him hate you, make him not want you anymore.

Tell him he deserves better. Tell him.

Tell him he can do better. Stop wasting his time.

you wasted his time. he didn't deserve that. you don't deserve him.

i don't deserve him.

[sadjuniper]

Ruining my friendships & crying myself to sleep are the only consistent things I'm good at

[devotioncrater]

im at my limit i really am in regards to being told to consider how other people irl are affected by my moods. dude i constantly have to mask just so others dont get uncomfortable. no matter which end of the spectrum im on; manic, depressed, or even neutral. which means if i have a day where i dont mask as well as usual, people HATE it. to them it comes out of left field. and i get it. i do. but for me its taxing to regulate my entire existence all the time!!! so unfortunately i do have days where i slip and get hot & cold and my Bad Symptoms come out. im sorry i really am severely sorry for it, yet i am begging for others to please consider MY feelings in this context. i have a mood disorder where my brain chemically cannot function the way most people's can. im working on getting treatment for it. please be patient with me. its not an excuse, i am responsible for my behavior, yet please try to see this as an explanation. im human, too. let me have a Bad Symptom Day. please consider it. i'm begging. i'm sorry

[whororhoe]

i hate myself so much.

[rocketbabyy]

I wish you missed me