#i am. really stressed!!
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I need to be put in a waffle iron or something
#i am. really stressed!!#i hate being online i keep losing friends#Majority of them did shitty stuff to me and it makes me so sad#I already have trust problems so when people come and say theyll always be here for me and then the next thing i know im blocked because i#Expressed my discomfort about something shitty they did it makes those trust issues even worse#We were pretty close and now i regret telling him shit because he could use it against me#And im starting to fall out with my “best friend” irl. Everything is making me sick#I can’t do this anymore I really want to disappear#There has to be something about me so repulsive to people#That i just turn them away#its gonna be like that for the rest of my life isnt it? I probably wont even get a partner in the future#I just don’t know why I fuck up every friendship so bad even if it wasnt. My fault#I shouldve kept my mouth shut even if i was uncomfortable#my last friendships ended like this too#I caused a huge server fight by saying I was uncomfy and I’m pretty sure everyone hates me now because of it#even though some said they werent#I am just really lonely and feel like a piece of shit#Because I am one#I don’t really know if I want to keep being here anymore#I genuinely think nobody likes me#Even when I was in school nobody liked me#I was the “weird girl”#I just wish I was normal and likeable and then maybe I’d have friends irl#I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I’ve considered suicide over it multiple times#I ruin everything#My friendships. My life. My parents marriage. My art. Everything.#I doubt anyone will read this or gaf so just. ignore me
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Just bros being bros
#life is kicking my ass right now so i havent posted in a while#i had a ton of exams and finals are coming up which is stressing me out#but the dead boys!!!!#look at them#look at them with your eyeballs#dead boy detectives#dbda#renew dead boy detectives#charles rowland#edwin payne#payneland#savedeadboydetectives#dbda fanart#i tried to make edwin look like he is holding back laughter because thats how I interpreted his expression#i am really happy with how charles turned out#it seems i finally got the hang of drawing him
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I started drawing this next day after I finished Act 6
13 or so days and it's finished!
Main things are traditional and Loop's body was edited digitally after
Unedited it looks like this
I've been torn on how to do Loop's body for the entirety of lining, also
A bit sad the main lines are visible only as a wip, most of this thing is literally just a ton of sharp lines
I think it's also my first day of drawing, Loop is just a sketch here (feat. my leg)
I even finished the beans before it so they were a moral support, because if you let me things like this take a year
#fanart#my art#isat#isat fanart#in stars and time#isat loop#loop#traditional art#artists on tumblr#Phew#So anyway this was my way of figuring out my thoughts after finishing the game#I didn't even actually finish it with credits playing at that moment#This type of art is my therapy#And in a way literally how my personality works from big figures to small details of thinking about anything#It's really calming!#I won't tag paper figures but they're here#Like special guests#In any case the funniest thing was showing this to my English teacher and she was like 'wow this looks stressed' or something#Like she immediately looked at the lines and after I showed her my old Flowey drawing like this she was like#'oh it makes sense! This one looks calm but this one is clearly you not feeling good'#Because I was kinda#Like sitting there in the semi-park and feeling sick since morning before I started drawing this and slowly I got better#I already talked about this on my first 'big' isat thing - I needed to think a bit#And not think at the same time just literally letting myself sort stuff out#Like. I fell asleep at 6 am that day and woke up at 10 4 hours of sleep after playing full Act 5 and two hats stuff IS STRESSFUL#SUPER STRESSFUL! Like I felt like I was playing for 4 hours while sleeping#Anyway by the time I finished it aka today I'm feeling way better and I'm literally talking a walk right now#Touching grass as we speak#Anyway phew!#Now to that animatic that's plaguing my mind to draw it nowww
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is blowing up a volcano after ur first kiss couple goals
#AAAAA I AM SO PROUD OF THIS#for reference i NEVER draw backgrounds#i just whipped this straight outta my ass#and it was SUPER FUN#also i colour theoried the hell out of this one#and i did it all fast and loose so it was not stressful i just had a great time#thats just the power of percabeth i think#anyway ive been thinking abt them a lot#especially annabeth....#to this day i really cant think of any other characters that are booksmart with 2 canon learning disabilities#that really meant the world to me when i was first reading this series!!!#also shes just the bestest ever#one of my main gripes with the show was just that i felt annabeth lost a lot of that dimensionality#leah sava jeffries girl u ate that up but im sorry they didnt give u enough to eat#idk maybe thats just me bc i have such an attachment to annabeth#shes really cool guys#percy jackson#annabeth chase#percabeth#pjo#pjo fanart#percabeth fanart#art by cricket
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🎆 (id in alt)
#trigun#trigun stampede#roberto de niro#meryl stryfe#nicholas d wolfwood#vash the stampede#happy new years everybodyyyy yippee! these kimonos are really cute…(crash sfx)#i liked looking at the details and doing my Best not to stress over the details of it while drawing lmfao#also does anyone know the pattern for wolfwood’s haori.. it looked like the bird feathers one so that’s the one i wound up using#the significance also made sense to me alongside the chidori obi. he is so 🐥🐥😢#and if anyone wonders for the fedora i am a full fledge believer of knives fedora arc#i was going to drawn a little knives too but he looked so goofy with the fedora adjdndj I couldv taken it the fedora out all together but#it felt Vital. though now he will just sit peacefully in my 8100 wips
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I am that type of guy who gets anxious over asking out video game characters haha, so it took ages for me to actually marry the digital book man despite maxing his heart soon after giving him the bouquet. Silly little art time to sooth my sick heart. Also decided to change up Wolfe's hair, just gonna say he cut it for their wedding.
