#dissociating like crazy

[saucerfulofsins]

Guess what just fell on my head again :)

[al-luviec]

something simple to try to get out of art block (it didn't work)

[beedallo]

TV Man touched my drawing and said my words

[everdoeswriting]

do you ever have a dnd session that was so insane that the next day you're still struggling to process whatever the fuck just happened

[goldkirk]

I would love to understand why my brain and body are desperate to not shower in the safety of my own home but perked up at the offer to go shower at the gym that’s full of people I don’t know and men who could pin me and locker rooms with open doorways and less control over cleanliness than I can get in my own apartment. Something something the years of swim practice and swim meet locker room showers being safe I guess?

[noitsforthebetter]

i bring a “what if none of this is real and you’re all just figments of my imagination” sort of vibe that my family and friends don’t seem to appreciate

[devilsskettle]

i’ve seen + heard people say that they thought norman bates was creepy from the beginning of the movie but that’s not my interpretation at all, i think now that that everyone knows the plot of psycho as pop culture trivia, it’s impossible to watch psycho the way it was meant to be seen (hitchcock basically changed how movies were shown in theaters so that audiences would see the whole movie from beginning to end and wouldn’t see the plot twist first, for the sake of suspense! now there’s not the same kind of suspense because every single person in the audience knows who the killer is). i think there’s clear foreshadowing and the whole vibe of the motel is creepy, but norman himself, while a bit awkward, i think comes across as endearing and kind but extremely lonely. obviously as certain things are revealed, he gets creepier, but imo the truly bad thing that he does consciously is cover up his “mother’s” crimes but ofc he has to try to protect her. none of what happens in the movie is premeditated or malicious or even intentional on his part. he’s not even a good liar. idk i really think you’re supposed to see his narrative alignment with marion and feel sympathy for how completely trapped he is in his life, while also being scared of him, at first as someone potentially predatory, then as an accomplice to murder, then as a murderer himself. but not until AFTER his conversation with marion!!

[actual-changeling]

-"That funny feeling", Bo Burnham (cover by Phoebe Bridgers)

[codecicle]

"support people! mental health matters!" until someone is even slightly weird or off-putting. yeah sure "mental health matters" you guys can't even handle mild depression

[sweetestcersei]

"'Let them do it, and go away inside.' That was what he'd done, when the Starks had died before him, Lord Rickard cooking in his armor while his son Brandon strangled himself trying to save him."

-jaime lannister, psych MD

[disassociation-culture-is]

dissociation culture is submitting an ask, but you were dissociated during it and when you see it pop up on your feed it's like a huge surprise cus you completely forgot you send it in the first place

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[starryroe]

constant dissociation + ADHD is a crazy combo bc someone will change your life completely and then you dont see or talk to them for twenty days and they will have forever be gone from your mind

[paranoidkid]

I am trying so so hard to think and do things but it’s become increasingly difficult for some reason! (I know the reason)

it just feels really really bad to not have a car. if I didn’t have an emotional attachment to my car I dont think I’d feel this awful, but it feels like I just Lost A Family Member (again) and it’s really making things hard to comprehend.

for reference. my car that I drove was my grandmother’s car first, she bought it and owned it. Recently (a couple years ago) I borrowed it to start driving places without using my parents car, and my grandpa just told me to keep the car (my grandma had really severe dementia and couldn’t drive much less leave the house). cut to November of 2024 and my grandmother dies. it’s very sad. on top of her passing, it feels like we’d been mourning her for years, because she was barely able to remember any of us and could not function on her own. [deaths 1 and 2]

The car was an extension of my grandma, to me, on some level. it was Her Car. so when we got the title transferred to me, that was already one step away from it no longer being Her Car. and I’ve been working so so hard to keep that car going for as long as possible; it had a lot of shit wrong with it but I was just glad that It Drove and Had Air Conditioning. bonus points to the speakers, I loved my car speakers. [death 3]

Cut to today, someone blows through a red light in front of me, trying to pass through an intersection, and totals my car. everything about the situation is cut and dry, I am not at fault and nobody is seriously injured. but my car is gone. [death 4]

I’ve spent the entire day having arguments with my manager and a very long panic attack and being at the ER because I panicked so bad I thought I had a concussion (I didn’t hit my head and I was just extremely disoriented). I’ve forgotten how easy it is for me to have a severe response to something that wasn’t “that bad” all things considered. my life has not changed significantly, I am not injured, I got all of my things, my car is totaled, my grandma is dead. I’m really having rough time today.

[sonnerly]

Something I thought about after last night’s episode: the real life Flight 571 crash-- or, how normal people behave re: survival cannibalism. screenshots from the Wikipedia section titled “Cannibalism”

[endersdead]

white knuckling this bipolar episode trying to stay so cool and nice

[ratatatastic]

i will never get over mikksy existing and ekky going "how about mikksys game? right? mikksys so good" to luosty because the only person whod really understand is fellow finn and also man with a dubious relationship with mikksy and then just proceeds to bap him on the head first after a win