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Felt Inspired.

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For all it's worth isat being the most welcoming, kind and supportive fandom is still something ich think about often

Which is a shame since I'm feeling a bit on edge drawing it for now

But then you go to any of the other fandoms and they're already full of people like you so no one will notice you unless you're getting popular randomly and poof people know you

Idk, drawing for myself while feeling this "no one actually cares about your stuff, you know? Why are you even bothered, trying to make it perfect? It won't lead to anything" thing

But then again I'm kind of in the middle? I like attention like any other person, but I dislike too much attention that makes me a subject in other people's eyes

Like oh this person is only capable of drawinfand drawing and drawing and I love it! They should do it for me! While I'm actively not taking comms

Idk. Audiences are weird, like you get people recognizing cool stuff you do, but also get this anxiety of doing something wrong getting stronger

And the worst thing is that the only actual love that matters is always your own, bc if thing is noticed and it's good people will comment that if it suits their fandom, if it's gorgeous people outside of fandom will comment too, but your own opinion still matters the most

I could've been drawing isat like a machine now and people would've loved it or at least noticed it enough

Or I can draw whatever whenever I want and no one will notice that bc people there are obsessed with shipping instead

And I don't actually know if I'm jealous or thankful that I'm not noticed, bc... That's pretty normal, it's better than people expecting stuff from you

But also makes me feel like idk why I'm posting stuff if all that matters is some popular person, algorithm and my skills to synth perfectly first also timezones as well

And if there's anything I hate it's timezones that I'm supposed to be ALWAYS aware of and no way to post in MY daytime bc rest of the world is busy, but they sleep normally

Or they're not and then you get this "when SHOULD I post?" thing and there's nothing

Anyway word vomit, I'm thinking a lot lately

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This made me laugh, well, 7 months later than when I actually joined, but I'll pass past me a message

They look a bit off compared to how I draw Siffrin now, half a year later

So.

Act 5, huh?

Oh, and that.

"You can start breakdown now."

Finished the game couple of days ago and had some thoughts I needed to process a little. Like. Yes.

So anyway I actually didn't plan this and just wanted to redraw some sprites to just make sure I understand how to draw Siffrin correctly (still working on that!)

What did I learn from this? How fun it it to draw on a canvas that literally doesn't let you draw with colors without some layer cheating when necessary. Never tried it.

The beans. Sleeping beans.

Basically what happens when you want to sleep AND draw. Draw characters sleeping on your behalf.

Doesn't help, but at least it's cute.

I have no idea what was going on in my mind as I drew this. Feels like a fever dream of 'I want to sleep' at 4 am and 'Hm...' of thinking random things

Also that phone craft sign. Still too funny to imagine. I had to.

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Fiddleford's stress levels doubles with double stans

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Being a forgetful person while playing isat is a next level experience actually because you'll forget the rock trap or the bomb or to equip the right memory and then you'll scold yourself for being a forgetful idiot. Truly sink into the Siffrin mindset.

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shoutout to everyone who’s still following me through my many changes of fandoms and don’t get pissed off whenever I flood your dash with things you don’t even like. thank you.

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I literally just went AND SLEEP IS CANCELED WE'RE ANIMATING NOW

I know jokes about this song amd current update exist - they were the main inspo to try and do this anyway

I see all this as a part of them chilling in the Kingdom, like they can casually pretend that BY isn't a threat rn and all

Amd Shadow Milk can enjoy the 3 stars cake, yes.

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The way I approach love stories is so interesting, like I care not for both sexual and romantic part, both don't exactly need to be present for you to see that characters trust each other and feel safe

Same with family, platonic stuff and friendships, feelings of trust and whatever else worth so much in all of this

Love story being a love story just means it'll happen faster and more... Boldly?? Bc that's the main focus and all

Also since people love romance so much you get more stuff in the fandom win/win

Although I'd say it took me a loooong time to get into anything, because I rarely see something and go THAT'S A SHIP! nah, that's a friendship, that's cute and sweet

Then we have toxic stuff and that's the intoxicating codependency that makes me want to analyze it all, like wow those characters are horrible to each other

But I usually have like two to balance each other, bc as funny toxic stuff is, I want some sweet stuff be it a friendship or a healthy ship

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This morning I had like the lesbian equivalent of that part from the Brian David Gilbert cooking video about getting called Boss haha

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Decided to re-watch some of Disney Princess stuff (I kind of gave that a break since as a kid I re-watched them almost daily)

And wow just HOW MUCH did I miss simple kind-hearted stories like this

Characters simple yet understandable to the viewer and in general fit their roles well without me feeling like I'm supposed to be sad or something I'm genuinely feeling something even though I've watched those movies SO MANY times

And I'm talking both the classics and the whole lineup, like idk I don't need a break of a trope or a parody (although I loved watching Enchanted as a kid might as well re-watch it)

Idk, my preference in all things sweet when it comes to storytelling has always been.... Pretty clear? I dislike stories that have nothing of that, or just don't watch them - there are audiences for anything

But anyway, wow, it felt so quick as well!

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I hope, to you, I'm not just a silly little artist making my silly little drawings. but also a menace, dragging more and more people around me into the ISAT hole like a creepy little spider as you notice the numbers around you silently dwindling

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isat doodle page

(comms)

close-ups:

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Oh what's this?

But really, I just kind of kept thinking about yesterday's ramble so I drew Seafoam again to quiet it

And some other sketches below the cut both old and new

Most of them are me trying to see how could scenes go and stuff one with Isa and Seaf is recent and others not really

Siffrin being the 'guide' character now is a silly thought of mine since Siffrin is not the one dealing with... Whatever Seafoam is dealing with, but they know the party better, they can help as well!

And so Siffrin is somewhat of a middle point after every friendquest, basically being Loop for Loop, them being same person allows them to do that

Mira is having the tough time of dealing with freshly returned Seafoam, who is... Somewhat still as distant as they can be

I did have an idea of making them ghost-like in appearance as well but idk, seems too sad now

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Fuck moon’s taking poison damage

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Zillow house listings

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nomnom

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