Also sorry to Elliott my man, one of my cows gave birth the first night he was on the farm. I can imagine that would be something...
#I had a comic but scrapped it because it started to look like trash because I worked on it while really sick and messed it up#I am cursing IRL summer!!! allergies. heat. getting so stressed I get sick!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I just want to play games#art#stardew valley#stardew#sdv#stardew valley elliott#stardew elliott#sdv elliott#stardew valley farmer#stardew farmer#sdv farmer#stardew valley art#stardew art#sdv art#fanart
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🤨yeah...
#fem klance#klance#voltron#voltron legendary defender#keith kogane#lance mcclain#fanart#you know i had to#....you can really see how stressed i am by how much I draw#even more if it's memes
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I SUPPORT WOMENS WRONGS 🗣🗣🗣
#apex legends#apex#alter#apex alter#woman .#sorry no post for a while cons last month beat my ass and now i gotta move house maybe twice in the next few motnhs and im stress!!!!!#charm order deadline tomorrow that i wanna draw two more falin charms for (teehee) but could not bring myself to work on it today#<--- instead of brain there is alter#REALLY liked the trailer art style it was so tasty i am thrilled we got an off the shits hot deranged chinese legend !!!!!!!!#YIPPEE#ok its past my bedtime#goodnight#wait#my art#jus a doodle tho
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Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM
#yeonjun#choi yeonjun#tomorrow x together#txt#ggum: making film#gifs#creations#userzaynab#useryeonbins#skyehi#rosieblr#megtag#hibiebear#heyiri#ultkpopnetwork#kpopccc#kpopco#this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this#i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress#It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint#and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better#because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again#I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post#writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D#at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful#and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap#I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ♥
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What could’ve been if Noonien Soong had actually programmed his sons with relatively healthy coping mechanisms that don’t include murder.
#star trek#star trek tng#tng#star trek the next generation#the next generation#lore soong#star trek lore#I really should journal! I am realizing right now the depth of how much stress will impact your body/physical health#but then again…maybe doodling Lore and reaching out to people is good enough for right now 😂💛✨#I’m gonna be okay. And so is everyone else!
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Stupid, sexy Barnabos
#legends of avantris#loa#icebound#skrimm stabbaskotch#barnabos the dreadwake#not sure if this has a ship name i haven't really seen any content for it but. i Absolutely have a type when it comes to ship dynamics#and it's Big Strong Fat Man and tiny bastard guy#drew this while watching episode 9 of icebound. to cope with the stress :)#Skrimm is NOT beating the Down Bad For Barnabos allegations and tbh neither am i#and i just loved the mental image of Skrimm gripping his own ears over Gay Panic and had to draw it#my art#skrimbos
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Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!
Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!
Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.
I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!
#im so frustrated that banner has been gone#and people think the comic is over because of that#which is reasonable to think#but it... idk#its already an uphill battle to try snd retain audience after a hiatus this long#let alone when webtoon is actively building thr expectation that theres no need to come back...#im so frustrated#every day there is something new with them its so exhausting#this isnt even the thing I've been majorly stressed about this is a fresh new frustration#i feel like they're not just being unhelpful#at this point i feel like theyre actively sabotaging my career.#im not allowed to promote my books#i can't make my links too big so no one can find me#people dont even know i have a patreon#i can't make any announcements on the comic#and now people think th whole thing is over and it isnt!#im so ;_;#im so frustrated and demoralized#and people complete reasonably are losing patience and interest#and. ah... it's fine. like genuinely it is fine.#it will come back soon and i am doing a good job#and everyone who sees it's back will be happy with what ive done#cause it's good. its really good...#but. yeah. idk. webtoon has been actively keeping me down since the beginning and im so over them#I've been so mistreated aysudjejjdjdjdj#i just want to finish the series and go ;_;#taking all my power to not **** ******#just gotta power through and get the fuck out#text post#update
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The Loyal Pin - Episode 6
The first reason I loved this episode was the fact that this episode began with the girls not only switching patterns (floral vs. lines) but also switching positions.
The second reason I loved this episode was Prik being extra by making noises and motions just to let Pin know that she knew what the lesbians were doing, and it wasn't sleeping.
And the third reason I loved this episode was THE SEX!
Pin and Anin kissing each other wherever and whenever is the kind of romantic storytelling I want to see!
