#stop existing

[squarewolf77]

In a terrible fucking place right now. Like fucking want to cease existing. Can't keep dealing whit this shit. I have today. I hate the fucking medical and insurance racket. I hate my work rn. want to stop hating myself. Just fucking done. This year has been a lesson in just how much the setbacks never end.

[mythostv]

Just caught up on the last two Lore Olympus episodes and gods damn Ap*llo is so gross and uncomfortable I wanna light him on fire

[sillygoofyqueer]

See, I used to think that I didn't find any fictional men attractive because 'why would I do that?' but then Nanami and He Xuan decided to come and fuck over my perceptions on life and all I can say in response to their existence is a big fuck you guys.

[dearjeonnn]

I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!!!

i want to stop being plagued by worry and anxiety and memories and fear I WANT TO LET GO!!! this world is so wide and so vast i have so much to do, so much to see, i’m overwhelmed with experiences i have yet to have. i want to make memories with people i love and forget the painful times of my past. i want to be confident enough of myself to forgive those who hurt me and those who have yet to. i want to stop existing and start LIVING. i want to be so incredibly in love with being alive that i never return to my self destructive ways. i want to be kind. so incredibly kind that it radiates off of me and inspires people to be their best selves. i want to mean something to someone. I WANT TO MEAN SOMETHING TO MYSELF! I WANT TO LOVE MYSELF! I AM SO YOUNG AND I HAVE SO MUCH TIME! I CAN LEARN TO LIVE!!!!!

[opaleni]

Everything falling apart

[iseefireke]

NO

I can't. I'm just fucking done with everything. I want to crawl out of my own skin and into oblivion. Just end my miserable existence

[saint-augustines-pears]

If I was in a horror movie I would use my patented Die On The Spot method to avoid getting killed by the monster

[miraclemaya]

delta green scenario, or some other weird horror game, where you are sent in to investigate the mysterious disappearance of some famed writer that is believed to have ties with idk a nyarlathotep cult or something or other, but upon searching their estate, there is no evidence and it seems as if they jsut simply disappeared while working at their desk. a successful search roll reveals a piece of paper that when read makes you do a maybe a Pow roll or a Int roll. on failure, your agent ceases to exist and pops out of reality. on a success, you realize the paper was likely the last thing the writer wrote before seemingly popping out of existence.

[ratnix]

My ancestors have unleashed their curse on me (I have a red pimple on my nose)

[problemnyatic]

when will we talk about the willful helplessness epidemic on here. So many people on this god forsaken website demand to have any and all things that exist outside their personal experiences directly, personally pre-chewed and spoonfed to them. And when you do, they'll then ask for you to swallow for them, too, because, you see, in THEIR experience..,

[tomi4i]

[strikingamatch]

oh

they're

gone

that's

fine

[emeryleewho]

People on here are always like "fuck capitalism, why can't things be weird anymore" and then write up a whole dissertation about how the biggest IPs need to change to be weirder.

Like, you are so close. You are so close to getting the point. "Big" IPs *can only exist because they are normal*. They will *never* be weird. They will *never* do what you want. Go find some smaller IPs. Bring back discovery. Bring back never having heard of a book before you buy it. Bring back watching obscure anime online that none of your friends know about. Bring back trying new things, even if they're bad or cheaply made. That is how you get *weird*.

[lokislittlesigyn]

// personal, vent

Life has felt very, very lonely lately. I’m grateful to my friends, but the deep and chronic stress I’m experiencing is taking a serious toll on my physical and mental health.

I wish I knew how best to get relief.

[renthony]

Your personal triggers and squicks do not get to determine what kind of art other people make.

People make shit. It's what we do. We make shit to explore, to inspire, to explain, to understand, but also to cope, to process, to educate, to warn, to go, "hey, wouldn't that be fucked up? Wild, right?"

Yes, sure, there are things that should be handled with care if they are used at all. But plenty more things are subjective. Some things are just not going to be to your tastes. So go find something that is to your tastes and stop worrying so much about what other people are doing and trying to dictate universal moral precepts about art based on your personal triggers and squicks.

I find possession stories super fucking triggering if I encounter them without warning, especially if they function as a sexual abuse metaphor. I'm not over here campaigning for every horror artist to stop writing possession stories because they make me feel shaky and dissociated. I just check Does The Dog Die before watching certain genres, and I have my husband or roommate preview anything I think might upset me so they can give me more detail. And if I genuinely don't think I can't handle it, I don't watch it. It's that simple.

[flagellant]

yeah we might be brothers in christ but so were cain and abel so shut the fuck up before i decide to find a rock about it