And Pin and Anin having sex wherever and whenever is the kind of historical GL storytelling I want to see.
But as happy as I am that Pink Person Pin wore purple to combine her and Blue Beauty Anin's color,
And that they went on a a little date that paralleled the date that they had before Anin left for England the first time,
There are still color-coded forces (unintentionally) standing between them.
So even though these color-coded girls are in love
And having great sex about it,
Other people will continue to be whole ass problems for them!
(Not Pranot though. He sits at the same table with Prik since they are the only two people who seem to already support queer rights and wrongs!)
Because Anin's color-coded brother is being a big problem!
Anon has been consistently red color-coded, but Anin's oldest brother, Anantawut, who was once blue like her, stayed entirely brown this episode.
Which could be an issue if it means he'll become more traditional, conservative, and predictable.
And although I don't think Pin's mom ever means any harm, she is the epitome of femininity and womanhood.
She can cook. She can clean. She can manage an entire compound of servants all while looking docile, so as much as I love that Pin received the ruby set from Anin's mom for her birthday,
It feels like the jewelry is the first real step into chaining down Pin into a traditional role of womanhood like her mother since this came after the conversation about Pin and Anin needing to get married sooner rather than later.
Normally, red would be passion and heart, which is nice that Anin decided to put red berries on Pin's cake to show her she loved Pin.
But Pin lost her color a bit this episode when she became depressed that Anin was leaving again. Only the tiniest bit of pink lingered at the edge of her dress.
So I think her mother will be even more adamant that Pin get married so she will be too preoccupied with her husband and (new color) to dwell on her best friend being gone, but I think there is an ally in our royal midst!
Anantawut's new wife also seems like the epitome of femininity and womanhood because she can cook, clean, and take care of her prince.
But when I look closer, she is wearing pink AND blue.
And at the lunch where marriage is discussed, she is, once again, wearing pink and blue with a purple skirt (pictured above)
So even though Blue Beauty Anin doesn't have control of her circumstances now.
And neither does Pink Person Pin (who did not deserve to be left without a goodbye!)
I have faith that someone in this family will be able to support the girls when the times come because Prik can't be the only person in this house I respect.
Right?
#Oh Aninlaphat! We're really in it now.#the loyal pin#I'm obsessed#color coded girls in love#the colors mean things#SUCH GOOD COLOR-CODING!#but what does it all mean?#episode six#because I am stressed that Pin's mom wasn't in her colors last week#and now this week Anin's oldest brother is entirely in brown#let his wife be an ally#PLEASE!#Prik needs a new homie
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we already know that VAL's lies don't work on herself; that she cannot convince herself of the reality of the stories she tells as she can others unless she truly believes them. which makes this such a kind ending for her - in spite of it being a suicide - because she isn't asking anyone for anything anymore. she isn't begging for a cruel, hollow, petty god that only listens when it serves to sate its own hunger to answer. this is self-determination, which by necessity must include the right to harm oneself and end one's own life. and yes, it is a tragedy that she decides that there is nothing left for her but to die. nothing to look forward to but an end to the pain. nothing else she can do for herself or for the world but let the last story die on the parched lips of the last storyteller. but it's also a victory. they tried to destroy her, to unmake her - like, i cannot emphasise enough that VAL was always suicidal, and had already killed herself; she ended her own life when she volunteered to be hallowed - but she still manages to rewrite the ending, and set herself free.
this is an affirmation. this is acceptance. a gift lovingly given and gratefully received from herself, to herself. she's finally found faith in herself. she's remembered who she was. she was already dead, but she makes sure she leaves on her own terms. she gets the last word. she whispers one final comfort to the person whose mutilated corpse she's been dragging around like a dead weight ever since the doors to that hallowing chamber opened. and then she lets go.
#🐉#i cannot stress enough that i am not advocating for suicide as an 'answer' to anyone. including VAL here.#but to destigmatise the reasons why people choose death and self destruction#like. suicidal people are people too.#we have complexity and reason and we understand ourselves better than we are given any credit for#speaking for myself i am really grateful this is the ending she was given. that she gave herself.#suicide mention#the silt verses#VAL thesiltverses#the silt verses spoilers
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It's really hard for me to ask this, but would anyone be able to help me financially get home from work and a doctor's appointment this week? I'm already taking the bus as often as I can, but there isn't one that runs by the time I get off work, and I won't be able to get home otherwise. My next paycheck is expected to drop on the 15th, and I currently only have $5.26 in my bank account. I would really, deeply appreciate any help I can get. Thank you.
cash app: $fattributes ko-fi: fattributes paypal: [email protected]
#text#I'm so sorry but I can't ask anyone in my family to help me out#we're all paying off medical debt and pinching pennies#when I started my second job I really thought this wouldn't be an issue anymore#I worded this poorly but I am too stressed out to write a second draft#I'm also so sorry that this is last minute#I was hoping things would be different
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